Chapter 3: Sixteen and Pregnant
Ruthie POV
The room was spinning and all I could think about was how I got myself to this point in my life. Now, I will be known by the preacher kid who got pregnant at sixteen. I couldn't let that happened. I will not let my dad reputation go down because of me. I needed to think of a plan and one fast since I'm now one month pregnant and I can't keep hiding the symptoms.
Last week, I finally decided to get the balls to tell Martin that I was pregnant and indeed it was his. He hasn't spoken to me since the whole Peter thing and he even has a new girlfriend who will be going to New York with him. Yes, I was pissed to hear that he decided to go to New York for school which made me chicken out and not tell him. I couldn't be the one to ruin his life and he probably wouldn't even think the baby was his.
So, sixteen and stuck I finally pulled my journal out from under my pillow and began to write.
June 21, Mood: Determined
I woke today feeling worse than yesterday. My mom caught me throwing up inside of the bathroom and said that I didn't have to attend church today. So, home and alone with nobody to talk to I have finally decided my plan. I will call Simon and see if I can stay with him. He moved to Las Vegas last year and a senior at LVU graduating with a bachelor in engineering. I don't think I would be that much of a problem and besides since I know a huge secret that he's keeping from the family, I know that he will keep this one. So, it's final, stay with Simon and be a single parent and raise my child. This should be interesting.
XOXO Ruthie
I put my journal back under my pillow and pulled out my phone. I pressed three and it began to ring.
"Hey, baby sis. What's up?"
"Hey, John…You know what you're the person I want to speak too." John was Simon ultimate secret, John has been Simon FRIEND for over three years now and he is like another brother too me , well he is really my brother in law. "I need to tell you a huge secret and I need you to talk to Simon and get him to understand."
I can hear John breathe heavily on the other end of the phone before agreeing.
"John, I'm pregnant."
"Excuse me. YOU'RE WHAT!"
"Pregnant and I don't want to disappoint my dad or have him kicked out of the church or anything because of me. You know church people can be sometimes. I want to stay with you and Simon at least until I figure everything else out."
I can hear Simon ask John who he was on the phone with and tell him it was me. Then, I can hear some mumbling going on and then Simon voice becoming very loud and angry. Yes, John told him my plan before I even got a change of trying to explain myself.
"Ruthie, is this true? You're pregnant."
"Yes, and I want to stay with you. I can finish school, get a job, anything you know I can't stay here dad he's going to be so disappointed I might cause him to have a heart attack." I can feel the warm tears sliding down my face. I never got away with crying with Lucy, Matt, or Mary, but Simon I always did.
"Have you talked to Lucy? She can help. "
"I don't want to tell her she's going to tell everyone you know she can't hold water if her life depended on it." Even though Lucy was my sister who lived right across the street from me she was never good with keeping secrets. "Simon, please you owe me."
"Ruthie, don't throw this in my face. I think they would have a better time coping with I'm gay then you being pregnant by?"
"Peter..." and before I can stop myself from telling a lie it slips from between my lips faster than I can finish my thoughts.
" That's not shocking."
"What does that supposed to mean?"
"Have you forgotten that I was the one who caught you two having sex."
"No."
"What about Peter? Does he know?"
"No, Peter is leaving again. His dad decided instead of him going to high school that he would go to this school for marines. Peter wants to be a Marine all of a sudden. I didn't want to ruin that for him."
"Ruthie, I don't know about this."
"Please."
"Okay. But I have a feeling that this is going to end horribly."
"Thank you, so much. I'm going to convince mom and dad and if they ask tell them that it's okay with me coming. I love you so much."
When I hung up the phone a bad feeling came over me like I should tell Martin it's his baby and let everybody know but I knew deep down inside that was going to be a very bad idea.
I took a really good nap and woke up to Sam face in my face looking down at me. I jumped before realizing who it was.
"Sam, what's wrong with you?"
"Get up, Martin is having a going away party."
"Tell mom and dad that I'm not going I don't feel good."
I can hear Sam scream "She's not going!" down the stairs and walk to his room.
Then I can hear another pair of footsteps coming up the stairs and finally opening my door, it was my mom.
"Hey, Ruthie…Still not feeling too good?"
"No, mom I'm sorry I really don't think I can go to Martin little party."
I can see her give me those puppy doll eyes and sit next to me on the bed.
"Ruthie, I know Martin leaving is really hard on you. I know you loved him more than just a brother. I can see it in your eyes every time you two would be around each other. But I think he would want you there. You two haven't been talking for a long time and I think before he leaves you two needs to have a talk."
My mom always knew me like the back of her hand and this is why I had to go to extra measures to hide this pregnancy.
"Mom, Martin doesn't want to talk to me and if he really cared he would have told me he was leaving and not let me find out from dad. I think it's better if he just leaves and we never talk again." I was trying to hid the hurt but my mom could tell I was about to cry.
She put her fingers through my hair before exiting my room. I bared my face in my pillow and let the tears fall. I couldn't wait to go to Las Vegas and start all over.
I heard a peeping sound and put my head up. It was my IM on my computer.
I got up and went over to my computer screen.
P_S101: Hey Ruth, I need you to do me a favor
Baby_ Ruth: What do you want this time?
P_S101: I need you to come hang with me before I leave. I haven't seen you in forever and I leave tomorrow. I know you're not still mad that I didn't tell you I was leaving but it was a split decision. Please come hang out tonight.
Baby_Ruth: I can't I don't feel good.
P_S101: Fine, I'll be over there in an hour then you can't run from me.
Baby_Ruth: Look Peter that wouldn't be a good idea. You know your girlfriend doesn't already like me so I think it'll be best if we just say our good byes now and leave it at that.
P_S101: Fine bye.
And that was the end of the conversation. Peter and I have been really close friend I was actually planning on telling him until our secret went around the school that we had sex multiple time. He told one of his friends who didn't like my dad. So, he told everybody and since then our relationship have not been the same.
Now, I have nobody out here and I really can't wait to start a completely new life away from all these hypocritical people.
I am officially 16 and pregnant.
Author Note: I know this chapter is a little short but the story is just starting to pick up. Hope you guys enjoyed reading it. Please review. Thanks