AN: Thank you for the great comments. I'm glad you liked jealous Elena. Haha, I just needed to bash a little about Andie. Can't stand her. So, since the last two chapters were Elena centric, this time I will focus more on Damon. I used the wonderful song "No Way Out" rom Brother Bear. I think it's just the perfect song for Damon! And I love Phil Collins XD (If you don't know the song, listen to it, it's amazing)
Anyways I hope you'll like it.
I would love to get some comments. :)
Dislcaimer: I don't own The Vampire Diaries, the character, the movie "Brother Bear" or the amazing song.
No Way Out
"Everywhere I turn, I hurt someone
But there's nothing I can say to change
the things I've done
Of all the things I hid from you
I cannot hide the shame
And I pray someone, something will come
to take away the pain"
Damon walked down the dark streets of Mystic Falls. His expression was blank. What did he do? He snapped Jeremy's neck? How could he possibly so stupid? She would never forgive him that. Never ever.
He clinched his fists and stared into the darkness. He let it consume him completely. There was no light left for him. With killing her brother he extinguished the only small flame of hope that was left. She knew he'd done horrible things. But she never knew the whole extent of what he was capable of. Not until tonight.
He couldn't understand why she wanted to be friends with him in the first place. He used Caroline. He compelled her. He drank from her. And Bonnie? He almost killed her in a moment of anger.
He threatened his brother. The brother she loved unconditionally. The brother who will always be her choice. And she knew that he never wanted them to be friends.
So why did she stay close to him? Why did she care? He laughed silently. That didn't matter anymore. After what he did she would never care again. The friendship was gone. The slight hope of love was gone. All that was left was hate and anger.
"There's no way out of this dark place
No hope, no future
I know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
I can't face another day"
He brought Elena home and waited outside her house until she was asleep. He couldn't believe what had happened. His brother was stuck in the tomb. His stupid brother was stuck in the tomb with her. And all because he had to play hero again and safe that dumbass of a little brother from her. And now she was blaming him.
She blamed him for not being there to prevent this from happening. From not stopping Jeremy. From not stopping Stefan. She didn't say it was his fault, but he could tell it from the look in her eyes when he held her back from entering the tomb. He searched for a slight amusement in all this mess. It was ironical. He did everything today to save her life and she was angry at him for doing so. And when Stefan risked his life to Jeremy's she wasn't angry at Stefan, no she was angry at him, for being with her instead of them. He just gave her another reason to hate him.
He sat down on a bench and played with his lapis lazuli ring. It would be so easy to just take him off and waiting for the sunlight to end this misery once and for all. He smiled sadly. It would never be an option. Whether she hated him or not, he would stay by her side to protect her. Not because he made a promise to his brother, no there was just no turning back anymore. He was into her too deep. He loved her and even if she would never love him back, he couldn't walk away. There was no hope left for him, but he accepted it. His place was in this world, at her side. And if he would die saving her, it was okay. One way or another, there was no real future left for him.
"Tell me where, did I go wrong
Everyone I loved, they're all gone
I'd do everything so differently
but I can't turn back the time
There's no shelter from the storm
inside of me"
He couldn't believe Rose was gone. His hands were shaking as he threw the stake into the fireplace. He watched as it slowly burned. Her blood was on his hands. Not just because he was the one who drove the stake through her heart, no it was because he was the one Jules was after. He should have died tonight, not her.
He sat on the old arm chair and reached for a bottle of scotch. Drinking was all he could do now. He closed his eyes and a brief image of Elena appeared. She was there for him. Wanted to comfort him because of his loss. He didn't want her to be there. He never wanted her to see him so broken. But somehow he could still feel her body against his. He could still feel her arms around him. He took a deep sip out of the bottle. He couldn't be close to her, because everyone he loved was dead. Sooner or later he would be the death of her, too.
He fought with his tears and asked silently for help. Why did this happen to him? What did he do wrong in his life that everyone he cared about was doomed? He did terrible things as a vampire, but it started all when he was still human.
The first one to lose was his mother. His beloved mother who was probably the only person in this world who accepted him as who he was. He was seven when she died. They were playing in the big house. They were running and laughing and she was chasing after him. Then she lost her balance and fell down the stairs. She broke her neck and he never heard her laugh again. It all happened so fast. He didn't understand it. "It was not your fault." The old nursemaid said, "It was an accident." But he didn't believe it. He never stopped blaming himself for her death.
The second person he loved deeply and lost was Katherine. First when he thought she died, then when she rejected him. He smiled bitterly. He lost her and it hurt. The sad thing was, she was never his in the first place.
After the Katherine incident he lost his brother, too. Not literally but emotionally. He blamed him for Katherine's supposed death. He hated him for forcing him to turn. He despised the fact that Katherine made him a vampire too. So his new goal was to make Stefan's life as miserable as possible. Stefan was a good guy, he always tried to reconcile with him, but Damon pushed him away. Now Stefan distrusted him. He wanted him gone. And he couldn't even blame him for that.
Then he lost Elena. He was upset and killed her brother while he was in a rage. "You have lost me forever." She told him and in that very moment, she meant it. But somehow along the way she forgave him. And even if he lost her just for a small period of time, the feeling was still there.
