Oh god why didn't I wait until I had a plan for this? Oh well just another one of my sensible decisions right now

I'll never forget the day that the rebellion officially started. It was very surreal walking through the streets of the Capitol and seeing my sister's face on posters that plastered the streets being branded a traitor and a criminal. The more defaced the posters were with graffiti the harder it got and eventually I stopped walking the streets and opted for staying in my room.

Of course once the rebellion plan had been set into action and Katniss and the others had escaped I was interrogated for my involvement in the whole thing. The actual interrogation wasn't anywhere near as bad as I had thought that it was going to be – I had imagined at least some kind of mild torture at the very least – but they just questioned me and seemed happy that I had no involvement in the whole thing. I was told before I went in that if I had nothing to hide then I had nothing to fear and I didn't have anything to hide.

I remained angry and hurt that I hadn't been told about the plan for about a week before I finally just accepted that I hadn't. I was angry with Haymitch but he was always like that with me and, to be perfectly honest, we had no real loyalty to each other. What bothered me the most was that he had told Katniss about it and she hadn't told me. I had thought that we would have been able to tell each other everything but apparently I was wrong about that.

Three days after I had stopped being a ball of white-hot anger Effie came to see me and told me that President Snow had a job for me. Because the citizens of the Capitol and some of the people in the Districts still thought of me as their 'Golden Girl' I was to be charged with the task of travelling the Districts and trying to calm people down. I didn't know how I was to be in any way affective at this but, as Effie said when I protested the idea, it would give me something to do and might take my mind off everything.

So I went out into the Capitol and then into the Districts with Effie and the speeches that had been pre-written for me. It was just like the year before when I had gone round to the Districts as a victor – except for the fact that there were more Peace Keepers around – giving speeches that had been written for me and I wasn't totally sure I believed in the message but, dutifully, I did it. I smiled, I read the cards and every night I would go back to wherever we were staying and just collapsed from mental and emotional exhaustion.

The first night Effie found me crying in me room and she did her best to comfort me (in her strange Effie way). She told me that it would get easier and that everything would be all right in the end but I didn't believe here. There was no way that this was possibly going to get easier and no way (not that I could see anyway) that anything would be all right in the end…

Everything was going as smoothly as it possibly could have done. There was some resistance and the Peace Keepers dealt with it the only way they know how – with violence. I couldn't stand seeing these people getting hurt like this but there was nothing I could do but sit back and watch. I wasn't a fighter like Katniss – I couldn't stand up to people like the Peace Keepers and fight back like she could. The only thing I could do was talk to people and try to get them to calm down.

The worst part of this tour was when we got to District Twelve. It was bad enough that no one would listen to a word I was saying but a fight broke out between one of the men that I recognised from the market and a Peace Keeper during my speech. I carried on and tried to keep the crowd's attention on me but it was no use, everyone was too busy watching the Peace Keeper beat the man into the ground until he stopped moving.

Unfortunately just because the man stopped moving doesn't mean that the Peace Keeper did. He continued to beat the man, even though he was probably dead by this point, until an arrow shot out of the crowd and embedded itself in his shoulder. He stopped immediately and turned in the direction the arrow had come from, the rest of the crowd turned with him. From out of the shadows of an alley way emerged Katniss, standing and facing him defiantly. The Peace Keeper just stood and stared at her as she pulled another arrow from her quiver and notched it in her bow.

"Consider that a warning." she called over to him. "Next time I catch you harming an innocent man like that I'll kill you."

"Katniss!" I called over to her jumping off the stage I had been on and made my way over to her.

"Prim!" she exclaimed when I had reached her as if she hadn't even seen me before (which maybe she hadn't if she had only been focusing on the man and the Peace Keeper).

"What are you doing?" I asked her.

"What do you mean, I'm looking out for innocent people." she told me.

"By making things worse for them?" I asked.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You threatening a Peace Keeper is not going to do any good." I told her. "All it will do is make the Peace Keepers come down harder on them."

"At least I'm doing something." she hissed. "I'm trying to stand up for these people."

"But this is not the way to go about it!" I cried. Why couldn't she see that threatening those in power was not going to do any good? I know I couldn't exactly do anything like she could to protect people but I had lived in the Capitol. I had lived in the system and I had worked out how they operated. I knew that given enough time I might be able to do something to change the system from the inside because they knew me – they liked me.

"Then how would you do it?" she asked and I could hear the faint traces of anger and derision in her voice. "By going around and reciting those speeches that Effie gives you like a good girl and not questioning everything that's going on once you leave? People are still dying Prim! I have to do something about that and this is the only way to make them understand."

"But it isn't though!" I cried. Why couldn't I make her see? Maybe I was being naïve, like Haymitch said, and I viewed the world as if everything could be solved peacefully. But what was so wrong with that? I had spent time learning how to understand people like those in the Capitol but Katniss and Haymitch thought that they could take them down with just brute force. "There are better ways than responding to them with violence."

"You can't win this by expecting them to fight fairly." she stated. I opened my mouth to respond but an angry shout from the other side of the square made us both look round.

A group of angry looking Peace Keepers were advancing in our direction, brandishing weapons and looking murderous. Katniss looked from them to me and then back at them again and decided that her chances were better if she left. As she turned I grabbed her arm.

"It doesn't have to be like this Katniss." I told her. She pulled my arm out of her grip and turned to leave again.

"I'm sorry Prim," she said. "but until they understand that we're serious and we will fight until they stop killing innocent people it does." With that she turned and ran, the Peace Keepers following. All I could do was stare after her and know that there was no way that I was ever going to make her or any of the rest of them see eye to eye with me.

This meant war and this was only the beginning…