then few seconds later Neal fell asleep while Satchmo stayed curled up next to him he knew he was safe even though Kate was gone he was freaking out the next day at the office Peter saw Neal start shaking and fighting back the tears while working on a case Peter gave him to help out on.
Peter walked out of his office and walked to Neal's desk and said "you okay neal I know its only been a week since Kate passed away and you will be greiving for a while but soon it will be okay you will feel better" Neal looked up at Peter with tears in his baby blue eyes and said "I cant be heartbroken all the time i mean sure kate was my everything but I wont ever find my picket fence " while tears fell down Neal's face Peter hugged him "I have had nightmares Peter every night since that day i cant sleep its all i can think of "
Peter Rubbed Neals back and said "its gonna be okay you will have rough days Neal but it does get better " Neal said " how do you know that Peter I'll end up alone forever and never find find my picket fence" El hugged Neal when they got home that night " Neal you okay " she said after Neal petted Satchmo "yes elizabeth im okay i miss kate and im broken I mean im not me" the baby blue in Neal's eyes was now full of sadness and loneliness and said"Peter your right family doesnt't show up on your door step after 30 years they are the ones who have been there when you need them you and Elizabeth and Satchmo are my family" Peter and Elizabth smiled and and El Said" Neal your our family too" Neal looked up from petting Satchmo and smiled