"Stop right there, that's exactly where I lost it. See that line? I never should've crossed it. Stop right there that, I never should have said that it's very moment that I wish that I could take back."

Who I am Hates Who I've Been by Relient K

I said it.

Over a voice message after we separate ways in the night of the school festival.

"Hey… yeah, so I hope yah had an awesome night tonight. Anyway, I've wanted to tell you this but I seriously… like you so please, can we talk about this? I mean, I need to talk with you about this. So… goodnight…"

The anxiety washed through me like a frost arrow shot through me, leaving creeping frostbites in its wake.

Not long, a little after midnight, you replied.

"We should talk about this. On Monday. It's better if it's personal."

The frost arrow seemed to assault me after that and the frostbites slowly numb my heart away.

I couldn't say that the start of the day was fine.

We haven't talked at all.

Let alone keep eye contact for more than two seconds.

So in the closed confines of the library, side by side, we talked.

The way you pleaded me to stop. The way you told me that I know that you already like someone else. The way you emphasized that I was your best friend. And the way I won't look at you in the eyes.

I knew I had to stop.

I was the one in pain. I was the one loving. I was the one who endure those nights of talking you through your crushes. I was the one who was hurt.

But did I consider you?

No.

Never have I thought that you already knew. Never have I thought that you're trying your best to slap me gently with reality. Never have I thought that you were only doing what was best for me.

You always thought about me even when I haven't thought about you or your feelings at all.

Yes, you rejected me. You let me down as gently as a best friend could that I nearly disgust myself with who I became.

I wanted to ask you.

I wanted to ask why I can't be an exception.

I wanted to ask why I can't have a chance.

I wanted to ask why I can't prove myself.

I wanted to ask why I can't be him.

But a thought came to my mind.

Yes, I like you—I probably even love you—but us in a relationship?

Never have I thought about that.

If we got together, we'd soon break up, and then what? Pretend that everything is the same?

I wanted you to be mine but at the same time, I felt like I'm caging you.

Trapping you in my fantasies.

I knew I didn't love you anymore.

I was in-love with the thought of us being together.

Loving you for the past months was the greatest happiness for me so far but also the greatest pain so far.

A lot are still coming to my life.

But you were the beginning and the realization on how hard it can be.

So I thank you for that.

And I'm sorry if I caused awkwardness in our friendship.

But now, I want my best friend back.

I want, what we had before my mess, back.

I've been stupid.

Stupid that I read the same page of happy memories over and over again.

Stupid to not realize that there are many more pages after that.

I know the ending.

I'm just stupid enough and brave to actually face it.

It's time to start a new chapter.

And I hope you're still there; as my best friend, sister, band mate, protector—until I finish writing my story.

A/N: Credits to Relient K to their song. I'm sorry if some people are against song-fics but it just suited my story perfectly that I just had to write it down.

And this is concludes my three-shot. Oh and if you were wondering who's POV this is, this is all Ritsu's POV. She likes Mio but Mio doesn't. One-sided MiTsu~ Oh and Mugi likes Mio too but kinda got over her seeing that it happened months back. Ritsu helped in Mugi's confession to Mio, just in case you were kinda confused with the last chapter.

To be honest, I'm not particularly feeling good with this chapter. It feels like it's not enough but I hope that'll do.

That's it and I please leave me a PM or a review if you want me to do another one or something but another angst with a little bit of romance.

If yah want some MiTsu fluffiness and lemony-ness, check out mah other story, Magnetic Pull of the Opposite Poles which can be located in my profile. So, imma wrap this up now.

Laters humans.