This is my story, I'll address it how I want. Fine, but you're only scaring people away. Besides, no one will want to review with that kind of an attitude. I don't care. Sure you don't. That's why you're still posting and checking for reviews. Why don't you do something fun with your readers? When I posted BTA I used to put in quizzes and competitions. How lame. Not as lame as your attitude. Whatever, just introduce the chapter.
Here's chapter three. Enjoy and Thanks.
Chapter 3 - Severing The Ties
December
Rinoa's POV
I was sitting in a lecture room enduring the lecturer drone on about realist and non-realist literature during the nineteenth centaury. I was half listening and half doodling since I had my iPhone out and was recording the lecture with that. I liked this method of note taking, it was easy to day dream and doodle if the topic got boring. Right at that moment it was an advantage as all I was thinking about was the three months Squall and I hadn't been in contact. After the last text I received from him I hadn't been in touch. I guess a part of me was embarrassed and shameful for what I had said and how pathetic I must have seemed to stoop so low just to make myself feel better.
Regardless of my reasons for not contacting him, he hadn't been in touch and, although I should say I wasn't surprised, I was. Squall and I hadn't gone this long without some form of contact. Sure we fell out as friends, had arguments here and there, but it was never this bad. Not so bad that we weren't even keeping ties with each other. I mean, this was ridiculous; how could a simple text keep us apart for so long? It was stupid and didn't equate to how strong our friendship was suppose to be. Yet even though I sat there and thought about the stupidity of our actions, I still didn't make a move to contact him.
Finally, the lecturer ended his long enduring point of Realism in literature and set us an assignment question. I could hear groans around me, but I secretly was happy for the work, it kept me busy and away from any thoughts about Squall.
"I'm going get going now so maybe I'll catch you tomorrow." My friend said to me as she packed her things away.
"Sure no problem." I replied absentmindedly.
"You still thinking about your friend?" She asked smiling at me.
I let out a small smile trying to hide my shyness. I had told her of Squall a couple of times and the reason for my leaving Balamb altogether.
"You should give him a call, I'm sure he's calmed down now and is dying to speak to you." She advised as she got off her seat.
"I doubt it." I couldn't help but be negative.
Squall's POV
"The ancient Centriac language was actually used throughout Centra and certain parts of Galbadia." The lecturer went on as I hurriedly took notes. "Just how most countries use our language as an International language to communicate, ancient Centraic was a custom in the early three hundred BC."
I liked the course I was doing, I enjoyed history a lot. But what didn't like were the early morning lectures such as this one. Here I was at nine thirty in the morning at the start of my lecture, only fifteen minutes in, though it felt like an hour. It was cold in the lecture room, the only thing keeping me warm was the jacket I bought along and the now empty coffee cup which I had just finished clean. It didn't help me that I couldn't write with my gloves on and had to taken them off, but now my fingers felt like icicles as I quickly jotted down each point the lecturer was making.
My phone vibrated in my pocket indicating a text message. I hadn't been in touch with Rinoa for nearly four months yet even now I hastened to check my message just in case it was from her. I was sadly disappointed.
Heading to lecture we're out of milk and bread… and juice and cheese and a couple other your free then head to the market, otherwise I'll go in the evening.
I groaned at the message. Either I had to go through the hassle of walking to the market and shop for all our necessities among the crowds of people, or I stay in the privacy and warmth of my dorm but without any milk for coffee or any food at all. It was a big dilemma, and I spent most of the time in the cold lecture room thinking about what I should do.
Since I had an assignment due in after the winter break, I decided I'd collect my reading books from the library another time. I was still contemplating whether or not to go shopping or just sleep for a bit before my seminar on Myths and Legends in History. I decided to head to my dorm and if I really couldn't go without milk than I'd have to head out.
Back in my dorm I went into my bedroom and turned my radiator on to heat up the room since it felt like the middle of Trabia. I liked living in Balamb but I hated how cold it got in the winter, sometimes it was unbearable and you literally couldn't be bothered to do anything except go into hibernation.
Once I turned on my radiator and got into bed I pulled the covers over me and sat up. Taking my laptop I turned it on and decided to spend the next three hours taking my mind off the cold, Rinoa and the lack of food.
Checking my mail in hope of receiving something from Rinoa I was again disappointed. I couldn't believe we were carrying on like this. We'd been friends since we were ten, now eight years later we were carrying on like kids. It was silly, all over a small crush. We were better than that.
