Chapter 2: Heartbreak

The next morning came sooner than Tony and Ziva had expected. Ziva sat up but immediately went back down, putting a hand to her head. "Ooo." She groaned, her eyes closed momentarily. Tony stirred as he felt her movement and turned his head to face her as he was lying in his stomach. "Oh man my head." Ziva nodded. "It appears that we are hung over." Tony rubbed his forehead. "Yeah and we have a headache to prove it. Guess that wine was stronger than we thought." Ziva made a face and sighed. After a moment she looked at him. Their eyes meet and the memories of their previous night flooded their minds. The kisses, the touches, the release...everything. But for the couple while they did enjoy the pleasure and sensations and their feelings, they suddenly felt like they had done something wrong, unsure and confused. Both were willing to take the next step in the relationship and going out to a fancy dinner was probably the right choice, ending up in the state they were however, naked in bed together, was not what they expected.

Ziva immediately thought how disappointed Gibbs would be in her and in Tony. She didn't want their reputation to be ruined because of what took place if things went south on their relationship. It's not that they haven't been in bed together before but that was undercover, different. She sat up more slowly and brought the covers up to her chest, covering herself, resting her head in her left hand. Tony could tell she was just as confused and uncertain as he was. Was she regretting it? Was he regretting it that they didn't wait? A couple times they had talked about this and decided that in the long run it would've been best to wait. But being induced with the wine and getting drunk and letting themselves just go on with it..it just happened. Their senses were blurred and both just felt actually a bit violated and also shamed.

Tony licked his lips and sat up also, the silence and already bit of distance between them so thick you could cut it with a knife. "Uugh..What are you thinking Ziva?" Ziva swallowed. "Well, last night we weren't thinking about anything, we were drunk." She glanced at him. "Not that we didn't really enjoy ourselves but-" "But I feel like by doing this we just broke what we had when all this time we had planed to wait." Tony said and Ziva nodded in agreement. "I know Tony. I remember our talks about us..about the future, our future...S-so...what do we do?" She regretted the words as soon as they left her lips and her eyes became a bit shiny. DiNozzo looked to her. "I honestly don't really know...and I did enjoy it," he turned closer to her, gently resting his hand on her shoulder. "But my feelings for you haven't changed." But Ziva moved away from him and stood up from the bed. "And mine haven't either but, Tony, can we live like this?" She turned and looked at him. "Nothing will change at work. I'm not saying I won't have your back but this...I just feel that we should not have done what we did." Tony nods in agreement, swallowing as he rose from the bed, putting on his boxers and coming to her. Ziva didn't resist at all from his touch as he brought her into a hug. In fact, she snuggled into him, embracing him, trying to get as close as possible to the man she loves. DiNozzo kissed her forehead and Ziva took a breath, eyes closed and sniffling. After a moment she looked up at him. "So..do we just..agree to disagree?...Part ways?"

Tony opened his mouth but nothing came out. "I mean Tony it kills me...I-it's killing me because I want us to be together. I want us to work" Her lover nodded as she started sobbing and he held her close. "I know Zi." He began tearing up, a hard lump hurting in his throat. "I don't want us to end. At work we know it's different, it'll be the same somewhat, but..Ziva I don't want you to feel this way. I never wanted to hurt you like this." Ziva put her hands on his chest and backed away a little. "Tony you didn't hurt me, if anything I hurt you." DiNozzo shook his head. "No you didn't..I just started kissing you and we didn't take precautions and like you said, we didn't even think." Ziva wiped her nose, sighing. "And that is the point of all this. We didn't think, we just went off and before we knew it we were snogging each other and..." She gestured with her hands. Tony looked at her and nodded, sort of chuckling but it was short lived as the moment turned immediately sad again. They faced each other, Tony took Ziva's hands in his, they looked into each other's eyes. Without saying words, they both agreed to separate. It cut deep, both hearts torn, but they decided it was for the best. That evening Ziva left Tony's apartment with tears in her eyes, she cried as she was walking away from her soulmate, her love, her entire world. She cried all the way home and that night she hugged a pillow close to her, feeling terrible. He cried as she left his embrace, when she walked out of his apartment, leaving him all alone. Overcome with emotion DiNozzo clenched his jaw and, grabbing the first thing he could fine, which was a bowl he put his keys in, he yelled and threw it across the room. Crying out as he crumbled to his knees.

