Stressed For Love

I didn't know why but him not remembering me just killed something inside of me. I had to leave the room before I did something I would regret. I could see people staring at me weird, by now they all probably knew what Logan went through so they were probably trying to find out why something that hasn't happened in twenty years happened three days ago.

I didn't know where I was going but somehow I ended up at the training area. I knew I needed to blow off some steam so beating the crap out of someone and not getting in trouble because of it would be a good thing. I was a popular person on the station, mostly for being the youngest person in the system to be able to be a mother ship captain, but instead turned it down to be a covert member of the intelligence committee. A lot of people thought I was insane for turning down the position but I didn't care. I turned it down so I could be close to him. If I took the mother ship position I wouldn't be able to see him at all, only twice a year when the mother ship would come by the station. I didn't want that so when they asked me I instantly turned down the position. The captain wasn't happy about it but he understood, instead he asked me what I wanted to do and I told him to be part of the covert intelligence committee. Yeah we went on constant missions into space to find out secrets, but we were stationed here at the station and the missions only lasted usually a few days, so I would be able to see him pretty much all the time. But the last mission was really important and on a much larger scale than all the other missions I was on so it took longer to make sure the information was true.

"Who wants to spar?" I practically yelled rigidly looking around the training area. Everyone in here knew who I was, not just because I turned down one of the jobs of the century but because I was one of the best hand to hand combat fighters on the station. The only person who I had trouble going up against was…Logan, he may be smaller than me, a pacifist, and not much of a fighter sense he's in the defensive science department but he is one of the fastest people I've ever met. Whenever I threw a punch or a kick he could easily block or doge it, which yes agitated me a bit cause I could never land a hit, but at the same I knew that if anything happened and I wasn't there I knew he could handle it.

"Kendall!" I snapped out of my thoughts when I saw Jo. She was the daughter of the head training captain. She was pretty much right up on top with me, but she played a little dirty but only for fun. When it was serious we were pretty much evenly matched.

She was running up to me in a pair of matching sweats pants grey and a really tight tank top the same. Most of the time for guys they would do nothing but stare at her chest, but me, seeing that I didn't like boobs wasn't distracted by them.

"How you doing, I haven't seen you sense you left? You ok? How's Logan? I heard what happened is he ok?" When she said his name I felt my anger rushing back but I did my best to calm down.

"I'm good, I know right, I was with him the past three days… he's better now." She nodded I could tell she knew I was forcing myself to stay calm.

"You ready?" She asked with a smile. I got a bit confused.

"What?"

"You said you wanted a sparring partner?" I smiled like my problems didn't even exist anymore.

"Yeah." We went to the black mats in the middle of the training are. People gathered around us watching. I always heard people saying our sparring was intense but at the same time it was amazing watching us try to beat the shit out of each other.

The first time when we started sparring was when I was around thirteen and she was twelve. I didn't want to because well she's a girl, but she said she could handle anything I threw at her. She beat me in like five second making me land on my ass and looking like an idiot. So after that I didn't hold back, and she was happy. I was one of the only people other than her dad who fought back not holding back because she was a girl or because they were intimidated by her skills.

When we started we lunged at each other like we wanted to kill each other. She threw a punch I blocked it and swung a kick to her side, like she was a dancer she stepped back with ease. We went like that for a good hour and by the end I smelled even worse than I did before. When we were done we both were both wiped and covered in sweat.

"Wow." Jo said taking in a deep breath. "That was…really…wow. Where'd that come from?" I looked away from her and grabbed a towel wiping my face.

"Logan, he lost his memories. He doesn't know who I am." I saw everyone who was watching tense up, they knew I was angry but this bit the cake.

"Kendall…I'm so sor-" They all knew how close Logan and me are 'were' I shook that out of my head.

"I have to go take a shower." I didn't wait for a response I just walked out of the training area and walked down the hall to his and my room.

For the first time in months I walked into our room. It looked like it did before I left. The bed in the against the wall, the window that showed black space, the small closet near Logan's desk where he had whatever he was working on at the moment scattered on it, and my portable piano propped up against the wall. He always loved it when I played for him, which was his ringtone on his S.C.D. (Station Communication Device).

