Chapter 3.
11th October.
It's been a week since I found out that I'm about to expect a baby, not only that but my best friends boyfriends baby. I'm so screwed. I decided that after James and Alice got together that I wouldn't try and think or talk about what happened but I've ruined that now. Of course everything makes sense now, the mood swings, eating more and my clothes stopping fitting me. I'm not sure how I didn't jump to that conclusion as soon as things started to get weird.
I haven't spoken to Rose but I know she'll keep the secret until I decide not to, Madam Pomfrey asked what I wanted to do with it and I didn't even say anything, she assumed I didn't know what to do so she said I should tell the father and we should decide what to do together. I can't tell James, it'll hurt Alice too much.
I wake up earlier than everyone else, I make sure that I don't wake anyone up and while getting dressed I glimpse at my stomach and my heart beats faster as I notice my stomach becoming pear shaped. I skip having an early breakfast and go straight to the courtyard and sit on a bench, I like to feel the breeze on my face and body. I sit there for about an hour, I check my watch and find that it's time for breakfast in the great hall, I leave the courtyard and head to the Ravenclaw tower, Lysander's Hogwarts house, his brother Lorcan is a Hufflepuff.
I wait for ten minutes when finally Lysander walks out the door with a fellow Ravenclaw, a smile on his face. He smiles at me and moves over to me. "May what are you doing here?" Lysander asks with a smile, I smile. "Sorry if I was interrupting anything but I need to talk to you." I say softly. "No it's fine and sure. Want to go to the courtyard?" Lysander asks softly, I smile and nod, Lysander nods his head, grabs my hand and we start walking to the courtyard. We sit in the same place I was sitting ten minutes ago.
"What's wrong?" Lysander asks with a concerned look on his face. "What makes you think something is wrong?" I ask with a small smile. "You can smile but I know when something is wrong with you." Lysander says softly, I bite my lip nervously. "I'm pregnant." I say slowly, Lysander blinks a couple of times but stays silent. I hope that if I do decide to tell James that he doesn't do this. I can't believe that I'm about to break his heart. "Oh wow." Lysander says calmly. "Is it mine?" Lysander says with a hint of amusement but the guilt on my face takes any amusement out of it. "I was joking but the look on your face says something else." Lysander says he sounds like he's on the edge of anger, I breathe in deeply. "During the summer me and James hooked up." I say calmly, Lysander rolls his eyes and places his head in his hands whiles shaking his head.
"That's what you had to think about." Lysander says and it's not a question. "I didn't mean for this to happen, I wanted to forget all about it but I guess things have a way of coming back to you." I say with a frown. "Why are you telling me?" Lysander asks and you can hear the sadness in his voice. "I wanted you to know first. I know you probably don't think I do but I really like you." I say slowly, I feel tears start rolling down my cheeks, I gasp at my reaction and wipe my eyes.
Lysander gets up and look at me. "I have to think about things. I suggest you tell James. And until I've thought about things I don't want to be around you." Lysander says blankly and before I can say anything he walks away, I let the tears fall down my cheeks. Not sure what to really do I head back to the Gryffindor common room, I go to my dorm and lay on the bed. The tears come harder and quicker, eventually I cry myself to sleep.
18th October.
I know I shouldn't have but I skipped my lessons for two days, pretended that I was ill, well I didn't need to fake much as the morning sickness has finally come in. Rose looked so sympathetic and rubbed my back while I was spilling out my guts. I'm not really sure what I should say to her, I mean she's my best friend and she knows I'm pregnant but I feel like there is nothing to say. For the last couple of days I haven't been going to the great hall for breakfast, I'm too worried I'll see Lysander and burst into tears but today I'm being forced to by Rose who keeps pushing me towards James, even without words I know what she's trying to tell me what to do.
I don't know what to do, I'm too scared to tell James because of Lysander's reaction, I don't think I could go through that again. Rose shakes me out of my thoughts and smiles at me, I give her a small smile and then we start walking out of the common room and walk to the great hall. I all the nerves I have inside me come to air when I see Lysander laughing with a girl on the Ravenclaw table, I shake my head and sit down next to Fred, who's staring at Freya, I smile at his effort to have her. "Stop making it obvious." I say with a smirk, Fred looks away and goes red but smiles. "Is it really obvious?" Fred asks the anxiousness obvious in his voice. "No, I'm only joking but if anyone is keeping an eye on you might notice." I say with a smile, you can see the relief swim on his face.
I seem to fall into a small habit of staring at Lysander, maybe now out of jealousy of the girl who places her hand on his chest as she laughs at a joke he makes. I watch them laughing and her touch his chest, arms and his shoulder and my stare becomes a glare at the girl and then as she whispers something in his hear I feel the sudden feeling of nausea. I get up and run straight to the closest girls bathroom, I shut the stall door behind me but forget to lock it but making sure no one is around, once in the stall I expect to release the contents of my stomach but nothing comes up and for a couple of minutes I'm just heaving, it makes my stomach hurt.
"The reason nothings coming out is because for the last 3 days you barely had anything to eat." I hear Rose say, I don't say anything. "You have to speak to me eventually, I'm your best friend and you're mine and you can't leave me out any longer." Rose says as she kneels down next to me, she rubs my back. Tears start running down my cheeks both from the heaving and my sudden sadness. "I told Lysander." I say simply, not really be able to say much as my throat now throbs. "I guess he didn't take it well." Rose says sadly, I nod. "You can't hurt yourself like this any more, you have a baby inside of you now and not eating could hurt not only you but the baby." Rose says forcefully, I start crying again.
