Here we are! The third installment! To all you lovers of actual stories, this one's for you! Well, one of the people it's for. I dedicate this lovely fic to one of my best friends. Let's just call her Rezi for the time being. She asked me to write this for her and so here it is! I hope you all enjoy it! A/N: This is a Team Scratch and Sniff fic (Terezi and Nepeta). LONG LIVE THE SHIPS. Nep, care to do the disclaimer?

:33 of course!
:33 demon does not own homestuck
:33 andrew hussie does~ :33
ENJOY~ By the way, this is my first Songfic, so please, please be kind

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Here we are, college days among us, and, as per college stereotypes, my friend/nemesis Gamzee managed to pull me, our friend Sollux, and his best friend Karkat to a club to party, get drunk, and pretty much ruin our college lives and fill them with unpleasant, reminiscing memories of how stupid we were when we were younger. Unfortunately for Gamzee, and, more unfortunate for me, I didn't want to go in the first place. I had wanted to stay in my dorm room and spend a little time to myself and simply think things out. This little time to myself that I coveted so very much has not been granted to me as of late.

So here I am, sitting at a black, marble-topped bar, and on a plush red cushion at the newest and most popular club around: 'RED'. Though the sound of the place was pleasing to the ear, given that my favorite color was its namesake, it didn't feel welcoming in the slightest. In fact, the moment I had stepped in, being guided by Karkat because the crowd was so dense, I felt suffocated within minutes. The smell of sweat, alcohol, and desire had assaulted my delicate nose the moment I set foot within the club.

Give me a second I

I need to get my story straight

My friends are in the bathroom

getting higher than the empire state

Least to say, I was not pleased, but Karkat, being the ever caring friend he was, had sat me down at the bar, ordered me a red margarita, and kept me company, keeping relatively calm for once despite his very short-tempered nature. I sipped the drink and slipped into silence, not noticing much except for the fact that Gamzee had dragged Sollux off to the bathroom, at least I think that's where he dragged him. Considering the fact that my eyesight sucked, he could have dragged Sollux off anywhere and I'd never know.

However after a good fifteen minutes of waiting for them to return, they never did. It got me curious and a little worried as to where our permanently high friend had brought our perpetually bipolar companion to. "Hey Karkles" I spoke up, leaning in so he could hear me over the pulsating, bass-filled music. His red tinted dark brown pools flickered over to me, irritation laced within them. As if that wasn't anything new.
"What?" he replied in a gruff, low tone, straining to get his voice loud enough for me to hear. It was obvious he was as annoyed at being dragged here as I was. Ignoring his snippy reply, however, I voiced my concerns on the missing Gamzee and Sollux.

"Gamzee and Sollux have been missing for awhile. You don't think Gamzee went to get him high do you?"
"Fuck I don't know. That stupid shit is always getting himself fucking high and dragging everyone else down into his delirious state of fucking stupidity" Karkat grumbled, running a tan hand through his dark brown, messy hair. "If he is getting the lisping asshole high, I guess I should go and save him before he ends up running down the fucking street naked and into the college campus" I watched as he drained the last of his drink and slid off the seat, stuffing his hands into his pocket in a pissed off gesture. "I'll be right fucking back. Don't decide to move or you'll get your shit swept up in this tidal wave of fucking lust" he called back and stomped off, presumably to go find Gamzee and Sollux. When I couldn't see him any longer (which wasn't very far), I let out a sigh and turned back around and took another sip on the drink, the alcohol burning down my throat slightly.

my lover she is waiting for me

just across the bar

My seat's been taken by some sunglasses

asking 'bout a scar

I found myself staring off into space, lost in thought. All thoughts of the others were completely wiped from my mind as recent events played out in my head. A frown was etched on my teal painted lips, as the memories turned depressing. The image of her, her usually happy, bright face twisted into an image of anguish and grief and hurt was burned into my mind. I had lied to her, and she had found out. And after she had found out, which was just a couple months ago, she broke up with me. I wasn't trustworthy to her anymore. She couldn't believe anything that I said any longer, even though I had told her that I loved her, and I never wanted to hurt her. Of course she didn't believe me, and that day I lost her. I hadn't seen her in the weeks that followed, and when I did, they were only glimpses of her short, bouncy light brown locks before she was gone. These weeks turned into two months, and I realized that she was avoiding me completely. I let out a miserable sigh. I screwed up royally.