Now there was Rose. She was his friend. His special friend. But not because of the sex, just because she could understand him better than everyone he knew. She was there for him, shared his feelings of loneliness and regret and gave him a small feeling of not being alone anymore. She was gone, too. And it was all because of him. Because he needed to provoke that werewolf bitch. Rose had done nothing wrong. It was his curse that killed her.
He threw the bottle away. He tried to be the better man for her. And still everyone he cared about was slowly slipping away. Why should he be the better man, when it changed nothing?
"There's no way out of this dark place
No hope, no future
I know I can't be free
But I can't see another way
I can't face another day"
He threw Jessica's lifeless body away. He still heard her screaming inside of his head. He licked his lower lip to taste the blood for a last time. He was dangerous. A monster. He could never be the man she wanted him to be. There was just darkness in his heart. It was too late for redemption. He was stuck in this place. He wanted to run and to get away, but there was no place to go. He was drawn to her and no matter what she did, no matter what he did. He would never be free. So he would pull on a poker face in the morning. He would smirk, he would joke and he would be there for her. Like always. He almost lost his strength to carry on, but there was no way out.
"I can't believe the words I hear
It's like an answer to a prayer"
"I love you, Damon." She said with a sincere and pure voice. He couldn't believe what she just said. That was impossible. He studied her face. She smiled at him and waited for him to response. "You don't love me, you love Stefan." He said softly and waited for her to acknowledge her mistake. She softly stroked his cheek. "Idiot, of course I love you. It was always you; I just wasn't ready to see that."
He was amazed by the honesty of her words. He pulled her closer until their lips finally met. It was a hesitant kiss. He was still afraid she would change her mind. But that never happened. He didn't understand what he did to deserve her. He asked her once in a while, but he got always the same answer. "I love you, because of you. There is no explanation for it."
"When I look around I see
This place, this time, this friend of mine
I know it's hard but you
found somehow
To look into your heart and
to forgive me now
You've given me the strength to see
just where my journey ends
You've given me the strength
to carry on"
It was still new and awkward to him being surrounded by her friend and family. His friends and family. He looked around. They were in the Gilbert household celebrating Thanksgiving and were hoping Jenna's food would not poison someone. He was unusually silent for his normal behavior and Elena was slightly worried.
"You okay?" She asked and squeezed his hand. He nodded and smiled at her. "I couldn't be better."
They walked into the living where Barbie was telling some stupid story about her and Tyler's road trip during the summer and he chuckled now and then. Everyone accepted him at Elena's side. Even Bonnie got along with him these days. He sometimes feared that he would wake up one morning to realize it was all just a dream. But he knew deep within it wasn't.
He volunteered to do the dishes after the dinner was finished and Elena helped him. They already collected a plenty of memories in her kitchen and he smiled as he thought about it.
"Thank you." He said softly and she eyed him curiously.
"For what?" She smiled and it was breathtaking. He never thought she would smile for him like that one day and he would always treasure it.
"For forgiving me all the bad things I've done and for being there for me. Thanks to you…I think after 145 years of searching, I'm finally home."
She ran her fingers softly through his hair. "We're exactly where we are meant to be." She whispered and kissed him softly on the lips.
"I see the path from this dark place
I see my future
Your forgiveness has set me free
Oh and I can see another way
I can face another day!"
The sun was shining bright; there was no cloud in sight. He was in the garden of the Boarding House and played nervously with his fingers. He looked to his left and saw Alaric smiling encouraging at him. "Everything will be fine, Damon." He said quietly.
He couldn't believe how far they had come. A few years ago he had nothing but darkness in his life, now everything was bright and warm. And just because of her. She brought back the light into his heart. Her forgiveness, her kindness and love were his remedy. She saved him from the abyss he fell into a long time ago. Now he was back on his feet, smiling at his friends and his family as he waited for her to finally come out. Even his brother was present with his new girlfriend and gave him a nod.
He nodded back and took a deep breath as the music began to play.
All eyes were on her as she walked slowly through the garden. She looked absolutely stunning. Damon never saw something more beautiful than her. Her dress was white and simple. It wasn't especially fancy or extraordinary, but it fit her. Her hair was a open and wafted softly through the light wind. She had the most gorgeous smile on her face. Her brother walked next to her and kissed her softly on the cheek as he handed her over to Damon.
Damon thought if he had a heartbeat, it would fade away now. He softly took her hand. "Hi." He whispered. She giggled softly. "Hi."
The ceremony was short, but beautiful. She cried during their vows. He was breathless and glad he even remembered his words. He couldn't wait for the priest to say is final words.
His lips formed a small "I love you" and she returned it. Then, after an eternity for him it was officially. "I now pronounce you husband and wife." The priest said and smiled at them. "You may kiss your bride." That was something he hadn't to say twice. Damon grabbed Elena around the waist and pulled her into a passionate kiss.
Everyone around them was clapping and cheering and some were even sobbing.
They turned around and walked hand in hand down the aisle. Damon could finally see his future. There was always another way, as long as she was by his side.
The End