A/N: Hope u like itso far I added in Alice even though she shouldn't be with the Cullens yet, I felt Rosalie needed someone besides Edward for support and encouragemnet and who better to give this support then Alice. So sorry if its not propery written but Alice helped make this story. (;

Emmett

My pace quickened as I saw home and even more so when I heard the dimpled man's moan, he wouldn't last much longer.

As I made my way to Carlisle's office I ran into Edward as I braced myself for the accusations, the yelling that I was such a hypocrite for putting someone else's life into this hell, or why was I being so selfish he said four simple words that showed no emotion in his voice at all

"His name is Emmett".

I looked up at his face ,beyond surprise for not being scolded, and saw a sad look of understanding. I flinched and walked to Carlisle's operation table, even though Edward meant to help his face just made me feel all the more soulless and greedy for I knew I wasn't going to let "Emmett" die... not completly...

Carlisle walked in and gave me a quizzical look when he saw Emmett on the table,

"You want met change him??"

All I could do was nod and try not to look him directly in the face because I couldn't face the disappointment I knew would be there. He then turned towards Emmett

" I'll change him of course but Rose are you sure..

"Just do it… please"

was all I could squeeze out as I felt my body stiffenand waited for theregret to fill my body.

I couldn't even stay long enough to hear Emmett's new cry of pain as soon as Carlisle's fangs left his neck and I was sure that he had done what I didn't have the self control to do myself I bolted from the room and cowered in the corner of mine finally feeling the full the extent of what I had done.

I mean what was I thinking of course he looked like Vera's Henry but that didn't mean he was like him in personality he was human at lest he used to be .

He had emotions to, sadness, denial, anger, REVENGE...

Oh he would be so mad when he woke up the thoughts put me into complete shut down I couldn't stop the violent shaking that reminded me of how I had died because of Royce.

The repeat was sure to happen I was no stronger then Emmett now that he would soon be a newborn, he wouldn't spare me I was the demon that shoved him into this horrible life.

This is what completely consoled me for about one and a half of the days of Emmett's change .

After the shock and fear started to drain I realized how I was once again being selfish, as a cry of pain echoed though the house I felt the guilt, how could I not realize how selfish I was all the time.

Emmett was suffering because of me I had to go see how he was, but I didn't know if I had the courage to….

At that thought I heard a knock at my door.

"Rose can I come in??" it was Edward

I couldn't say anything, the numb state that had tooken over my body left me speechless.

Apparently he took my silence as a yes because before I knew it he was a few feet away.

"Rose he won't be mad Alice told me so you need to quit taking it out on yourself" his voice was almost a whisper.

Of all the times he read my mind I hated he could read it now most of all.

"I can't help it your mind is really loud" he said this stifling a laugh.

I couldn't help putting forth a small smile he was so annoying sometimes.

"He won't be mad at me at all… how could he not be mad I shouldn't have changed him now he's stuck here" the words almost made me sob.

"No he's a good person all he's thinking about right now is… you actually"….

"He must have saw your face when you saved him cause he's looking forward to seeing his guardian angel."

He was almost laughing as he explained "He thinks you're the most beautiful being he's ever seen"

And then the next words most have been to much for him because they came out between laughs " I'm not sure if he thinks you really exist".

All of this information really confused me, how…..could…..he….

"Just go see him you'll be surprised at what you find"

And when I looked up he was gone.

Edward could be such a pest but…amazingly I was glad he had come to see me he at lest broke me out of my shock.

I was going to go see Emmett, I had to now I had to go see if he really thought I was his angel this thought must have put the biggest smirk on my face I could feel my lips stretching into one of my prettiest smiles.

I must have been in a good mood, Esme looked relieved when I walked down the stairs the smirk still glued to my face.

Alice even gave me a small smile as I walked past here toward where Emmett lay. He looked so peaceful at first I wasn't sure if he was alive.

Maybe I shouldn't have come how could Edward be right of course he would be mad.

I almost bolted back to the safe haven of my room until I heard him wince from pain I quickly rushed over to where he lay and looked into his eyes.

He said four words that would have sent my heart flying if I had one.

" Wow you are real"