"Bartender! Can I have a Mai Tai?"

I could feel myself freeze. I knew that voice. It was gentle lilt to an otherwise wind chime voice. That sound had been plaguing my mind since the break up. I turned my head and saw her.

Nepeta Leijon, the girl I had lost to my stupidity.

She sat there not two seats away from me in her tight fitting, olive green dress that reached mid-thigh. Kanaya had made that for her birthday, I remembered that. She wore black leggings underneath that were lacy at the end and her cerulean blue high heels. Her hair was curled and framed her fair skinned face, her bright, olive green eyes striking against the black eyeliner and mascara, and the shadowy grey eye shadow she wore. She was beautiful. Her eyes, however, held a miserable, hurt look to them, which made my heart clench in guilt. She came here to forget about me, this I could tell.

God, I wanted to talk to her. I wanted to plead with her, to apologize, to tell her that I was the world's biggest idiot for hurting her. As I moved to approach here, someone else beat me to talking to her first. Dave Strider. He sat himself in the seat between us, his dark glasses glinting in the array of pulsating lights in the club. He leaned forward to talk to Nepeta.

"So, how you holding up with the break up? Heard that shit was all kinds of fucked up"
I felt anger rise up in my chest as his low voice spoke these words loud enough for even me to hear over the music. I watched out of the corner of my eye and gripped the glass tightly, watching him throw me his 'cool kid' smirk of triumph.

Bastard. He was gloating right in my face, rubbing salt into the wound. I gestured for the bartender to come over and peered at him through my red tinted glasses.
"Gimme a Caipirinha" I muttered, annoyance and rage lacing my words. The Bartender looked over at the albino asshole and Nepeta talking, and then went to make my drink I ordered. I was silently seething. How dare he bring himself over here and gloat straight to my face that he was basically going to take Nep away. I wanted to know what they were talking about, and what he was doing. As such, I stole a glance through the side of my glasses and was met with the sight of Dave brushing some of Nep's curled locks away from her face and tucking it behind her ear. I saw him say something to her, but couldn't quite catch it. Whatever it was though, it made a pretty pink tinge grace her elfin face, enticing my rage to flare once more.

And, I know I gave it to you months ago

I know you're trying to forget

But between the drinks and subtle things, the holes and my apologies

Y'know, I'm trying hard to take it back

They kept chatting away, Strider keeping his cocky cool kid smile on his lips as he ordered Nep drinks whenever she wanted them. More and more she down, which made me worried. I knew I had no right to worry over little things like that. That was something her boyfriend or girlfriend or whatever would do. But I couldn't help it. I couldn't help but grow concerned, because she was doing the same thing I did right after the break up; she was trying to drown her sorrow in alcohol. The bartender came back and handed me vodka and lime.
"Looks like you need straight up liquor more than anything" the man said in a low, gruff manner and turned to clean glasses, leaving me to myself. I took the drink gratefully and downed half of it in one go, almost coughing it back up as the liquor burned my esophagus. God, I was disgusting. Pining over a woman I had lost because I was dumb enough to hurt her as badly as I did. My body reacted on its' own, making my eyes look over at her and Strider talking and laughing with each other, her in a drunken stupor, him buzzed. I saw his lips moving before and turned and walked off to God knows where. Her smile disappeared the moment he turned and headed off somewhere else as she downed her fifth Mai Tai in a row. She looked miserable, and God did I want to talk to her more than ever. Drinking the last of my beverage, I took a deep breath, and slid off my seat over towards her.
"Nepeta?"
Her head swiveled towards me, eyes wide and alit with light. My heart dropped as the light in her eyes dimmed they moment she looked at me. She turned away and stared at the empty glass in her small hands.
"What do you want." She asked, well, more like stated in a guarded voice. She was weary of me now, afraid that I would tell her more lies. I knew this. I knew it because I know her and everything that she is.
"Nepeta…" I began as gently as I could, but loud enough where she could hear me. "Nep I'm sorry. Jesus I'm so sorry I hurt you. I never meant to. I was stupid and blind and-"
"I don't want to hear it!" she snapped, making me close my mouth shut immediately. Crystal-like tears beaded the edges of her lashes, close to tears. My heart constricted with guilt even more. "I don't want to hear it…" she whispered, almost to the point where I couldn't hear her.
"Nep please, let me explain-"
"There's nothing to explain Terezi. I can't trust you anymore. Do you even realize how much that hurt? It was like tearing my heart out straight from my chest and stomping on it with a spiked shoe" Her voice quivered as she directed a hardened glare at me. "You lied to me. But worse than that, instead of telling me what was going on you evaded the truth and waited until I found out. Do you realize how…how fucked up it was to find you two banging each other on your living room floor on our anniversary? Our fucking anniversary Terezi! Our anniversary! That had to be the biggest shit bag move in the entire history of shitbaggery!"

