It's just a little crush
Chapter three
Lexa rolled over in bed and immediately felt her head throbbing. The light coming through her thin curtains was blinding and she cursed herself for drinking too much last night. Thankful for thinking ahead and bringing a glass of water to bed with her last night, she lifted the glass from the nightstand and had a few gentle sips. She saw her phone notification light flashing and decided to check and see what it was. Probably just an email or facebook notification she thought. She was very surprised to see that she had an unread message from Clarke.
Clarke: Good morning Lexa, hope you aren't too hungover this morning :)
This made Lexa smile, knowing Clarke had thought about her and took the time to text her. She wondered if Clarke was feeling the effects of last night, as she knew that she had drunk significantly more than she had herself.
Lexa: Morning Clarke, my head is pounding. How are you feeling? She replied and went to the kitchen to get herself a coffee and find something to eat.
Clarke: Pretty rough, but Raven has just brought me through a chocolate croissant so I can't complain too much.
Lexa: I am so jealous! We have nothing to eat here except bread :(
Clarke: I would say you could come join us and have one but I look pretty rough this morning!
Lexa: I'm sure you look beautiful, but I can't have breakfast with you before we have even had a date haha!
Clarke: Maybe one day we will have breakfast together... ;)
Lexa: You never know. Are you free any evening next week to go out?
Clarke: As in on a date?
Clarke: Because the answer is totally yes.
Clarke: Wednesday works for me. Should we meet at Grounders? Say 7pm?
Lexa: It's a date. See you then :)
Lexa smiled reading back through the text conversation with Clarke. She was so excited for their date on Wednesday, but also nervous too. She wanted to make a good impression on Clarke. It would be nice for them both to spend time alone and get to know each other more. Lexa was afraid of having her heart broken though, her last relationship ended badly, although looking back it wasn't really a relationship. Costia had used her as an experiment to try work out her sexuality, but Lexa had developed feelings for her. They had only ever kissed, and Lexa wanted to take the relationship to the next level when she finally felt ready three months later. Then Costia had told her what she had been doing the whole time, and that she would never sleep with Lexa and felt nothing towards her and that Lexa was pathetic for thinking she ever would. It had truly broken Lexa, and she hadn't dated or opened her heart to anyone since, for fear of having it broken again. If she was going to let her walls down again and let someone in she needed to know that they weren't using her as part of a game and would protect her heart. Which is why she wanted to take things slow with Clarke and thought a date was the perfect first step.
Clarke had told Raven that she was going on a date with Lexa, so Raven asked her colleague on Wednesday afternoon if she was excited. Knowing full well that it was all Clarke had been going on about since Sunday. Lexa agreed that she was also excited and asked if she minded that she was going on a date with her friend. Raven assured her that she was more than happy for them both, and that out of anyone Clarke could go on a date with, she was happy that it was Lexa. This made Lexa happy to know that Raven approved, she wouldn't want to annoy someone that she has to work with everyday. She definitely saw Raven as a friend now though and not just someone she worked with. The girls seemed to have a lot in common and just got on really well.
Eventually it was time for them both to leave and Lexa eagerly made her way down to meet Anya and go home to get ready for her date. They had to drop Raven at the hospital as Clarke hadn't been able to leave yet. Lexa just hoped she would finish in time to meet her at seven. They said goodbye to Raven and made their way home so Lexa could shower and start to get ready.
She chose a black dress and layered it with a peach coloured applied her makeup and found her clutch purse and put on her heels. She was just about to leave when she heard her phone buzz; she opened the message and saw it was Clarke, her heart dropped as she was worried she would have to cancel. Nervously she read the message.
Clarke: I'm so sorry I will be about 10 minutes late, I didn't get out of work that long ago but I will be as quick as I can I promise.
Lexa let out a sigh of relief that Clarke wasn't cancelling and replied.
Lexa: That's ok, take your time. I will get us a table and meet you inside :)
She decided to leave then so she could walk leisurely to the restaurant. The weather was warm this evening so it would be a pleasant walk. She walked past a florist on her way and decided to get Clarke a small bouquet of flowers. She chose a shade of blue that matched the girl's eyes and started on the rest of her walk.
Lexa arrived at the restaurant and was seated at a table for two. It had three candles in the middle, and really set the mood and made the table look really beautiful. Lexa loved candles and had told Lincoln he needed to put them on the tables which he had agreed to, saying it would make the place look classy. After around ten minutes of waiting Lexa was greeted by her beautiful date. She couldn't believe the sight in front of her, Clarke was wearing a beautiful white summer dress that had short lace sleeves; her hair was styled in light curls with two strands from either side twisted round the back of her head. Her makeup was perfect and she had the lightest shade of pink lipstick on that really made her lips stand out.
Lexa stood up and gave Clarke a hug and handed the flowers to her, she pulled Clarkes chair back for her and told her to sit down before making her way back to her seat opposite. The girls both ordered drinks and their food and got to know each other a little better. Clarke asked Lexa about her life and Lexa asked Clarke about hers in return. They spoke about their childhoods, and when Lexa said her parents had died and that she was adopted, she saw the colour drain from Clarkes face and tears well up in her eyes.
