I stare into space for quite a while. Breathe in, breathe out. I get up from my bed and decide that I will take a walk at the Hogwarts grounds - no matter what the rules say. I am emotionally unstable, and I need to overthink or else my mind's going to explode.

As I pass through the hallway of beds, I notice Lily sleeping so soundly. She looks beautiful even in her sleep. She's probably dreaming of Scorpius right now, dreaming about how happy they were, how happy they are, and how happy they will be. Probably dreaming about their dream wedding and the family they will be making. I shudder at the thought of it.

I walk further.

Everyone seems asleep. I sneak into Albus' bedchamber and try to find boxes from under his trunk. He doesn't seem to hear me because of his loud snore, so I take my time finding the one thing I'm looking for - the Invisibility Cloak. Since James has no use of this said cloak, he passed it on to Albus, - and believe me when I say, it took Albus months of persuading him.

Surprisingly, I find it underneathe a pile of papers, along with the Marauder's Map, unsecured and crumpled. I would hex Albus if ever he wakes up because it's damn annoying to just place something really valuable in a common and unsecured place. And anyways, these stuff are precious. James could've given me the cloak and the map instead.

Albus and I are best friends. I promise to return the things I've borrowed when I'm through with it.

"I solemnly swear that I am up to no good," I whisper, pointing the tip of my wand at the parchment. It never fails to amaze me whenever the small text and my own footprints move, or how everything in this map is accurate. I put on the cloak and head outside the common room.

I walk down the staircase, pass the Great Hall, until I reach the gate. The gate is left open - probably Filch is doing rounds again. I carefully and quietly walk outside, very cautious so as not to make noise. I feel the harsh wind gushing against my skin, so I pull the cloak tighter around me. I pass through Hagrid's hut, notice the lights were turned off, and continue walking in a slow pace until I reach my destination.

And finally I am here, by the lake. The one place I go every time I feel melancholic - every time I want to be alone or feel alone.

So why am I here? I don't know. I feel suffocated and trapped in a certain impasse. It's different now. I used to be happy and cheerful - because at that time, I had my best friend. I had Scorpius, the one person I've always wanted to share my life with. The one person I can be myself. The one person I'm willing to jump a bridge with and have no regrets at all (we both won't do it). And he's gone now. He's with Lily, and I can't do anything to make them stop. But how can I? I love them both, and I don't want to ruin their relationship for the sake of my happiness. So what I'll do now is to stand my ground and wait for some invisible force to move me on.

Ah yes, that is impossible. Because really, how can you move on when you're still in love with that person? How can you be happy when someone you love hurts you without him knowing it? How can the end be happy if you aren't included in the Happily Every after scene?

What the bloody hell. I'd give anything to make this feeling stop.

I pick up a rock from the ground where I'm standing, and throw it in the lake out of my frustration. I pick up another one and -

"Who's there?" a cool voice calls out from behind.

It hits me - I am a stupid person, throwing rocks in the lake in the middle of the night. Worse, with an invisibility cloak. What an idiot, Rose, what an idiot.

I hold my breath, casually breathing if I have to, and I don't move. I recognise the man behind the voice, of course. I mean, who wouldn't recognise the voice of the one you love?

"Albus? Stop playing games, mate. You know you're not allowed to be at the grounds at this time of hour," he says.

Apparently, he thinks I'm Albus, since Albus is the only one who has the Invisibility Cloak. I am very tempted to talk to him, and tell him that I am me, but again, some invisible force hinders me to do so.

"Potter? Are you still there?"

Alas. I can't help it anymore. I remove the cloak that's wrapped around me, and I muster a sigh of desperation. Scorpius is standing before me, unable to believe that Rose Weasley broke the rules.

"Hi Scorp," I say, looking down so he won't see my red eyes caused by crying.

"Rose? What -?"

"I can explain," I sigh. "I need to think."

"Think about what?"

"Things."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No."

"Okay then," he says. We become quiet for quite a while, staring at the still lake.

"Er, Rose?" he smiles shyly. "Since we are best friends, do you mind helping me out?"

I smile. "No, not at all. If it's homework -"

"No," he replies immediately. "I need help. Lily. Tomorrow's our anniversary."

I manage a smile. "Advance happy anniversary, then."

"I'm nervous, Rosie. I want to give her something unforgettable, you know, because I love her. And we've been in this relationship for a year tomorrow. But what will I give her?"

"Something she loves. Take her out to dinner, watch those fancy muggle movies, cook her something. Just be with her, you know? You'll be alright," I advise, regretting ever helping him in the first place.

"Hm, you make it sound so easy. I've never thought of that," Scorpius chuckles. "Well then, thanks Rosie, you really are the greatest friend ever."

He hugs me - tight.

And he lets go, smiling at me like an idiot.

I smile back at him, saying, "And so are you. I'm going to sleep now. Good bye, Scorp. Happy Anniversary."

"Thanks again, Rosie. But don't ever go here again at night, I may have to report you the next time you do this," he laughs.

"Thanks for the reminder. Good bye," I turn around, put on the Invisibility Cloak and head straight to the common room.

As I lay my head down on the pillow, I have come up with a generalization: I think I may have to frequent my visits to the lake. My heart got broken again, and now I have all the reasons to cry.

I'm updating this instead of studying for the examinations tomorrow. I lack motivation. :|

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