I couldn't even manage to utter a word as tears freely fell from her olive pools. Her words stabbed at the guilt already festering within the whole of my body. God she was right. I was the worst. How could I do that to her? I hurt her so much. No wonder why she can't trust me. No wonder why she avoided me like the plague. Seeing me would be a constant reminder of what I had done. And no doubt she had avoided Karkat like the plague as well. When she put it the way she did, I even hated myself. No, hate wasn't even a strong enough word. I utterly loathed myself. I mustered up whatever shred of backbone I had left to make things right and opened my mouth up to speak. But before I could, she fixed me with the coldest glare I'd ever seen come from her and held up her hand, silencing me before I could even begin.
"Don't. Just…don't. I don't want to hear your apologies. I don't want to hear you berate yourself until you can't even stand yourself anymore. I want you to just…leave me alone. There's no hope for 'us'. None at all." She said, her voice holding a slight tremble to it. It was hard for her to say these words. She was a sweet person who never wanted to hurt anyone else, which made it even worse to hear it from her. Nepeta slid off her seat with a slight stumble to her step and disappeared without another word or glance at me into the throng of bodies mashed against each other on the dance floor.

Now I know that I'm not all that you got
I guess that I, I just thought

Maybe we could find new ways to fall apart

Now our friends are back, so let's raise a toast

I don't know how long I stood there, nor did it really matter to me. The world had become a soundless, blurred movie that I couldn't comprehend. Right now, the only things that registered in my mind were her last words before she left. 'There's no hope for 'us'. None at all' A stabbing pain hit my heart. I clenched my teeth and slowly sat myself up on the stool that I started on. I buried my head into my hands, trying to take deep, calming breaths as I tried not to lose composure here of all places.

She really had said that. She voiced what I never wanted to hear, what I was hoping I would never have to hear ever. She made it final. There was no chance of me ever getting her back into my arms. God if there was a word for the sensation that could be felt when one's heart metaphorically breaks, I would be using it. My heart hurt. My whole being hurt. "She was right…I am the biggest shit bag in the world" I muttered to myself in self loathing. I'm such an ass.

Picking my head up from the table, I ordered the strongest drink the bartender had and looked around the area once more, taking into account of all the familiar faces I saw. I realized with grim reality that she didn't need me anyways. There were amazing people much better than me everywhere.

I spotted Vriska, Kanaya, and Aradia in the crowd chatting it up together. Eridan and Feferi were up in the VIP lounge probably talking out problems with each other again, Jade being the mediator. Strider's older brother and Rose's older sister were at the DJ booth simply talking as he spun dance hit after dance hit. All around me, I noticed, were people that Nepeta talked with all the time. Especially Equius, who no doubt would come to pick her up if someone called him telling him that she was too hammered to walk. She had all sorts of people who would adore her and never hurt her. She didn't need a lying sack of cheating shit around her. Crestfallen, I snatched the drink up the moment it was presented to me and chugged it down, getting used to the burn. I felt myself spiraling down in self revulsion.

"Hey Terezi! I fucking found Gamzee and Sol-holy shit. You alright?" I heard Karkat yell over the crowd as he came forward, Gamzee and Sollux on his heels, both looking about as high as a kite.
"I'm fine" I murmured as I stared out into the crowd, noticing Nepeta right away at the DJ booth with Dave, Dirk, and Roxy talking with them. I couldn't tell if she was smiling or not. But then I reminded myself why I even cared in the first place.
"You sure? You look like shit, no offence" Karkat replied, a hint of worry in his words. I couldn't stand it. Stop worrying about me, I wanted to yell. I'm a piece of shit. I don't deserve worry. All I want is...All I want is…
"Fuck…all I want is her…" I muttered, my head laying on my arm once more, obstructing my face from view. I couldn't see Karkat, but I could feel his confused and concerned stare on my back like a burning arrow.

