Don't Hate Me

Disclaimer: I own nothing!!!!!!! *tear tear*

A/N: Sooooo. . . . I owe all of you an explanation. You see, I was doing my grade 12 play up until Saturday, so I was at my school 'til 10 almost every night. And I live an hour away from the school. BUT now that hell is over so I HAVE TIME TO WRITE AGAIN!!!!! YAY!!!!!!

P.S.- This chapter has mentions of rape, and the next one will have details. BE WARNED!!!!!!!

Chapter 3

Arizona sighed, placing her head in her hands. Three weeks had gone by since Callie had stormed out of her apartment. Three weeks since Arizona had packed up all of her things from Callie's apartment and moved back into her own with her daughter and her daughter's girlfriend. Arizona was enjoying how much time she was getting to spend with the girls, but seeing the love that Andie and Brooke shared, caused Arizona's heart to ache for her girlfriend – ex-girlfriend?

Now she sat at a table alone in the cafeteria, watching as Callie, Mark, Cristina, Lexie, Meredith, Derek, and Alex crammed themselves around their own table. They were sitting four tables away from her, just outside of earshot with what seemed to be a very serious tension amongst the group.

'Yeah, a tension that I caused,' Arizona sulked.

"Hey Broody! Can we sit here?" Arizona looked up to see Owen and Teddy standing above her, trays in their hands.

"Sure," Arizona sighed, "It's not like anyone else wants to sit with me."

Owen and Teddy exchanged a worried glance, "Zona," Owen said, "It's not that they don't want to sit with you; it's just that Callie is hurt, confused and angry and so are they. They are sitting with her because they understand what she's feeling and they believe that they can help her get passed it."

Arizona ran her hands through her hair, "She shouldn't have to feel hurt, confused or angry! If I had just told her the truth, even if it wasn't the whole truth, she wouldn't hate me right now. Callio- Callie wouldn't be feeling betrayed."

Owen leaned over and grabbed the blonde's shoulders, "Arizona Robbins! You and I both know that you wouldn't have been ready to tell her. And she damn well wouldn't have been ready to hear it! Arizona, you lived through an extremely traumatic experience and, in my opinion, because you know how devastating even the thought of the situation was and still is for your family, your heart would have overruled your head and caused you to lie to her anyways."

After Callie and Arizona's question-marked breakup, the two surgeons had taken extra time to make sure that Arizona was all right. On a particularly hard night, Arizona (and a couple beers) had confessed a very well hidden secret to her two friends. Though the pair had been shocked and anguished by the usually bubbly surgeon revelation, they had taken it in stride, having a greater understanding of Arizona's side of the story. They had also taken the time to get to know Andie; the younger Robbins woman was a great deal like her mother.

Andie was a happy-go-lucky individual, who, surprisingly enough, had a sarcastic sense of humor. She was extremely intelligent, with an IQ of 176 and an eidetic memory. After skipping four grades, Andie was teased when she was younger because of her genius-like tendencies, so she taught herself how to act like the other kids her age. This act usually worked out well for her, though she sometimes unintentionally spout off random facts, which would ruin her image of being a normal girl. Brooke had initially found this highly amusing, so she instantly took to calling her, "The Real life 'Dr. Reid'" as a joke. Owen and Teddy always looked forward to seeing Andie; the twenty year old could make anyone feel comfortable and loved, a trait she seemed to share with her mother. The surgeons really hoped that one day everyone else would be able to see how awesome Andie was, too.

Teddy continued from where he left off, "We are not saying it will be easier for you to say or for her to hear now that half of the cat is out of the bag, but the explanation will be a burden lifted off of your shoulders," Teddy looked at the distraught woman, " You need to tell her now. If you still can't tell Callie even now that she knows about Andie, he has won. Zona, every day you fight to ensure that he doesn't beat you, that his essence doesn't haunt you. Tell Callie the truth, do not let that bastard win."

"You're right," Arizona said, "I should just wait for her after work, sit her down and tell her everything. I don't think I can wait any longer."

The three Attendings glanced over to where their friends were sitting. Instead of meeting the backs of their heads, the surgeons found each and every face glaring in their direction. The moment the group noticed that they had been caught; they quickly turned around and started whispering to one another, occasionally throwing a glance or two over their shoulders.