The next couple of days were miserable for the two agents. The team noticed how they avoided each other but there didn't seem to be tension, only sadness. Ziva then noticed as time went on that Tony avoided her even more than the normal hello and chatting. He even seemed a little happy. Though it made her wonder, she didn't try to figure out what was going on. She wanted him to be happy, she just hoped she could find it again herself.

For Tony as the days went on..a couple sleepless nights he found himself at one of the restaurant bars in Georgetown. On this particular night he had had a couple drinks. He laughed at something the bartender said to him. But for some reason though not really drunk, his stool became unbalanced and he fell back a little, actually bumping into a woman. "Oof!" "Oh!" Tony quickly moved to compose himself. "Oh gosh I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. My stool is a little rickety so.." But the woman shook her head. "No, no, it's fine. Completely okay. You did nothing wrong." Tony licked his lips and took a calming breath as he looked at her. She was tall, fair complexion, reddish brown hair with more vibrant orangish yellow highlights. It made Tony think of fire. He offered his hand in greeting. "I'm Anthony DiNozzo. But I manly go by Tony, Tony DiNozzo." The woman took his hand and shook it in greeting. "Jane. Jane Foster." Tony smiled. "Jane. That's a nice name." He pulls a stool closer. "Would you like to take a seat?"

Jane stared for a moment then nodded, adjusting her purse strap on her shoulder. "So what's a guy like you doing at a place like this?" At DiNozzo's expression she gave a kind of slow nod. "You got dumped?" Tony shook his head. "Nah." The woman looked to him. "She not good enough, she already taken or..?" She asked carefully. Tony again shook his head. "No uh..we're coworkers and..well my boss has this thing about dating and, well...not everyone follows the rules." The redhead nods. "Ohhh. Doing a little sneaky sneaky there huh? My names Jane by the way." She offered her hand and Tony shook it, nodding. "Tony DiNozzo. And yeah we were. I'll admit it...I lov-" he paused momentarily, not wanting to just spew everything to a stranger. "I really liked her and she liked me." Jane looked to him after drinking from her glass. "So what's the problem then? You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. I respect privacy." Tony licked his lips. "Well, thank you very much but it..it just didn't work out. Something just happened. At first everything seemed to be going in the right direction..next minute it wasn't so we both decided it would be best for us to just, be apart." Jane listened to DiNozzo's words and nodded to him. She gently rested a hand on his arm. "I'm sorry it didn't work out for you. Relationships are so hard and complicated to get into these days. Most are afraid of commitment. Some don't want to change who they are, or it could've been just a one night stand."

As soon as she saw Tony's eyes change she knew she'd hit something and she grimaces a little. "Oh my gosh I'm so sorry. I didn't meant to-" "It's fine. You're fine." Tony said, gesturing with his hand. He sat up a little in his chair, glancing around. "So are you here for any of the reasons you've suggested for me?" He squinted his interrogation eyes at her in playfulness. Jane shook her head, chuckling. "No. Just hanging out...okay..I was a matter of fact dumped. So I left him. He cared more about his gambling and being with his buddies over me. Turned out to be a jerk." Tony snorted. "Hm. That's too bad. You're seem to be a very nice woman. Someone who cares." Jane looks to him and blushed. "Thanks." She looks about then back to Tony. "Hey I..I know it seems kind of early but..you want to get a bite to eat somewhere?" DiNozzo finished his glass then paused, thinking about Ziva. But lately she's been avoiding him and they've both been distant. Maybe it's alright to move on. So he said yes. Jane smiled and both went to Tony's favorite pizza place. They got to know each other and laughing and chatting away. The more time Tony spent with this woman, the hole in his heart, well it's like it's almost healed.

Well that night was a good start for Tony and as the few weeks went on he and Jane became close friends. Like Ziva, Jane had a caring nature but was more into movies and similar things that Tony liked. It sort of just happened and they clicked. Tony would arrive to work more happy and whole. Ziva was somewhat better...but then one day...

TBC

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