A/N: As always, I don't own any of the characters.

Hank and Noah were getting along well. Lucy had gone back to New York to pack, so Hank took some time off of work. Hank decided to book a trip to New York for the 2 of them. Once they arrived and got checked into their hotel, they decided to go to the Precinct. This would be the first time Hank had been there since Olivia's death and he wasn't sure how he'd handle it, let alone Noah. They got out of the car and went up. It all looked familiar. Fin, Amanda and Carisi were still at the same desks. Fin was now in charge but couldn't bring himself to move into the office. No one had even cleared the office of Olivia's personal items. They left the door shut and locked all the time.

"Hey."

"Hey, Voight. Good to see you."

"You too."

"How are things goin' with you and Noah?"

"Pretty good. He misses her like crazy."

"How do you think we feel? We haven't even been able to clean out the office. I refuse to move into the office. I can't."

Amanda took Noah from Hank.

"Auntie Mandy, how's Jesse?"

"She's doin' good."

Hank sat down and then Erin, Tucker and Chief Dodds came in.

"Hey, Hank."

"Hey."

Erin hugged Hank.

"Sergeant."

"Chief."

"Sergeant Tutuola, meet your new SVU Detective."

"Lindsay, are you sure?"

"Yeah. I've always wanted to work for SVU. I really wanted to have Liv be my Boss. Ever since we first met, she became a Mentor to me. I want to do this for her."

"Welcome aboard, Erin."

"Thanks."

"I'm proud of you, kid."

"Thanks."

"Sergeant, can we talk for a minute?"

"Sure. Noah, I'll be back, ok?"

"Ok."

Ed and Hank went into the conference room to talk.

"I wanted to thank you for letting me know that you were going to be here. I've kind of missed Noah since Liv and I broke up."

"No problem. He asked to see you."

"Is he doin' ok?"

"He has his good days and his bad days. Thankfully Lucy is staying with him permanently, so I don't need to worry about trying to hire someone to stay with him. Nighttime is when he has the hardest time. Some nights he goes right to sleep and other nights he won't go to sleep at all."

"There would be times when I'd stay with him when Liv would get called for a case. He wouldn't go to sleep until he heard her voice."

"Sometimes all it takes is me telling him about what I remember most about her. I usually end up telling him about times we worked together."

"Did you love her?"

"I did have feelings for her but I never officially told her. She wrote me a letter explaining why she chose me to take care of Noah and she told me she loved me then."

"I would have to have been completely blind not to realize that she was in love with you. She talked about you a lot even when we were together. You knew about the hostage thing from about a year and a half ago, right?"

"Yeah. She told me about that when she came to Chicago a month later."

"She said she often wondered how you would have handled that. She also said that when Yates was accusing you of doing stuff to Nadia, it really bothered her. If she didn't have feelings for you, it probably wouldn't have bothered her so much. I don't know why she never told you how she felt or why you never told her how you felt."

"I thought about telling her how I felt but then she told me she was in a relationship with you. We talked all the time because I told her she could talk to me about anything. A lot of it was about your relationship and the doubts she had."

"How long did she have doubts?"

"For a while. She knew she was wrong for never disclosing the relationship."

"We were both wrong."

"She said she sometimes felt that if she said or did the wrong thing, she's lose her job."

"I knew about that. I haven't always been the easiest person to get along with. My relationship with her is why I gave up IAB. Even if we aren't still together, I'm glad I gave it up. I should have done a better job of keeping in touch with her after we broke up. I wish I could have been here for the funeral but my aunt was very ill and wanted to see me before she passed. She was in Ireland, so what choice did I have? I probably needed to be here for Noah though. You came in I take it."

"Oh yeah. My entire squad was here. Erin took a job with the FBI here and was on assignment when Olivia was killed and for the funeral. They were pretty close."

"Yeah, I heard about that. Olivia spoke very highly of her and all of you for that matter. I met Erin at the cemetery. I got the call from Chief Dodds and I'm glad he didn't just leave a message about what had happened."

"I got the call from Barba. He could barely get out that she didn't make it."

"He wouldn't have called me. That's for sure."

"I'm not one of his favorite people either but he knew that I'd want to hear it from one of the 4 of them."

"None of them particularly liked that Olivia and I were together. I can see why though. I thought it would be a little awkward meeting you but I'm glad she left Noah in your care. He's a good kid."

"He is. Like I told you when I called, he asked to see you. I want everyone who was a part of his life and his mother's life to remain in his life. If you're ever in Chicago, let me know and you can stop by and see him. You're right, I thought it would be awkward meeting you too. I'm surprised she didn't leave him with you, since you were the last relationship she was in."

