OMG!!!! Im Soooo sorry I haven't updated in such a long time. Its just I keep on saying I'll do it and then I forget, or run out of time. School really kills me, and being in the IB program really doesn't help.
BPOV
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
Courage played on the radio. I thought the song was pretty ironic for my situation. I couldn't believe Dr. Cullen. Of course I would still be anorexic…Right?.....Was Dr. Cullen right?!?!?!
I had arrived home. I couldn't bring myself to walk out of the car. By this point I was already with tear pouring out of my eyes. At these moments on time I wished I still lived with my mom. She always seemed to be there to comfort me. But of course I was a mature adult. Who according to some people just happened to make some immature choices.
I walked into my house. My answering machine was blinking, signaling a new message. I pressed the button, and of course it was my mom.
"Hey honey. I was just calling to see how your first session with Dr. Cullen had been. Call me back when you can. Bye honey."
What surprised me was a new message from Dr. Cullen too.
"Hello Bella. I was calling to see if we could set up a new session for sometime this week. Please call me back whenever possible at 555-3155. Thank You."
It had been a stressful day and was too tired to call anybody. I was also afraid someone would tell I had been crying. I called it a night and went to bed.
Sooo…Don't forget to review. I'll try to start updating sooner from now on.
~Psycicvamp ^o^