A/N thankyou for the reviews, they keep me writing. This is the long chapter I promised. Please review.

Jace's P.O.V

I can't believe what I just did! I did what I always believed I would never do to Clary. I never swore to her that I wouldn't but it never had to be said, it was one of those things. I never thought I would hurt Clary in anyway, but tonight I messed up… big time. After Clary raced out of our apartment I still couldn't movie, it was like somebody had stolen the air from my lungs. My head was racing, I couldn't put anything together. I couldn't form a sentence even if I tried.

I did the first thing I could think of… Call my brother Alec. After four rings he picked up,

"Its 2:00am Whhaaatt?" His groggy voice answered.

"A-Alec I need your help….. I–I… I don't know what do…I…"

"Jace….Jace calm down!" He interrupted sounding far more awake.

"What happened? Slowly" I don't know where to begin. I took a deep breath.

"Clary and I were talking about half an hour ago and she brought up that she wanted to maybe movie into the city in Brooklyn because she would have a better chance to make a living with her paintings, but I made a big deal about it saying that we are perfectly fine here and stuff like that….

We got into a huge argument and I said some really terrible things to her, I told her 'WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO BACK TO YOUR FATHER? HE IS THE ONLY PERSON WHO YOU DESERVE IN THIS WORLD!' and I told her that I hate her… I remember the look in her eyes when I told her this Alec. She was crushed, she looked empty. I did that to her… I let my anger cloud my thoughts and I hurt Clary, I promised myself I wouldn't do that to her ever…."

"Jace I understand but you need to finish telling me what happened" Alec urged.

"She turned to go into the bathroom away from me and I grabbed her and she tried to struggle away from me and I slapped her…., I physically hit her"

This all sounds foreign to me, like it never really happened. I wish it didn't and I could walk into our bedroom and she would be there, peacefully sleeping with not a worry in the world.

"She has had enough that without me adding to the list of people who hit her."

I can just see Alec's look of shock, disappointment and horror. He and Clary are really close.

"Jace… where is Clary?" He asked urgently.

"I don't know… she ran off after I h-hit her"

"WHAT" He screamed into the phone. "WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU LET HER LEAVE THE APARTMENT BY HERSELF AT TWO O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING?"

It finally daunted on me. I had actually let her run out of our apartment at such a late hour…"

"Oh god Alec I have no idea where she would have gone, she could be anywhere."

"Jace I'm going to call Izzy and explain what happened. Go look for her NOW and Izzy and I will too."

"Okay call me if you find her." I said and hanged up. I put my jacket on and ran out of the apartment slamming the door.

I have so many conflicting emotions and thoughts racing through my mind at the moment but the ones that stick out the most are 'Jace you're an absolute dickhead!' and 'You seriously fucked up big this time'

I didn't run through the streets because I was worried I would run past her. I can't believe this. I checked all of Clary's favourite places first but she wasn't there. I swear I am going to lose the plot soon.

"Jace" Someone called as I past one of the 'fancy' restaurants. Every part of my wished that it was Clary, but that wasn't her voice. I turned to see Aline. Aline was a… I wouldn't go as far to say slut…but.

"Where's your girlfriend?" She asked winking. I hate when girls disrespect themselves like that, it's sick.

"Not now Aline" I say trying to get past her but she stepped in front of me again.

"Oh is there trouble in paradise?" She asked with a smirk forming on her face.

I let out a frustrated sigh…

"Aline this is not the time" I said quickly walking off.

Clary where are you?

Alec's P.O.V

I can't believe what's going on. As soon as I told Izzy she freaked out and kept saying everything she was going to do to Jace when she got her hands on him for being such an idiot. I quickly picked Izzy up, there was no way I was going to let my sister go running around on her own as well.

I can't bring myself to think about what could have happened to Clary being alone out here.

Get a grip Alec don't automatically assume the worst, that won't help Clary. Clary was one of the first people at school to ignore how shy I was and get to know me. It was so strange how close we got. When she and Jace got together I was so happy because Jace needed someone natural like Clary to bring his big head back down to earth. And Clary needed someone like Jace who could build her up from the low place she was in at that time. I remember the day I found out her father was beating her. I don't think I have ever seen someone so…so… vulnerable. I was there for her though. I helped her tell Jace and get the hell out of that horrific place.

Izzy and I spent another ten minutes searching through the streets. I was so worried at this point.

"Alec what's that?" Izzy asked me with wide eyes pointing to a nearby alleyway. I took a few steps closer to see, it was difficult due to lack of light but I could make out a man kicking a girl on the ground.

"HEY, PICK ON SOMEONE YOUR OWN SIZE YOU JERK" Izzy screamed out. The man leaned down and said something to the girl and ran off. I didn't chase the man, the girl needed help. We quickly walked towards the girl but as we got closer I realised something. It was Clary…. Oh god. I ran over to her… I can't breathe she has bruises forming all over her and a pool of blood around her head. I didn't want to touch her and make anything worse. I was on the verge of tears, but I had to be strong for Izzy who was sobbing, screaming, begging, crying for Clary to be okay.

I quickly dialled Jace's number.

"Anything?" He asked urgently.

"We found her…" I told him the address and to come quick. A few minutes later Jace came running into the alley. He saw Clary laying there.

"CLARY" he screamed.

Jace's P.O.V

I ran into the alleyway gasping for air. Alec didn't explain anything, he just told me to hurry. As I neared Alec and Izzy I spotted Clary… but she was laying on the ground… not moving. I froze for a split second.

"CLARY" I screamed running faster than I ever thought possible. When I reached her I dropped to my knees and grabbed Clary's hand. I could hear Izzy calling 911 behind me. I felt for a pulse, any signs of life in the girl who I have said 'I love you' to more than I can count, but that's not enough I know that I will be saying it to her for the rest of my life. My heart dropped… scratch that it fell from the 'top shelf' and shattered into a million pieces below my feet. There was no pulse….nothing. Tears were freely falling from my eyes. Izzy and Alec have never seen me cry, but I don't care.

"Jace I think sh-she's gone." Alec stuttered.

That woke me from my state and lit the fire in me.

"No she's not. Alec you know CPR help NOW" He wasted no time.

Please Clary come on.

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