Callie

I know the signs and Stef has all of them. I have been through it myself and I hate thinking that my mom endured it too. I knew what happened since before I learned that their is a rapist causing chaos in our town. I haven't said anything, because I want so desperately to be wrong. I want it to be anything other than rape. I hate that word and I wouldn't wish it on my greatest enemy so it tears me apart too think my mom went through it too. I don't want to think of it. I don't want to think of the day it happened too me. How long should I keep quiet about this?

I know Stef is the type of person to do what she has too for the sake of her family, she's hiding it for a reason. I know she can't do this for long through. I tried to hide it from Jude but he noticed I wasn't myself so I had to try and act as normal as possible too keep it from him. I think he knows something terrible happened but I don't know if he knows what. I haven't had the courage to sit him down and explain.

Lena

She hasn't been herself at all. Everything she said sounds scripted and rehearsed, and that's when she talks which is rare. She's barely touched her food and Mike confirmed that she's acted this way at work. She's stayed up at night, refusing to sleep she's either picked up extra shifts trying to make her city safe from this rapist or found something she's needed to do at home that's more important than getting sleep.

"Babe, what's going on?" I asked and she looked up from the bills.

"Currently? Paying the government because we like most Americans are drowning in debt" she said and I shook my head.

"You know what I mean" I said and she shook her head.

"No I don't, that's what I'm doing and you are going to burn the chicken" she said and I grabbed the chicken from the oven.

"That's what I meant. You're not sleeping…" I started and she sighed.

"It's overrated, I don't need it" she said and I grabbed her mug.

"That's because this is your third cup" I said looking into the empty mug that once had coffee in it. She shrugged.
"You haven't been eating either" I stated and she wasn't even looking at me she's busy paying the bills.

"That's what the coffee is for. All the nourishment I need" she joked and I rolled eyes.

"Stefanie, I'm serious." I warned.

"I'm fine, love. Just stressed with work and this crap" she said getting up and throwing the bills on the table looking frustrated.

"Honey it's bills we have always had to pay them" I said but shook her head.

"Well not with five kids, we didn't" she yelled.

"Stop it. You don't yell stuff like that. What if Jude or Callie heard you?" I said and she sighed.

"They are out" she pointed out.

"Still, don't raise your voice at me" I said and she sighed.

"Sorry" she said. I know she's dealing with something and that is why she's acting out but if she's going to insist on not telling me she's not going to take her frustrations out at me or the kids.

"We are fine for money" I said but she rolled her eyes.

"Fine for money? You mean we aren't quite drowning in debt yet" she said and I sighed.

"We always make it work" I told her.

"Whatever" she said going and grabbing a granola bar.

"Happy now?" she asked and I nodded having enough.

Stef

I feel terrible, I shouldn't have yelled at Lena like that. I know she's just worried about me but I need her to stop asking questions. I grabbed a granola bar too hopefully get Lena too get off my back but when I went too actually eat it I stopped. The thought of eating makes me feel sick. I haven't eaten in almost three days and I haven't even had an appetite.

I hid the granola bar in one of my drawers and thought I would sneak it back in the box later and hopefully she won't catch me.

Mike

Stef has been acting very weird at work and I was about to call Lena and ask her about it when she called me asking if Stef is acting weird at work. Now Lenas calling me and I sighed knowing this can't be good. Normally Stef calls me if it's about Brandon so obviously it's about Stef.

"Hey Lena everything ok?" I asked.

"Not really can we get a cup of coffee or something. We really need too talk about Stef." she said like I knew she would.

"Yeah of course. I go on lunch break in thirty minutes does that work for you?" I asked.

"Perfect. I'll see you in a little bit." she said and I hung up.

In a half an hour I was at the nearest coffee shop in town and she walked in.

"Hey thanks for meeting me" she said and I nodded.

"So it's not stopping?" I asked and she shook her head.

"She hasn't slept or eaten in three days. She's barely even drinking, it doesn't make sense" she said and she's right that doesn't make any sense.

"You're right and I asked the guys and they said they haven't seen her eat and that she's been acting weird" I said.

"Is she moody at work?" she asked.

"Oh god she's terrible. She wasn't that bad pregnant with B" I said and she laughed shaking her head.

"Everyones walking on eggshells around her" I said and she nodded in agreement.

"She claims she's stressed with this case but I have never seen her get this bad" she said and I know it's more than that. Sure Stef gets like this when we have any case that puts people life or safety at risk but she's never been that bad.

"I have known her since she was a rookie and was constantly afraid she would do something wrong and she's never been that bad and we have had some bad cases" I confirmed.

"So something else has to be going on?" she asked but it sounded more for herself than for me.

"Yeah this isn't just about the case, or money or whatever somethings wrong" I said agreeing with her. She's ranted about her family not having enough money to me during one of her hissy fits.

"I mean sure she constantly worries about money but that's not the problem" she said trying to figure out what is.

"I mean if money is an issue I can pay more with child support" I said not wanting them to be having problems financially. They have five kids and are on a cop and vice-principal salary they have to be just making it.

"No! We are fine, but thank you. You know Stef is just always worried about something. Besides I guarantee that's not the real issue." she said.

"You know what, let me talk too Jameson. He was working with her when they thought they could get him but then claimed he just wasn't their." I said remember thinking that was shady. They called in that they probably have him but didn't request backup even though we were already on our way when they called in saying they were wrong and not to bother and they are just going too continue on their route. Stef has been acting odd since and Jameson has seemed like he feels guilty about something.

"What you don't think?" she said immediately looking even more worried and like she could cry at the very thought of it. Can't blame her if what i'm thinking actually happened he's going to be given hell the second I can get my hands on him.

"No, no" I lied not wanting too worry her when I could be dead wrong and just assuming the worst. Now that I think of it through it makes sense, too much sense.

"No I mean he's worked with her the most lately and he can tell us if he's noticed anything off before this case" I lied. 'And see if he's hiding what actually happened to her.' I haven't seen him since the day that weird situation happened and I haven't had a chance to interrogate him and see if he seems guilty. If he knows something and keeps it from us it can be punishable by jail time, and a lot of it too.

Lena

When he said about asking the guy that worked that day that they thought they would catch him I immediately got more worried. Of course the terrible thought has crossed my mind how could it not when she's acting weird and there's a rapist out there.I never really thought it would happen through but now that he practically said it it all makes sense. She's been obsessed with this case lately, sure that's also just how she gets with a case like this, but she's too obsessed with it. She hasn't slept since then, because she's afraid of having nightmares about it. She hasn't eaten which is probably just because of the stress of it all and the worst she feels violated all the time. She's even taken too changing before I get too the room, which is just weird because why would she need to do that if nothing happened. I have seen her naked so many times, why would she bother unless it's because of something like that. That can't be explained away by anything other than that.

Jameson

Should I tell captain? I know deep down I should but what if he's legit. What if he goes after Stef's family? I don't really have a family too threaten but I wouldn't want anything happening too Stefs. I really don't know what to do in this case. I was never taught what to do if we are taken hostage by a rapist and you're pretty sure you're partner was raped and you know he's threatened their family. Believe it or not that scenario was not brought up in training.

Maybe Stef will come forward herself? No she's too worried about her family. She's probably right, she's worked her for longer than I have been alive her instincts are probably better than mine. FBI is taking over and they will find them and once they do I will go tell Captain.

I just feel so bad for Stef, if she was working with a more experienced cop they probably would have gotten her out of it. Instead she was stuck with me and because of that she's probably been raped. How am I even suppose to live with this?

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