He woke up to the whirling of chopper blades and the smell of the rubber pads on the floor of the chopper. He couldn't see exactly where he was but he could see the tops of buildings so he knew he was still in the city. He heard George saying as he felt the chopper land,
"Remember Sarah this is all about completing the circle."
He could feel the throbbing in his head and leg from where he was jabbed with the needle, he closed his eyes to gather his strength and clear his mind, when the door of the chopper opened and the pilot picked him up like a rag doll. He heard a key in a lock and a door open, he was then carried down some stairs, as he looked around and focused to the changing light the room looked familiar, it was then that he realized they were at the old precinct which he thought was to be torn down in the next few days. He noticed that they were heading towards the interrogation rooms, George was leading the way with Sarah beside him. Once in the room the pilot put him on the table, George and Sarah started to strip him first his shoes and socks, then his pants after which they each tied one of legs down. He tried to fight but couldn't, the pilot was holding his arms down, he tried to kick his legs but George laughed,
"Fight all you want, we might be small but we are strong."
Sarah said,
"Lie back and enjoy the ride."
Elliot twisted and turned feeling the pain in his ribs. Realizing he was screwed he tried to talk his way out of it saying,
"Please don't. I will do anything for this not to happen."
George looked at him,
"Tell me Detective Stabler what are you offering?"
Elliot,
"What are you asking for?"
George looked at him,
"One night alone with you."
Elliot looked at him,
"Okay, I can do that."
George laughed,
"Really?"
Elliot thinking he was making headway,
"Yes really."
George,
"Prove it."
Elliot,
"Untie me and I will."
George shook his head and walked to the head of the table, he looked at Elliot,
"Prove it by kissing me and use tongue. Then we talk about untying you."
Elliot looked at him and hesitated. George saw the hesitation and said,
"There you go teasing me again."
Sarah moved to his shirt and took it off of him, she had him in nothing but his boxers as the pilot tied his good arm down and Sarah got off him long enough to tie his bad arm down. Elliot pleaded as his tears threatened to come down,
"I am not teasing you, you want a kiss I will give you one."
George said to Sarah,
"You start completing the circle as I go for this kiss."
George's lips touched Elliot's as he felt George's tongue on his lips pushing into his mouth, as he opened his mouth and touched tongues he felt Sarah's hand in this underwear as she started to touch and grind against him, he pulled out of the kiss and screamed...
Olivia awoke to hear him screaming and in a panic,
"STOP PLEASE DON'T".
Olivia tried to wake him, as the sweat started to pour down his face,
"Elliot wake up you are having a nightmare. You are safe please wake up."
Elliot woke up and the first thing he saw were Olivia's scared wide eyes looking down at him. He was breathing hard and fast almost gasping for air. His tshirt was stuck to his chest, which was damp with sweat, and he was shaking, he had tears in his eyes as Olivia held him and gently rocked saying,
"El, I am here you are safe."
He clung to her and said,
"Liv it was so real..."
She said,
"You're okay, just take deep calming breaths. In through your nose out through your mouth."
He nodded he remembered the breathing exercises he had done with Sabrina, he had never told anyone but she had taught him how to meditate when she was teaching him visualization exercises. Once Elliot calmed down he went into the bathroom and washed his face. He looked into the mirror as he recalled the nightmare, he couldn't shake the whole experience. It was then that he got physically sick the whole situation was too much for him to handle. He heard the bathroom door open and Olivia handed him a warm facecloth,
"Are you okay?"
He nodded as he washed his face again and rinsed his mouth out with Listerine. Liv said,
"I will get you a bottle of water and meet you in bed."
He said,
"Okay thanks."
A few minutes later he was sitting on the edge of the bed, drinking from the bottle of water. He put the lid back on it and then stretched out on the bed. Liv lie beside him and asked,
"You want to talk about it?"
He shook his head as he pulled Olivia to his chest and wrapped his arms around her and said,
"Not really. Reliving that night once is more than I can handle."
Liv turned out the light as they lie in silence, he was the strongest man she had ever known and in all the years she had known him anger was his most shared emotion, but to see him share this much vulnerability with her was a whole new situation. She felt him move closer, as he put his arms around her waist and pulled her closer she adjusted herself and molded her body to fit his. He could not get the image of Sarah straddling his naked body out of his head. He could not shake her hand stroking him, he could not shake the sound of George Huang standing in the corner licking his lips and lightly moaning as he watched her stroke him. When he felt her wet thumb rub his tip he was sure George was having his own orgasm, he would never forget the feeling of total violation or humiliation he felt or the flashback he had to the first time he had dealt with a male rape victim, Peter Smith, at that very moment he wished he go back and apologize to him. Suddenly the tears started running down his cheeks and he could not stop them. Olivia felt his tears fall as one landed on her cheek, she moved closer to him. He felt her move closer, as he continued to think about the dream and how terrified he was because he knew he had not ejaculated so he knew the wetness he felt was her fluids and that terror was solidified when Melinda had run the blue light over his nude body and found Sarah's fluids on his genitals. He was glad he had gone to see Melinda, she was a good lady and a good friend, and although she teased Olivia about what it would be like to be with him, - he had walked in on one of their conversations during the early years – but he knew it was girl talk, she was the safest place for him to be at that point, he also knew Olivia had dealt with Melinda after the DA she had dated years early had been found murdered and had AIDS from being on the 'down low'. It was then he knew he needed to talk to Sabrina.
