Jessie pov
I turned around to see April stood in front of me, she was pissed and now she knew that I had lied. The game was up she would tell Phil for sure.
"April, I thought you had gone…" was all I managed to say. She just looked at the floor shaking her head, she couldn't even look at me. I felt awful. This sucked, and was the exact reason I didn't want anyone but Randy to know. He never judged any of my actions.
"I decided to stick around for a bit. I'm glad I did…how could you lie to him like that, this isn't a decision you can make without him. He would make a great dad and your going to take that away from him." April was even more pissed, I now hated myself. Maybe lying to Phil wasn't the way to go.
What do I do now, I don't know if I want this baby. I cant and wont get back with Phil, he will hate me for lying anyway. God this has got way out of hand. I just wanted to run and keep going till I couldn't run anymore.
"April what are you going to do?" I asked looking at the ground, I couldn't look up I felt like I was back at school, getting told off for flushing Amanda's Barbie down the toilet all over again. She didn't answer me and when I snapped out of my train of thought I noticed she was gone. 'oh shit' was my first thought.
Randy pov
I had just finished my segment with Paul and Stephanie but the whole time my mind was on the phone call from Jessie. I didn't want her to go though with this, she didn't believe in abortion, she knew it and so did I. She went through it with her best friend when they were fifteen. From what I can gather it hurt her as much as her best friend. I'm just not sure if I can watch her go through that I love her to much to see her hurt like that.
I was so deep in thought, I didn't even notice anyone I walked past. I stood outside the locker room thinking about who could be hanging around in there. I shook my head and pushed the door open, I could feel all of their eyes on me. It was as though I had done something wrong, I decided the best option was just to ignore it. Don't rise to it and give them what they want.
"I hope your fucking happy.." I knew who it was, he was pissed. I however wasn't in the mood to tend to his hurt ego. He didn't want her and couldn't stand the fact that she would want to be with anyone else apart from him. He must have found out that she has been with me and got the wrong end of the stick so now his ego has taken a serious bruising.
"Look I'm not in the mood right now." Was all I said as I packed away the rest of my belongings into my bag, not once looking up at him. But I knew he was right behind me.
"I don't give a dam what your 'in the mood for'" He was mocking me, imitating my voice and it was really fucking irritating. I looked up and shied trying to contain my anger.
"Seriously punk fuck off." Was all I said as I pushed past him and headed for the door. I needed to find Jessie and get the hell out of here. I walked to catering but couldn't see her, she would have finished hair and makeup ages ago. Which normally means she would be hanging out here, but I couldn't see her. I was getting concerned to say the least. She doesn't normally just disappear.
I grabbed my phone hitting her contact I brought the phone to my ear, it rang and rang without any answer. I by this time was pacing the corridors. Maybe she went back to the hotel with Colby, the past few days might have finally caught up with her. All of a sudden I could hear her ring tone for me, she has specific ones for different people. It went to voicemail so I dialed her number again this time following the sound of the ringtone.
I turned the corner and saw her curled in a ball sobbing in one of the door ways. All I did was scooped her up and I carried her to the car. Her sobs lessened slightly when I picked her up but not completely. I should never have made her come back, she didn't want to because of Phil. Now however was not the time to ask what was wrong. That could wait all I cared about now was getting her to the car and back to the hotel where I could keep her safe.
The car journey was silent, I didn't even have the radio on, not to long after I pulled out of the car park I noticed she was asleep. Inhaling deeply I moved a strand of hair from her face and tucked it behind her ear. It was at that moment I saw the true extent of her pain. The one she can easily hide when she is awake with a fake smile that everyone else buys. Not me though, deep down I think she knows it to. Snapping back into reality I noticed we were coming up to the hotel. I turned right and entered the carpark, she looked so pained I just wanted to make it go away. I stopped the car and turned off the ignition, I sat for s few moments watching her. I know she would never be mine, I think I knew it a long time ago. She will always go back to him baby or no baby. As much as they fight they don't function without each other. He treats her bad she treats him worse, so he has to get his own back. Neither one likes to be beaten at their own game.
She must have noticed the motion of the car had stopped as she started to stir. I smiled when she looked at me, she was somewhat disorientated the short slumber must ha e confused her. She smiled regardless and sat up. I grabbed her hand without thinking and pulled her close to me resting her hand on my chest. She calmed almost insanity, all the tension leaving her body.
"Can we go in now please, its a little chilly." I heard her say with a slight chuckle at the end. I simply nodded before letting her go, this was going to be a long night.
"Randy can we talk about what happened today?" Jessie asked as she sat on one of the beds. This was the first time she had spoken all night. Randy didn't really mind, he was waiting until she was comfortable and wanted to tell him. He knew never to push it with her, she would clam up and then he would get no where at all.
"Jessie you know we only talk about things when your ready." Randy said as he sat next to her. She turned sitting cross legged in front of him. He turned slightly to look at her, "go ahead but you don't have to you know that right." She looked down at her hands inhaling deeply.
" When I called you today I didn't think there was anyone within earshot..." Jessie had started crying again, Randy simply reached over and took her hands in his. She looked up before continuing. "I didn't think anyone was around but April was. She heard everything and now I'm scared she will tell Phil." Randy didn't know what to say at this point.
He stroked the back of her hands with his thumb, after a minute she let go of his hand and practically threw herself at him. Burying her head in his chest, she sobbed even harder.