I didn't even think about the baby, I wasn't even thinking about anything but myself. After helping me clean myself up we walk to the common room, I read for most of the time until I get a note. 'Meet me at the bench. L.' I place my book down and walk out of the common room, I walk until I reach the courtyard, once there I see Lysander sitting on the bench, I walk over nervously. Lysander sees me and offers me the seat next to him, I sit down cautiously as he turn towards me.
"So I wanted to talk to you." Lysander says slowly, I breathe in deeply, expecting the worse. "You want to break up?" I ask sadly, Lysander looks shocked at my question. "No, no of course not. I'm with you no matter what happens, with whatever you and James choose to do." Lysander says with a small smile, I give a sigh of relief. "Oh wow, really?" I ask happy but still unsure, Lysander rolls his eyes and smiles. "Yes of course, why would you think I would break up with you?" Lysander asks, I bite my lip nervously, he's going to think I'm an idiot.
"Well I saw you with this girl this morning, the way she was touching you, I just assumed." I say blushing, Lysander gives a small laugh. "That was Lucy-Anne, she's just a friend I promise, she's very touchy-feely." Lysander says with a humorous smile. "May I really like you and I'm sorry for how angry I got." Lysander says, I smile and kiss him on the cheek. "I'm just so happy to have you back." I say with a smile, Lysander puts his arm around me and holds me against him. "So what have you and James decided to do?" Lysander says softly, I look down.
"I haven't told him yet." I say slowly, Lysander looks at me. "You have to tell him, I know I would like to know if I was going to be a father." Lysander says softly. "I'll tell him soon, I'm just worried about Alice." I say sadly. "I'm sure she'll understand." Lysander says softly, I give him a small smile. For the rest of the day I was with Lysander, we talked about everything and I decided to tell James when I next saw him. I walk into the common room and bump straight into James, I sigh unhappily. "Hey James can I talk to you privatively?" I ask as I move away from him, he shrugs his shoulders and I roll my eyes.
"Sure, follow me." James says blankly, he grabs my hand and leads me to the room of requirement. I think back to the last time he lead me somewhere, I landed into this situation. "James I need to tell you something." I say slowly, James rolls his eyes angrily, I furrow my eyebrows together in confusion. "What are you going to tell me? That Alice is cheating on me? Well don't think about it because I've heard enough." James says angrily, I shake my head and roll my eyes.
"One, I'm not about to tell you that and two, Alice would never do that." I say matter of factly, James' face calms down. "Then what do you want to talk about?" James says sounding bored. "How could you think that I would ever say anything like that about Alice?" I ask angrily, James looks down. "She's one of my best friend, I wouldn't say anything like that." I say more calmly.
"I'm sorry alright. I just thought because what happened..." James says leading off, I sigh angrily. "That I would ruin one of my best friend's happiness?" I finish off angrily. "Just tell me what you want to tell me." James says grumpily. "Well I thought that you would like to know that I'm pregnant with your baby but that doesn't matter." I say angrily, James eyes widen in shock.
"And no I'm not saying this just to get your attention. I was told that you should know but at this point I don't care what you want." I say angrily, I go to leave when James grabs my arm. "You can't just tell me that and leave." James says calmly. "Well it's not that you care, you just think that because we slept together and I wasn't happy when I found out about you and Alice that I'm completely in love with you." I say angrily.
"Well I'm not, especially since you've just ignored me the whole time you've been with Alice and the fact that you know nothing about me." I say forcefully, I try to pull away from James, who holds onto my arm harder. "You told me not to come near you." James says quickly. "Actually I said don't you ever dare kiss me again, this just shows that you don't listen to a thing I say." I say angrily, James shakes his angrily.
"I'm part of this now, so you can't make a choice without me." James says with a cocky smile. "Actually you were the sperm donor. I didn't want to have a kid this way but it looks like I will. You don't care about this baby but I know who will. And now I'm saying don't come near me." I say angrily, while he's still reeling from my comment, I pull my arm away from James and leave. I head straight to my dorm room where he can't come.
Rose is there when I get there, she see the anger on my face and sits down on my bed with me. "What happened?" Rose asks quickly, I sigh trying to let go of some of the anger. "Lysander is here for me no matter what and James is a complete dungbomb." I say simply. "Tell me everything about James." Rose says. "Well before I can tell him, he accused me of saying Alice was cheating on him, then after telling him that I would never do that, he then asked me in a bored tone what I wanted to say, I told him angrily and then he stops me from leaving saying that I can't just say that and leave, so I tried to leave again and he grabbed me harder saying that I couldn't make a choice without him and I told him that he was just a sperm donor and I know someone who will actually care and I left." I say quickly, Rose looks quite shocked.
"You really think that Lysander would become the father of your baby?" Rose asks. "How did you know I was talking about Lysander?" I ask shocked that I forgot how smart she really is. "He's the only guy I know who likes you more than life it's self." Rose says with a smile. "It's been a long day, I'm going to bed." I say softly, Rose nods. I get into my pyjamas and lay in bed until I fall asleep.
A/N: Hi Guys, I know the chapter is quite small and to me it feels a little rushed but we'll see how it goes. Thank you for reading. If you can, can you please review!?
Disclaimer: Anything you recognise is J.K Rowling's. Only the plot and some O.C's are mine.