I sighed heavily walked to the closet near the door grabbed a towel and headed to our bathroom. I kinda just stood there in the shower not really trying to get clean I just let the hot water stream down my body. All I could think of was how I told him how I loved him and he doesn't even know who I am. I walked out of the bathroom with the towel around my waist and the first thing I saw just got me even more angry then I already was. The first thing I always saw was on top of our dresser that was right across the bathroom door. It was a picture of me and him, when we made things official with each other. James and Carlos wanted us to have a picture of that moment. So they pushed him into taking a picture and at the last second when the camera flashed I kissed him on his cheek. The look on his face, it was priceless. I was about to blow up again but then I heard the door slide open and saw…

The look I had must've been priceless because next thing I knew I was being dragged out of the cafeteria with James and Carlos running to who knows where. But still, being in a coma for three days took a lot of my energy because when we ran out of the cafeteria I was already exhausted and could barely keep up. But I had to because James was holding onto my wrist pretty tight with Carlos in front of us making people move so we could go to where ever we were going. We stopped right in front of a door.

"Where are we?" I asked trying to catch my breath.

"Your's and Kendall's room." I stood up a little shocked when James said that. I knew we were together but I didn't know that we lived together.

"Oh." They both nodded. Carlos was at a keypad right next to the door pressing the buttons but it kept buzzing at him and flashing red.

"Dammit, Hey Logan do you know-" I saw him catch himself in what he was going to ask, I knew what he was going to say and that just made me sad.

"Dude!" I heard James whisper yell at him and punch him in the arm.

"Sorry." I heard Carlos say to me, I did my best; I looked at him with a smile.

"It's ok. Umm can this help?" I said grabbing my cell phone/ communication device out of my pocket and giving it to Carlos. "What are these called anyway?" Carlos grabbed it from me and started messing with it.

"It's a S.C.D. Station Communication Device." Carlos said putting it in front of the keypad. It flashed a green light and the door slid open. Carlos and James stepped aside and moved there hand as if I was being hailed for being a king.

"After you." Carlos said with an English accent, or attempting on at least. I chuckled but looked at the entrance skeptical.

"It's ok." James said reassuring me. I nodded and walked in. The room was big. Right in front was a window that showed off the deep black space, on the right was a bed, on the left was a desk littered with who knows what they were just a bunch of random prices of metal and wires, near that was a small closet sticking out of the wall, right next to the desk propped up was a portable piano, on the wall with the door was a dresser and what I saw for some reason made me smile. There was a dresser for I guess our clothes, but on top of it was a picture frame with a picture. It was a picture of him and me. My eyes widened and blushed intensely because I guess at the last second he kissed me on the cheek and I didn't expect that. I smiled, I don't know why but for some reason it made me so happy.

"That was the night you guys made it official." I turned around and saw James standing there while Carlos was lying on the bed.

"Official?"

"On being boyfriends."

"Oh. Why are we in my room?" 'It feels weird saying that, but a good weird.'

"Well I was hoping he was here so you could tell him you remembered something so he wouldn't be so angry, but I still don't understand why he is." James said sitting on the bed. I knew why, well I think I do.

"Have him and I ever said we loved each other?" When I said it Carlos sat up and looked at me and so did James.

"No, but we knew you too are. The way you two looked at each, it's like how my parents look at each other." I blushed at that. "Why?" I sighed heavily leaning against the dresser.

"Because he told me when I woke up, but he didn't know I don't remember."

"What did you say?" James asked.

"I said thanks."

"What!" Carlos said jumping off the bed.

"I told you I didn't know who he was or what he was to me. I was a little stunned."

"Now we know why he's fuming." James said standing back up. "Let's go find him he needs to know you remember something than maybe he won't be so angry."

"I think I know where he is!" Carlos said looking at the two us with a smile.

"Where?" I asked back.

"Follow me!" Carlos said running out the door and down the hall.

"I hate running." I said as me and James took off after him. We chased him for a few minutes until we arrived to two steel double doors.