"Wow, Poppy I didn't realize you worked with a bunch of high school girls," a voice said from behind the trio.

Arizona, Owen and Teddy turned to find an attractive man standing behind Arizona's chair. He was pretty tall and very buff, with broad shoulders and large muscular biceps. His short blond hair was sticking up tastefully away from his face, drawing more attention to his stunning blue eyes and . . . dimples.

"Phoenix!" Arizona cried as she launched herself at the man.

The newcomer scooped Arizona up and twirled her around a couple times before placing her back on the ground and kissing her forehead.

"Hey guys," Arizona said to Owen and Teddy, "This is my twin brother Phoenix. Red, this is Owen Hunt and Teddy Altman. We work together."

Owen and Teddy got up to shake hands with Phoenix. While they were shaking hands, Teddy asked, "Zona did you just call him 'Red'?"

The twins chuckled slightly, "Yes I did, and he called me Poppy. They are nicknames we gave each other when we were little."

Phoenix added, "Besides, Poppy is Ari's middle name."

"Does that mean that your middle name is Red?" Owen asked, trying desperately not to laugh.

"Nope, but I refuse to tell you what it is out of fear of extreme embarrassment," Phoenix replied, causing the entire group to laugh.

"So Phoenix, what are you doing here?" Arizona knew her brother must have had a legitimate reason for coming to visit her at the hospital.

"The boys and I were planning a surprise 65th birthday party for Dad," the surgeon's twin explained, "I would have gone to your house later tonight to tell you, but ever since you and your girlfriend have been on the outs, Montana and Dakota have been lurking at your house, and we all know they can't keep secrets. So I thought I'd swing by here and tell you."

Teddy leaned over to Owen and whispered, "Montana and Dakota?"

"Our older sisters," Arizona explained.

"Ah . . ." Owen said, "Montana, Dakota, Phoenix and Arizona? That is terribly unfortunate."

The twins glanced at each other before Phoenix spoke, "Actually it would be: Montana, Dakota, Jackson, Orlando, Dallas, Austin, then myself and Arizona."

"Yeesh!" Teddy replied to Phoenix's admission, "So you two are the youngest of-" the woman did a quick count, "Eight?!?!?"

Arizona grinned for the first time in three weeks, "Yup! We're all really tight, too!"

Owen visibly shuddered, "Big surprise there. You would have to be close if you all have city and state names!"

They all laughed again as they started to pack up their lunch. In the span of five minutes, Owen and Teddy had found that the Robbins twins (the ones they had met so far) were wonderfully vibrant people. They were the stereotypical twins who looked and acted so very alike, as though their brains ran on the same wavelength. The twin powers they were portraying were a mixture between amusing, fascinating and creepy.

But not everyone was finding Arizona and Phoenix's interaction so riveting.

* * * * *

Across the cafeteria, the air had taken on a different feeling.

Calliope Torres was pissed off. Callie had been circuiting through three emotions since that kid had appeared three weeks ago.

Confusion was always the easiest for everyone (aka Mark and Cristina) to deal with. Why didn't Arizona tell me the truth? How could she possibly have a twenty-year-old daughter? Is there anything else that Arizona hasn't told me? What in the world is going on with my life? These were some of the questions that floated around Callie's head on her confused days. That was, in actual fact, all that the confused days were. Question upon question that popped into the orthopedic surgeon's head. Each one very prominent, and yet, each one unanswered.

Unfortunately, Callie's confused days didn't last long. But they were consistently followed by Hurt days. Hurt days were 'Woe is me' days. They were the days where Callie was overwhelmed with sadness, despair and . . . hurt at Arizona's actions. The badass surgeon spent her days wallowing in self-pity, and annoying the hell out of her roommate.

Then there were days like today, Callie's angry days. These were the days that everyone dreaded the most. Anything and everything Arizona Robbins seemed to piss Callie of during this time. Even things that could barely be linked to Arizona without the use of some serious determination or possibly magic, could set the woman off. Her friends seemed to miss the days when all they had to do was walk on eggshells around her. Now it was more like walking on broken gas, hot coals, and possibly molten lava. Saying that these were not fun times would be the understatement of the century.

