Thank you so much for the reviews! This is from Jeremy's point of view:
I quickly dressed careful not to wake what's her name. I didn't bother, she was hot, had huge breast and I knew would easily give me what I wanted. I tried to find my pants but I ended up stubbing my toe on the bed and I cursed.
"Where are you going?" what's her face asked sleepily from the bed.
"I'm sorry my sister called and needs help with something," I lied.
"Oh," I heard her say and I could almost see the pout on her face, "Will I get to see you tomorrow?"
"Sure, I'll call you," I lied I just wanted to get out of there.
I quickly gave her a kiss so she wouldn't follow and bother me with questions. I hurried to my car and drove home feeling guilty. Before anytime I would sleep with a girl I didn't mind staying with them and having sex with them for a few weeks before leaving them for a different girl. Now I couldn't stand being with any woman more than just to sate my lust. It was strange how things had changed for me.
I guess that happens to everyone. I thought of Embry and his past before he met my sister. We'd used to go out to clubs and bars together, sometimes local and sometimes taking the trip down to Seattle and Port Angele's. Now he was a married man to my sister. As I drove home guilt flooded me like it always did. I felt as though I had just cheated on someone. It was stupid, I had been single for ages and didn't promise and girl a serious relationship.
I pushed these thoughts out of my mind as I got home, took a shower, and collapsed in my bed. The next morning I forced myself out of bed, I wasn't working today but I was having lunch with my sister Sam. We hadn't much time together since she had married Embry. In all honesty I missed her and we had grown close during the time we had lived together before she got married. I brushed my teeth and put on a clean pair of jeans and a blue sweatshirt. I met Sam at a small diner.
"Oh Jeremy I've missed you," she said smiling up at me after she gave me a long hug.
"I've missed you too, but you are a newlywed and I'm sure you two have been busy," I said teasing her.
"Yes," she said blushing and looked down.
"Let's go eat sis," I said putting my arm around her.
We sat and talked while we waited for our meals.
"So what are you up to today?" I asked.
"Not much," she said before hesitantly saying, "I am going to the movies with Leah tonight."
"You're going to the movies with Leah," I said slowly not quite believing her words.
I blinked at Sam. Leah, I didn't know how to explain her, she was different. She was always so warm with her brothers but with others she would clam up. There was something in the way she interacted with me that really, really bothered me. She didn't like to be near me for long periods of time and if I didn't know any better I'd say she was ignoring me.
The fight we had the other day threw me for a loop. I respect Leah for the things she could do with a car. Not many women, or heck men for that matter, could do some of thing things she could do with a car. I watched her that day become frustrated with car she was working on and decided to ask her if she wanted my help. I watched as she stood and looked at me with fury in her eyes before she started yelling at me.
I didn't know what happened or what I was saying before she stormed out of the shop. I ignored the rest of the guys and left the shop myself going out the other door so I wouldn't run into her. I was so mad. What in the world did I do to her to make her so mad at me to where she didn't want to talk to me, ignore me, and then yell at me for trying to help her?
I didn't understand it. I also didn't under why I was so bothered by her giving me the cold shoulder and treating me the way she did. I guess it was because in my mind I hadn't done anything wrong. She wasn't one of the women who I had slept with and then left without a word.
"Yes," Sam said twirling a piece of her hair on her finger, she looked worried.
"Why?" I bit out.
"Well Leah and I are becoming friends I guess," she said.
I snorted and looked out the window. I looked back at Sam as I heard her sigh. She looked sad for me and I was unsure why.
"You alright there Sam?" I asked.
"Just thinking," she said shaking her head, "I know you and Leah don't get along and I'm sorry I brought her up."
"How'd you know that?" I asked.
"Embry," she said.
"I should have known," I said, "He tells you everything."
"He does," Sam said smiling as she thought of her husband.
A wave of sudden jealousy hit me, I wish I had someone to tell everything to. I ignored the feeling and took a long drink of water.
"You alright there bother," Sam asked me.
"I'm alright sister," I said smiling at our nicknames we sometimes used.
"Don't worry brother," she said, "You'll find someone soon."
"You sound so sure," I said before I could stop myself.
"I have reason to," she said smiling.
"If you say so," I said shaking my head.
We finished up our lunch and I ended up walking around the shops near the diner before I went home. That evening I put the game on but I couldn't focus. I then realized how lonely I was. I didn't have anyone like Sam did and I felt the ache in my chest because of it. Just as I took a beer out of the fridge I heard a knock at the door. I opened it to find Embry standing at the door holding two pizzas.
"Hey man I was hoping to catch the game with you," he said smiling at me.
"Sure I have it on," I said moving so I could let him in, "I'll grab some more beer."
We settled in the living room, our eyes glued to the TV while we watched the game. After the game was over I stood to throw away the boxes. I came back inside to see Embry leaning against the kitchen counter.
"Hey Jeremy?" he asked.
"Yeah?" I said.
"Are you doing alright man?" he asked.
"Did my sister put you up to this?" I asked.
"She did," he said chuckling at me.
"I'm fine," I said, "Just a lot has changed, I feel like I am changing too."
"It is," he said.
We lapsed into an uncomfortable silence.
"You know we are here for you man," Embry said clearing his throat.
"I know," I muttered.
"You are like a brother to us," he said.
"Thanks that means a lot to me," I said, "Just…I've started to feel lonely now."
"I can understand that," he said, "A lot of us are," he paused trying to find the right words, "are finding our other halves now."
"Right," I said.
"Maybe you should quit going to the clubs man," I said.
"It's not that easy," I said.
"I guess not," he said, "For me it was. I saw your sister and I just knew I wanted to stop, I knew I had to. I knew I loved her more than anything."
"I wish it were that easy for me," I muttered.
I looked at Embry and he had strange look on his face.
"What is it?" I asked.
"Nothing," he said quickly, "Just thought…just thought that things would change by now."
Strange I thought.
"But stick it out man," he said, "I know that things are going to change for you."
"I wish I felt so sure," I told him.
He clasped my shoulder and I did feel glad that he was here for me, I was glad for the support.
"Thanks," I said not wanting to meet his eye.
Embry left and I went up stairs to be early. My phone started to vibrate and I looked at the phone. In a way I was tempted to answer the phone from another faceless, nameless girl to gain comfort. I put my phone down, I knew that if I did answer it that I'd end up feeling guilty and alone in a couple of hours. I turned over and feel asleep feeling lonely anyway.
That night I dreamed of holding a lean, muscular body against me and feeling happy as I felt her holding me back.
I didn't think I'd get this chapter out this fast but I hope you enjoy seeing into Jeremy's mind a bit. Please let me know what you think.