I felt guilty, after my last text she hadn't spoken to me. She must have hated me, I was pretty harsh and over the top with that text. Many times I contemplated to just call her up or send her an email, but I just felt guilty and fearful that she wouldn't pick up or reply. I was certain she blocked me on chat, she was never online.
I decided to watch a couple of things online, just wasting time I guess. It was then that I received an email from her. My heart literally did a somersault in my chest, I totally wasn't expecting that.
Hurriedly, I opened up my message inbox and clicked to see what she had said.
Hey Squall.
How have you been? I've been really busy with uni and with my Dad so haven't had the time to be in contact.
Anyways, maybe we could arrange a time to meet on chat and talk. I miss you guys and wanna know what you guys have been up to.
Take care.
Rinoa.
I smiled at the email. There was hope yet, she wasn't angry with me, she missed me and it sounded as if she just wanted to go back to normal. I didn't bother to question the severity of her busy schedule. If she said she was busy, then I'd believe her.
Smiling I quickly replied back.
Hey Rinoa.
Yeah I'm good I've been busy with Uni too. It's freezing here in Balamb, how's the Deling weather?
Sure we can meet. My last lecture today is at 4pm, I am free after that so I can meet you say about 6pm? That should be 9pm Galbadian time.
Anyways I'll be waiting for you, so see you then.
Lemme know if you can't make it.
Take care,
Squall.
With one relief off my chest I turned off my laptop and grabbed my coat. I guess I didn't mind going to shops after all. Besides, I didn't want anything coming in the way of my appointment with Rinoa, so all necessities would be taken care of now.
Rinoa's POV
I didn't expect Squall to reply straight away, I didn't even know he was online. I had blocked him a couple of weeks back too ashamed to be virtually seen by him. But I guess he somehow checked his mail within the time I had sent it.
Judging by his reply he didn't seem mad at me. He seemed pretty normal, talking about the crap Balamb weather, busy with university etc. I started doubting whether I had been wrong. Maybe if I had stuck around, things would have settled back to normal and I'd be able to deal with my feelings for him. I was starting to think whether I had blow this all out of proportion?
I decided against replying back to his email and saving all contact for our online conversation, I didn't want to rush into anything and say something stupid again.
Happy that things were settling with Squall I decided to head down to see what Zone was up to.
I found him in the study sorting out some files for my Dad.
"Hey Zone, whatcha doing?" I asked walking up to the big oak desk.
"Oh just sorting some stuff out." He blandly replied before sighing. "Sweety, can I be really annoying and ask for a coffee? I'm suffering from caffeine withdrawal."
"No worries." I said and headed back out to the kitchen.
Our chef Celina was sick and her replacement had also fallen under the weather. It was now up to me and Zone to cook for Dad and ourselves and get things done round the house. I had taken on the duty of getting the shopping in since Zone spent most of his time with Dad helping him with his work.
I brewed the coffee and took it into the study with a packet of biscuits I had bought earlier in the day. As I poured the hot steamy coffee I couldn't help but smile as I remembered Squall's email.
"What are you so happy about?" Zone asked looking up at me.
I blushed and stuck my tongue out at him.
"I got an email from Squall, he wants to meet on chat tonight." I told him and unable stop my grin from getting bigger.
"That's good news, I knew you'd make up with your friend." Zone said supportively.
I had eventually told Zone about Squall one night when I was hastily refreshing my inbox page wondering if Squall would send me any emails. I had gotten many from Zell, Selphie and Irvine but none from Squall. Zone had asked me who I was waiting on and I eventually told him about my best friend whom I had confessed my feeling for but didn't reciprocate my feelings. Zone listened and understood as I told him my humiliation and fear of going back knowing Squall knew how I felt but chose to ignored it. Zone was understanding, but had disapproved of my actions saying that running away from Squall wasn't the answer and that I had to face him someday.
"Yeah, I'm excited. We haven't talked in so long." I said more to myself as I drank my hot coffee and watched the steam escape from my cup.
"Well I hope everything goes well and you both make up." He said encouragingly.
"Thanks Zone." I said to him gave him a hug. "You know, if you weren't here, then I'd have been so depressed."
"Aww, I'm sure that's not true. But I'm glad to be of help." He said and plopped a biscuit into my mouth.
I giggled at him and bit into the biscuit as he continued to sort out the pile of papers left in a mess.
