So, I said I would post this yesterday, but work got in the way of that one. Also, I realize it's been awhile since I updated this, but I did say they wouldn't be frequent. I do have a lot of ideas for the rest of this story and I have the full ending
Anyway, thank you for everything, especially for this story. It really is my favorite to write. So, the reviews and everything are amazing.
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"Good morning," Kendall says, running a hand through Logan's hair as he feels him stir awake.
Logan slowly opens his eyes looking up from Kendall's chest to stare into those green eyes, smiling. "Morning..." he yawns, stretching and trying to wake up fully. "So, what do you have planned today?"
"Who says I have anything planned?"
"Well, one, you're Kendall and two, the fact that it's our anniversary means you have something up your sleeve, something you won't tell me about."
"You know me too well."
"A year and a half too long," Logan jokes, laying back on Kendall's chest.
"Hey," he pokes Logan in the side, making his squirm in his hold and slap his hand away.
"You know I love you," he mumbles.
Kendall sighs lightly, going back to running a hand through his hair, "I do. I love you too and since it hasn't been properly said yet, Happy Anniversary."
Pushing himself up, Logan leans down to give him a light kiss, "Mm, Happy Anniversary...So, what's for breakfast?"
"You could cook something, you know?"
Logan thinks about it, before sitting back on the bed, "Fine, I will. Frosted Flakes, Cheerios, or you're Fruity Bunnies?"
Kendall raises an eyebrow, "Do you even need to ask?"
Chuckling, he leans over to kiss Kendall once more before climbing out of bed and heading to the kitchen.
After a couple minutes of cabinets and the fridge being opened, Kendall hears Logan call that breakfast is served.
Smiling, Kendall jumps out of bed and hurries to where Logan is setting two bowls down. He's ready to have the best anniversary ever.
"Why aren't you asking a million questions?" Kendall asks.
They've been driving for thirty minutes and Logan hasn't asked one thing about what they're doing.
"Because I figured I would just go with it and not over-think your surprise."
Kendall practically gasps. A year and a half of knowing Logan and he always asks questions. He loves when Logan asks questions.
"But-didn't we discuss this awhile ago, that it turns me on when you do that?" He smirks, hoping to make him change his mind.
"Who says I want to turn you on right now?"
"That hurts, Logan."
"You're driving anyway, so just keep driving."
"Why must you always be a smart-ass?"
Rolling his eyes, Logan reaches over and punches him lightly in the shoulder.
"Hey! I'm driving. Don't injure the driver, buddy."
"Just hurry up and get us there already or I'll get out and walk."
"Well, you don't know where we're going."
"Then I'll hitchhike and have some very friendly man take me back to his home," he jokes, smirking at Kendall.
"Very funny." Though, Kendall doesn't even really want to think of another person touching his Logan. Ever.
While Logan hasn't asked anything about where they're going, he desperately wants to know. His mind has been asking all the questions he wouldn't let leave his mouth. But obviously, his brain, like Kendall, wouldn't give him the answers.
Though he does know vaguely that they will be swimming in some form, since Kendall told him to put on his swim trunks. So, at least he figures they will be outside. And by the looks of the State Park sign they just passed, they will be in a park.
"So, we're here. Sort of."
"What do you mean 'sort of'?"
"Ha! You asked a question."
"Well, I have another question. Is it gonna be fun finding a new boyfriend?" Logan crosses his arms over his chest, but is fighting to keep from smiling.
"Pfft, I'll just call up, Julia."
And even though he knows Kendall is joking, it doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt. They're all still friends, but everything that happened before they got together, still lingers in his brain. "That's not funny."
Kendall pulls the car onto the side of the road, hearing the seriousness and hurt in Logan's voice. "I know, I'm sorry."
"No, I know it was a joke. It's just..." and Logan sighs, he really didn't want to have this type of conversation, especially today, but he can't just blow it off now. But he's struggling to find the right words.
Kendall can sense that too, so he turns to look at him, his hand cupping his cheek, "Logan, I love you, you know that."
"I do. I honestly do. It's just that sometimes I don't understand why. I ruined your relationship with Julia and you could have anyone. Any girl, any guy. I don't know, it's stupid."