"I wouldn't know the first thing about taking care of a kid on my own. Until I started seeing Olivia, I never really spent that much time with a child. In fact, I used to go out of my way to avoid children because I was never really comfortable around them. Being part of a large family like I am, I'm the one that always stayed off by myself at family gatherings or had more conversations with my aunts and uncles more than my cousins. It took me a while to warm up to Noah even though I knew he was part of the package deal when I started seeing Olivia. Olivia wasn't the only one that had doubts about our relationship. I had thought about introducing them to my family but I never told any of them that I was in a relationship with someone. I always have to get interrogated by some of them, especially about my personal life. My first marriage didn't work out and that was a long time ago. Olivia was really the first person I learned to trust but it took us both a while to learn to trust each other. I guess I'm lucky she gave me a chance to prove that I wasn't the same person anymore. I think I would have been ok if she had ended up with you."

"I admit that people from IAB usually aren't my favorite, you're not so bad. One of my detectives ended up being murdered and because I was one of the last people to see him, they of course suspected me. It turned out that the guy from IAB was involved."

"Some people may think that would be something I'd do but I wouldn't. I don't care what people think of me anyway. I never have."

"That's me too. I'm getting to the point now where I don't even want to do this cop thing anymore. Life is too short. Olivia wasn't even 50 years old. What if something happens to me? Then Noah is left with no one."

"He's been through a lot in such a short time."

"Yeah, I know. She wanted me to help him adjust to life without her because I've experienced more loss than most people have. My dad was a cop and killed in the line of duty. When my wife was pregnant, we were expecting twins, a boy and a girl. Justin was born healthy but his sister was a stillborn. Camille was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and died 7 years ago. Justin was murdered a year ago. I hadn't quite gotten over Camille's death and then that happened. My daughter-in-law moved to Scottsdale with my grandson. Olivia was the first woman that I felt comfortable being around after I lost Camille."

"She was an amazing woman. How old is your grandson"

"He's 2, so he was just a year when Justin died. I'm grateful for that because he won't really remember when he lost him. He remembers Daddy because he'll see pictures of him and he knows it's him. Olive says she wants him to remember his daddy."

"I can't imagine what Noah is going through though."

"It's almost like he lost his best friend. To him, she probably was his best friend."

"Oh, yeah. When we split, she said she wanted more time for Noah. He was her entire life. I wanted to retire and basically do nothing. Well, I think I eventually want to travel. I wanted her to consider retiring with me because I thought it would have been more fun to do that with someone. She wasn't ready. I should have made more of an effort to keep in touch with her after we split. Maybe if there was something I could have done to prevent this, it wouldn't have happened."

"You weren't even in town when it did happen though. It's just the dangers of being a cop."

"Yeah, I know. Another hostage situation."

"That's what Barba said but I never heard the entire story."

"Chief Dodds said she had gone in to try to help out and the guy took her gun and her vest away from her. The guy holding them hostage did something and she tried going after him to protect everyone else. He ended up shooting her in the chest. Tutuola, Rollins and Carisi came in and nearly froze when they saw her on the floor. She was dead before the paramedics even got there. They called Dr. Warner in and after she got to the scene and found out that the body was her friend, she had to excuse herself from the case."

"I take it the guy is in prison."

"Tutuola shot him himself. I can't say that I blame him."

"I can't either."

"I don't know that I could have handled that investigation if I was still with IAB. We were always supposed to investigate all police-related shootings."

"Just because you two weren't together anymore, didn't mean you stopped caring about each other."

"I still cared about her."

"She never really said how she felt about you after the breakup. I talked to her more than I saw her. She did say she was happy with the decision but she's glad you were a part of her life."

"I guess I can live with that. I'm glad we talked."

"I am too. Are you still working?"

"No. I retired a few months ago."

"I definitely need to consider my options because of Noah. Like I said, I don't want to have something happen to me and then leave him with no one. I've already started looking into Preschools for him."

"Maybe if you're not completely ready to retire, you should cut down on your case load and go to part-time."

"I have a lot of thinking to do. I promised Noah that I'd take him to see his mom at the cemetery."

"You two have plans for dinner?"

"Not really. I need to spend some time with Erin while we're here too."

"She can come too."

"I'll take him to the cemetery and I'll let you know."

"Ok."

Hank and Ed went back out to the Squad Room and then Hank and Noah left to head to the cemetery after Noah hugged Ed.

To be continued…