"Why didn't I think of it, whenever he's in a mood he always goes here." James said as we stopped in front of the doors.

"Where is here?"

"The gym slash training area."

"Oh, why does he come here when he's in a mood?"

"When he can't relieve his stress the normal way, he comes here and spars with Jo or some other people.

"Normal way?" James looked at me knowingly, it took me a second to realize what he meant and then I blushed.

"Oh." Carlos laughed.

"Come on he's probably in there right now beating the crap out of someone." Carlos said as he opened the doors. We walked in and saw some girl flinging someone over her shoulder and onto the matted floor hard. 'Ouch, remember don't mess with her.'

"Jo!" James yelled to the girl who just flung the random dude. She looked up and smiled at us.

"Hey guys!" She said as she ran up, when she got closer I could tell that she was working out heavily because she was sweating profusely. But something about the sweat made an image flash through my head. It was of him, Kendall, from what I could tell he was on top of me on our bed shirtless and covered in sweat. I realized what I saw and blushed, but I forced it away when the girl made it up to us. "Hey Logan, how are you?" She paused for a second. "Do you know who I am?" I shook my head, her smile fell a little but she flashed it up again.

"Sorry."

"It's ok." She said.

"Is Kendall here?" She shook her head to James' question.

"He just left like five minutes ago."

"Did he say where he was going?"

"No, just that he was gonna go take a shower."

"He's probably back at the room." James said grabbing my wrist again. "Thanks Jo!" He said as he dragged me all the way back to the room we were just in.'I really need to get back into shape, just running is wiping me out.'I thought to myself as we ran back to the room. We stopped in front of the door and suddenly I got nervous again.

"What if he's angry at me?" I said to Carlos and James.

"He could never hate you, he loves you." James said reassuring me again to step into the room. Carlos nodded, flashed my phone near the keypad, and the door slid open. I slowly and hesitantly stepped in. What I saw turned me on so much, he was standing near the dresser with nothing but a towel around his waist. He obviously just took a shower because he was soaking wet. I stared as the droplets of water slid down his neck to his chest then stopped at his waist at where the towel was.

"Hey." He said snapping me out of my intense staring.

"Hi."

They both stared at each other not sure what to say or what to do. But when Kendall was about to speak they heard Carlos and James walk in the room.

"Ok before you blow up again…oh." James said as he stopped himself realizing Kendall was practically naked in front of him, Carlos, and especially Logan.

"Well, we'll just leave you two alone." James said pushing Carlos out of the room.

"What? NO I wanna see what happens!" Carlos said as he was pushed into the hallway.

"Dude."

"What?"

"Did you not notice Kendall?"

"Yeah."

"Did you not notice?" James said moving his hands around his body to try to get his point across to Carlos.

"Oh." Carlos said realizing what James meant.

"Yeah! I think it's better for them to talk alone anyways." Carlos nodded as they sat against the wall of the hallway.

"Do you think they're gonna do it?" Carlos asked looking like a little kid with his curiosity.

"What? I don't know?" Carlos just nodded.

"I think they're gonna do it."

"Oh my god." James said hitting his head against the wall.

"So uhh are you ok?" Kendall asked not knowing what to ask.

"Good, still don't remember anything but I'm good." Kendall nodded he didn't know how to respond. It was like talking to a complete stranger, but at the same time the love of your life. "Wait no I do!" Kendall saw Logan's go into his pocket and bring out his S.C.D.

"Um call me." He said looking at Kendall.

"Why?"

"Just do it." Kendall chuckled.

"Well you still are bossy."

"Shut up." Logan said back playfully. Kendall just smiled as he walked over to the bed where he left his L.D.S.C.D (Long Distance Station Communication Device). His was made to be used in deep space, while most people on the station just have on that would work here on the station.

Kendall turned it on and pressed this little light on it that was put on their specifically just to call Logan. It started to call when Logan's started ringing; Kendall looked up still confused on why Logan made him call him.

"This!" Logan said pointing at the S.C.D.

"What?"