It had been about an hour since they had gone to bed, he felt Olivia move on his chest and he said softly,
"Liv you sleeping?"
She said not moving,
"No. You have too much adrenaline?"
He nodded in the dark and said,
"My mind won't stop."
She looked up at him and said,
"Maybe we should just get up and watch a movie."
He stretched,
"Good idea, make it a comedy, nothing serious."
She put in Harold and Kumar go to White Castle.
He said,
"Really?"
She said,
"I like the character of Freakshow."
He chuckled. They sat together watching the movie and although it was a decent movie they were both sound asleep within 20 mins.
When Liv woke up Elliot was asleep with his head on her lap and the TV was static. She did not want to wake him she knew he needed to sleep, because she knew that tonight would not be his only sleepless night, there would be more ahead. She gently lifted herself out from under him and headed to the bathroom, when she came out he was awake, he used the bathroom and they headed to bed. Without a word they settled in and were fast asleep in each other's arms.
That second morning, he started to take the protocol and antivirals that Melinda had given him but he had trouble keeping food down he was nausea just like the last time.
The next couple of days would prove to be very up and down, Cragen had given her a week of vacation to stay with Elliot. Once Cragen and Sabrina had filled in 1PP about what had happened with Elliot they asked John to step in and take the class for the same week since he was already familiar with the recruits, and Sabrina had agreed to help out.
Melinda had stopped by to check on him and Olivia said,
"He can't keep food down with these pills just like last time and he is having wild nightmares."
Melinda said,
"Unfortunately nausea is still one of the short term side effects of the medication. Make him some protein shakes to help make up for it and just light meals but more of them. As for the nightmares, they also can be a side effect of the pills but that is Sabrina's area of expertise."
Elliot came out of the bathroom, he was wearing jeans and a button down shirt that was open. He said to Melinda when he saw her,
"Hey Melinda."
He went up to Olivia and gave her a kiss on the forehead, he said,
"Good morning I love you."
She kissed him back and said,
"Good morning yourself. I love you."
He was trying to keep things normal, even though he felt far from normal. Melinda smiled she had known these two for so long and seen their relationship change over the years. She was so happy when Elliot had come back into Olivia's life and now this. She said,
"Hey Elliot, I wanted to check on you and see if you needed anything, I was in the neighbourhood."
He shook his head,
"Hey Melinda. It is good to see you. I am alright just not looking forward to the few more sleepless nights ahead."
She said,
"Take your days as they come, but if either of you need anything let me know."
They both nodded. Once she left Elliot looked at Olivia and said,
"What are you doing today?"
She shrugged,
"Nothing why? What did you have planned?"
He said,
"Let's go for a walk. I want to get out. I also made an appointment to see Sabrina this afternoon."
She said,
"Okay. When did you call Sabrina?"
Elliot,
"When I was in the bathroom."
Olivia nodded as they got their coats and headed out. Olivia lived in downtown Manhattan so she was close to everything, they walked past a newspaper stand and Olivia got a copy of the Post. Elliot went into the bodega and got them each a coffee, he really wasn't in the mood to be out but he knew he had to go out or he would be in trouble. Olivia watched him, he looked different to her he was being overly cautious, she wondered if she had looked different to him. They walked along and got to a small park where there were picnic tables, he said,
"Let's sit for a minute."
They did. Olivia asked him,
"Did I look different to you after Sealview?"
He looked at her, and thought for a minute before he answered,
"Yes. You looked like you were always on guard and you put up a wall. Do you think I look different to you?"
She knew he was right because she had put up a wall. She said,
"Honestly, you are trying too hard to be normal, but you haven't put up a wall and you haven't shut me out. So in that way you are different to me..."
She watched him nod and then added,
"You know, I was thinking that you have a summer break coming up in 6 weeks, and you will be off for 2 months. I have that much vacation time banked, why don't I book it off and you and I take a trip somewhere we both want to go?"
He looked at her and said,
"I think that would be a great idea I was thinking the same thing this morning but first I really need to see Sabrina."
Olivia smiled to herself, this made her so happy. He looked at her and said,
"She said you are welcome also."
Olivia shook her head,
"I will go with you to her office, because the detective and woman in me is curious but I want you to have your first appointment without me so you can really talk to her."
She noticed his disappointed look, and said,
"Unless you really want me to go in with you today..."
He nodded,
"I do want you to go in with me. Liv I don't just love you through the good times, I love you through the bad times too, even if they are my bad times. I remember how I felt when Sealview happened to you and I didn't see any of what you saw the other night. Too me, yes I went through this ordeal but it affects the both of us."
Olivia said,
"Okay what time do we need to be there?"
He looked at his watch and innocently smiled at her,
"In an hour. Her office is a half hour away."
She smiled and shook her head, he never was one for advance planning,
"Let's go. Munch is going to be so jealous."
Elliot laughed knowing Munch's fixation with Sabrina and said,
"Oh he will live. He has her to himself for a whole week. I'm sure she can now write another best seller based on the Munch Conspiracies."
They both laughed.