Chapter 3: I wanna hold you high and steel your pain
Breakfast was strange for the Zodiacs that morning, Akito, just last night had been a murderous guy with no heart and a tendency to tell everyone around him I hate you, but now this morning Akito was a girl, and she seemed to have a very big heart and a tendency to tell everyone how sorry she was about hurting them, it seemed the only ones she'd never really hurt before was Ritsu and, in a way, Haru. It just didn't seem right, most people thought Akito was going to be like this for a couple of days before saying something harmful but no one really knew, that Akito was dying, but she seemed so happy at the breakfast table that it was impossible to tell, and Tohru couldn't wait to tell Kyo that the curse was broken and all of the things that Akito had explained to her about the curse, it was so exciting she could barely keep herself from fidgeting in her chair. Wow everything was finally getting better for them, but it was only day one, and everyone has there problems, even Tohru, even Akito, some worse than others, but Tohru knew that soon she would have too meet Akito's mother, and that worried her severely. She shook it off at the moment and after thirty minutes or so regular conversation went on and everyone began to slowly get used to the knew Akito, after all she was much better to be around, but still suspicions rose and stayed in the minds of the adults, and Rin. Haru could tell when someone was changed and different, and it turns out Akito was, Hiro, after the Kisa incident, decided that it was true because Akito wouldn't go to such measures of change to get them all wrapped up in a plan, she wasn't that smart. Hopefully if Akito went to such measures, then they would catch it before hand who knew.
Tohru was anxious that morning to tell Kyo he was free from the curse, she continued to wiggle in her chair, and bounce up and down. Her smile was brighter this morning then it had been in a very, very long time and everyone noticed and they all tried as well to be cheerful but with Akito on their minds it was slightly difficult. Kisa and Hiro had a long talk about maybe asking if it was alright if they could be together or not but that would wait, they were not quiet ready for that. Haru glanced at Rin from time to time, wondering if she still wanted to stay broken up now, but go no response as she kept her eyes on someone else, Shigure. Shigure was talking cheerily with Ayame and Hatori, which Haru did not interrupt anyone, he was just too kind. Ritsu refused to talk expect for a few word here and there but nothing more, just was too scared of messing up. When breakfast finally came to an end some of the Sohma's were convinced that it was true but others wanted to continue to believe that Akito was pulling something on Tohru. Rin left the second she got the chance to get out of Shigure's house and headed her own way and Haru followed her, he wanted to tell her he still loved her, and with everything that had happened he still wanted to be with her, the two were so cute together. Yuki went up stairs and called Machi on his new cell phone, and he wanted to ask Akito if they could be together as well but choose to wait and see Akito's true intentions. Kyo didn't waste time in going to his spot that was most important to him, the roof.
Tohru smiled as she watched each person leave the house, she couldn't wait to tell Kyo, or show him, that he was free from the damn curse that had bound him and tore him apart. As Hatori and Ayame loaded up in the car with some of the breakfast she cooked she couldn't help but smile to herself, it was going to be a very good day. Akito helped Tohru clean up the mess they had all made at breakfast, everyone was starting to believe that Akito WAS different but hell some couldn't be sure quiet yet. After the last car pulled out Tohru raced up to her room to began to get ready to tell Kyo, you wouldn't think she need to make such a big deal out of it but, it was such a big event. She raced to her bath room, and began brushing her long locks of chocolate brown, and humming to herself she breathed in and out. She looked at herself in the bath room mirror, thinking she wasn't pretty but she would have to do for now. Her eyes flickered over to a drawer that she never opened and in it lied the necklace that her father had given her mother, and not to long after her mother had given it to her, she opened that drawer. "It's a symbol of love, Tohru." Her mother once said and as she pulled it out of the drawer it rested in she asked her self the question….did she love Kyo……as more than a brother? She pondered this as she walked down the hall and out onto the patio, her eyes looked over the latter, did she? Her hands trembled this time as she reached out to the cool grey metal and she began her way up slowly, did she? She pulled herself steadily on the roof and straightened her skirt, did she? She looked up and saw him staring out into nothing on do deep in thought with a serious look on his face, and his eyes burning with fear of something, she did.
"Kyo-kun!" She called over to the orange hair boy, who sat completely spaced out, he did not no he was freed from the curse like the others would, and Akito felt him be released the moment the damn curse was lifted from his body, it was such a sad feeling.
