Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA!!
WARNING: THIS IS A GORISH CHAPTER. FOR THOSE WITH A WEAK STOMACH… DO NOT, I REPEAT DO NOT READ THIS CHAPTER!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
Chapter Three: Anything but Home
For the past couple of days, Sesshoumaru felt anything but comfort. The house he used to occupy seems to bore holes into him. At every turn he could feel eyes upon him. When he sleeps at night the need to stay awake and alert is like no other. During the day, the feeling gets worst. It was almost as though something oppressing is constantly watching him. A cold grasp of hands is always around his throat. The feelings unnerved him as well as irritate him. He knew for a fact if he was his usual self he would not have put up with it but for some reason he feel more depress as of late.
Probably he no longer feels that comforting presence of the woman from before. Rin... She gave life and meaning to his void of existence. For some reason, he discarded her and he wants to know why. He wants to find out more about the life he lead before he lost his memory. He wants to learn more about her death, their son and if they had anymore children. A sudden laugh caused him to look up.
The laugh was not far off but nor was it near enough for him to seek it within his line of vision. Walking towards the echoing fits of laughter, he cautiously peered into the dark forest below his home. The sound was coming from there. He knew it. It was a deep and assured feeling he had. Therefore, he jumped down to investigate. Upon coming to the source, the laughter became screams. Agonizing screams that chilled him to the bones. Never had he heard it before...
Yes, you did...
'I did?' he asked in his mind as he ran towards his destination. The scene that greeted him was more than enough to make a youkai daimyo like him throw up. There stood a person...with white hair viciously killing a group of kids. The kids all had long white hair, either puppy dog ears or pointy elfish ears. Their complexion was fair and their beautiful little faces were all ruined by the look of pure terror. The man whom was killing each and one of them, either by decapitating them or driving his hands into their young stomach, was enjoying himself. An anguished scream was let out from the right and Sesshoumaru's eyes removed themselves willingly from the crude scene and onto the woman on the far right.
She was holding one of her decapitated child's head. The child's golden eyes gazed back at his lifelessly causing Sesshoumaru's nausea erupt. Pulling his head to the right he threw up the contents in his stomach from that morning. The sounds were piercing his very soul and his eyes pulled back towards the massacre as though drawn towards it. It was watching a bad horror movie only one can't seem to get any livelier than this. The blood, the smell, the gore, all of it…was unbearable. The intestines of the children splattered over the once pure green grass. Pieces of livers, lungs, and god know what else were presented openly where the dead children laid.
The only ones that seem to be living at the moment were the ones standing in front of the mentally imbalanced man. The woman who was sobbing brokenly to his right was ignored thoroughly. Her dark head was bent in dejection as she clutched her dead child's head to her breast. Weeping in desperation she begged, "Please...stop. Yamette... Onegai... YAMETTE!!!!" she shrieked as the man raised his claws and swiped down upon the closet kid.
The unexpected kid with dark hair with snowy streaks, pointy ears and golden eyes watched in horror as the man cut him diagonally across his body. Blood poured greatly upon the man as he lifted up his head and laughed like a maniac. Almost as though sensing another person's presence, the demented man turned around to face Sesshoumaru...no, the woman. But that didn't stop Sesshoumaru from seeing the man's face. Shock, horror and denial all lined up in his head as he saw the man's face. And it was of his...
Golden eyes, parted bangs, crescent moon, stripes and all the way down to the last detail as his white kimono. All stained with the children's blood. The horrid smell disgust him but not the one standing there drenched in the horrid blood bath. Blood was splattered randomly on his face while his once white clothing stained black to pure red from the old and fresh blood. Sesshoumaru saw the evil gleam in the eyes of the other Sesshoumaru. Staring at the woman whose face was now revealed. Surprisingly it was Rin... His gaze almost faltered as he registered her face. 'Why?' He as he watched the sickening scene unfold. 'After my last memory... Why did this happen? I loved her didn't I? Why would I do this to her?'
Because you were a fool...
That voice came again. In a sadistic sense, the voice was cruel but also frank. The woman's face contained a plea in them, but Sesshoumaru knew she was not going to be relieved at all. Glaring at his other self, he watched painfully as the bloody Sesshoumaru grabbed one of the few children by the throat and bared her to Rin. The child had white hair this time, with dark brown eyes filled tears she stared at her mother screaming, "Okaa!!"
Little hands reached for Rin as one of her own slender hands reached for her child. It was then Sesshoumaru noticed Rin was wounded at the stomach. Bloody was oozing from the opening, quite profoundly at that. But that wasn't her worry at the moment. It was the child in the bloody Sesshoumaru's grasp. "Please, Sesshoumaru-anata. Don't do this...I beg of you. I've never asked you for anything in my life...so please. DON'T DO THIS!!" Rin screamed chokingly.
