Hey, here's Chapter 3 'Daughter' Hope you enjoy it.
"Who'd want a daughter like you?"...
"My life would have been much better if I'd had an abortion"...
Ronnie kept remembering all the terrible unforgivable things she had said to Danielle, she felt sick. She hated herself; the only thing she wanted to do was burst in to Stacey's house and just be with Danielle. To apologise and cuddle her, she wanted to hold Danielle and tell her how sorry she was and how much she loved her. To tell her everything was going to be ok, to start a perfect life together as mother and daughter.
Ronnie carried on running, getting closer to Stacey's and further away from the Vic. Ronnie felt a sense of hope when she finally saw Stacey's house, it was so close, she knew it was. Yet it seemed so far away, Danielle had to be there, Ronnie kept Danielle's locket firmly in her hand. She slowed down as she reached Stacey's door, she placed her hand on her chest, and let out a cry, she felt tears burning her eyes and the pain in her heart was unbearable. After what she had done, she wouldn't be surprised if Danielle hated her, even though it would cause more pain then she could ever imagine. Ronnie took one final deep breath and knocked several times on Stacey's front door.
Ronnie knocked the door so fast, not stopping. Her hand was becoming red and bruised but she didn't care, she didn't feel the pain, the pain in her heart was much greater. "Come on! Open up!" Ronnie yelled impatiently, she kept thinking of all the things she had said to Danielle.
"Who'd want a daughter like you?"
Ronnie tried to stop thinking of the terrible thoughts; she had to focus on Danielle. Just then the door opened. Stacey didn't have time to react before Ronnie barged past her. "Hey!" Stacey yelled in confusion and anger, Stacey slammed the door behind her, she saw Ronnie franticly run in to the living room. Ronnie ignored Stacey yelling at her, she ran in to the kitchen, Danielle wasn't there either. Ronnie turned round to leave the kitchen but Stacey blocked her path. "What the hell are you doing?" Stacey yelled grabbing Ronnie by the shoulder to stop her making another dash to where ever she planned on going next. Stacey managed to see Ronnie in the light of the kitchen, she had tears rolling down her face and she looked terrible, her eyes were red and she was clearly in distress.
"Where is she? Where's Danielle?" Ronnie asked, breathing heavily trying to catch her breath, wanting so much just to have this pain end and be with Danielle. Stacey laughed sarcastically, trying to ignore the state Ronnie was in, instead remembering the terrible things she had done to Danielle. "You really think she wants to see you?" Stacey shook her head. Ronnie used her hand to wipe away the tears on her face. "Please...Stacey, I know you think badly of me for what I did..." Ronnie said just wanting Stacey to tell her where her baby was, Stacey took her hand off Ronnie's shoulder and folder her arms, still blocking the exit from the kitchen.
"Think badly of you? Do you know what state she was in? You threw her out the Vic and rejected her!" Stacey yelled back, Ronnie was becoming increasingly impatient with Stacey. "Please! Just tell me where she is...I know I did something unforgivable but in the end...she's my baby..." Stacey had never seen Ronnie this emotional before, she always thought she was heartless.
"I've wanted her for the past 19 years... now I know she's here...please I need her" Ronnie begged. Stacey sighed, "Look...Danielle already decided to stay here with me..." Stacey trailed off, Ronnie wiped the tears from her eyes again, she then opened her hand and showed Stacey the locket, she opened it, "This is the locket I gave her years ago" Ronnie showed the picture of herself when she was younger. She then revealed a second locket, "This is the locket I've carried around with me everyday..." she opened it to reveal a baby, "My baby..." Ronnie said, her voice getting weaker at the thought of Danielle.
Stacey stared at the picture of Danielle as a baby for a while, she brushed her hair out of her face and sighed, "She went for a walk...I don't know where but she might be back in about ten minutes or so..." Ronnie shook her head, "I can't wait ten minutes...I have to see her now! She can't have gone far" Ronnie placed both lockets in her coat pocket, Stacey had moved away from the door frame allowing Ronnie to run past. She ran quickly to the door and opened it, without looking back she left the house and slammed the door shut. Stacey was only just in the hall way, Ronnie had left so fast. She sighed to herself, walking back in to the kitchen; she grabbed another bottle of vodka and took a seat at the table, just hoping that Ronnie wouldn't upset Danielle anymore.
Danielle felt the cold air blowing through her hair as she walked through the park. She had no idea why she had came here, maybe the good memories of sitting down in the grass with Stacey, laughing and joking. Danielle decided to sit down on some benches nearby. She placed her hands together and rubbed them, trying to warm herself up.
After sitting in the park for more than a few minutes, she began to think, there was nothing else she could think of, she could only think about what Ronnie must be doing, she no doubt would be having a good time, thinking that Danielle was just a pathetic freak. Danielle wiped the tears from her face again. She didn't even have her locket, the one precious item that she always held tight for comfort, whenever she was scared or alone. Now, the locket was gone, after all that had happened, maybe having Ronnie close to her was a bad idea. Although Danielle knew Ronnie wouldn't ever find out the truth, she doubted she would be able to forgive her at all.
Danielle sat for a moment, still thinking about what had happened, thinking about what it would be like, each day Ronnie living in the same square as her. She decided to get up and head back to Stacey's before the thoughts made her go mad, at least at Stacey's she could just have a few drinks and try and drown her sorrows, not that she usually did drink to solve her problems but this problem could only be solved by a drink.
Ronnie sat down on Arthur's bench; she placed her head in her hands and began to cry uncontrollably, she couldn't believe what she had done, Danielle didn't deserve her. She had been horrible to her, calling her a freak and rejecting her. Ronnie couldn't keep in the emotion much longer. She just wanted to scream out loud but she had no strength left.
