Title: Discover Yourself

Chapter 3: Wedding Bells and Decisions

Rating: T

Summary: Bella and Emmett Swan have grown up with Alice, Ronald, and their older brothers. What happens when in 8th grade, a big change leads to a very interesting high school adventure? Going through the changes of growing up and discovering yourself for who you really are. Crackfic lol.

Type: AH AU OOC; Pairing: Bella/Edward, Other Canon Pairings.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters. They all belong to the wonderful Stephenie Meyer. I just grabbed them and drove them crazy for my own entertainment.

A/N: Just to clarify, Jasper and Edward took a year off to wait for Alice and Bella so they could go to school together. This should focus on Edward/Bella a little more this chapter. All pictures for Bella's wedding things [Rosalie's and Alice's too], including the choices she had that Alice didn't pick are on my myspace: http : // www . Myspace . Com / delilahlovett (just take out all the spaces and copy it into your browser.)

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BPOV

Dartmouth. It was beautiful.

Edward and I were finally living together. We were getting married in December during winter break so that everyone could be there. Our parents had been surprisingly supportive, probably since they had done the same thing as teenagers.

The apartment we were renting was amazing. It was only one bedroom, but it was big like a house. It had a full kitchen, large living/family room, a large bathroom, and the one bedroom there was, was the size of a master bedroom.

It was a rare rainy evening and Edward and I were staying in to make final wedding preparations and to just celebrate being on our own together. It was nice to be away from everything, but we still missed our friends dearly.

We had already picked out our colors, for the wedding. Blood red with white and black highlights. Alice had already set the venue as Edward's backyard since he had a large meadow to use. We still had to get and send out our invitations, as well as pick out the meals, seating charts, bridesmaid dresses, my dress, and the cake.

We were scanning tons of online sites, mainly using Google, looking for the perfect type of dress, cake, and bridesmaid dresses. I found two dresses that were absolutely gorgeous. I didn't want to do the whole white dress thing, so I was doing a blood red wedding dress with my maid of honor in a white dress and my other bridesmaid, or bridesmaids, in black dresses.

I found a bunch of awesome choices for all the dresses and some awesome cakes, so I decided to send all the options to Alice so she could vote on her favorite.

I chose Alice as my maid of honor because, as much as I love Rosalie, she and I still weren't as close, always clashing heads, especially when the topic of children came up for some reason.

See, I didn't really want children. I know, every mother says the same thing until they have a child of their own, but I just felt like I didn't have the time and patience for one. I felt like I already had two in my own parents since I had spent most of my life taking care of them instead of the other way around. I felt I had already had the experience and didn't need it. I could just focus on Edward and me. If I ever changed my mind, I'd rather adopt, because then we could have a child and be helping someone at the same time, and I was all about helping people out.

My position on children bothered Rosalie to no end, but I had yet to understand why. I figured when she was ready to tell me, she would, so I never pushed the subject, since all it did was cause unnecessary tension between us.

I clicked and saved all the pictures into an e-mail and sent them to Alice. Now Edward and I could relax and decide on our dinner for the night. We actually ended up sitting on the couch flipping through the food channels on our dish. I wanted to try something new tonight.

We finally found a show that was explaining how to make cornbread chicken casserole. It sounded and looked delicious, so I wrote down the recipe when they displayed it on the screen.

Edward and I left to get the ingredients from the nearby store.

When we got back I started pulling out the necessary pans and turned the oven on. We made dinner together quietly. There was never an awkward silence with Edward. While dinner was baking I went back to check my emails. I had a message from Alice with her choices.

She had chosen my preferred dress of the two. It was a silky, blood red, strapless number with a big skirt and train. There were little crystal trails along the skirt and bodice, as well.

For the bridesmaid dresses, she chose the black and white ones that were floor-length and had little crystals covering the upper bodices and top parts of the skirts. She, of course, would be wearing the white one, as my maid of honor, and the other bridesmaids would be wearing the black one.

As for the cake, she surprised me by not picking any of the crazy, extravagant cakes. I had put those in there mostly for Alice, but she had picked the simple and elegant one instead. It was a four layer cake, with fondant red roses and white freesias. There was a small, pearl-shaped border around the edges of each layer and a fondant layering over the side that held the resemblance of a ruffled fabric. It had real black ribbon, curled, and streaming out of the top, hidden underneath a small bride and groom that would be dressed in outfits like Edward's and my own.

I closed the laptop and wrote down the choices in the binder. I went over to the kitchen to find Edward pulling out the dinner and cutting out a portion for my plate.

We ate dinner together, in a comfortable silence and spent of the rest of the evening relaxing in front of the television together.

