Continuing is helping me.

I like hearing your thoughts on whats going on.

I really don't understand it.

Maybe you guys do?

Don't forget my story! Literally

Disclaimer: I dont own Bella or Jacob.

BPOV!!

It was late. I couldn't sleep. Again

My sleep patterns were messed up. I would go to bed at like one and sleep till 12.

I decided...to try again. To see if me and Jake were friends or not.

Did you tell your friends right away when you found out you were moving?

He always answered my questions. I had no idea why he would bother but he did. Thats another reason I used to like him so much.

He answered not to long later.

Why?

That wasn't surprising. I told him I wanted to know if I should tell my friends that I was leaving. He said I should tell them...but not to say I was 100 percent sure. I agreed.

He didn't respond. I then realized something.

Had I ever said thank you to him? I asked.

Not once.

You have no idea how bad I felt. Yes he got mad at me at times. Yes were had so many fights you'd be amazed. Thats true..but hes been there too.

He's listening to me whine. Hes listened to me cry. He's answered every question Ive ever asked and Ive never thank you.

So I did. The text was long and ended with me apoligizing. I had said...I'm sorry for being so...ungrateful.

Don't be its ok.

It wasn't okay. Well to me it wasn't. I told him I was stupid for not thanking him for being there.

Its ok seriously its no problem.

I will never understand this boy. (Megan_Cullen123 do you understand jay cause I dont!?!)

It never will make sense. Why is he so nice to me? Even when I don't deserve it. I told him I thought he was to nice. He then asked if that was good or bad.

To me its both. I love that hes nice to me when he is. But I also...don't like it because...its confusing. I asked him why he was so nice.

I waited and didn't get it was responce. It was about 11:20. I waited. Hoping to get a responce.

I know he wasn't asleep. He didn't sleep at night. I don't know why but he never does. He used to spend that time texting me. Which is kinda what hes doing again.

When my phone beeped I jumped. It was so quiet the noise scared me.

Well its just something about you.

What does that mean? I asked him if it was a compliment. He said it depends on how I look at it.

I decided to take it as a compliment. I thanked him which Im going to do more. The whole conversation was just plain confusing. Does he care?

Why does he care? Are we friends?

I'm scared to ask.

I don't want to ruin this. I missed him.

I missed being able to talk to him about pointless things. I missed being able to tell him something and him not judging me. Which is what happened.

We somehow ended up talking about the dying celebrites. He said its the end of the world and we were going to die. I told him I didn't want to...anymore.

His responce.

Excuse me?

I said nevermind. Even though I did mind. This was the one thing he didn't know about me. He knew pretty much everything. Except for my old stupidty.

Yes just tell me.

I told him. I told him what I once was. Expecting him to think I was nuts. Instead...he didn't.

Well it doesn't matter to me.

I said it doesn't?

Well no because you said once so that was in the past and 2nd its ur life im not going to tell u the choices to make or not make.

I was speechless. (for the 1st time ever!!) I responded with something I'd be saying alot more.

Thank you.

Well?

I'm going to update alot on this.

that happened. last night/this morning. lol