Hello again everyone! Thanksie for stiking wit my story for soooo long I know it's a lil tedious  I think it'll get better soon….i hope at least! PLEASE REVIEW…it makes me happy!...omg this chappie took me soooooo long ARGH! I have a headached and its like midnight…wowow angst is fun to say but reaaaaally hard to write!

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Shuichi, who was sitting on the ground, curled up in a ball, was being closely watched by the angel. His eyes were tightly squeezed shut, and despairing moans were heard coming from him now and then. The angel's eyes softened at the sight of him, and his heart twisted at the ordeal that he had to put Shuichi through. He was brought out of his thoughts by Shuichi's voice.

"Umm…excuse me? What's your name?"

"Why do you want to know? You won't remember me, regardless of your decision, and we will almost definitely not meet again."

"Well…I just wanted to know, since you saved me and all…I thought………well…nevermind…"

The angel looked at him with a strange smile on his face.

"…It's Logan"

Shuichi smiled at him… "Logan? Isn't that an American name," a look of understanding passed over his face, "ohh…I see now, you ARE a foreigner."

"Not really, but you can think of it like that…have you made your decision yet Shuichi?"

The smile dropped off of Shuichi's face.

"I just…I don't know what to do…either way SUCKS!" His eyes flashed up, "What should I do I don't know oh man I don't know what to do ahhhhhhHHHH!"

"I can't make your decision for you…this has to be all your choice."

Shuichi hung his head.

"I know…and I choose…life."

Logan sighed with relief…he hadn't thought that Shuichi was going to be smart enough, but apparently he had underestimated him.

A thought occurred to him, and he glared at Shuichi.

"Just so you know, this same sequence of events will happen even if you meet Yuki at a later time…Were you thinking that you were still going to meet him through Tohma or someone, and you two could fall in love again? That cannot happen. Listen to me Shuichi. Choosing life means giving up Yuki…for life."

Shuichi's face fell…it was obvious that he had been counting on that very thing to happen.

"Can you…will you…tell me something?"

"What?"

"If I never met Yuki, would he have…hurt himself…or worse?"

Logan searched Shuichi's face. "Will this affect your decision?"

"Yes"

"Ok, I will tell you this: If you die, Yuki will very likely kill himself. If you never meet…he will not have a reason to. He will merely keep his memories oppressed, showing only the cold side of himself to everyone."

"W…will he find love?"

Logan just looked at Shuichi. "That, I cannot say."

Tears welled up in Shuichi's eyes again. He already knew what his decision was going to be, but he didn't want to say it out loud. He was afraid of the finality in his voice.

"Then I choose…I choose…" Shuichi's voice trailed off into sobs. When he had finally gotten his emotions under control, if only for a second, he clenched his fists, and stared Logan right in the eye.

"I CHOOSE TO LIVE!" As the last of his scream died away, he saw the bright flash of light again, and felt his body spiralling out of control…

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(A/N I wasn't sure which meeting scenario I should use for them, and I finally went with the one from the show, cuz its easiest to describe….sorry if that bugs you!)

SLAM!

Damn writer's block! Yuki crashed his coffee mug down on the desk as hard as he could, only succeeding in spilling the burning liquid all over himself.

"FUCK!" Shaking his hand around to cool it off, he knocked over a framed picture that was sitting on his desk.

"FUCK!" The broken shards of glass sprayed across the floor, and the photo slipped out from the frame's sides.

"What the fuck?" Yuki examined the picture: two cute blond boys with their arms over each other's shoulders were smiling at the camera.

Apparently Tohma had paid him another secret visit. Well, this wasn't as bad as the last time, when he had thrown out all of Yuki's clothes, sheets, and food, and then hired someone to buy him new stuff…he was still returning some of the crap that he didn't need.

Deciding to go for a walk to clear his head, he grabbed his coat and ran out the door.

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Shuichi stumbled to a halt, and sat down on the ground hard. "I CHOOSE LIFE!" His scream still echoed in his ears, as he pulled himself up to his feet. Sorrow weighed down on his heart, making it hard for him to breathe.

"Oh Yuki! I chose life…I chose life…without you…did I really make the right decision?"

Tears started streaming down his face. Shuichi stumbled over a nearby park bench, contemplating his course of action. Every second of the day that he had met Yuki was burned into his mind, andShuichi knew that the second he had seen Yuki, he had fallen for him.

"I…I don't know if I can do this Yuki! I don't know if I can bear to forget you! I don't think I'm strong enough!" Loud sobs were torn from his throat. Logan's voice echoed in his head, foretelling Yuki's suicide.

"I…have to do it. I have to save Yuki and myself. I have to run right by him, not look him in the face…and never look back.

A violent sneeze threw his head back against the bench, and he knew that the time of their meeting was approaching. He peered around the bushes and saw the shadowed character walking towards him.

An idea occurred to Shuichi…one that would be safe, and would be completely anonymous. He grabbed a pen from his pocket, and searched for a piece of paper. Coming up with only the one that had his new lyrics written on it, he shrugged, and flipped the paper over to the back side. In neat black characters he wrote: I will always love you…

Waterfalls were pouring from his eyes by now. He grabbed up the paper, and tore off in the direction of Yuki. Pausing one more time, he scribbled a tiny message on the inside of his hand that read "No Yuki" so that he could give himself some kind of warning in the future.

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Yuki walked through the park slowly. He took a deep breath of the polluted air, and coughed. Footsteps echoed in the air towards him, but he was too busy searching his pocket for his pack and lighter.

A sobbing voice caught his attention, and he looked up just in time to see a pink blur flash by, and drop something by his feet.

"Hey, wait!" The person half turned around, so Yuki knew that they had heard him, and then started running even faster away from him.

Yuki shrugged. It wasn't his problem people dropped their shit. At least he tried, which was more than he would normally do. Picking up the paper and studying it in his hands, he realized that it was lyrics to a song. A really bad song.

He chuckled to himself. This was awful, like something a 12-year-old would write. But the person flashing by had been pretty small…he flipped the page over, and read the simple sentence on the back.

"I will always love you…ha!" Yuki laughed out loud to conceal the uneasy feeling in the pit of his stomach. A strange sensation, of loss came over him, and he almost felt like crying, which he hadn't done in six years. A crazy thought came over him, and he almost turned around to follow that person, but he reasoned with himself.

"I'm just tired, that's all…I am stressed out, strung out on caffeine and alcohol, and I really need sleep." But he still couldn't shake off the strange feeling.

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Shuichi ran sobbing through the streets. With each step of the way, his memories got a little fuzzier, and he could remember less and less about Yuki. Stopping outside of the train station, he took a deep breath, and leaned against the wall. He could remember almost none of his times with Yuki, but he still knew what he had to do. Taking another deep breath, he straightened his clothes, and squared his shoulders.

"Goodbye…Yuki."

And with that he slowly took one more step forwards. Smiled as a great weight was lifted off his mind and heart. And collapsed into a dead faint.

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Phew! My fingers hurt! Wowo….sorry about mistakes my spellchecker only picks up half the stuff it should have…PLEASE REVIEW I WILL LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY! I EVEN DON"T MIND FLAMES!