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Intro ~The Beginning~
..that night, the night I came to the academy..
The first person I met was Yukihara Izumi, my teacher
The one and only person that cares of what I'm feeling
Not like the others, ones that treat me like a tools
What do they think about me, I wonder..
Am I just a tools for them..
Something they used when they need and threw away when they don't..
Such a person is suck..
But not him..
You know, even my father won't be so kind and gentle as he is
Izumi-sensei..
What a person..
First time I stepped there, he smiled towards me
Even thought what I'm thinking that time is a kind like "what's his problem?"
That gentle smile ease my pain..
Oh, maybe it's time for story telling..
Okay, here we go..
..night
A man appeared in front of me and smiled.
"Kirihara Kira, I suppose..?" he speak up
"I come here in order to pick you up. Well, I guess this place isn't too good for kids like you, so let's get out won't you?"
What? I even haven't answered his first question and yet…
"oh, come on! Get up, we're in a hurry."
Damn! You're asking me or ordered me? And who cares if you're in a hurry?
"hello? Anybody's here? Knock-knock.. door open.."
Okay, I'm tired..
"..what do you want?" I opened my mouth, after a while..
Well, my parents, of course, teach me about how to be polite to others. But, this time, I must go straight to the point
…or the conversation will be no end
"what do I want…" it's looks like he's whispering. Such a low voice. And first thing came into my mind was like "hey, did I too impolite? Will he hate me?"
..And in an instant, I was like the most stupid person in this world because I think like that.
"W.H.A.T D.O I W.A.N.T? are you crazy? I'm asking you to.. oh, forget it! What a STUPID KID!" he yelled, and mumbled, and muttered, and…
And I was the one to get angry.. oh, well…
Now, think of it. Who will be not mad if someone –never met you before and didn't know anything about you— said that you're stupid?
"wha—" I'm just wanting to yelled to him but..
"now, now, get your bag and move! Move, move!" he push me into the street.
"I've said wait!"
"when did you said 'wait'? I've never heard it"
Oh, come on. Is this a debate competition?
Well, I haven't said it before, that's true.. (giggle)
"if that so, then I say it now. Wait!" I didn't want to lose either.
What a funny moment if I remembered it now.
He stopped.
"hm.. so, what's your problem?" he's being calm. This time he's like a real adult.
Okay, let's start with this
"so, first, who are you? Where are you going to take me? Who ordered you to do this? What will happen to my house if I just left it like this?"
"my name is Yukihara Izumi, I'm going to take you to the Alice Academy, I'm ordered by Kazu-nii." He answered, in one breath.
In a perfect order! Oh, man, He's really a good teacher.. (smile)
"…and your house.. wait.. why are you thinking about your house in such a situation?"
"huh? Why? There's no particular reason. It's just, well, it's my house. My parents were raised there. I just want to keep some memories of them."
is it obvious? It's just a common thing.
Well, if I think about it now, I am really amazed by my way of thinking when I was a child.
"just want to keep some memories… hey, you're a good boy!" his anger is gone. His face is full of smile.
Is he alright? Wasn't he just mad a while ago? And now what, He smiled..?
"you're a good boy…"
"Hey—" I was just want to speak up
"…Your parents must be really proud of you!"
He said it. Yes, he's really said it. Maybe it's just a joke or what, but…
…It's mean so much for me
For a little boy whose has just lose his parents…
That's all what I want to hear..
"…really?" I asked. With a low, deep voice. Just like whispering.
I was just started to cry that time
"do they really proud of me?" I look at my two hands. Those hands that made my parents bear a hundred pains.
"why are you asking that?" he didn't believe his ears. Maybe it's weird that a 10 years old boy could say that.
"why…I reason.. since I've born in this world I've never met a time where I could see they're happy…even thought my village isn't anti-alice, but it looks like…"
This time, I cried, for real..
"it looks like they're afraid at all time… afraid of losing me… afraid if the 'school' take me from them…"
"and why if they do?" now, he's really confused.
"you're their child. Of course they afraid of losing you."
" if…if they should bear that kind of feeling –afraid and else— if I could choose, I wouldn't want to be born in this world…" it's true. That's what come to my mind.
"so… you want to die?"
"…if it'll be better when I die, I will…I don't want to be a burden. I'll rather die for people I loved…"
"oh… I see…" he's taking a deep breath and…
"ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT?"
…he shouted
The second 'stupid' word have been said in first meeting… sensei…
"first of all, listen, there are no parents in this world that isn't happy for having a child, no matter what it takes. Second, you think if you die they'll be happy? NO! in my opinion, they'll spent their life in regret. And the third thing,…do you think of yourself as a garbage? You can't just die like you want… there're people that will be sad of your death…"
"and who're they? No one cares about me…except my parents"
really, I was pessimistic...
Dear God, I'm really sorry for being so pessimistic like this…forgive me…
"oh, my… you're really parents' complex are you? Okay, if no one cares, I will…"
What…he just said?
"I will take care of you, okay? That's what a teacher for."
I looked at him, amazed. Amazed by the way he's thinking, amazed by the way he calm me down…
The last thing I remember from that night is…
I was hugged by him and he said:
"let's go…together. Whenever you're afraid of anything, whenever you sad, any time you need someone to talk to…I'll be there.
I promise you: I'll always be by your side…"
…and that's how he pull me out from the edge of despair
He saved my life…
And why…this person, the one I loved…
Should take the thorny road…
And down into the darkness…
While I'm here…can't give my arm to help him…
To be continued…
Next chapter "Meeting You…"