"Do you really believe you ruined what I had with Julia? Because you weren't the problem there."
Sighing, Logan turns away from Kendall to look out the window.
"Where is this coming from?"
"I don't know. Like I said, it's stupid."
"Well, the fact you think I could do better is stupid. You're the best out there and I don't want anyone else."
Finally, Logan breaks his view away from outside, to turn to Kendall. He doesn't know what to say, because he does believe, but doubt still lingers in his brain. Or maybe it's still just a fear that is in his mind.
"Are you afraid I'm gonna leave you? Or what?"
Logan can only shrug back at him.
"Logan, I'm never gonna leave. I wanted you for six months and we've been together for a year. Why would I give all that up now?"
"Yeah, but for six months you stayed with your girlfriend and it took us kissing to finally get you to do anything about it." It's harsh, but Logan hated those six months, especially when he finally accepted how Kendall felt. And having to see Kendall with Julia and he never wanted to ever say how much he hated that Kendall was still with her, even though he didn't want to be. He never wanted to admit his jealousy.
"I know, but...I was an idiot. I didn't want to lose either of you."
"You were going to."
"What does that mean?"
"It means, if you had kept going between us, Julia and I both would have stopped trying. She and I have talked about it before. Because I was so set on just being friends with you, since I didn't expect you to give me anything in return."
"Wait, you and Julia talk about me?"
"I'm dating you and she used to date you. Of course we talk about you," Logan gives a small smile, trying to lighten the mood, even just a little.
"And I'm assuming it's not all nice things?"
"Eh, for the most part, it is."
"And you didn't think I was ever going to end it with Julia?"
"It wasn't necessarily that, I just stopped thinking you would ever want more than friendship with me."
"Why?"
"Again, six months of you staying with your girlfriend and not showing much for me."
"Are you crazy? How could I have showed you I wanted you more? Anytime anything nearly happened, you stopped it and we talked all the time, texted all the time. You're the one who pulled away from me."
"Breaking up with Julia would have been the most obvious way to show me, and not after six months. And I wasn't gonna make you cheat on her, even though you did. Besides, how was I supposed to feel? I kept thinking 'okay, maybe he likes me,' then I see you off with Julia and still no sign of ending it."
Kendall lets out a heavy sigh, "I know. You don't know how much it killed me to see the pain in your eyes every time you saw us together."
"Then why wait so long?"
"Because I was being...selfish. I was afraid if I broke up with her, she'd hate me forever and if I stayed with her, you'd hate me forever. I felt like I couldn't make anyone happy."
"It's not like I wanted to ruin your friendship with her, but I hated being in the middle and you sleeping in a bed with me, nearly kissing me like a ton of times, but with no prospect of anything serious."
"Like I said, I was selfish."
"Yeah," Logan sighs.
"Logan, I'm sorry. I really am. I wished you would have told me all this earlier though, instead of bottling it up for so long."
"It's not like I think about it all the time. Normally it doesn't bother me, but...maybe it's just because of what today is."
"But shouldn't that show you that I only want you?"
Finally, Logan turns to look at Kendall, fully turning in his seat, "I don't doubt it so much, it's...I think it's just occasional jealousy." He might as well admit it now.
"Jealous? Of Julia?"
"Yeah, you guys have been friends for so long and she was with you longer. It's...I hate being jealous, but sometimes when you two are together, you have all your inside jokes and it just reminds me that you guys were together before me."
"And we have our own jokes. Everyone does. So what if I've known her for years, you're the one I want to spend the rest with."
"You're just saying that to stop the fight."
"We're not fighting, we're getting stuff out in-wait, you don't believe I want to spend the rest of my life with you? Logan, seriously, what is going on?"
"How can you be sure it's gonna work out a few years down the line? You and Julia eventually grew apart."
Kendall shakes his head, but is smiling as he looks at Logan. "You're ridiculous, you know that? What I feel for you is completely different than how I feel and felt for her. I'm gonna want you forever and if for some reason, you don't, I'm not gonna stop fighting for you."
"Yeah you will, because you'll find someone better."