"You heading home soon then?" I asked as I just finished my biscuit.
"Yeah, Charlie's making something special since it will be her last proper day off before she heads off to Centra." Zone replied while sipping his coffee.
"You're going to miss her heaps." I said empathetically, I was missing Squall heaps just being away for so long.
"I know, we've only been married two months, I wish she didn't have to go away." He said depressingly.
"Hey absence makes the heart grow fonder." I tried to be reassuring.
"Yeah, but there's another saying. Out of sight, out of mind." He teased and dipped a biscuit into his hot beverage.
I smiled at him but hoped he was wrong. Sure Squall and I hadn't talked or seen each other for a while, but he was never out of my mind. I thought about him constantly and some nights even lay awake wondering what he was up to. Some nights, though I wouldn't shamefully admit, I'd cry myself just thinking about how much I missed him and how badly I wanted to be in his arms.
I hoped Squall thought about me, I hoped he wondered what I was up to and missed me as much as I missed him.
Nine o'clock on the dot and I signed into chat. A second later and Squall's name popped up with a message. I breathed, my heart racing quickly hoping that everything would be normal, hoping Squall was still my best friend.
Squall41269: Hey
Rinoa0303: Hi
Squall41269: What's up?
Rinoa0303: Nothing much, just ate dinner with Dad and my uncle. You?
Squall41269: Cool. I'm eating dinner now.
Rinoa0303: Watcha eating?
Squall41269: Lamb curry with rice.
Rinoa0303: Mmm, I just had Sheppard's pie. The Chef is ill so I had to make it myself.
Squall41269: You have a Chef? Since when?
Rinoa0303: Well since Dad fell ill and they didn't tell me! Dad got someone to come and take care of him, she basically does everything for him, well everything except his Gov. work.
Squall41269: Oh right. So that's what your uncle is there for right?
Rinoa0303: Yeah.
Squall41269: Cool.
Rinoa0303: So, how's your mum?
Squall41269: She's cool, missing me a lot. House is pretty quiet without us all. But she keeps herself busy at the hospital.
Rinoa0303: Ellone still in Esthar?
Squall41269: Yeah she's starting a Masters now.
Rinoa0303: Cool. Aww your Mum must be bored then with your Dad and Ellone in Esthar. She should just go over there too.
Squall41269: I suggested that, but she doesn't want leave me in the country by myself.
Rinoa0303: That's understandable, you're the youngest.
Squall41269: What about you? Your mum must be missing you.
Rinoa0303: Yeah, but apparently Balamb's property rates are booming and she doesn't want to leave yet. I think if I remain in Deling longer then she'll contemplate moving over here and have someone take care of the business.
Squall41269: And are you going to stay in Deling longer?
Rinoa0303: Well, I have to finish my degree.
Squall41269: What about after that?
Rinoa0303: We'll see what happens. My Dad won't be coming to Balamb and I don't want to leave him when he's still recovering.
Squall41269: I understand. Give him my best.
Rinoa0303: Will do.
Squall41269: So how's your lectures and your course in general?
Rinoa0303: Alright, it's a bit boring when we study some topics but overall its ok.
Squall41269: Same with mine, I hate the Literature lectures though, I just prefer to study the history ones.
Rinoa0303: I don't know how you do it, I couldn't never pick history out of all the subjects to study as a career choice.
Squall41269: Lol, I enjoy learning about past events, lets you make better decisions about the future.
Rinoa0303: Or dictate better decisions about the future. Even in this day and age, I still see the world leaders make the same mistakes the past rules did.
Squall41269: Well, history does have a tendency to repeat itself.
Squall41269: So, how's everything?
Rinoa0303: Ok. How's the gang?
Squall41269: Cool, they getting on well.
Rinoa0303: Good good.
Squall41269: How you enjoying uni life?
Rinoa0303: Its alright, I've been invited to a couple of parties but I hardly go what with my Dad and all. Besides its always with people I don't even know. The last party I went to was a birthday party at one of my friends.
Squall41269: Cool.
Rinoa0303: How's it for you?
Squall41269: Parties = people. Not my scene.
Rinoa0303: Never was, :P
Squall41269: I guess not.
Rinoa0303: …
Squall41269: … So, you thinking of coming down to Balamb for the winter break?
Rinoa0303: Erm, no I think I'm going to stay here.
Squall41269: Would be good to see you.