Danielle still wasn't back according to Stacey, she had been gone about 25 minutes, and people had already left the Vic. No doubt Archie had been kicked out after what he did. Ronnie didn't care, she lifted her head out of her hands, and she looked over at the Vic. Some people were outside, they were looking at Ronnie, she knew they were whispering about her.
Ronnie pulled out the locket of Danielle as a baby; she stared at the picture inside, her eyes filling with tears, just looking how beautiful she was as a baby and how beautiful she was now. A beautiful 19 year old who didn't deserve a mother like her.
Danielle saw Stacey's house, she tried to walk faster. She just wanted to get inside and get some sleep, she tried so hard to not look at the Vic, she decided to keep looking straight ahead, not daring to look to her right, seeing the Vic would only make her want to know what was happening. Where Ronnie was, what she was doing. Ronnie heard the sound of someone walking behind her, she decided to ignore them, after a while she realised that Stacey's house was close to where she was sitting, Ronnie stood up and quickly turned around and her heart sank as she saw Danielle walking up to Stacey's front door.
So much emotion ran through Ronnie at once, she wanted to run up to Danielle and just hold her, while at the same time she didn't want to upset Danielle anymore. She finally decided on what to do, in a moment of high emotion she ran after Danielle. "Danielle!" she called desperately, this was it now, she was finally going to be with her daughter, even if she was rejected back, all she wanted was to say sorry. Danielle turned round, she was just about to knock on Stacey's door, her eyes widened and she felt a sense of fear run through her body when she saw Ronnie standing right in front of her.
"My baby..." Ronnie gasped, lost for words looking at Danielle who now looked more beautiful than anything in the world. "I'm so sorry...I didn't know...I just...You're my baby..." Ronnie felt weaker with each word she said, Danielle shook her head, tears began to burn her eyes again, she thought hearing Ronnie say this would make her feel warm and happy, instead she felt nothing. "Don't" she said harshly, Ronnie felt tears rolling down her face, she wanted so much for Danielle to forgive her, yet that didn't seem like it was going to happen. "Danielle..." she cried her voice filled with desperation, she opened her hand and showed Danielle the locket of herself when she was younger. "I found the locket...I" Ronnie shook her head and placed her hand on her mouth, for a few seconds she seemed like she couldn't talk. As if emotion had overwhelmed her. She removed the hand from her mouth. "I'm so sorry!" she cried out loud her voice regaining strength just to get her daughter back. "Stop it..." Danielle tried to not let herself cry anymore, "You...You rejected me and now you come back trying to say sorry?" Danielle's harsh words only made Ronnie weaker, "I'm just a pathetic freak!" Danielle began to yell moving slightly closer towards Ronnie, who was shaking her head at everything Danielle was saying. "You're not a freak...I lo-"
"NO!" Danielle interrupted Danielle before she managed to finish. She moved even closer to Ronnie, "Please...don't" Danielle cried, tears now rolling down her face too. Ronnie slowly moved closer to Danielle, they were both in reach of each other now, "I loved you" Danielle said finally, "I loved you so much...but you..." Danielle trailed off and turned around to go back in to Stacey's house. "Danielle..." Ronnie cried, she could feel all the hope of getting her daughter back fading away.
Roxy exited the Vic and saw Ronnie and Danielle across the road, "Oh my god" she said quietly to herself, she decided to slowly walk towards them; from here she couldn't tell what was going on. She got to Arthur's bench without them seeing her; she decided to listen in to what they were saying.
"Danielle...please I know you might hate me...I understand that but..." Ronnie walked towards Daniele with each word. "I love you!" Ronnie cried, "I'm so sorry...no matter what I've done to you...I love you...so much" Ronnie cried again with some hope that Danielle might be able to forgive her now. "My beautiful baby..." Ronnie whispered, her voice was so weak, she felt as if she couldn't say anything more. Danielle knocked the door to Stacey's, Ronnie shook her head, "Please forgive me..." Ronnie barely whispered, for a moment Danielle felt her heart warm, almost as if she wanted to forgive Ronnie, for a second she thought she was going to. The urge to run up to Ronnie and forgive her was incredibly strong, it was only when Stacey opened the door that she came to her sense and made her decision.
"Who'd want a daughter like me?" Danielle whispered quietly, before it overwhelmed her, she walked past Stacey in to the house, as she did so the door firmly shut.
Ronnie knelt down on to the ground; she placed her head in her hands again and began to cry. She felt so alone, she felt ashamed of herself. She had driven the one girl in the world that could make her happy away. Roxy couldn't stand to see her sister like this; it was time for her to be the one there for Ronnie. She walked over to her and knelt down to her level. She placed her arms around her older sister and hugged her, just trying to help her through this.
"I need to change in to some pyjamas or something" Danielle said, Stacey nodded, "I'm sorry about her Dan...I'm sorry it didn't go as you planned" Stacey said sympathetically, Danielle gave a short sad smile. "The others came back...Peggy kicked them out the Vic...I told them about you, told them you're not...well...mad" Stacey said trying to lighten the mood a little bit, Danielle nodded, "Tell them I'll see them tomorrow, I'm not in any mood to talk right now" Danielle said walking up the stairs, "Thank you Stace..." Danielle smiled; glad she had a friend to help her through this.
Roxy was walking Ronnie back to the Vic, Ronnie was crying most the way, seeking comfort in Roxy. "It's ok...come one" Roxy tried to keep Ronnie in good hope, "Your little sister's gonna be here to take care of you" she said reassuringly, using her arm to hold Ronnie close to her. God knows right now Ronnie needs all the support in the world. Her little sister was the best one to provide it.