Dear Stacie.

16th October 1982

My darling Stacie, this was written when you were 4 months old, when you said your first word. 'Bang', that was what Mary said it was. She said that she had no idea why you said that, but she was happy. When she called me to tell me about it, I was over the moon. I didn't know if it was classed as a proper word, but that didn't matter. I'm not going to tell you about that, Mary has probably told you about the whole thing.

I was sent a photo of you, the one with you in the basket and a bow in your hair. Mary said it was taken professionally. She said that she was going to put it in a big frame in the living room and put it on the wall. She was ecstatic on the phone. I only wish I could have that experience.

I still don't regret giving you up. Your father and me are living with my parents, the house is small though. It wouldn't have been right for a new born baby to grow up in, let alone two. I don't know if I should have put a picture of your brother in this envelope, but I did. Your father told me not to, because it might upset you, but neither of us have met you, so we don't know how you would feel about it. I'm sorry if this makes you upset.

We both love you.

11th July 1983

This was written just after I got an ecstatic call from George, explaining that you have just taken your first steps. You were just over a year old. I received another photo of you. You look so different from your last picture, a lot bigger with more hair. Your eyes are the same though, big and blue. I cried at the picture, as I did with the last one.

I just think it's amazing how someone can grow so fast and then be able to stand on two feet and walk. I wish I could have been with you. But like I wrote before, it doesn't feel right.

We both still love you.

6th September 1985

This is the day we received a call that you will be going to nursery school. We were told that the school will be situated down the road from our home, so it was important that we moved. We thought it was for the best, I couldn't face seeing you in person. Mary and George insisted that we stayed, but I couldn't bear the fact that I will be so close to you and not be able to speak to you, as I might not be able to control my actions.

So, we moved to Manchester, in a little village. We live in a small house, with two bedrooms. I said that we should have two bedrooms because I wanted a child. I wanted a baby that we could actually keep this time. I know I sounded selfish, but Philip understood. We had gotten married and thought it would be right. I still regret giving you away, now that we are both 20 years of age we are more mature. We would be able to look after a child now more than ever. But, then again, we were sixteen then, and 20 now, so there is a big age gap and we might not have been able to look after you then.

But, just yesterday, from when I wrote this, Phil had received a call from the mother of the two people who I had given Sean to, there was a problem. Both of them had severe food poisoning. They were both moved to hospital because there body temperature had risen to 43 degrees celsius. We were asked if we could take back Sean and keep him. I said yes without hesitation. The couple who I had given Sean to were very good people, but I wanted you or Sean. I needed one of my children. So, Sean is now going to live with us in the second room. He looks like you, just his nose and lips, the rest of his features are more masculine that yours.

We love you, even though we have no idea what you are like, but we love you. Even if you were a mad fire starter, it won't matter. You came from me and the man I still love, so you still get my love.

Catherine Kelly and Philip Curt

x

Dunno why I didn't right this quicker. I just got back from work experienxce and have been out with my friends when I put the last chapter up, I am having a lazy Sunday and decided to right this. I am so not looking forwards to school tomorrow. I'm only there for 2 hours! Wtf is the point in that? But, then i get to kick back for the summer, yay!

Anyways, next chapter should be up soon. I'm actually getting a life and going out and about, so I can't promise it will be up really soon. Smiles :)