Rinoa0303: Yeah I wish I could come but you know my Dad isn't well. You can always come to Deling.
Squall41269: Yeah I guess.
Rinoa0303: Sorry.
Squall41269: Don't be, we'll see each other soon.
Rinoa0303: :)
Squall41269: :)
Rinoa0303: I'll be honest, I didn't think you wanted to see me.
Squall41269: Lol, why's that?
Rinoa0303: Well, after your last text I thought you were angry with me.
Squall41269: What? I thought you were angry with me.
Rinoa0303: Why would I be angry?
Squall41269: I don't know, you didn't reply to me after that.
Rinoa0303: I was embarrassed for overreacting.
Squall41269: Lol, so you mean we didn't contact each other because we thought the other was angry?
Rinoa0303: Lol, I guess so.
Squall41269: Well, I'm glad we're talking now.
Rinoa0303: Me too :D
Squall41269: So other than uni what's new with you?
Rinoa0303: Er, well not much. I went to a wedding a couple of months ago. I got to play bridesmaid. :P
Squall41269: You? Bridesmaid? You've come a long way since wearing Zell's pants.
Rinoa0303: Oh be quiet. What about you?
Squall41269: Nothing really. Elle came down a couple of weeks ago with Dad.
Rinoa0303: Cool.
Squall41269: Uhuh.
Rinoa0303: … You know there was like shed loads of things I wanted to say when we weren't talking and now I'm racking my brains trying to remember.
Squall41269: It will come to you ;)
Rinoa0303: Oh I'm training!
Squall41269: Training?
Rinoa0303: Yup, I found some abs workout video on the net. My stomach is really toned now.
Squall41269: Cool. I still manage to get my training done in between Uni. Sharing a room with Zell comes in handy.
Rinoa0303: Oh how is it sharing with Zell? Must be tones of fun.
Squall41269: Yeah…
Rinoa0303: What?
Squall41269: Let's just say Zell isn't the best of people to live with when you like things a certain way.
Rinoa0303: Lol, why?
Squall41269: Where do I start? He's very clean when it comes to his own room, and he's pretty private about his room too. I don't even know what the colour of his walls are and I've been here four months!
Rinoa0303: Lol.
Squall41269: But he'll just barge into my room when he wants something and sit on my desk or start doing press-ups on my floor when I'm trying to do work.
Squall41269: Food is always a shortage and he hardly does the shopping unless there is literally nothing and I'm stoic on not leaving the dorms.
Rinoa0303: Aww lol. Tough cookie.
Squall41269: It is indeed. :(
Rinoa0303: Cheer up, it could be worse. You could be living with Irvine :P
Squall41269: True that! What about you?
Rinoa0303: Well thank GOD! I don't live in dorms. Living with Dad is exactly like living with Mum.
Squall41269: So what are the people like at Uni?
Rinoa0303: Hmm… well you do get all sorts. Like there's the usual students that spend way too much time at parties and events and hardly show up for lectures. They're kinda enjoying Uni life a bit too much. Then there is the group that are constantly in the library twenty-four seven.
Squall41269: Hmm, I'm a bit like them -.-
Rinoa0303: More than you! In fact I have a friend who practically lives in our library.
Squall41269: Lol.
Rinoa0303: What about you then?
Squall41269: Same, but not as wild as how you're describing it. But then again, Balamb isn't really a party going place.
Rinoa0303: Aww poor Squall, not get many invites to parties?
Squall41269: I get plenty, I just don't go. What about you, princess?
Rinoa0303: The princess has a strict schedule. After Uni I come straight home. But I too have been invited to a couple of parties but they're mainly held in the dorm rooms where the hygiene levels are below acceptable for my standards.
Squall41269: Hmm. Same, most of the parties I hear going on take place in the dorm rooms.
Rinoa0303: Some students do go down to the Students' Bar now that everyone here has reached the legal age limit.
Squall41269: Bar? Pfft. That means alcohol. The only time I deal with that is when I'm turning it into an ester in the chem. lab. :P
Rinoa0303: Oh are you taking chemistry as a module?
Squall41269: Yeah, I have an exam next week.
Rinoa0303: Hope you do well. I have assignments due left, right and centre.
Squall41269: No change there then? :)
Rinoa0303: Nope :)
Squall41269: I seriously missed you so much.
Rinoa0303: Aww I missed you too.
Squall41269: Its been so weird without you, and I was getting scared that you wouldn't get over your crush and I'd lose you.