'Cause I found someone to carry me home

Tonight

We are young

So let's set the world on fire

We can burn brighter than the sun

I got up after Jesus knows how long of just sitting there. I realized I had sobered up, even if a tiny bit, making my thoughts more coherent, but still depressing as fuck. I looked around once more, and spotted her dancing with Dave and a couple others on the dance floor. She was stumbling like crazy and couldn't stand straight up without wobbling. And Dave, that asshole, kept letting her drink more and more. I had had enough. Whether she liked it or not, I was going to get her home to sleep off the alcohol before she got potentially raped.

Hopping off the stool, I weaved my way through the writhing mass of bodies and straight up to Dave.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing" I hissed, glaring up at him from the edged of my glasses. He raised a brow and kept his relaxed stance.
"What? I'm letting Nep loosen up and have a good time. She needed it since your crushed her heart like a fucking grape" he replied calmly, not at all perturbed by my glare. That prick…
"She's a light drinker! She can't handle this amount of alcohol! Stop being Dick, back the fuck off of her, and get someone else hammered!" I growled darkly then turned to Nep. Grabbing her hand, and ignoring her yells or protest, I guided her away from the bad influence she was around so she wouldn't be prone to drinking more than she already had.

"'Rezi…Terezi…Terezi! Let me go!" I halted to a stop at her words as she ripped her hand away from mine, face flushed and angry. "Who do you think you are?! I was having fun!"
"You were getting drunk off your ass, and if I hadn't stopped you when I did you would have been in a whole world of trouble!" I shot back, turning to face her head on. I saw her falter at the fiercely protective look on my face. "I'm only looking out for you Nepeta. There may be no chance for us ever again, but I at least want to make sure you don't get gang raped by that albino asshole and his posse of fucking jerk offs." She didn't say a word. We were only staring at each other, trying to make sense of what was going on, perhaps even wondering the same thing, though I could never truly know. She may have been an open book, but I've realized that often times to people who are the most open are the most closed off.
Nepeta took a step forward, her whole body swaying dangerously as she went. She took another stepped, and fell forward. On instinct, a caught her and let out a sigh. "So troublesome…" I murmured gently and situated her on my back.
"M'fine…" she murmured, trying feebly to push herself off my back, but I wasn't going to budge. I was going to get her back to her dorm whether she likes it or not.
"No you're not fine" I replied in a firm tone, making sure my hold was secure before I headed forward. "You're drunk to the point where you can't walk. I'm taking you home. Please…just…let me do this…" I added the part softly so only she could hear. She was silent for a moment before she wrapped her arms gently across my shoulders to keep herself secure as well. Taking that as an okay, I headed out of the club.

Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight
Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight.

I walked on the sidewalk alit with streetlamps at a slow pace. I didn't want to jostle her to much and make her sick. She was quiet as we walked, which was rare for her. She was always the one to make conversation on any given moment in time. Although, I guess, in my case she had nothing more to say to me. A frown graced my lips as I walked at the thought. Shaking my head mentally to rid myself of those thoughts, I made a mental reminder to text Karkat when I got Nep all situated where I was so he wouldn't freak out.

I held Nepeta securely in my arms on my back, but gently, remembering how easily she seemed to bruise. Her head lay gently on my shoulder, her breath fanning against my neck in an even rhythm. It painfully reminded me of all the times we simply spent together, watching whatever it was she wanted to watch. She would always lay her head on my shoulder, and I would fall asleep to her sweet, even breaths on my bare neck. I bit back the sadness that wanted to encase me completely and focused on my objective at the present moment.

"Terezi..." I heard Nep say softly, her words slightly slurred thanks to the alcohol in her system.

"Yes Nep?" I replied gently, keeping an even pace, ignoring the cars as the flew by, creating merely ribbons of light on a shadowed street.

"I miss you..." she said quietly, tightening her grip around my neck ever so slightly, and burying her head farther into my neck. My own grip tightened just slightly as I brought her closer, letting out a soft, sad sigh. God, how I wished for so long that I could have changed what had happened. And to hear that from her...
I bit back everything I truly wanted to say, knowing that she wouldn't pay attention to most of it in her state, and felt satisfied with simply saying,

"I miss you too Nep…so much that it hurts..."

So if by the time the bar closes
And you feel like falling down
I'll carry you home tonight