"No, I won't."
"Yes, you will."
"Logan, shut up." And Kendall is pulling Logan to him, pushing their lips together. It's the only way he could think to get him to stop talking. Besides, he needs to show him just how much he means to him. "I love you."
Pulling back, Logan looks to his eyes, uncertainty filled in them, "For how long?"
"Until the day that I die and then some."
Logan stares at him, trying to gauge if it's the truth. But Kendall doesn't lie to him and he knows he loves him. It just must be one of those insecure days for him, where he questions everything. He's totally fine with Kendall showing him he loves him, though. "Prove it."
The growl Kendall lets out makes Logan moan. Wel,l that and the fact that Kendall's mouth is on his neck, probably giving him the biggest, deepest mark ever. Wanting Logan to know forever that Kendall wants him. "Get in the back."
And just that alone is enough to make Logan crazy, but suddenly, he remembers their surroundings. In a car, in the middle of a state park, where anyone can see them. Especially since it's daylight and the windows aren't that tinted.
But Kendall's too impatient, he is practically pushing Logan to the back, before climbing there himself. And while Logan is worried about someone catching them, seeing the look in Kendall's eyes is kind of making him forget everything else.
"Kendall...we...shouldn't..." he breathes out in between gasps, because Kendall's hands are on him and God does Logan want to feel those hands against his skin, but his brain won't shut up about how wrong this is.
"Just let go for once, Logan. Please?" Kendall's desperate, he couldn't care less about where they are and besides, they're not way out in the open. The road they're on is slightly deserted. And one way or another, he is making Logan forget any doubts he may have had.
By hearing Kendall's plea for him to just go with it, Logan can't help but do what he says. Besides, Kendall's always wanting to try new places for them to be together. So with that, he pulls Kendall down on top of him as he lays in down in the backseat.
Hands are grasping everywhere, getting every last piece of clothing off each other. And Kendall is definitely glad they're both wearing swimming trunks, because now they don't have to deal with underwear being between them.
Once everything is off between them, Kendall settles in between Logan's legs and brings his fingers up to his mouth and Logan takes them in, moaning around them.
And Kendall could die from the sight alone. Logan's always gorgeous to him, but to see him spread out in their backseat, sun lightly shining on him, with the sweat gleaming, and those eyes completely and utterly filled with lust. Yeah, Kendall could die happy having that image ingrained in his brain forever.
"I love you. God, so much." Kendall can't even think while preparing Logan and he was supposed to be the one making Logan incoherent, not the other way around. But Logan really did listen to him and is completely going with this moment. He hasn't seen him so relaxed during sex in awhile.
So, sliding into him is even more amazing than it's ever been. If that's even possible. But then again, any time they are together, it seems better than the last. And by the way Logan is practically yelling his name, he's assuming it's just as amazing for him and maybe now, all that doubt has been washed away.
With every perfectly aimed thrust, Logan moans louder and Kendall can tell that neither of them are going to last long. He never thought having car sex would be this fantastic. The last time was years ago with Julia and it was awkward and painful and just all around not good. But this, this is brilliant. Logan always seems to make things so much better than he ever thought possible. Especially seeing Logan's face completely filled with pleasure. He knows how he's going to convince Logan to have sex with him anywhere now.
Their hands are everywhere. Logan's keep making trips from Kendall's hair down to his back and anywhere in between. And Kendall has one hand holding himself up, while the other strokes Logan to the edge. Because they're both near it and once Logan's over, Kendall can't help but follow. Logan is just too perfect around him.
They both try to get their breathing under control, while Kendall rests their foreheads together. And Logan finally looks into his eyes and Kendall can't see any doubt in there, so he's hoping he's washed that all away for now.
Kendall can't completely understand Logan's feelings, because he never met any of Logan's exes. Mainly because Logan only has one ex and it's from when he was fourteen and he only dated the girl for a week. But he supposes, if Logan had been with someone for three years and he had seen six months of it, he'd be jealous too. Though, he's fairly sure he'd end up ripping that person's throat out if he ever saw them touch him after. He may get a bit possessive. But only a little bit.
