Chapter 3: this chapter is dedicated to my Beta insert name here thank you so much. And guys please tell me weather or not you want some chapters in Edwards's point of view?
When I got home I walked into the kitchen, grabbed a bag of chips comfort food and stalked up the stairs into my room, I looked through my very large collection of movies and grabbed out the only movie that could make me feel better, THELMA AND LOUISE! I pressed play, layed on my bed and opened the packet of chips, half way through the movie I threw the remaining chips at the TV. screen.
Thelma and Louise are supposed to make you forget your troubles, make you feel better, and chips, chips are comfort food they are meant to comfort you. Why is neither of these techniques working on me, have I worn out my need of comforting before with Edward hey big surprise his the reason this time to, and renesmee……. The tears started to fall freely, 'I hate it when I cry' I scolded myself, I feel so miserable it makes me feel weak, vulnerable and stupid for letting such a little, ok BIG thing of Edward coming back to town get to me, I am a strong, independent person that makes up my own decisions.
I looked to my right and saw that it was 3:00 School would have been finished; I got up cleaned up the mess from me throwing the chips, pressed stop on the DVD player and put the disc away. LIST OF THINGS TO DO: walk to the piggly wiggly grab an extra large triple chocolate chip ripple ice cream, large chocolate bar, many bags of lollies.
On my way to the piggly wiggly, my phone went off with the ring tone Hilary duff stranger; Alice had sent me a text message.
To Bella
From Alice and Angela
Ey els,
Wt what hpnd happened savo afternoon
Ily al n dang
To Alice and ange
From Bella
Ey al ang
Il tel at mine slmbr prt slumber party
I got fude food u movys movies
Ily2 els
To Bella
From Alice and ang
Ok b there 10
After I got home Alice and Angela were already there waiting for me. "Oh my god Bella what's wrong?" Alice yelled
"Bella why were you acting like a retard that is so not you!" Angela joined.
"oh gee thanks guys, thanks for having so much faith in me" I laughed "but yea I haven't been totally honest with you, there is something I need to explain to you about my past, while I was in phoenix." They looked at me puzzled.
"come on guys lets start a movie and put the ice cream in the freezer, what movies did you bring?" I asked trying to change the subject off me.
Alice started to jump up and down. "Oh oh me first ange let me tell her mine first?" Alice begged Angela looked bored, but then started jumping too.
"no Alice" she pleaded looking just as excited "let me tell her first" the sight was really funny a hardcore rocker chick with killer legs, that knows exactly how to flaunt them Angela. And a little midget pixie girls with really expensive taste in clothes Alice, my best friends jumping around my house, fighting over who's going to tell me which movies they brought.
I placed my left hand on Alices shoulder trying to get her to stop jumping and my right to Angela trying to do the same but failing miserably. 'Ill resort to my voice, great thing I have good vocals'.
"Guys!" they just kept ignoring me "no me" they shouted in unison
'Ill try again'. "Guys" I shouted a little loader. God these guys are such girls, and it's really annoying me. "GUYS" I shouted really load they both looked at me with wide eyes but hey at lease it got them to stop jumping and fighting.
"Why don't we go back to my original plan and I put the I-c-e c-r-e-a-m in the freezer?" I asked like I was talking to a couple of toddlers. They both scowled at me and I grinned back and began my way to the freezer in the kitchen.
They tailed behind me, after my job was done I turned around and looked at my two friends, regretfully, they had massive grins plastered on their faces. 'Oh no make….'
"Makeover" they cheered 'great'
"U-um g-g-g-guys" I whispered I really didn't want a makeover and I feel really depressed. "I really don't feel like that right now, I have something to tell you, something I have been keeping from you all for a while". 'Breath Bella, breath! "I have gone through some big things and they have come back to bite me in the ass" I tried to explain.
They both had worried expressions. "Bella you can tell us anything, we won't, would never judge you!" Alice told me sincerely Angela just nodded her head. I just smiled.
"I know I can trust you if I didn't I wouldn't have told you this much, so Alice what is one of your movies you brought" Alices face was positively glowing. "No Alice just one o-n-e- of your movies" I told her. Angela's face looked murderous expression. I couldn't help but laugh.
"weeeel I brought blade 123, the craft and the covenant" she yelled proudly, Angela if possible scowled even harder. I just laughed harder.
Angela started yelling her stories over my laughter "well Bella my movies are better I brought the notebook, a walk to remember, prom night and fragile".
She laughed I froze at the words 'fragile' I can't stand that movie it hits to close to home. After we got up stairs with the lollies and chocolate minus ice cream we all jumped on the bed except Alice that put A Walk to Remember in the DVD player. Just as Landons voice is coming on at the end of the movie, just before he says that Jane had died over the summer Alice pressed stop with the remote.
