YOU'RE POV

My heart lurched at the sight of the house nothing had changed within the time I was gone; the first thing that happened when I walked through that door was being pulled into a motherly hug.

"oh sweetheart" was all she said and let me go holding me at arms length smiling, I tried my hardest to smile but I just couldn't, I couldn't even force a smile on my face.

I put Toby down when he ran over to his uncle Emmett laughing happily, I looked at everyone else and was pulled into hugs. Out of all of the family I was closest to jasper, he was like the big brother/best friend I always wanted, and I could always go to him with a problem and not be judged.

"We're so happy your back, we decorated a room just for little Toby" Esme said still smiling.

"Grandma. Am not little" Toby whined out from Emmett's shoulders.

"Please be careful" I whispered fearing my sons' safely, I just couldn't loose him.

"Come on Abby we have school tomorrow" Alice beamed getting excited.

"I'm not really ready for school just yet" I really didn't want to go back to that school, where everything started; I dreaded the thought of going anywhere near it.

"It's ok you don't have to go" Carlisle said in his farther voice that he always used when he was talking to me. But I didn't fail to notice the little glare that Alice gave him.

"Thanks" I said walking up stairs to my old room, walking in I saw that nothing had changed everything was in the same place, well the things that we didn't take when we moved. I walked over to the bed I used to use, sitting down I looked over to the night stand and saw a photo of Edwin and my self kissing. Talking the photo into my hands I lay back onto the bed, I could still smell his scent on the pillow next to me. Staring at Edwin's smiling face I ran my fingers over the glass, outlining his figure.

Flash back

Sitting on the sofa in Edwin's room I sighed in content as I snuggled closer to his chest smiling. Looking down at my finger my smile widened seeing his mothers beautiful wedding ring grace my finger.

"Lets go outside" Edwin whispered into my ear, pulling us both up. I looked at him confused knowing that it was snowing outside and with him being freezing I wouldn't be able to hold onto him as much. But I let him pull me up and lead me outside, letting the white layer of snow chill my feet through my converse. I was led over to the tree we where he proposed to me, I smiled at the memory when he stopped sitting down while pulling me onto to his lap.

"I love you sweetheart" he whispered into my ear and kissed the back of my head while wrapping his arms around my waist.

"I love you too" I whispered back knowing that he heard me loud and clear, snuggling closer to his body I looked around to see that it was snowing. I held my hand out to catch the fine white powder but it melted before I could see it up close, pouting I folded my arms over my chest, hearing a husky laugh my heart melted. I saw my vampires arm stretch out, palm facing up successfully collecting the white frozen water in his hand, I pulled his arm so I could look. After a few seconds I placed my hand on top of his melting the snow instantly. I lifted my eyes from our hands to his beautiful eyes, getting lost in them I didn't even notice that we were both leaning closer to each other until our lips met in the most amazing kiss.

End flash back

I sighed sadly frowning at the photo, oh how I wished I could just shed one tear for my withered love. Placing the photograph back on the night stand I didn't even notice Esme come into the room. I looked over to her, to her golden eyes tormented with sadness they looked nothing like my hollow ones. I tried my best to smile but all I got was a grimace, I sighed sadly as she rushed to my side, sitting next to me Esme pulled my small frame into her arms while rubbing my back like any mother would do to help calm their child down.

"I miss him so much, I'd do anything to just be able to shed one tear" I whispered knowing that everyone in the house heard not just Esme.

"Oh sweetheart, I know you're hurting now but everything will work out and Edwin wouldn't want to like this. He'd want you happy" Esme said softly hoping not to alarm or upset me further. I nodded my head knowing that he would want me happy and not mopping around but what could I do? I would never find anyone like him again.