Run

I walked toward Alice ashamed. She had obviously seen me doing the unthinkable and came to pull me out before it happened. Never had she done this for me before. Sure, Jasper or Emmett, maybe even Rosalie every now and then, but never me.

I didn't look at her as I passed her in the door. This was too embarrassing. My perfect control, not so perfect anymore. What was wrong with me? I walked through the parking lot to our car and reveled in the clean fresh air, removing the scent of his blood from my throat. Alice was looking at me concerned.

"I'm so sorry Alice." I burst. "I don't know what happened."

"It's okay. I wasn't even entirely sure you were going to do anything. But I have never seen it getting so close for you." She sounded worried. When I didn't say anything she reached out and hugged me. I wanted to cry. I hated feeling so helpless.

When she pulled back she saw that I was still taking in deep breaths of the fresh air. Briefly she took a moment and her eyes went unfocused."Bella, go for a run. Clear your head. The teachers won't mind. You're in the clear." She assured.

I smiled at her. Those visions did come in handy. I started toward the woods that surrounded the school.

"Wait. Stop!" She grabbed my arm startling me.

"What!" I looked around searching for danger.

"You can't run in the woods with those shoes." She said exasperated. "Those are designer. The mud will ruin them." I rolled my eyes.

"You are the one that insists I wear fancy things." I said as I pulled them off my feet. "You know I could care less."

"And the thought plagues me every moment." She took them from my hands and walked back toward the school. "Have fun. I'll miss you." She waved without looking back.

Making sure no one was watching, I ran into the forest, picking up speed as I got under the protection of the branches.

This was my bliss. I loved to run; the speed was glorious. If I had just went before class like I had wanted to Alice would not have had to see me "almost" losing control and I would not be running away like a weak coward. What was it about this boy that made him so irresistible to me? Why does his blood smell so good? Why did my "perfect control" break? The thoughts wouldn't stop circling my head. I so wanted to go back to school and watch the boy. Did he think my behavior suspicious? Would he talk to the other kids about me? I couldn't afford to have him talking about me or my family; we have to stay out of the limelight.

I was soon miles away from the school and deep in the forest. Everything here is so green and beautiful. The rain was still going but the thick abundance of trees kept most of the rain off me. I stopped and took stock of my surroundings and my thoughts.

I need answers, and I obviously am not getting any from the trees. Quickly discerning were I was I turn in the right direction and start running again. In almost no time at all I am back near town. I skirt the woods, still running, so no one will see me. When I get to the hospital, I slow down and watch. When I see that no one is around to see me I exit the woods at an inconspicuous spot and head toward the front doors.

As I enter I am the nurses and doctors greet me. They all know me because of my Dad; Carlisle. He is a great doctor, and the best person I know, vampire or human. He has perfect control like me; but where I seem to have gotten it as a "gift", Carlisle developed his overtime through a deep conscious to reject evil.

I weave my way through the hallways, smiling and nodded to the staff. They are all great; I come and volunteer a lot and they all know me.

As I near the area Carlisle usually works in I start focusing; trying to hear him and find out where he is. I am in luck he's in his office alone. As soon as I get to his door it opens. He smiles at me. "Come in Bella, Alice called, I've been waiting."