"The ringtone, when I heard it I remembered it, you played it on the piano. When I heard it I smiled not really knowing why and then on the way back here from the training area I remembered you played this on the piano, some girl we know recorded it, and put it as my ringtone!" Kendall couldn't stop himself and smiled wide; he ran up to Logan and pulled him into a hug. Logan tensed for a second before returning it back just as much as Kendall did. They both let go of each other when Logan blushed intensely and turned around.

"What?" Kendall asked with a spark of confusion.

"You towel...it fell." Kendall looked down and noticed the towel on the floor, but then and idea sparked in his head.

"Ok, it's not like you haven't seen any of this before?" Kendall said, his voice filled with thick lust as he could slowly walked up behind Logan.

"I know, well I think I do, but." Logan stopped himself, he didn't know what to say because technically they were together 'Idiot you know you two are together you just don't remember.'He was snapped out of his thoughts when a pair of hands wrapped around his waist causing him to let out a squeak. "Ke….Kendall." He was able to stutter out of his mouth.

"Mhhmmm." Kendall said as he let his mouth on Logan's neck making him shudder in pleasure. 'Dammit he's good.' He thought in-between his pants. Kendall started kissing and sucking on Logan's neck and the more he did the more Logan shuddered and moaned against him. Kendall smiled into Logan's neck. He flipped him over and attacked the front of Logan's neck while pushing him up against the door. Logan grunted when he made contact with the door but he didn't care, his mind was quickly glazing over in a haze of pleasure. Kendall kept on attacking Logan's neck leaving marks all over his neck. The more he did it the more Logan moaned from the pleasure. Kendall released himself from his neck and looked up into Logan's eye's. His eyes were glazed over with lust when he looked into his eyes, his mouth partly open and face completely flushed. Kendall missed this, the way he used to make him turn into a gooey mess just from a few kisses. 'Let's see how far I can go with this.'

"Hey did you hear that?" Carlos asked looking at James.

"Hear what?"

"It sounded like something hit the door."

"I didn't hear anything."

"…ok." Kendall went in for a kiss, he hasn't kissed him since before the attack, and he missed those lips. When they made contact it was the most intense feeling he's felt in days. They both fought for dominance in the kiss, and somehow Logan won. Kendall didn't care he was just happy that they were doing this. 'Even though he doesn't remember this still…..'But Kendall moaned when Logan broke the kiss and attacked his neck.

"Ffffffuuuuuuck." Kendall moaned out when Logan started to suck on his neck.

"Did you hear that?" James sighed heavily.

"What?"

"It sounded like someone said fuck, but they dragged it out like Ffffffuuuuuuck." James just looked at his best friend completely flabbergasted.

"No I didn't' hear someone moan out fuck." Carlos shrugged.

"Ok then."

Logan was in complete heaven with the amount of pleasure he was having, he really didn't know what was happening but was loving every second of it. But he was pulled away from his haze of pleasure when he felt hands going for his zipper on his pants.

"K-Kendall." But Kendall ignored him and kept on kissing him while fumbling with the zipper. "Kendall!" Logan yelled pushing Kendall off of him. Kendall looked at him hurt and confused.

"What?"

"I…..i-I'm sorry." Logan said as the door slid open and Logan practically ran out. It closed on a confused Kendall .

"Dude? You ok?" Logan turned around and saw Carlos and James standing up from sitting on the hallway wall. Logan nodded. "What's that?" Carlos asked with a knowing smirk. Logan realized he had all the hickies from Kendall and that they were showing. Logan quickly attempted to cover them up.

"I…uh…they….." Before Logan could think of what to say the door to the room slid open to a half dressed Kendall, he was only wearing a pair of grey uniform pants.

"Logan you ok?" He said as he walked out of the room, but Logan put his hands up telling him to stop.

"I…i…I'm sorry." Logan said before turning around and ran down the hallway. James and Carlos didn't get a chance to catch up to him because by the time they were about to run after him he was already lost in a group of people down the hallway.

"Dude? What happened and what's with all the hickies on both your necks? Does he remember?" Carlos asked the last question with a glint of hope in his eyes. Kendall just shook his head.

"I think I just made it worse."