Once he can breathe again, Kendall peppers Logan's chest and neck with kisses, while whispering "I love you" in between each one. He will say it every second of every day if he has to, to get Logan to see how much he means it.
As he reaches his mouth, Logan pulls him in, pushing their lips together as if he still needs some reassurance. Or maybe Logan just wants to kiss him some more, but he's not gonna complain.
"I love you, Kendall," Logan whispers as he pulls away from him to stare into his eyes.
"And I love you. Okay?"
Logan can only nod, while Kendall begins to sit up, because as much as he would love to stay in this car with his boyfriend, he still has plans for their day.
Slowly, Kendall begins to find his clothes, which the car has become littered with. But then he glances out the window, with wide eyes. "Oh shit, it's a State Trooper!"
"What?" Logan panics, jumping up and ultimately hits his head on the roof of the car as he rushes to get his clothes. But when he hears Kendall chuckling next to him, he turns to see his boyfriend full on laughing. Then it dawns on him, making him just glare at Kendall.
"Your..face," he barely gets out in between his laughs.
"God, I hate you so much." Logan leans over and shoves Kendall away from him.
Kendall rolls his eyes, before grabbing Logan's waist and pulls him to his side, "Bullshit. You love me."
"I don't know why I stay with you," but he's fighting to hide his smile.
"Because I'm the most amazing, gorgeous, and sexy guy you've ever met."
"Yeahhhh, that's why."
And now it's Kendall's turn to shove Logan, but he goes back to holding him right after and kisses his neck, making Logan sigh.
"So, what's the plan for the rest of the day?"
"Hey, we've already fucked, what more do you want from me?"
"I hate you," Logan mumbles, to which Kendall just laughs and starts to actually get dressed.
"You love me," he sing-songs. "But once you get dressed, I can actually do what I planned on doing today."
"Like you didn't plan this. You were just waiting for the right moment to attack me."
"Yeah, sure. Pretty sure you faked being all insecure to make me attack you."
Logan laughs while picking up his clothes and tries to get dressed in the small area of the car.
"But seriously, Logan, I love you. So much. And nothing will change that."
"I know."
"Do you? Because I can show you again just how much you mean to me."
Chuckling again, Logan shakes his head, "No, we need to get out of this car soon. Besides, I want to know what your plan was."
"Fine, but when we get home, we can do this again."
"Deal."
Both of them climb back over the seats once dressed and after Kendall starts the engine, they drive about a mile down another road, before pulling up to an area with about fifteen other people.
Some have tents set up, some are grilling, but all of them are enjoying being by the lake. Because not far in the distance Logan can see Lake Travis or at least what he's sure is Lake Travis. He's seen enough maps of Austin to figure out which one this was.
"So, we're going swimming?" Logan asks after they've parked and are climbing out of the car.
"Yes and no. And before you ask what that means, just follow me."
They head over to where the expanse of water is at and Logan notices that the water is kind of far below them, so they must be at some cliffs or something. But before Logan can wonder why they're not heading lower, Kendall runs off and jumps off the cliff.
Logan is completely frozen in his spot. Did he really just see Kendall jump off a cliff? He has a suicidal boyfriend. Logan knew Kendall did crazy stuff, but why would he be so stupid? He knows there's water below these cliffs, but how does Kendall know if he jumped off the right spot? Or that there were no rocks below him? Oh God, Logan has just watched his boyfriend plunge to his death.
"Are you just gonna stand up there?" Logan's dead boyfriend's voice breaks him out of his thoughts.
He rushes to the edge,cautiously and looks down to see Kendall floating in the water with the most annoying smirk on his face. "Kendall, you are insane! You could have died!"
"Pfft, I've been coming to these cliffs since I was a kid. I know where to jump from."
Logan can only shake his head, there's no way Kendall is getting him to do that.
"Come on, jump."
"No way."
"Why not?"
Staring at Kendall incredulously, Logan shakes his head again, not understanding how Kendall can be so crazy. "Because I could die."
"No you won't. I survived, besides Logan, I'm right here. I won't let anything happen to you."
"You wouldn't be able to save me if there was a giant rock below me or if I suddenly slipped and fell down the side."
