Okay ...sorry to have stopped there but this part was going to take some explaining. And for some it might be a bit too much. So don't read on if you're squeamish talking about sex.
Okay so here we are. Now bare in mind that I have never been with a guy...EVER. So Sonny and I are heading to his apartment for the sole purpose of having sex. The big S. Yes I am 19..and yes I have been with Gaby twice now. But this is all new territory. With Gaby I sort of knew the mechanics. I mean what kid doesn't hear about it at school or seen a Playboy or Penthouse. So every guy unless they have lived in a cave most of their life knows what sex is about between a guy and a girl. Now gay sex is a whole different ball of wax...huh...wax...heard about it but haven't tried it ...yet. Sorry ...got lost in that thought for a minute. Okay so gay sex. No one really talks about it unless you are around a bunch of gay guys. And even then they aren't talking about the mechanic..it is more about size...or how hard they did it..or where they did it. And lets face it...you aren't about to go into a store and asked for the Guys Getting It On With Guys Magazine. So my only introduction to gay sex was what I had seen on the internet... Oh don't act so shocked...oooohhhhhhh Will Horton was looking at gay porn sites. Grow up...I am gay and I wanted to know what it was like. And yeah ..some of it was hot. But anyway. First big misnomer...when you see guys getting it on in porn ..and by getting it on I mean being fucked. They always make it look like …...oh that feels so good...yeah give me more. Bullshit...it hurts. First ….now I can't speak for anyone else here...but that part of my body has been an exit ramp for my 19 years. To suddenly have cars driving up the exit ramp ...is just wrong. But...but...I will admit that once you relax and don't fight the flow of traffic..it can be pretty good. But I think it is mostly because if you love the person..you are enjoying the fact that you are sharing something. Okay enough Dr Phil here. Back to what's happening.
So there we are in Sonny's apartment. Again the bed is made perfectly...I am sorry I don't mean to hop on this..but what guy does that. I don't even get the logic. Make your bed when you get out of it. Why...you are just going to get back in an mess it up again. Okay..that is the last time I will bring that up.
So we are making out...and let me tell you I am into it. But my heart is going a mile a minute. I like what I am feeling but I have no idea what I will be feeling in a little while. SCARY. So we are standing there...and I really did appreciate him asking me of it was okay to go ahead...part of me said yes because...I wanted sex...and part wanted to be with him in that way. But part of me just wanted to get by this one piece so that in the future it would just be natural..without the nerves and the unknown. So he sweetly was taking my shirt off...man when his hands ran over my nipples and chest then over my shoulder. Well talk about premature ejaculation. I was in that state at that point. So it took some major refrain from me not to lose it right then and there. I know you are thinking...what? ..he is just touching you. Come on here..I had never been touched by a guy like that before...and by someone that I think at that time I loved more than anything. So yeah...I was turned on ..almost to that point. But I stared into his eyes and focused on him...to keep my mind from going to all the new sensations that I was feeling. A lot of it was just a sense of how natural this felt. Not like with Gaby. This felt right. Okay I am getting mushy here sorry about that...but I am just reliving it in my head as I type this. Well Sonny has my shirt off..I have his shirt off...and we are making out. Now in the back of my head I am thinking...who is going to bust in this time. Let me tell you that can really kill the mood. So we are both shirtless...sans Sonny's tank top. He starts to climb on the bed..and then you don't see us again until the after glow. But what you didn't see was so tender. Sonny was so giving to me. Knowing that I had no idea what I was doing he was ...patient isn't the word...or even instructive. I guess he was sort of giving me free range...letting me do what I wanted to do. If I wanted to lick him...or kiss him...or touch him in places I was curious about he just went with it. Which is not to say that he just laid there and let me use him. I could tell some of the things I was doing, were enjoyable to him. I will admit we did a lot of kissing...and I mean a lot. But I eventually got to the more progressive things...at least for me they were...for him probably common place. But I started to give him a blowjob. Not a pro that is for sure..I got a couple of ..watch the teeth...or try licking...little hints or instructions on how make it easier on me doing it..and more pleasurable for him to be receiving it. I eventually got the hang of it. I guess I did pretty good because he asked me to stop because he was close to cumming and he didn't want to ..because he had other things to show me and do with me.
Well when he started giving me a blowjob...I could see what I was doing wrong..when I was doing it...and how to engage other parts of the body while you are performing on your partner. So lesson learned.
Well we got down to the biggy...the intercourse. He told me that I could fuck him...because he was more experienced and knew what to expect and how to minimize the discomfort...a euphemism for pain. So we broke out the lube..and the condom. Thank God..I wasn't sure how to bring that up without offending him. But he said he made a point of always using one until we were both tested. Now I know I was clean already since I was Gaby's first..and second and she was my only...but Sonny had been around...and judging from his attitude it appeared he always played it safe. Good for me.
Okay so we got the lube...I have the condom on. For you other gay guys out there...you know...that when you start to put on the condom...you can sort of lose the erection pretty quick...and add the fact that it is your first time and well you see where I am going. So anyway it took some manual stimulation to get back to the needed condition to continue. Well I got there. So here is where porn does not really give the facts. It is not an easy task to put part A into part B. There is a lot of attempts before you make it. And for me I had to use my thumb to hold little Will's head in place to make the initial entrance. So anyway ..I eventually could make my advance. "Okay..remember my premature comment before...well it came into play here. I am embarrassed to say that I lasted...what maybe 30 second..if that. But Sonny was so cool about it...he just played it off as...it happens when you are to excited or it is your first time. I was so grateful for that. He didn't make me feel bad...and I love him for that.
Well since I couldn't really accomplish my mission since my forces marched without orders from me I had to find some way to make it up to him. So I ...and I can't believed I offered this, told him he could do it to me. He at first balked at the idea...he told me that we should work up to that over time. But I told him it was going to happen eventually so may as well start now. So he did what I suppose I should have done to him. He loosened me up a bit using his fingers before he made his grand entrance. Now...here is another lie that porn movies portray. When you are first pentrated it is not a pleasurable feeling. It is a painful experience. Sonny told me to breath and relax...and some other techniques to minimize the discomfort...there it is the euphemism again. Well that activity lasted for about 2 minutes...before I told him that we would have to stop. Again..he was so sweet about it...he tried to make me feel better by saying that not many guys their first time would have lasted that long or even have been able to let him get all the way in. So that just made me love him even more.
Well as you can see from my piece here that I am the only one who got to fire off his rocket...so I was feeling bad about that...so I offered to blow him again...but instead he introduced me to the very hot..and very pleasurable activity of sixty-nine. Now that ...I liked a lot...and I even got to fire off my rocket again. Now he did let me fire mine in him...I however let him release on me instead of in me. He didn't mind...he said that he preferred to cum on a guy instead of in him..because he enjoyed the visual. But whatever the reason, it was hot...for me and for him.
Well now you know what happen once we dropped down onto the bed. Our exchange was truly sincere..for me it was perfect. One because I did enjoy it very much...partly because we had reached that point and passed it without incident. And partly because it was with someone...yes I will say it...that I loved. And when I told him that for the first time in my life I felt comfortable in my own skin...that was 100% true. What we did, while brand new to me...it felt like that was the way it was suppose to be for me. Just like a straight person feels making love or even just having sex with someone of the opposite sex it feel right and natural...that is what I felt with Sonny.
So there...all the naughty bits...in all their glory. Hope I didn't offend...but I want to be honest here.
So we will pick up at the part where my life start so crash and burn next time.
Thanks for reading
Will