From the look of the bloody Sesshoumaru, he was not going to listen to her. With an evil smirk he squeezed the poor child's throat until the child no long was squirming and squealing. Until the bloody burst from the child's face due to lack of oxygen and blood flow, he let the child's body collapse to the unforgiving ground.
Rin's raspy scream was the only thing that kept Sesshoumaru conscious. The scene was too cruel, too despicable. 'Why...?' he unconsciously asked himself. 'Why is this happening? What's going on? I don't understand...'
He woke from his reverie as his bloody counterpart turned towards the only child left. No, it was not a child. It was a young man. With pure white hair gleaming from the moon's malevolent light and his golden eyes flashing with hate and a crescent moon on his forehead, he looked more like Sesshoumaru than the present Sesshoumaru. Although the young boy's face was impassive, his body shook with such fierce restraint that it took only one glance to know the boy was on the brink of attacking and collapsing. When the bloody man spoke, it was cold and unfeeling, "Kiyoshi... Tell this Sesshoumaru what you want to do."
Staring at the father and son, Sesshoumaru had a sense of forebode that this was not going to end well. 'Kiyoshi!?' Sesshoumaru thought frantically. That was his son!! His eyes widen as he looked at his son once again. He looked so much like himself that it was painful to see the hateful look he was giving to his past-self. He watched almost wretchedly as Rin pulled her useless half across the field towards her lord and master. After the long and painful trip, she grabbed hold of her lord's leg and pleads pathetically, "Please, milord. Don't do this...he's your son. These are your children. Your pups... If you kill them all, I'll have nothing left. So please..." she whispered breathlessly. "I'd do anything to have you spare him...please."
It was then that the emotionless Sesshoumaru paid attention to her. Kneeling down towards her he lifted her face towards his. With deaden eyes she stares into his gleaming ones. "Do you really mean that, Rin?"
"NO!" Objected her son vehemently before his father's poisonous whip knocked him out. Rin's startled gasp was cut off when Sesshoumaru's lips caressed her own. Her eyes widen as she stared into his closed eyes. Tears poured from her brown orbs before she returned his kiss with a passion. She tasted the blood of her children on his lips and wanted to vomit but knew she couldn't. So swallowing her bile down, she allowed his kiss to penetrate her more. His tongue mated with hers' before he pulled away. His face showed satisfaction as he smiled almost wickedly. "Very well... Since you agreed so willingly, this Sesshoumaru shall spare the mutt."
Turning his attention back towards the boy who had just tried to defend his mother, he smirked. "From now on he shall by a servant in my household..." then facing her he finished, "And you shall by my exclusive concubine. Is that agreed?"
Rin's eyes showed repulsion but she bowed her head and nodded instead. Seeing her nod, he smiled almost happily as he picked her up and walked away...
It took a while for Sesshoumaru to notice, but now that he had he wish he didn't. For he was no longer the stranger looking in from the outside but the character playing inside an unforgivable scene. Yes, he was now the bloody monster who had just massacre his family, forced his Rin to become his whore and degraded his son by making him a servant in his household. 'No wonder why they hate me...' Sesshoumaru mentally thought as he watched through the beast's eyes. He was currently walking towards his home on the mountain. In his room he did the things that would have degraded anyone...
Sesshoumaru couldn't bear to see the eyes of Rin as she silently begged for reprieve. He couldn't watch when he ripped her of her cloths or when he pushed her roughly onto the futon. Not even when he forced her bodily to stay still as he spread her thighs to accommodate his as he drove into her opening. She bit her lips, so she would not scream but as he started to scratch her, beat her and bite her… She screamed louder than a wounded animal would when wounded.
No more...
His heart screamed but his mind did not obey. He kept hitting her in the face, her body, pushing into her…
No more.
His heart was beating wildly now but his movements stand strong and firm. He was kissing her… Biting her.
No more!
His heart shrieked but his body refused to obey no matter what was going on inside of him. He was licking her life blood and drinking as though it was fine wine.
NO MORE!!!
His actions finally stopped. The dreadful things he was doing came to a halt. Then everything went blank. Nothing seemed real any more... It was like being torn into two. He wasn't able to do anything. In his heart, it hurt. In his mind, he cheered.
'What's happening to me?' was his last conscious thought before he slipped into oblivion.
Author's Note: You all probably hate me now but just to let you know now, Sesshoumaru's going to suffer for what he'd done. If you stick around you all might be able to contribute. Thanks for those who reviewed.
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