And today just happens to be an angry day.

"She is a bitch for doing that to me," Callie said as she glanced at the table that Arizona, Owen and Teddy were now sitting at.

"Callie. . ." Mark warned, "Don't do that. Don't make her the bad guy because she lied to you."

"Why the hell not?" Callie asked, "Why shouldn't I make her the bad guy? You know how I feel about dishonesty! So does she! She knows what I went through with George and Izzie! She said she understood what I felt when I told her about how they lied to my face! She said she would never do that to me, and then suddenly, there's this person. This kid that's hers! She lied to me about being a mother!" Callie turned on Mark, "So tell me then, Dr. Sloan, how is she not the bad guy?"

"I'm sure there is a good reason why she didn't tell you. Maybe it hurts too much to admit the truth," Lexie said, hoping this time it would get through to the angry woman.

Lexie knew the truth; she had known for a while. Ever since Dr. Arizona Robbins had kissed her boyfriend's best friend in a dirty bar bathroom, and Mark had begged Lexie to get information on Arizona. So Lexie, the ever-dutiful girlfriend, had searched, and searched, and searched. For weeks, all she did was try to find anything unsavory on Arizona, but she couldn't. She had almost given up on her search when Lexie found a blip in the information, like something was missing. So Lexie dug, trying to find the missing information; kept searching, until she found the two secrets Arizona had ever held. One was Andie, and the other . . . Lexie cried everytime she thought about it. And because she was the Lexipedia, she could never forget the words she had read that day. Ever since then, Lexie has skirted around Arizona, shying away from the happy woman, because she knew the truth.

"Bull," Callie instantly brushed off Little Grey's comment, "Arizona's too virtuous for anything to be able to hurt her," Callie laughed, "But then again, she had a kid at fourteen, so maybe she isn't."

"Callie this has to stop," Meredith said forcefully as Callie turned to glare at the other table, "This is getting out of hand."

Callie arched an eyebrow as her ex jumped up to hug the unknown blonde man standing next to the table, "Huh, maybe that is the kid's dad," Callie mused out loud, "God, they look like they are the same age! I didn't think fourteen year olds knew what sex was!"

"How old were you when you lost your virginity?" Derek asked.

"Can it, Sheppard. That is none of your business."

"And that is?" Cristina spoke up for the first time as she gestured at Arizona's table, "Ever since you and McPerky stopped speaking, anything that concerns her is none of your business."

"I never said it was!" Callie feigned innocence, "I was just wondering what she ever say in that guy. He looks like he could be her brother."

"Maybe he is," Lexie muttered.

"Oh please, Callie. Don't hold back! Tell us what you really think about all thinks Arizona Robbins," Cristina's sarcastic comment was not lost on anyone at the table.

"What do I think?" Callie sneered, "I think that she is not someone we can trust, she lies to our faces then hides behind a cloud of perkiness, rainbows and magic. I think that the only reason she hid the fact that she has a kid is because she feels guilty about suckering some poor schmuck into caring about her and her spawn, making Arizona nothing but a cheap slut."

"Really?" Arizona asked her lover as everyone wheeled around to look at her, "Is that what think of me?"

The blonde woman turned to her twin, "What do you think of me, Red?"

The man did not hesitate with his answer, "I think you are a brave, strong woman who has gone through many things that no one else should ever have to endure. That is what I think," Phoenix paused before continuing, "I also think, based solely on what I have seen and heard, that your so-called girlfriend is a foolish, insensitive girl who couldn't possibly wrap her brain around the hardships that you have felt."

"And who the hell are you to judge me?" Callie demanded from the unknown man.

Arizona sighed at him, "You should not just assume things, Red. It leads to false accusations," the surgeon gave Callie a hard stare, "So I will ask you three questions."

As the Hispanic rolled her eyes at the other woman, everyone leaned back when Arizona took a step towards Callie, "You bored, Callie or are you just being condescending? Because I did not know that you were so superior that you couldn't talk or yell at me instead of insulting me behind my back. I hope I am not so low on your food chain that I can't ask you one simple question: Do you know what it is like to have a stepfather Dr. Torres?"

Callie laughed at Arizona's foolishness, "You and I both know that my parents never even divorced."

