I'm"Black, don't talk to me" Growled Remus. Sirius sighed. It had been one month since he had told Snape Remus's secret. One month since The Marauders has shut him out of their lives. "Remus please...just listen!" Sirius pleaded. It had also been
a month since The Marauders stopped listening to him. They didn't know he had been tortured. They would probably never know. "I won't listen Black" Remus hissed. "I know what you told Snape!" "But you don't know everything!" "I know enough!" And that
was the end of that. Sirius looked away so Remus wouldn't see the tears forming in his eyes. "Honestly Black" drawled a voice coming closer. "You really think we would forgive you?" Sirius looked up to see James looking him in the eye. "Because we
won't" He continued. "We don't forgive filthy little traitors. You're no different from your family. The Sorting Hat must of been stupid!" James shook his head like he was trying to rid the Hat of whatever stupidity he thought it had shown. "Sorting
you in Gryffindor! Honestly! That would have to be one of the most stupid things I have heard. Blacks belong in one place. And you are the Blackest Black I have seen in a long time". The room was silent. Everyone knew that there was a fight going
on between The Marauders and Sirius, but this had gotten bad. Very bad. Sirius was horrified. He felt a lump form in his throat. "You don't mean that..." He rasped. "But I do" Sneered James, "I mean everything I say" "But..." "So I mean it when I
say that you're a waste of life Black. No one loves you. No one ever will. God I understand your mother now Black! That's how bad you've become. Now get out of our lives before I have to do it for you!" Then he stormed away. Sirius choked on tears.
"Fine!" He yelled. "that's it. I'm a Black! But one thing about Blacks is that they feel. The feel hatred, anger, sorrow! You don't know how it feels do you? You don't know what it's like to feel like not to be loved. And if u don't want to know me
than fine. You won't have to know me. Ever again!" And with that Sirius ran up to the dorm, ignoring the confused looks on The Marauders faces as he ran by. His mind had been fighting a life changing, no life losing decision all week, and James had
just helped him with the answer. Carefully on 3 bits of gold plated parchment (A gift from his parents before he was sorted into Gryffindor) he copied out the following messages:
Dear James,
Today you showed me something that I was blind to. A Black is always a Black, wether they like it or not. You helped me make an important decision today. I'm sorry for interfering in your life, and I hope it's now happier without me. I just want you
to know, that night I wasn't at dinner. That was because Snape was putting the Cruciatus on me. That's how he got the information. I've wanted to tell you this for a month now, but I suppose it's to late for all that. I want you to know you were
like a brother to me, and I love you. I hope you forgive me when I'm gone, and remember me with a smile, not a sneer.
Love you forever Prongs
Sirius (Padfoot) Black
Dear Remus,
Today marks 29 days since I betrayed your trust. 29 days since the worst choice of my life. That choice was going down to the dungeon. Snape was ready, and I had the Cruciatus Curse out on me. I refused to give in until he used Maxima. I'm sorry Rem,
I couldn't contain myself. I had to end the pain. I know you'll hate me forever now. I'm sorry. I loved you, and always will. I hope you know that. This was a hard choice to make, but thank you for helping. Don't blame yourself Remus.
Farewell Moony
Sirius (Padfoot) Black
Dear Peter,
I haven't much to say apart from "I'm Sorry". Sorry for everything. Sorry for making you hate me. I understand that you'll never forgive me for hurting Remus, but the truth is, he wasn't the only one who got hurt, apart from emotionally, I was hurt
physically. With the Cruciatus Curse. Snape did it. That's why I gave away Remus's secret. He put me through it to much. As well as breaking my arm, Snape did Maxima, and I can't describe how much it hurt. I know it's no excuse though.
Goodbye Wormtail
Sirius (Padfoot) Black
Sirius reread the finished products 3 times each, and once satisfied on the outcome, he placed each one on the pillow of whatever Marauder it was addressed to. He remembered as a child joking about his last words. But know it seemed so real, because
it was real. He took a deep breath and with his wand, conjured a sharp knife to appear. He sat in his bed, and held the knife above his right wrist, and then sliced a deep cut across the major vein. He watched as the blood started coming thick
and fast. He repeated the same thing on his left wrist. "But I should make sure this is done properly" Sirius thought to himself. He lay his head down on his pillow. "Farewell James, Peter and Remus. I'm so sorry..." He chocked back a sob as tears
started falling as fast as the blood onto the sheets. "I hope you forgive me now that I've said goodbye". And with that, he shut his eyes and plunged the knife into his chest. He didn't register the Marauders coming in to the dorm.