Soooo uh, I'm getting the feeling that whoever is reading this story isn't really digging it. So here's a short chapter, and maybe if you guys tell me your opinions i'll start making the chapters longer! I'm just not feeling motivated to do so yet...

My mind finally put two and two together. I'm such an idiot for not realizing sooner. Is that why Tegan rejected me? She is, or maybe was, in a relationship with Sara, and didn't want to be unfaithful, so she rejected me. And then she saw Sara and Emy and….Oh God

I looked up at Sara, surely displaying a look of shock, while she looked back at me with fear in her eyes

"I understand if you don't accept us, just please, don't tell anyone out of disgust. It'll ruin everything we've worked so hard for and-"

"Sara, it's not that I don't accept this, it's just, I need to grasp all of the information I took in tonight. Right now, all I'm concerned about is both of your guys' safety. I can worry about that later, but right now we need to get you some water, and find Tegan."

She nodded her head "Which way did she run?"

"Back towards the club,"

"So I'm guessing she went back towards the bus," She said, picking herself up off the ground. I did too

"What makes you say that?"

"Well, where else would she go? We're in an unknown city, and Tegan wouldn't wander off this late at night, it's too scary."

"Good point,"

We drove back to the bus, and Sara ran inside, desperately calling out for Tegan. By the time I parked my car and got on the bus, Sara announced that she isn't here.

"What do you mean she's not here? She has to be! Where else would she go?"

"I don't know! Back in the club maybe?"

The bus door opened, both of our attention was at the door, waiting to see if it was Tegan. It wasn't.

Emy walked on, with a worried expression on her face.

"There you are Sara! I've been looking all over for you. What happened back there?"

"I don't- I don't know Emy. I just realized how big of a mistake we were making and I ran off. I'm really sorry,"

"It wasn't a mistake Sara. Why would you call it that?"

"Emy, I really can't deal with this right now. Have you-"

The bus door opened again, and all the boys stumbled in. Sara stopped what she was saying

"Sup ladies," Johnny greeted them.

"I haven't seen you guys all night! When did you come back to the bus?"

"A little while ago," I told them

"Is Tegan back yet?"

"Yeah, she's in her bunk sleeping though," Sara told them, my eyes shot to her and she mentally told me to not say anything. I get why she said that though, so everyone won't ask questions.

Emy gives Sara a weird look, and then lets out a frustrated sigh.

"I'm going to bed," She tells us

"I'm with you on that one. I'm sooooo tired." Says Ted.

"You guys are all party poopers. I'm going to watch some TV in the back,"

"Me too, as long as we watch The Walking Dead I'm game," Shaun tells Johnny

"deal,"

Sara and I are alone in the front part of the bus now. She sits down at the table and places her fingers on her temple and sighs frustratingly. She doesn't look too good.

"Why don't you go to bed, we can deal with this tomorrow. You need sleep,"

"I'm not sleeping until I talk to Tegan, and see that she's back on the bus and is safe,"

"Sara…I don't think she's going to want to talk to you right away. You need to give her some time. I'll stay up and wait up for her. You really, really need to sleep."

"I don't need to sleep. I just have a headache,"

"I'll get you some aspirin."

I walked over to the cabinent and looked at the variety of different types of aspirin. I chose the one that also acts as a sleep aid, and handed it over to Sara. She needs to go to sleep, whether she likes it or not.

I sat across the table from her, a million questions running through my mind about this whole situation.

"So…..How long have you and Tegan been…uh…"

"Four years." She stated

Holy shit. Four years? Woah….

"I just don't understand!" She exclaimed

"You don't understand?" I'm the non understanding one here,

"I mean….I don't know what caused me to do this…Tegan just makes me so, so perfectly happy….and yet I ruined our relationship by cheating. Who cheats when they're happy in a relationship?"

"…Maybe it was just the alcohol taking over you?"

"…no….it's not that…"

"Then what is it? What are you not telling me?"

"I've always found Emy attractive….that's the only reason I convinced Tegan to hire her as our merch girl and art director….it was an innocent little act I didn't mean to develop a crush on her,"

"Sara, it's just a crush. Don't let a crush get in the way of true love. That is, if you really love Tegan," Oh God, why am I helping her out? I'm not even sure how I feel about the whole sister-sister thing. And she's the one taking Tegan away from me! Why am I helping her again?

I snapped back into reality, to see Sara's bright red face, tears building up. I could tell she was deeply thinking and also holding her breath

"I can't even describe how much I love her." She sobbed,

"You've got to understand that…" She stopped to stifle a sob and get some air in her system

She wept. I didn't ask her any questions, or say anything, because I knew she was going to say something else once she gets a hold of herself

"But I want to Emy and I to give it a try. I want to be able to hold her hand in public, and give her quick little kisses while we walk hand in hand to the coffee shop, and sit with her closely on the park bench. I don't want to hide anymore, and with Emy, I wouldn't have to"

"I get it now, Sara. I understand how you would want that, and I know it's not fair that you can't do that with Tegan, but you're hurting yourself and Tegan by keeping that thought inside. You need to talk to her about this,"

"I know I do…"

She rested her head on the table and sighed.

"I'm…so tired…." She breathed out. The aspirin's finally kicking in.

"I'll wait up for her Sara. You need the energy to talk to her tomorrow, alright?"

"Wake me up as soon as she walks in that door, you hear me?"

"I will,"

"Okay." She said in a small voice. "Goodnight, Lindsey."

"Goodnight Sara"

I waited two hours for Tegan, until I couldn't take it anymore. I was now 6 AM, and I finally let my eyes close, laying down comfily on the couch with a blanket.