We always do this just so the movie has a happy ending. Angela went to go changer the movie but Alice grabbed her arm we both gave Alice a confused look. Angela tried to struggle out of her grip. "No ange" demanded sternly even I sat back 'weird'.
"Bella is going to tell us, the reason why we are here, im guessing" giving me a quick side glance.
'Oh great this is going to be just as hard as it was when I told mum I …… not going there Bella'. They were both staring at me waiting for me to continue. I nodded my head and bit back the tears that were threatening to fall, they both saw and came and sat closer to me.
"im sorry guys" I croaked my voice breaking "its just the first time I have ever talked about other than with mum, I haven't even told Charlie." I laughed bitterly with a few betraying tears fell. "I met this guy my sophomore year at phoenix high he was a football jock you know typical school quarterback" more tears flowed down my cheeks; the girls started rubbing my back, showing what little support they could.
"He was the most gorgeous guy in school and I was just an average girl, average….." I cringed "average cheerleader" I heard the two gasp but I went on. " I wasn't in love with him as much as the other girls and I think that's how he never noticed me I wasn't continually fawning over him, I kept to myself except when there was a game on" I breathed this is harder than I thought. "I was staying late one day after school and in the science lab picking up my assignment when HE walked in" they looked at me waiting for me to continue. "He was running away from the rest of the cheer squad" I laughed "apparently one of the guys posted a fake newsletter about how he is looking for a date and for 'chicks' to catch up with him after school".
Alice was still rubbing my back and Angela was looking at me like I was just caught torturing her cat. "Bells please tell me you didn't enter that thing?" Alice begged and Angela nodded. 'What is she mute?'
I laughed "quite the opposite he walked in and started to barricade the door not realising I was in there, he noticed me after I cleared my throat extra load just for his benefit. He finally noticed me and ran over to me and clamped his hand over my mouth, obviously thinking I would squeal by just the sheer presence of him" I rolled my eyes and the girls laughed nervously.
"well I didn't like someone I didn't know touching me so I tried to squirm out of his grip but it only made him hold on tighter, so I elbowed him in the groin, lets just say he let go real quick. So after that we began talking and he told me he was a junior, he seemed like a really nice guy and we started to date, I got kicked of the cheer squad" we all laughed.
"After a couple of months we really began to fall, well correction I really began to fall for him, I loved him so much and he said he returned it" I scoffed. "because I loved him so much I gave him the only thing I could think of……" the girls looked at me confused "I you know with him….." they still looked at me confused "me and him had sex!" I told them rather loudly. They both looked at me with a mixture of horror and amusement, 'confusing'.
"In the middle of the summer holidays he told me he joined the 'marine corps' and he would be leaving at the beginning of my junior year, so he would be going to war instead of doing his senior year" Alice had a tortuous look on her face, she looked really upset like she wanted to tell me something but couldn't. "Al are you ok?"
She looked back at me and smiled weakly, like she was pondering something. "Yea im fine" she's not fine I'd ask her about it later.
"so after he left we kept in contact for a while like letters weekly, phone calls every day, but after a couple of months he just wouldn't call or write, so of coarse me being the nieve girl I am, thought oh he is just really busy, he'll call when he gets a chance." Alice looked rather angry know, I wonder why?
"Alice are you sure you're ok?" I asked her my voice still quivering from the reliving of the past.
"Yea im fine bells just continue!" she encouraged
"So out of the blue one day he calls and I am just so happy that he was calling, I dint think there would be a reason behind it" I was in tears by now, with Angela trying to wipe them away ferociously but they just kept coming.
"You don't have to continue if you don't want to" Angela told me, but I wanted to, I needed to this was the only way for them to understand, what I've been through.
"No, I need to, I want to!" I tried to explain, Angela nodded
I cant remember what I aid or much of what he said but I remember him saying 'im sorry'" I mocked angrily "he dumped me and I didn't tell him because I didn't want to seem desperate, I dint want him to come back to me if he really didn't want to. He hurt me so much I just didn't want him to know" I rambled
It was Alice that spoke up this time. "What didn't you want to tell him?" she asked really nervous. I looked down at the bed away from their questioning glances "I was pregnant" I whispered low enough so they couldn't hear.
"What?" they asked in unison.
I looked up into there faces and looked down again. I could feel the tears coming back only worse than before. "I was pregnant" I told them louder than before.
I only heard two gasps for breath and then Alice's eyes go really pale and her falling off the bed.
End of chapter 3
Please review and I hope that covered up the questions about Edwards's age and about him going to war… please, review!! They make me happy!
Mwah Emma
P.S I lost my beta, I wrote down their account name but I lost it and its not stored in my computer so please beta I don't know your name yet please PM again with it and you can do your Beta powers on the next chapter!! Thank you and im sorry, I hope this story is better at the spelling than the other one… it is a lot longer and last night I was really tired so there I have an excuse!!
Mwah again Emma