Arizona glanced back at her brother, "Alright. My second question is: Has anyone ever forced you to do something that you did not want to do?"

This time Callie looked confused, "I have always been big-boned, no one has ever wanted to try."

"That is good to know," Arizona's voice suddenly turned ice cold, "So that means that you wouldn't know what it felt like to have your stepfather drug you then force you to have sex with him, huh?"

A silence took over the entire cafeteria. All of the couple's friends and family sat stalk-still, it was as if any form of movement would make the Peds surgeon's confession real. All of the residents were just gawking, each one trying to figure out how awful that must have been being violated by someone you were supposed to trust. They were all amazed that the woman standing before them was able to trust anyone after that.

The Attendings were having a slightly different thought run through their heads. The surgeons tried to figure out how they hadn't noticed any of the signs in Arizona. She was a generally happy human being, more than happy. She was vivacious, caring, cute and . . . . happy. She was the exact opposite of a rape victim. And yet, she was not. There were moments when she would act as though she had absolutely no self-esteem; or someone would walk up and try to get her attention by touching her, and Arizona would have a panic attack. All these moments were times when her unusual behavior was brushed off a hard workday. They should have known.

Arizona was proud of how long she was holding up. She had only told that story twice in her life before this, and although those times it had been the full story in detail, she had broken down in tears before she could even finish. Apparently her sisters were right, it did help to talk it out.

"Now you know why I lied," Arizona said, "When I tell people I have a daughter, they usually ask who her father is. Despite how happy Andie has made me, explaining how she was conceived is not something I generally want to talk about. If they don't ask, I am more than comfortable letting them assume whatever they want about me; they are usually acquaintances anyways, not people I really care about. If they do ask, I tell them some esoteric version of the truth for the same reason. I do not tell many people, I never have, and I don't feel that I ever will. But those people I do tell, I expect them to keep quiet about what I have told them. I expect the same out of all of you."

The entire group nodded, to stunned and desolate to say anything. Callie had started crying long before Arizona had finished speaking. She had been so wrong about everything for the past three weeks. Her heart had broken during Arizona's cold, distant confession, and she was unsure of how to dull the ache . . . or help to dull the ache she knew was in the blonde's heart.

"Why d-didn't you t-tell me?" Callie asked through her sobs.

"Really?" Phoenix made his presence known once more, "Did you REALLY just ask that? Would any of you openly tell other people that? That a man you are supposed to trust violated you? Ari almost didn't tell me and I am her twin brother! It took her three months and a suicide attempt for me to find out; feel honored that she willingly to you," Phoenix glanced at his crying sister, "Well, almost willingly."

"Arizona, I think I speak for everyone when I say I am sorry that hap-" Derek started.

"No!" Arizona's sudden protest shocked everyone, "I didn't tell you because I wanted your pity. All I wanted was for you to understand. Nothing else."

The Peds attending started to walk away, dragging her brother along with her. She couldn't stand around there and watch them all feel sorry for her; it was too much. They needed time to get over her admission, and she needed time to heal the wound that she had just torn open again.

"Derek, you're the chief now," Arizona said over her shoulder, "I am taking the rest of today, and tomorrow off."

It was with that fleeting comment that Arizona Robbins left Seattle Grace.

Callie sat in the cafeteria staring off after the woman thinking, 'She's never going to come back now. What have I done?'

The woman didn't have enough time to think anything else before she found herself face to face with an enraged Lexie Grey.

"Not telling you about Andie, that was her bad. This?" Lexie's sneer was shockingly well delivered, "This was your bad. You need to fix it."

That's was all it took to get Callie out of her chair and chasing after the woman who just left.

I am done with this chapter.

It took me several tries to write, because I kept tearing up. I hope you like it!!!!! And I REALLY hope you review!! ;)

P.P.S- I am reposting this chapter for anyone who has already read it because I forgot to put this note at the bottom.

If any of you have read my other stories (aka It's Crazy) then you will know that I like to have an actor in mind to play any character I make up.

SOOOO. . . Ladies and Gents. Phoenix Robbins is played by Thad Luckinbill!!!! YAY!

I will post who every other Robbins kid is played by in the next chapter.