She smiled wide and broad as she began bouncing with joy over to him, if she wasn't careful then she'd trip and spoil his big surprise, but he had a little surprise that he feared telling her with all his heart because what would she say about it. She thought about something and finally decided to tell him, along with the curse, that she has major feeling for him, feelings of love and longing. Little did she know he had feeling for her as well but he had no intention of telling them to her, none at all. He stared at her with burring crimson eyes that poured into her soul, and she looking so gently back at him with eyes that looked like a gentle blowing breeze, they contrasted deeply, but opposites attract they say. She came closer to him, moving step by step, as Kyo sat anxiously waiting for her to sit and talk with him about Akito and perhaps other things. She finally mad it over to him and plopped down next to him with a small thunk and sat on her knees, then with a sigh of contentment out stretched her arms behind her and gazed up at the blue, blue sky and a soft smile spread diligently over her lips. She looks beautiful when she smiles like that Kyo thought also letting the corner of his lip twitch up slightly. Then something else hit Kyo, as the thought of something popped into his mind about the event prier to that day, about Kyoko's grave, he'd seen Tohru's grandpa and found out that the reason Tohru's grandpa called Tohru Kyoko, was because he was holding on to Kyoko. He'd also learned that the reason she talked so formally was because when she was younger some adults had been telling amongst themselves and had said that she had not been resembling Katsuya Honda at all. That ticked him. It really ticked him off.
"Hey Tohru…what was your father like? You say you don't remember him much but….do you?" Kyo asked and he almost wished he didn't because of those eyes, she turned away from him with wide shocked, no longer blue, gray eyes, but it had been bugging him.
"W-Well my face doesn't resemble him much…she smiled then and looked at Kyo b-but well I heard I talk somewhat like him…actually very much…like him! Even Mom said so…" She looked away from him then satisfied with her reaction to the question, completely thrown off.
"Then…that must make you happy." Again her eyes went to huge round circles the size of plates and she turned away from Kyo completely stunned and afraid she had no way of saying something back and this time she couldn't smile for Kyo.
"It's a lie…there's no resemblance…no resemblance at all…because there's no resemblance I'm just mimicking his manner of speech… In truth I had thought of my father as a…villain. Even though I defiantly remember…even though its vague, still that he'd been kind, the things he gave me…even though I remember properly…even so maybe he'd come to take mom away…I'd thought….so I wanted to get her attention…I wanted her to be with me…I wanted to keep her here…because I didn't want to be left behind, I wanted to reassure myself that I would do anything…that is…that I so easily made my father the villain…that for my own sake…I would let go of absolutely any promise…I'm the worst." She threw her head in her knees then and out right sobbed, her eyes were shocked wide and tears came spilling down them.
Kyo couldn't believe he'd actually done that too her but the conversion with her grandpa had made him want to so badly, he wanted to know who's shaped Tohru into the person she is today. He'd didn't know that when Katsuya had first died Kyoko had ignored Tohru's existence completely, only thinking about her own grief. Tohru had been shut out for many weeks and her grandpa had to come over or that little girl with big blue eyes would have starved to death. Not to long after the weeks Kyoko was staring out the window (A/n: Yes this happened in the actual manga!) and she saw Katsuya in her vision and so she stood up and "followed" him out the house, she even shut the door behind her. Tohru watched with frightened eyes as her mother left her alone, praying that her mother would come back to her. Kyoko had walked a long way with glazed eyes and a broken heart until she came to a bridge and she looked over the side and in that water she saw Katsuya. She smiled wide and began to fall into the side and then "MAMA!" A little girl screamed but I wasn't Tohru, it was just another little girl talking to her own mother. Kyoko watched with wide eyes as the mother smiled down at her daughter and took the girl by the hand and lead her away from the bridge more than likely back to her home. Kyoko turned her eyes in the direction she had just come from, and took off in a dead run for home, thinking Tohru…had did you get meals…that's right Oji-chan came by a few times but other than that… She panted and breathed out as she rushed up to her own door. With all her might she flew open the door and stared down as Tohru looked up sleepily, smiled, and said in a quiet voice "welcome back." And with tears in her eyes Kyoko scooped her up and rocked back and forth telling her over and over "I'm so sorry." And Tohru bagan talking like her father from then on. Kyo bowed his head…he just couldn't tell her that he'd…but his thoughts cut off from there as he looked at Tohru and took his sweater off, rapped her in it and was able to hug her as long as skin never touched skin. (A/N: He dosen't know remember…)
"I'm sure that your mom…defiantly…understood…without a dought…believe me…defenitly…" Kyo said as her kept down his own tears and Tohru bagan to sob even more in his arms as she let his words sink in, maybe she did, but it still hurt for her to have put her father in as a villain.
"Do you…think so?" She asked him, not even realizing that the curse was broken and that she could actually hug him instead of using a cloth, both people were to dizty to even understand what was going on, being alone was a very scary feeling, that's what had made Akito do all of those things she did.
