(3 months later)
The more I edit my apology the more agonizing it is. Every sentence I hear these voices telling me " you are pathetic" and " she will never forgive you, you almost killed her." Now I realize that if I want to keep Cat and others safe I must stay away from society. Especially Cat. In fact I am going to instruct her to keep away from me so she doesn't get hurt. Despite my doctor saying I'm better it could still happen again and next time I may actually lose Cat. I must stay away to keep her safe.
5 hours later
Since Cat is out of town for 2 weeks I figure this is the best time to stick the note on her door. The last bit of tape is on. The mission now is to keep my friends safe from a monster. I must go far away and avoid human contact as much as possible. Even if I get sick I must avoid going near people. From now on I am on my own.
(2 weeks later)
Cat ( pov)
I am extremely worried about Sam. I have been for 3 months since she was release from juvy. I knew Sam was hurting and meant no harm. The week she was going to be released I sent her motorcycle to her hoping she would ride back. But instead I have found this heart-wrenching note that I knew had been put there at least 3 days ago. It read,
Dear Cat,
First I must say I know you probably hate me and never want to see me again. I don't blame you at all. You could have died because of me. In fact I can't even forgive myself. There is no way I can even tell you how sorry I am. Even after I was freed the memory haunted still does and me. I'm sorry I hurt you. But for everyone's good and especially yours I must do something hard but necessary. I am going to avoid people. It is to keep you out of harm I can cause. I realize I am a monster and despite my doctor saying I'm okay, I can't escape the past. It could still happen again and I may not be so lucky next time. I can't risk losing you again. So you must know how sorry I am and I will miss you a lot. You mean everything to me so it pains me to stay we must stay apart. I can't let you get hurt again. Farewell my friend.
Love Sam
Now I have one mission. I must find Sam and bring her home