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Don't own them yet. If you like to give me a few hundred thousand this story may become reality (ummm…well as much as a fiction show can turn into reality)

CHAPTER 2

"Grissom, what's going on? Why is Cath escorting me to your office?" Sara asks, half joking, half concerned by the tenor in Catherine's voice when she asked Sara to come with her to Grissom's office. She is also concerned that Cath refuses to answer any questions. Sara precedes Catherine into Grissom's office, as Catherine pushes Sara ahead. Grissom is now sitting on the couch in his office, his head down, his eyes focusing on something in his hand. Sara can see that he is looking at a piece of paper, but is not able to make out what it is.

"Sara, come here" Grissom states, not allowing her the option to object.

"Grissom, what is going on?" Sara questions becoming freighted with how Grissom and Catherine are acting. Sara can determine that Grissom is looking at an old picture, but she can't see what is on the picture. Sara does notice the moisture Grissom is trying to fight still beginning to form in his eyes.

"Sara, please come and sit down, it looks like your past may be involved in a case" Grissom explains while leading Sara to the couch to have her sit down. Catherine's mouth drops at the confirmation that the ideas forming in her head are accurate. She is reeling from the fact that Grissom is referring to Sara's past, what is the story behind that picture. Catherine had always assumed that Sara had a perfect past with parents who doted on her, now she is being forced to consider that maybe Sara's past that was pure hell. Cath decides that she has to be more understanding of Sara, and try to help her deal with her past, especially since it appears that it is becoming her future.

"What, What do you mean?" Sara stutters suddenly cold with the thought that the past she had left behind is coming back to haunt her. She wonders why it is that the world just keeps throwing this crap at her. Hasn't she survived enough? Her goal was just to be able to live without everyone knowing her past. She can't stand pity and only one person has learned of her past and still looks at her with admiration, and concern, but no sign of pity. Sara is currently looking at the person, asking him with her eyes if he is certain that whichever case he is referring to really relates to her past, or can it be a coincidence. Even before her mind finishes forming the question, she can see the answer in his eyes, yes, he is sure.

"I don't want to talk about it here, there was a picture delivered to my office, suggesting that someone was able to get into my office without being noticed." Grissom explains softly, trying not to frighten Sara.

"Where do you want to go?" Sara asks, almost going into a catatonic state at all of the memories going through her mind.

"Sara, that is up to you. I don't know if there is any surveillance equipment either here or at our places." Grissom explains, hoping that this news won't alarm Sara anymore than it appears that she was already is. Grissom isn't sure how many more shocks to the system Sara will be able to suffer without falling apart and he doesn't want her to lose control in front of her co-workers, knowing how private she is.

"OK, ummm, is it okay if we go out to Lake Mead?" Sara asks just going into autopilot. Griss knows she is thinking of the cove where he had previously heard about most of her past. She had cried in his arms there, he knew he hadn't heard everything, but didn't know if he could hear anymore on that fall day. When she suggests the cove this all flashes through Sara's mind as well and she realizes that she may have to tell him more details about what happened. She can only hope that he won't abandon her after he learns of everything that she has been through in the past.

"Of course, who do you want to have there with us?" Grissom asks gently, knowing that there is a good chance Sara hasn't yet processed that someone else on the team will have to know what is happening, and process the evidence.

"What, why would anyone else go?" Sara asks, immediately her mind starts to work through the problem. "Someone besides us will need to work this case. Griss, after the reverse forensic issue, I don't want to create any rumors or secrets between the team. I also don't know if I can go through this again. Can everyone be there, and I can just give them the files? Then if they have questions I can answer them. Please, I don't know if I can tell them about what happened. I'm sorry, I just don't know if I'm strong enough to do this." Sara rushed through, apparently becoming either more upset or getting past the first stages of shock. Grissom softly runs his hands over Sara's arms, up to her cheeks to wipe away the moisture gathering there. He pulls Sara into a tight hug, just holding her against him, feeling tremors running through her body. Grissom is gently rubbing her back reassuring her that everything will be ok eventually. Whispering words of comfort in her ear, completely forgetting that they had an audience as he consoles the woman in his arms, hoping that she will be able to survive what is to come.

"Hey Sara, of coarse we can have everyone there, but I don't know if we have time to get the fil.." Grissom begins when Sara is a little bit calmer.

"I saved the files that I gave you. They are in the fireproof box. I know what I told you; that I needed them destroyed, but I couldn't. I'm sorry I told you they were gone, when they weren't." Sara interrupts letting Grissom know that it won't take anymore time than necessary to get to the files. Then she begins to be concerned that he may be angry since she had lied to him about having destroyed the files after he had read through them.

"OK, we will go pick up the file and some clothes. Honey, it is okay that you kept the files, I'm not mad at you." Grissom told her, instinctively knowing that she is nervous about still having the files. Looking up Grissom realizes that Catherine is still in the room as she stood by a shelf looking at the fetal pig Grissom had in his office, it appears she is trying to look like she isn't eavesdropping, but he would be willing to bet that she heard every word and saw their momentary break down. Hopefully she won't say anything to the other guys. Catherine has to have suspicions, but he can just claim it was do to the stress of what is happening. "Catherine, can you get Nick, Warrick and Greg and meet Sara and I at Lake Mead?"

"Sure, I'll get them now. Shift is over, do you want us to grab breakfast and meet you in an hour and a half." Cath replies, knowing that neither Grissom nor Sara would want her to point out that they are not in the mind frame to talk for long.

"Sounds good, we'll see you then." Grissom responds, managing to make his voice strong, as he tries to get Sara to stand up under her own power. Mentally he is berating himself, isn't the woman he loves and promised to protect more important than anything? Isn't she more important than making sure that there private lives are separate from their professional lives? Shouldn't he just sweep her up and take care of her? But in his heart he knows that if they do take their relationship public, it should be a decision that they make when they are thinking about the consequences. The sheriff only agreed to the relationship on the basis that it would be discreet. He also knows that Sara won't be happy if he unilaterally makes the decision to tell their co-workers.