Rinoa0303: Crush?
Squall41269: Yeah, like all that stuff that you said, I thought that was the end of our friendship. I was praying so much that you'd realise it was just a crush and we'd go back to normal.
Squall41269: I was so psyched when I got your message today, I was like Finally! My friend is back.
Rinoa0303: Back?
Squall41269: Yeah, like your feelings are normal again and we can go back to the way things were before.
Rinoa0303: …
Squall41269: You've gone quiet. Are you ok?
Rinoa0303: Squall, my feelings were normal to begin with. I never stopped being your friend and I didn't want my feelings to get in the way of our friendship.
Squall41269: Ok.
Rinoa0303: I don't think it was my feelings that did get in the way of our friendship. It wasn't my feelings that caused us to stop talking. It was your reaction to my feelings.
Squall41269: My reaction?
Rinoa0303: Yes.
Squall41269: So its my fault that we're thousands of miles across the sea from each other?
Squall41269: It was me who left?
Rinoa0303: I didn't say that. I'm saying you reacted negatively and…
Squall41269: And…?
Rinoa0303: And I had to get away to clear my head.
Squall41269: I didn't react negatively. I reacted honestly.
Rinoa0303: Whatever.
Squall41269: Look, you're hurt, I understand. But pretty soon you'll realise that its just a crush and get over it.
Rinoa0303: Crush? You think this is just some crush?
Squall41269: Of course it is, we've been friends for so long, you're just a little confused.
Rinoa0303: Squall you don't feel the same way but don't insult me! I know how I feel I can tell the difference between a crush and love.
Squall41269: Love? Rinoa…
Rinoa0303: …
Rinoa0303: What?
Squall41269: Don't talk ahead of what you don't know.
Rinoa0303: Squall don't tell me how I'm feeling! You don't like how I feel about you I know that, but don't dictate to me and try and rationalise what I feel about you.
Squall41269: I'm not. But leaving the country was a bit over the top. I'm sure if you come back you'll realise that it was nothing.
Rinoa0303: I didn't leave the country for you.
Squall41269: Really? So it wasn't some attempt to make me feel guilty?
Rinoa0303: Why would I do that!
Squall41269: To make me feel guilty for not feeling the same way, you were trying to guilt trip me.
Rinoa0303: You are crazy!
Squall41269: Am I? It wasn't just some trick. If I don't have you as a girlfriend than I can't have you at all?
Rinoa0303: OMG, you sound so self-centred and conceited. I left for a holiday. I remained because of my Dad.
Squall41269: Rinoa I can't change the way I feel about you.
Rinoa0303: I'm not asking you to!
Squall41269: Well stop making me feel guilty about it.
Rinoa0303: HOW AM I POSSIBLY DOING THAT FROM HERE? YOU FEEL GUILTY FOR YOUR OWN REASONS.
Squall41269: Alright enough with the caps.
Rinoa0303: Shut up.
Squall41269: Don't get rude.
Rinoa0303: You were rude first.
Squall41269: I wasn't being rude, I was simply stating the truth and FYI I don't have any reason to be guilty. I only felt sorry for you.
Rinoa0303: Well I don't need your pity.
Squall41269: That's not what I meant.
Rinoa0303: I don't care, I don't even know what I was thinking talking to you again.
Squall41269: Oh great, now you're going to overreact and stop talking again.
Rinoa0303: Overreact? How am I suppose to react when you talk to me so degradingly?
Squall41269: How is not feeling the same way degrading? I cant make myself like you like that! My education is important, why can't you understand that?
Rinoa0303: I do! But my life in Deling is just as important so don't make me feel guilty for leaving Balamb.
Squall41269: I'm not, I just invited you back to see you again. That's what friends do.
Rinoa0303: Yeah, well friends also comfort one another when they're going through uneasy times, so far I haven't seen that from you. I haven't had one call from you since I've been here.
Squall41269: I texted you.
Rinoa0303: Big deal, a couple of lousy texts to keep tabs on me.
Squall41269: Tabs? Don't flatter yourself.
Rinoa0303: Whatever. This was a mistake.
Squall41269: I guess it was.
Rinoa0303: I'm done. Goodbye Squall.
Squall41269: Whatever.
Rinoa0303 has signed out.
Squall41269: Wait…
Squall's POV
I put my head in my hands and sighed. It didn't go according to what I planned. It didn't end up with us both laughing at our foolishness and promising to see each other during winter. Somehow a nice conversation had ended up spiralling with us breaking up… again.
