Hey there! I decided to write again! I'm sorry it's been so long but school finally started again and I have some more time! There isn't much of a plot to this story just yet but there's enough that I know what to do with the first few chapters. So I'll be replying to a few comments!
BananaMuffin: First, such a kawaii name :3 Next I know! I tried portraying Eren as this adorable character who is really innocent! I also want to snuggle the little green eyed baby to death!
By time Friday rolled around it was already time for Eren to model for me. I had previously sent him a text with the directions to the art studio that I rented and he told me that he'd be here in a little while. I sighed, looking in the mirror at the dark circles that lie under my eyes. I looked like complete shit from the constant lack of sleep from nightmares and relieving my boyfriends sexual needs. I pulled my sweatshirt down a little to reveal the hand marked bruises that rested on my neck and flinched at the remembrance of last night. I'm not sure what had made him so angry, but whatever I said had ticked him off to where he lunged straight at my throat, pinning me to the wall of his dorm room. I tried fighting him off but the size difference between us is large that I wasn't able to fight him despite my strength. If it wasn't for his roommate forgetting his keys, I probably would've ended up dead. I was brought out of my nightmare by my phone vibrating on the table and I picked it up to see a text from Erwin.
Erwin: Levi I'm sorry for last night. I just got jealous from seeing you with that brunette..
I read the text and sighed, rubbing my neck as I thought about a reply. I knew that our relationship was going downhill, but I can't find myself into breaking up with him. Erwin is the only person who can put up with my horrible personality and even though he hits me every now and then, it's nothing that I'm not used to. My uncle was ten times more abusive than Erwin so this isn't anything new.
Levi: It's okay. Shit happens I guess. I'll see you tonight.
As soon as I pressed send Eren walked into the room and slammed the door, causing me to jump, startled by the sudden sound. I shot a disapproving look as he walked in, his face contorted in an expression that says "I didn't mean it."
"Once again, you almost gave me a heart attack Jager! Why can't you be a little less surprising?" I asked, pressing my hand to my chest over my heart as if that motion itself will kill out the unnecessary adrenaline rush that was pumping through my system.
"Sorry, the door was heavy and it swung shut really fast at a small push," he said, giving me an apologetic look and I sighed at how much of an idiot he could be.
"Alright, well you can start to take your clothes off when your ready. I'm going to go mix the paints I need," I said, grabbing a few tubes of paint and my pallet before squeezing small amounts onto the wooden board. It took me a little bit of time to perfect the color of Eren's iris's and even the paint color couldn't live up to the color that was actually there. After I mixed all of the colors I needed I turned my attention to Eren who was standing awkwardly behind my canvas looking as lost as ever. I sighed before approaching him and crossing my arms impatiently.
"Alright, take off you clothes. I have that sheet I told you I would get to make you a little more comfortable," I said, walking over to grab the white tarp that was lying on a table covering other of my paintings.
"Uh, actually I was going to get fully naked if that was okay with you," he said, his cheeks flushing a bright red that contrasted beautifully against his tanned skin. Even though his words had a bit of confidence in them his actions said otherwise and I was one to take body language over words.
"Look, you don't have to pose naked just because it's what I wanted. If your not comfortable with it, you really shouldn't push yourself," I assured, reminding Eren that he didn't have to do anything he didn't want to for the sake of my art.
"But I really want to! Isn't college all about taking risks? Well today I thought I would take that first step out of my comfort zone I guess," he said, and just by saying that one sentence, I realized something that was very interesting about the boy in front of me.
He's a fucking virgin.
Now, I know what you're thinking. "Is that really what you're thinking about at a time like this?" Yes, it is. Most people who enter college who aren't ace are usually not virgins and those who are lose their virginity in the first week of college at some frat or sorority party. Those who didn't were either religious or just not ready. Maybe even saving themselves for marriage but who knows.
"Alright. Do what you want," I said, watching as he removed his shirt, folding his before setting it on the table beside my blank canvas' and then doing the same with his pants. What came next I was completely unprepared for. I covered my mouth with my hand, trying to stiffle the laughter that was bound to come out.
"You're kidding me, right Jaeger?" I asked him, and he looked at me confused before realizing what the cause of my hysterics were.
"Hey! D-Don't laugh! I didn't have any normal pairs of underwear today because I haven't done laundry! B-Besides, I promised someone I'd wear them," he mumbled the last part and I would've completely missed it if I wasn't paying close attention to his explanation.
"Who promises to wear My Little Pony briefs?!" I asked, finally letting out my laughter and he blushed a deep red before stripping them off and discarding them with the rest of my clothes.
"Just shut up okay!?" he yelled, his embarrassed blush never leaving his face and I tried calming myself down, telling myself that it wasn't actually that funny. As I stopped laughing I turned my attention back to Jaeger and instantly cursed whatever sex god dropped this boy at my doorstep. He was even better without the clothes that hid the immediate beauty that his figure truly held, and I mentally wished that clothes had never been invented if that is what they hid from the human eye.
