DISCLAIMER: I do not own FNL! (Sorry I forgot to put this up earlier)

A/N: So this chapter might explain a few things... I hope you guys enjoy! I also made this chapter a little longer due to the flashbacks. All flashbacks will be in italics!

Julie drove back to her house to find her mother feeding Isaiah a bottle. "Hey honey, did you have a good time?" Tami asked.

"Yea, I ran into Tyra, Landry, and Matt. I hung out with them for quite awhile. I'm kinda tired though, so I think Isaiah and I are going to go take a nap," Julie said leaving out the part where she went to see Tim.

"Why don't you go lay down? I've got him," Tami stated.

"Thanks mom. If he gets fussy, then just come wake me up," Julie responded before walking to her old room. It didn't take long before she fell fast asleep with memories of the past crashing down around her.

Julie was sitting in her living room doing her homework, when she heard a knock on the door. She got up to answer the door. As she opened it, Tim Riggins stood on the other side. "Tim, what are you doing here? Aren't you suppose to be at college?," she wondered.

"Little Taylor, it almost sounds like you don't want me here. That hurts," he joked.

"My dad is at school still, but you can come in and wait if you want," she said ignoring his remark.

"Just admit it Taylor, you like me," he said walking closer to her.

"Tim…" she began, but forgot what she was going to say once she glanced up into his eyes.

"Have you missed me?" he asked.

Julie couldn't form words as his mouth inched closer to hers. She closed her eyes as she felt his moist lips touch hers. "Yes," she whispered.

"Because you know I've missed you. I can't stop thinking about that kiss we shared over Christmas break. Why did you do it?" he wondered.

"You know why," Julie stated.

"I wanna hear you say it," he begged.

"It's because I've had a crush on you ever since you saved me from that Riley kid and the tornado. You're always saving me," she confided.

"For the record, Taylor, I like you too," he smirked.

Julie knew he truly meant it to. She saw a side of him that no one else got to see. He allowed her to see past Tim Riggins, the football player. "Why are you really here though?" she asked aloud.

"To see you," he confessed. He then pulled her in for yet another kiss. He just couldn't get enough of her.

"I'm glad you're here. I was beginning to think the kiss didn't mean anything to you," she said.

"Of course it did, but remember this is our little secret. Your dad would kill me if he knew I was kissing his daughter," he responded.

"It's our secret," she agreed.

She woke up and remembered that day like it was yesterday. It was during her junior year and Tim was going to school at Texas Tech. They never made their relationship official, and actually no one ever found out about it. He was just always there for her when she needed him, and he would come home to see her as much as he could. Their 'relationship' grew more serious over time, but they both agreed to keep it between them. Up until her senior year, things were going great, but that is when things changed.

Graduation was already here and Julie was excited because Tim had promised to show. She was in her room getting ready when Tim walked into her room. "Little Taylor, you ready to get this show on the road? Your parents are waiting on you," he said.

"I'm almost ready," she replied.

He walked up behind her and whispered, "You look beautiful, by the way."

Julie smiled before turning around and saying, "Thank you. Are we still on for tonight?"

"Only if you are sure about this. I mean we don't have to do this if you don't want too," he stated.

"I'm positive, I want you to be my first," she confessed.

"Then we'll meet up after your ceremony," he responded.

After that, they walked out and met her parents before heading to the school for the ceremony. Julie hardly focused on the ceremony itself, but once the announcer said the final words, she went in search of Tim.

After many pictures, Tim finally helped her escape her family. They headed off to their favorite spot that no one else knew about. It was a big pasture just off a deserted road. He parked his truck and grabbed a blanket. "Are you sure?" he asked.

"Yea," she confirmed.

They walked out a little ways before he placed the blanket on the ground. For the first time in her life, Julie made love with Tim Riggins for the very first time that night under the stars.

"I love you," he whispered.

These three little words have haunted her since that night four years ago. That night she never got to say it back, and for that she regrets. She wished she would have told him, but knew that it would change things. He belonged at Texas Tech and she was about to move to California for school. So instead, that night she chose to leave town and never look back. She thought she was doing the right thing, but she never got over him.

Then about a couple weeks later, she found out she was pregnant. She knew this would probably destroy his football career, so she just stayed away. She raised Isaiah by herself without any help, while still attending classes and going to school.

These last four years had been tough, but all she wanted right now was for Tim to hold her in his arms one more time. She missed that the most, she thought as she drifted back to sleep.

A/N: I know I've revealed the father, but he won't find out until a few more chapters. Plus, on;y her family know she even has a kid at this point in the story. Everything will be explained as the story progresses... please review!