"Yes…say what you want I wont be disillusioned…I've…I've been talking about something so upsetting…I'm sorry…" Kyo said stroking her hair as she looked on the sweater with wide eyes, he, he had said just what she'd need to hear in such a soft tone that Tohru snuggled closer to him.
"Come with me…" She said standing up completely forgetting why she had come up on the roof in the first place and held her hand out for Kyo to take so she could pull him up, and grabbed her hand but lifted himself up so as not to pull her down, and as she dropped her hand the two slid down each other and she began walking across the roof.
Kyo watched her dark brown hair flowing in the breeze behind her and the shimmer of tears that glistened off her check, that he had caused her such tears, he hated it when she cried. But he'd brought it on himself and he just wanted her stop crying for good because if she cried when he was going to be locked up he'd never forgive himself…would he still get locked up? With Akito being the way h-she was now would Kyo still be locked away from the world? Never again to look at that smile or to her face linger on, never again to taste her beautiful cooking, or smell it when he came in from training in the mornings, drink out of the milk cartoon, fight with Yuki, call Shigure a dirty pervert, run from Kagura, have another summer with her…tell her that he…but he stopped himself. He watched her turn to him and smile and on instinct he began towords the side of the roof as she climbed down and onto the grass, he couldn't help but watch her as tears formed in his eyes, never to see that porcilan face in the mornings, would he be locked away? He began his climb down, jumping half way off the latter and watching Tohru as she began inside the house. She turned and smiled at him as she slide the paper door open and he followed her inside the house and wiped the tears off his face with his sleeve. She began in the kitchen where Shigure was still reading the paper and smiled down at him, he looked up and smiled also before going back down to his paper, Kyo watched them and Tohru began up the stairs to her room. He followed as silently as a cat is when catching its prey, and as they enterd her bed room Akito was sitting sitting on the bed looking at Tohru's picture of everyone together, and her eyes were sad and so happy as she placed it down and Tohru bowedher head.
"Akito-chan, can Kyo-kun and I please talk for a moment…?" She asked sweetly and looked at her mothers picture as Akito stood up and hugged Tohru and brushed past Kyo with a nod and Kyo glared at Akito, he still hated her no matter what changes she made.
Kyo watched as Akito moved out of the room quickly and went to down stairs where Shigure was down the hall with quiet foot steps, what was she planning? Tohru wasn't suspicious of Akito as she moved to her bed and straightened it out deep, deep in thought, he didn't want to disturb her, she looked so seriouse with her eyes a little hard and her mouth in line not a smile, it was so cute. He did however turn around and shut the door behind them so that they would be left on there own terms not wanting other's to listen in to what she had to say to him. After finishing her little task of brushing out her bed so it was straight she then glanced over at her mothers picture, and she stared at it for a long time. As Tohru watched her mother's picture, as if it was going to move to harm her or Kyo, or as if it contained something so sad, she moved with tip toes over to it, and let a few tears slide down her face. She picked it up with one hand so with all the care she could used the other to flip open the back of the picuture and two pices of paper slide out from underneath them. She pulled them out from behind her mother and with glazed eyes and shaking hands, handed them over to Kyo. He took them with a small smile trying to get her to feel a little more comfortable with him, but she continued to cry so Kyo looked down at the pictures in his hand. One was of a younger looking Tohru with short hair, and a winter coat on in an embrace with her father smiling so happily, and the second one was of just her father, he had a hair cut like Kyo's but his hair was dark brown like Tohru's and he was very handsome. He looked back up her, she had her head bowed and she was looking at him through a small parting in her hair.
"Its so like you to have a picture." Kyo said looking down at the picture's and letting his eyes remember Katsuya as much as possible, he then looked back up at her and with a small grunt he handed her back the picture's of her father, and she placed them back behind her mother, out of sight.
"Yes…Kyo-kun…thank you so much for letting me cry like that…I didn't mean to cause you such trouble…" Tohru said and bowed again before standing up straight and smiling, Kyo bobbed her lightly on the head and smiled himself as Tohru headed down stairs to see Akito and Shigure and then Kyo followed her down, maybe she'd tell him…eventually.
See you cursed zodiacs… END CHAPTER!
Well to my reviewers-
Erika- well I'm a big fan of Kyo too keep reading plz
Jah98- Yes in the actual manga Akito turns out to be a girl go to to read the rest of the series.
Twilight sea- Here you go!
Someone- Yes a girl! Have you finished the damn series! She didn't change in five seconds…in my story she had never wanted to be like that to the zodiace…if you had of actually read it you would not have commented on that. She is not a unicorn lover!
Moonflower- here tis this Do you have an accont because if you do I have read a lot of your stories!
AKITO. At The Disco- heh for you…LOVE the name…panic at the disco rocks!
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