"Logan, stop being so ridiculous and get down here." Normally, Kendall wouldn't push him so fast, but Logan won't do it if he doesn't. And since he's still in the water and Logan's above him, forcing him to do it from down here is the only way to.
"Can't I just climb down into the water?"
"It's more dangerous that way. You'd be more likely to get hurt climbing down than jumping off." And it's true, it is much more plausible he'd slip trying to climb down, then if he was to just go straight to the water.
"Kendall...I can't," he practically whispers, but it's just loud enough for Kendall to hear and it almost kills him to hear Logan so scared.
"Yes, you can. Look at everything you've done so far, you can do this and once you do, you'll never want to stop. Plus, I'll be right here waiting for you."
Logan bites his lip, staring down at him. There is so much he's done in his life because of Kendall. In just eighteen months, he did more things than he'd done his entire life. Kendall forces him to live his life to the fullest and while Logan knows Kendall wouldn't actually make him do something he didn't want to, Kendall knows what Logan needs to do. He wakeboarded because of him and while he was terrified at first, he loved it. And they have gone back out before, Logan's getting better at wakeboarding. So, maybe Kendall is right about this too.
Besides, he doesn't want to be so lame that he just watches Kendall have fun. So, with that, he takes a deep breath, before running off the edge.
He's never experienced anything like this. The wind rushes past him and it feels like he's in the air forever, but also like it was a second, which it really was. His whole body hits the water in an instant and water shoots past him as he moves deep in the water. And he's pretty sure half the lake has gone up his nose.
But soon, he starts to float up and uses his arms to get to the top faster, because he does need to breathe. Gasping for air once he's above the water, he looks around to see Kendall, but doesn't see him anywhere and he begins to panic. But before he can freak out, he sees something on the cliff that catches his eye and it's Kendall lounging on the side, that's slightly submerged in the water.
Kendall smirks, before jumping back into the water and swims over to him and wraps his arms around his waist, kissing him lightly. "I moved out of the way, not knowing where you'd jump. But what did you think?"
"It was-my arms hurt."
Chuckling, Kendall kisses Logan again. "That's because you were flailing them when you jumped. You gotta keep your legs straight and your arms to your side. Or else it hurts like a bitch."
"Why didn't you tell me this before?"
"You're the genius."
"Idiot."
"Aw, we're the Idiot and the Genius. We're perfect for each other."
Logan rolls his eyes, but smiles up at Kendall, who's still holding him, while they're floating in the water. "But it was kinda fun."
"Kinda?"
"Okay, it was really fun."
"Told you...You want to go again?"
"We have to climb back up the cliff, don't we?"
"Someone's using their noggin."
Logan pushes Kendall off him, before swimming back to the rocks. But Kendall beats him to it and climbs up first, showing Logan all the holes to put his hands and feet. Once Kendall gets to the top, he holds his hand out, to help pull Logan up.
"You want to go together?" Kendall asks, smiling over at Logan, while still holding onto his hand.
Nodding over at him, both boys run to the edge of the water, before letting go of each other's hands just before hitting the water. And this time, Logan keeps his arms to the side. So, this time, it doesn't hurt all that much.
They continue like this for hours, occasionally sitting on the rocks, letting the water splash up on them, while resting from constantly climbing up the cliffs. But always going back to the top to jump off.
A few other people join them jumping and Logan hasn't had so much fun in awhile. Kendall really does know exactly what Logan needs. And he can't believe that this morning he was doubting their relationship. It's so ridiculous for him to think, but Kendall constantly shows him how much he loves him. He's always been there, showing him the world and letting him live life. In a way he never thought he would.
When he hears Kendall ask if he's ready to go, because he still has to show Logan even more just how much he means, Logan smiles and he really is fine with Kendall proving his love to him any time.
He'll always have that tiny part of him, that's jealous of Julia or wonders if Kendall will ever get bored of him. But Kendall could have anyone, yet time and time again, he shows Logan that while he could have anyone, he only wants him. And Logan will always love Kendall. So, with both of those facts, Logan is sure they'll be together forever. Or at least he hopes.