"Are you ok Clarke?" Lexa asked with concern. Clarke looked down at the table for a few minutes before taking a deep breath and looking Lexa in the eyes. Even though she was upset, Lexa couldn't believe how breathtaking Clarke looked. The candle light really made her look so flawless and made Lexa's stomach flip at the sight.
"I'm sorry, it's just that when you said about your parents dying, it brought up some hard emotions for me" Clarke replied, a single tear falling down her face.
Lexa reached over and took Clarke's hand, Clarke smiled and held Lexa's hand back, rubbing her thumb along the brunettes hand as she spoke "I'm sorry Clarke; I didn't mean to upset you. Do you want to talk about it?"
Clarke wiped away her tear with her free hand and looked into Lexa's eyes, "My dad died six months ago, he was in a car accident. He actually had Raven in the car with him; they were going to the store for medicine as I was sick. That's how she injured her leg. It was icy and the car hit some black ice and swerved so much that it flipped over three times. Thank god that Raven was ok other than her leg, but my dad died instantly" she said with a shake in her voice.
This broke Lexa's heart. She knew how it felt to have a parent die, and the fact it was so recent for Clarke really amazed her that she was able to even function so well. Lexa squeezed Clarkes hand gently and gave her a reassuring smile "I understand Clarke. I really do. Anya and I's parents died in a car accident too. We were on the way to the movies and we got hit by a lorry head on. It completely crushed the front of the car, breaking both my arms in the process. Anya was completely unharmed, and at first we thought our parents were going to be ok. But my mom died in the ambulance and my dad died two days later from internal injuries" she replied, her own tears falling from her face.
Clarke leant over and wiped them with her hand. "You are so strong Lexa; I can't imagine losing both parents. One was hard enough" she replied.
The girls sat in silence for a few minutes, but it wasn't awkward at all, they both communicated through smiles and the look in their eyes, they didn't need to say anything out loud. Eventually Lexa suggested that they leave and go for a walk in the park nearby. Clarke agreed and they walked holding hands, arriving at the park and sitting on a bench by a beautiful pond. Lexa noticed Clarke looking at her and turned to meet her gaze.
"Are you sure you're ok Clarke?" she asked with sincerity.
"I'm ok Lexa, I just feel bad for ruining our date by getting so deep and making us both cry" She said so quietly that it was almost a whisper.
This really made Lexa sad to hear, Clarke hadn't ruined the date at all. She was having a great time and felt honoured that Clarke had opened up to her and told her about her dad. She knew how hard it can be to talk about it to people you don't know too well. Lexa put her arm around Clarke and brought her closer into a hug, with her free hand she cupped the side of Clarke's face so that she was looking her in the eyes. Clarke smiled and placed a hand over Lexa's, a smile that was filled with sorrow but also gratitude.
"I promise you Clarke, you did not ruin our date. I have enjoyed myself so much and I still am enjoying myself. It's really nice to be in your company. You shouldn't ever apologise for talking about your grief or showing your emotions. You are doing so well, and although we have only known each other a short time, I am so proud of you. " Lexa said to Clarke reassuringly.
Lexa saw Clarke's eyes move from her own eyes, to her lips and back to her eyes again. Lexa didn't want to overstep the mark so didn't make the first move, she knew Clarke was upset and didn't want to feel like she was taking advantage of her sadness or misjudge the situation. She didn't have long to ponder for long though when she felt Clarkes lips connect with her own. Turning her body to face Clarke, she kissed her back briefly before breaking the kiss.
"Are you sure Clarke?" she asked her.
"I'm sure Lexa, I have wanted to kiss you since I met you, and the way you have treated me this evening only ignited the want even more. It's not every day you meet someone who is not only beautiful, but smart, and can put up with a crying mess on a first date " Clarke replied with a smile.
This really made Lexa laugh and she brought Clarke closer into a tight hug for a few moments before breaking the hug and closing the distance between their lips. This kiss was slow and tender, explorative and full of mutual understanding and appreciation. Lexa wanted to keep kissing Clarke longer and desperately wanted to deepen the kiss, but she didn't want to move to fast and open herself up too quickly. She broke the kiss and placed a single peck on Clarke's cheek.
"I think it's time to go home Clarke, we both have early starts tomorrow" she said as she looked into her eyes.
"Ugh, don't remind me" She groaned back.
The girls walked back to the street 'Grounders' was on where they would then have to head off in opposite directions. Lexa pulled Clarke into a hug and said goodbye, she was then about to break the hug and make her way home when she heard Clarke whisper in her ear.
"Thank you for a great night Lexa, I can't wait for our next date"
Lexa smiled, she couldn't wait either and hoped that it would be soon. She was happy to hear that Clarke wanted a second date too, as she most certainly did herself.