Hellow everybwody. Sorry it took me so long to make this, I was sick. Again nobody probably reads the top part, but this time it'll be a little harder. So yeah. I just finished and realised how detail some parts are whoops.

Chapter 3

My Heart Pxxnds

Horror is really my type, they say that if I get over it, I'll be inspired and unstoppable. I don't really know how to suppress fear, if I'll never be in control.

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SudDenLy I feeL A ShArp pAin in my arms. It hurts a lot as I push myself out of bed. Yet the pain is some how satisfying, like the pleasure resides in me somewhere deep, unchangeable. I see a knife on my ce-bedside table. I slowly examine it, it's so familiar but I know I've never seen it in my life. I just-

I admire the beautifully carved and lightly tinted blue handle. It's elegance and presence makes me smile everyday, annddd I begin my daily routine. I save every last drop of the crimson colour in the jar, looking in awe, the pigmentation is one of a kind and beautiful.

I take my book called portrait of makarov and knife and just another normal day, but today I feel the presence of something new. Like there was a light of sunshine that will come to me if I do something right. I felt really excited to go to the literature club today. Not many people know but when introverts are with their close friends, it makes them feel good. Monika seems to understand us all, she gave us something important and safe.

When I look at Monika and the other girls, I feel a certain connection, like I've seen them before, I can assure you they think the same about me. Though Monika makes me feel a little odd. She's confident, smart and beautiful, too perfect to be true huh? She gave me weird vibes, like she knew things. She knew how to comfort me and hints at how our, nevermind, I shouldn't be reminding myself, therapist says it's not good for me.

Sayori comes over, Sayori, I like. Unlike Monika, she has tolerance and empathy, I mean Monika's smart and understanding, but she never seems to put her feet in others shoes.

Sayori exclaims loudly in her slightly deeper voice than Natsuki "YURI! This sweater is so cute and so you! You'd totally pull off the whole outfit, I heard the pants are super comfy, I heard from the reviews."

For some weird reason, maybe because I like Sayori, I am drawn to the sweater, I loved it. It's like how I knew Sayori would understand me, she's like a perfect split of Natsuki and me.

"Sure I'll buy it at H & M tommorow (do they have H & M in Japan? Pretty sure they do.)"

Sayori squeals in excitement, it makes me feel good to make Sayori feel good, wait what. Sayori always feels good doesn't she? She's perfect?

Oh and Natsuki, don't even get me started on your cutsie wutsie ways you try to manipulate people.

Okay, hope you enjoy, sorry it took me so long :)