Was that it? Had Rinoa and my relationship reached it's tether? Was it near expiration and we just had to deal with it? It seemed nothing would ever bring us back together. We couldn't even have a decent conversation without one of us getting offended.
I scrolled up to read exactly what I had said to get her mad at me. I didn't realise calling her feelings a crush was so insulting. But what else was it? We had never been romantically involved, so how could she call it love? Nor was it infatuation since we'd been friends since we were young. I slept next to this girl, broke bread with her, lent her my trousers at one point, how could she feel anything more than sibling love for me? It didn't make sense. She couldn't love me, it was just confusion. Neither of us had dated and spent most of our teenage years together. She was just projecting her feelings onto me because there wasn't anyone else. That had to be it.
There was just no way there was love between us.
Deciding not to let things die out like last time I decided I'd email her to apologise.
Rinoa
I feel really bad and I'm really sorry for what I said. I didn't mean to insult you and make nothing of your feelings. I'm sorry I don't feel the same way, I wish I did because you're a good friend, pretty, smart, and fun to be around. I love talking to you and don't want to lose my friendship with you. I need you in my life and I don't want a silly argument to break away an eight year friendship.
I'm so sorry, please forgive me?
Rinoa's POV
I was sitting in the bathroom sitting on the side of the bathtub drying my eyes. I had been crying in here since I signed off yelling at myself in my head for my need to talk to him.
I shouldn't have listened to my friend and contacted him, I should have just let him be and went on with my life.
How dare he? Calling my feelings a confusion and a crush? Did he not respect me enough to accuse me of these preteen feelings? Did he really think my feelings were that insincere?
I hated him. But I hated him more because I still loved him. Even right here sitting on the bathtub crying my eyes out, I desired nothing more than Squall to hold me in his arms and brush down my hair and tell me not to worry; that everything would fix itself.
Instead I was alone, desiring and hating my best friend and hating myself more for falling for him.
I huffed and looked at my tear-stained puffy-eyed face in the mirror. When did things get so hard? Why did I like him so much? Why couldn't I fall for someone else? Someone who was interested in me and didn't see me as just a younger sister. Which was pretty stupid since I was five months older than Squall.
Why'd I have to like him? Why couldn't I move on? I know I was being over the top, but I had a sickening feeling in my gut that I would never get over him. That Squall would be the love of my life and I'd never get him. Doomed to remain alone and loveless for the rest of my life.
I woke up early the next morning since I had a nine o'clock lecture. After my shower and dressing myself I headed to the kitchen and started making breakfast as Zone showered and got ready.
I took some eggs out of the fridge and made some omelettes adding in mushrooms and onions along with some bell peppers to give it extra flavour. I made some toast and quickly cut up different selections of fruit into a salad.
By then Zone had come down and started brewing the coffee. Dad followed in slowly newly walking on his crutches, he was getting used to them now.
I set the table and started plating up the food handing Dad a plate of omelette and toast and serving him a bowl of fruit salad.
I went to check my mail before I headed to Uni and I felt a wave of anxiety as soon as I saw Squall's email. I read it carefully three or four times before I let myself analyse it.
So he was sorry and didn't want to lose the friendship that we had? He wished he felt the same way but he didn't?
There were only two things I could do now. Either ignore my feelings and go on like normal and hope I would fall for someone else. Or try and get on with my life without Squall, forget him and my feelings and live life for myself. I knew that if I chose the former I'd be living the rest of my life in hope of him changing his feelings, never knowing if he ever would.
Somehow I was tired and knew I was making the biggest decision of my life. If I chose to ignore Squall I'd lose him forever. I'd probably never see him again, or want to see him again. Things would never go back to the way they were and I would lose out on everything that we could possibly have.
But even with these thoughts in my head, a part of me, the tired and despairing self, clicked the delete button. If I was to go on with my life without Squall, I'd have to lose him completely. And that meant starting from today.
Niq they've finished reading, are you sure you don't want to say bye? God, she's gone and locked herself in the bathroom. Anyways, this is just getting so depressing. So I'll set a little challenge.
Erm, what do the numbers 41269 and 0303 represent? I'd love to award you guys, but this isn't my fic and I doubt FIE-Niq will reward you with anything, she's kinda possessive when it comes to this story.
See ya next update. :)