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Before we knew it, we were back at home, the day of the wedding. Alice, Rosalie, Esme, Lillian, and my mom, were running around Edward's room frantically searching for everything I would need. I had my shoes, a borrowed, blue ribbon tied to my panties, an old broach on the front of my dress that my grandmother had passed down to me, and a new set of diamond pins for my hair. I covered all the basics of a wedding.

Alice handed me my red rose and black lily bouquet with a thick, white ribbon, tying them all together. Rosalie pinned in my red veil and my mom touched up my make-up. I was finally ready to walk down the aisle to take Edward, as my official husband.

My dad knocked on the door and I went out to him. Taking his arm, as the moms took their spots on the pews and my bridesmaids lined up in front of us.

Rosalie walked down the aisle first, looking gorgeous in the white dress Alice had picked. She was followed by Alice in her black dress. When it was my turn, my hands started shaking, so I gripped the bouquet tighter to hide my nervousness. Dad squeezed my arm lightly and I made the march towards Edward slowly, although I just wanted to run straight into his arms. I decided it was better if I just made sure I made it down the aisle without tripping.

I made it to the front finally, while Dad handed me over to Edward and took his seat. Our vows went by quickly and soon Edward was kissing his bride. Alice and Rosalie looked on starry-eyes and envious, waiting for their own wedding days, I was sure.

The reception was beautifully done with my cake sitting in the middle of the room. It looked even more gorgeous than I could've imagined. Of course, right when Edward and I went to do the traditional feeding each other, Emmett "casually" bumped into Edward and sent the cake squishing into my nose.

I ended up sneezing the cake onto Rosalie, who was standing next to me, and Jasper, who was recording the whole reception, managed to get it on film. I was blushing and fuming all at the same time. I would kill my brother someday.

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Before we knew it, all our weddings had come and gone. Only sweet memories to look back on when we all got together. It was another Christmas together, just after Edward and my 7th anniversary. We had all graduated college already. All the families were together again, feeling the Christmas cheer.

We were all at the Cullen house for the holidays. Rosalie, Alice, and I were all upstairs wrapping presents for our husbands and parents.

"So, Bella. What did you get Edward?" Alice asked casually, as she pulled a long piece of tape off the roll for the box she was wrapping.

"Oh, this nice watch he wanted and some slippers. He needs them, desperately. He always puts his ice cold feet on the back of my thighs before we go to sleep, so he can 'warm them up.'" I said, scowling down at the watch box.

"Have you thought about giving him something else? You know. Something more...personal?" Rosalie asked quietly.

I blushed, mistaking the meaning in her words, "Uh, well, not here. Our parents are here. And you guys are staying next door. That'd be awkward on so many levels."

Rosalie slapped her forehead, "Not what I meant, Bells. I meant...a child." she said, looking up at me through her long lashes.

This subject was always so touchy. I wasn't sure how to respond to it. I still didn't really want kids, but I knew that upset Rosalie, so why start a fight unnecessarily? I just shrugged, as if I was still thinking about the option.

"I don't know. I mean, it's a thought, I guess. I don't know if he wants to be a father, though. And I doubt I'm ready to be a mother." I said, trying to avoid the usual argument.

"How can you not know, Bella? I mean, at least you can have kids. Alice is a real girl and she can't have kids. I have some of the pieces, but I'm not girl enough to have kids. You're the only one who can have kids, but you're too freaking selfish to give a little piece into a newborn baby's life. How can you be so selfish? Do you not see what you can have? Do you not see that you have everything we have ever wanted?" she blew up at me.

I just stared at her wide-eyed. How could I have not seen that this was the issue all along? I had gotten so used to Rosalie as a girl, I forgot that she didn't have all the needed parts. The doctor had found out that she was one of those hermaphrodites that have the uterus but not the birth canal. She had eggs, but no way of letting it out. The doctor told her that a C-section would be too dangerous, so she was left unable to have children. I cringed from the fresh wave of guilt and remorse.

Alice couldn't have kids since she had a hormone imbalance of some sort that apparently wouldn't allow the pregnancy to continue, causing her to go through painful miscarriages. After the first two, she and Jasper had given up until the doctor could figure something out for her. I felt my mouth form a heavy frown.

I immediately felt extremely guilty. I was the only one in this group of friends, of family, that could give a little piece of myself. With that I made a very important decision. I would give them the best Christmas present I could. Things would be different now. I couldn't stand to see my two best friends hurt by my stubbornness. I could fix this.

And so I did.

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A/N: Yes, yes, yes. This story is beyond weird. But that's the point. It doesn't make sense. It's just some random crackfic idea I came up with one day and decided to post. Hope you enjoyed the chapter. I actually got 4 pages out of it lol. Don't forget to R&R even if you think I'm crazy and dumb lol.

-DL