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Chapter 3: Never Again

I couldn't help the thud when I fell to the floor. The burning I had felt before was making its way over my body and it was all I could do not to scream. If Charlie saw me he'd take me to the hospital. But it hurt so much. Somewhere off in the distance I heard howling and growls but it seemed so far away now. Slowly my eyes slid shut and I fell into unconsciousness no longer able to help the pain or screaming.

It lasted for what seemed like years though I'm sure it was only a few days. What I wasn't expecting though was what would happen when I woke up. My eyes shot open taking in my surroundings. Charlie was sitting in a chair beside me asleep. I didn't recognize the room but I knew where I was. He had brought me to the hospital.

Suddenly I heard a loud buzzing next to where I was laying. Quickly I looked over to see a straight line going across where my heartbeat was being recorded but yet though it says my heart has stopped beating here I am still alive. Before any doctors could come to find me alive but yet dead I ripped off all the strange things stuck to me and the needles though I have no idea how they got those through my skin. And I was even more surprised when I wasn't woozy from the sight of the needle in my skin. The heart rate monitor stopped all together.

I took deep breaths trying to figure out what to do. It wouldn't make sense to anyone if I woke up from 3 days of pain perfectly fine. Then a certain smell hit me. It came all around. The smell was distinct and smelled wonderful but I couldn't decide what it was. There was a strange taste in my mouth as well. It wasn't saliva that was for sure it was sweet but sour tasting. Then I realized what it was. Venom.

My mind started spinning for what to do. With all this…blood around me I couldn't stand being here that long. Wait blood? The sight or smell of blood made me sick before but now I actually like it? I have to get out of here before I make a horrible mistake. Inside my mouth I felt my teeth growing out into fangs. This isn't good.

Quickly I threw the thin sheet off me jumping down. I knew hospitals would be no good for me human or vampire. Before anything could happen I made a break for it. It wasn't until I started running that I remembered I could run at an impossible speed now. I raced past everyone as nothing but a blur leaving the blood behind.

In a matter of moments I made it home. Ok, ok I have to get away from here there is no way I will be able to explain what all happened to me to Charlie or anyone. But I can't just leave. Where will I go? I won't be able to handle being a vampire not knowing what to do. Carefully I opened the front door trying not to add to things I can't explain.

There is only one place I can go where I'd be safe for now. I ran around gathering some clothes in my bag along with what was left of my sock full of my savings. Then the next question came to me. Should I drive my truck or run now that I could without a complete wipe out? I decided to run at least then they couldn't look for my truck to find me.

I scribbled out a note to Charlie trying to explain what was going on. It read:

Dad,

I'm sorry I can't stay here anymore. I don't know where I'll go but please don't worry about me I'll be fine. Thanks for everything you've done for me.

Bella

Hopefully he'd find it where I left it on the kitchen table.

(A few minutes later)

When I made it to the edge of the forest I could no longer handle the thirst. I raced through the forest and snapped the neck of the first animal I saw drinking it's blood, which tasted better than I'd imagined it would. My heart went out to the poor animal that I killed but I felt better less edgy. Then I continued on to the house.

There was no way to get in. The whole house was in complete lock down. I made a mental note to repay them as I knocked the front door down easily propping it back against the frame of the door. Then I slowed down this brought back too many memories. Maybe this wasn't such a great idea. My dead heart broke again and I wasn't sure if I could hold the pieces together anymore. But I have all of eternity to try. But I also have all of eternity without him. How could this have happened? Somehow she knew just how to break me in two never to be fixed.

Slowly I ascended the staircase making my way to the familiar room. It was empty just like the rest of the house but I could still see everything that was there in my mind. Every last detail. He wasn't kidding when he told me it'd be like he was never here. I ran my fingers over the wall that had held all of his CDs and stood where the lone couch used to be.

I sank to my knees falling into self-pity throwing my bag down on the ground nearby. "Why…did…he…leave…me?" my voice cracked as I shook with dry sobs seeing as I couldn't cry anymore probably something I wouldn't be missing. But I would be missing him and that would never change.

Now reality sank in, as my mind no longer had anything to be occupied with. I'd never see any of my friends again. I couldn't now I'd never be the same again. And I couldn't see Charlie or Renee again or any of them. They're never coming back.

"Ok, I'll be…ok alone. I'll be ok without him," I tried the words out loud but it didn't sound right. And it was a lie. I'd never be even close to ok without him.

I'll never get to see his crooked smile or hear his lullaby to me again. I'll never be able to live again without him. I'll never be whole again. Did he really think I'd move on if he left?

Though I couldn't sleep anymore I felt like it. It was a nightmare that I couldn't wake up from. My whole body just shut down and everything felt like it was falling apart around me. If I try hard enough maybe I'll never wake up from this.

Bellow me I heard someone call out, "Bella? Are you in here? Bella?" I knew I should respond make some sort of try to connect with them but they were so distant and I was too shocked to move or speak.

A/N: I know another cliffhanger but I'm still trying to figure out where to go with this story. My mind was probably just as confused as Bella's was during this chapter. Please review!