Eren Jaeger was indeed, going to be the death of me.
"Why are you... staring?" Eren asked, crossing his arms self consciously over his chest and I mentally punched myself for not realizing that he wasn't just some object but an actual human being with actual feelings. Feelings… huh?
"I-I'm just trying to get a good look at you before I start painting so that I can work without constantly glancing over at you. Would you rather me have pictures of you naked or pose for me?" I asked, trying to hide the fact that I was indeed staring at him for reasons other than art.
"Uh, well it's your painting, whatever you want is fine," he mumbled, his words barely coherent and I would've missed them if I hadn't focused all of my attention onto the brunette.
"I'll take some photos maybe later just in care you're busy. Thanks again," I said and he waved a hand at me, dismissing my thanks.
"It's no big deal."
After a few hours of working, both Eren and I agreed that we were both exhausted and hungry so we decided to stop buy a local Chinese restaurant near the dorms. Eren decided to start a conversation of would you rather and I had to hand it to him, he was quite the amusing kid.
"Would you really rather get bit by a rattle snake than have to dumpster dive? I mean, you know a rattlesnake can kill, right?" he asked as if I was a complete idiot that was oblivious to the nature around us.
"Yes, I'm fucking serious. Do you know how much filth a dumpster holds? How many diseases rubbish can contain? No, at least with a rattlesnake if I survive I'll have a very nice story to tell one day," I said, and Eren laughed a little before his laughter died out a little. I looked at him confused, before noticing that he was staring straight over my head. We were sitting in a booth at the tiny Chinese food chain and it smelled strongly of grease and chicken. Out of curiosity I got on my knees, don't think dirty, I'm just short, and looked over the top of the booth to see what Eren was looking at and to both my surprise and horror I see Erwin walking in. Shit, what time is it?! I asked myself before sitting down quickly and grabbing my phone to look at the time. 10:47. Fuck. I looked up at Eren, and he noticed the sudden change in my behavior and he raised an eyebrow at me.
"What's wrong? Do you know him?" he asked, and I had forgotten that I never told Eren that Erwin was my boyfriend. My huge, abusive, overprotective boyfriend.
"Y-Yeah, I do. I'm sorry but I have to go," I said, sliding out of the booth and as I stood up I felt a hand grip my arm and I flinched.
"Levi, you said you'd be over tonight yet here you are with this brunette again," Erwin practically spat from the amount of venom that his tone held and I shuddered at his words, knowing this wasn't going to end well.
"Look, I'm sorry but let me go. We're in public," I whispered, not wanting to show anyone exactly how much more vulnerable I was when he was in my presence. There was a lot more to it than just Erwin hostility that made me feel vulnerable. The truth is that even though I have a tough attitude, I could never win a fight against Erwin. He was a good foot taller than me and not only that but he was all muscle and I didn't have as much physical strength as him. It's not all physical abuse either. He knows exactly what makes me hesitate, what makes my heart throb in pain. He uses it against me constantly and no matter how much I tell myself it's not true, he makes sure that I won't believe it and it kills me just how weak he makes me feel.
"Fine, if you're so fucking embarrassed to let everyone know that you're a fucking slut then we can go," he said, and my chest ached in pain as he talked down to me.
"Okay…" I whispered, cringing at how low and weak my voice sounded. I didn't dare look at Eren as Erwin half led half dragged me out of the restaurant. I didn't want him to see the small bit of fear in my eyes as I follow behind him. However, I wasn't expecting his next action either.
"Hey, what the hell is your problem?" Eren asked, the anger if his voice obvious as well as the hint of worry.
"Excuse me, but this has nothing to do with you, so I suggest you stay out of it," Erwin said, letting my arm go and moving closer to Eren. I was shocked at Eren's sudden outburst. He didn't seem like the type to actually defend anyone who was being attacked or bullied, but then again he also seemed like the person who would jump in to save a complete stranger from sudden death. I watched Eren completely shocked as he glared at Erwin.
"Nothing to do with me? You expect me to sit here while you abuse my friend without me having to say anything about it?" So, Eren considered me a friend huh… Is that what we were? Friends? I hadn't really thought about my relationship with Eren as more than just my roommate considering that we had just met each other Sunday. I watched as Erwin's eyebrow twitched with annoyance. He was annoyed, very much so and if I didn't say anything soon, Eren was going to get hurt and a deep part of me didn't want that to happen. I couldn't let Eren fight my battles for me. Especially ones against Erwin. Hange had tried a thousand times but I ended up telling her to stay out of it, that I could handle it when I knew that I couldn't.
"Eren, please. It's okay, leave it alone. I'll see you tomorrow," I said, grabbing Erwin's arm and pulling him away from the brunette. Erwin looked at me with a disgusted face before pulling his arm back harshly. I flinched a little before watching Erwin leave the restaurant and I looked at Eren one last time before following Erwin out to his car.
I'm sorry this chapter end seems pretty bad but next chapter will be much better. C: thanks for reading!