Here is another chapter but this one is from Kise's POV
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Another bright day, the sun is shining so much it hurts my eyes, I hate those days the most, I prefer rainy days because like this I don't see those happy people all around, why they can have something I don't, what have I done wrong?
The city seems so calm unlike the one I was before here seems to be nice people, I moved here a few months a go and I decided to transfer to a nearby school, will I be able to make any friends this time without incidents? Will I have problems with anyone in this new school?
"Ryouta get down and take your breakfast or you will be late" my mom yelled.
"Yeah, I'll be there on a second" I responded.
I went down the stairs and there was my mom on the door getting ready to go out with those flashy clothes, I could see everything, it is so disgusting, that's one of the reason father abandon you, who knows where again, I hope she stay away from causing trouble for me.
"Ryouta make your dinner too, I'll be out" she said and went out.
"Yeah, whatever" I entered the kitchen to see there was no breakfast done and the fridge empty as well, Ryouta idiot what did you expect, she wouldn't care even if you starved, have you already forgot? I laughed.
I got ready and exited my home closing the door and I headed to my new school.
In the way to school I saw a lot of kids going to school, they all seemed like they were having fun, I want that too, I'll make a bunch of friends and this time I won't let them slide away from me, I wishful thought of mine. Friendship what must it feel like, is such a foreign feeling for me, I wish I could feel it someday, have my own friends and hang out with them, sharing stuff and playing videogames, it will be funny.
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"Okay class today we have a new student in our class so I hope you all treat him well" I could listen the teacher from outside, I was so nervous I was trembling.
"Please enter" with that said I grabbed the knobdoor with my shaking hands and slide it open I walked to the front of the class and breathed in to present myself.
"Nice to meet you all, I'm Ryouta Kise, please take care of me" I flashed one of my best smiles after saying that, I wanted to cause a good impression, like saying look I'm a social guy and I want a bunch of friends.
"Please sit there behind Kagami, oh, and Kuroko as the class representative show him around school" the teal haired boy nod and looked at me and I smiled, I got the feeling that I know him but I don't know from where I couldn't recall it, but anyways I could try to be his friend he seems a nice kid.
I felt the different stares of the class, just because I'm the new kid doesn't mean I'm some kind of zoo's animal you look at expecting to something happen, calm down don't narrow your eyebrows you will give bad vibes, relax your shoulders and stop being so tense, I inhaled air to relax.
One of the stares came from a tan and tall boy who averted my eyes every time I looked at him but his stare what filled with longing for a reason I don't know, he spent all the hours taking small and fast glances of me and that let me restless, what if he is a bully and I'm his next victim, Ryouta no negative thoughts, how will that even happen.
Why is he boy who has to show around going? The same boy who make nervous, I have to recognise he is pretty but weird at the same time, will he be friendly? He doesn't seem to be a friendly or social person, he looks kind of short-tempered, it will be wise to not bother him much.
"Hi, may I know who you are?" I asked me nicely.
"I'm Daiki Aomine and I'll show you around Kise" he answered and looked at my eyes like waiting for something to be said, he has such a beauty navy orbs as deep as the ocean, I could stare at them all day long, Ryouta snap out of it.
"Oh, nice to meet you Aomine" I smiled at him, he gave a confused look and all of the sudden he glared at me all angry, but why? As I guessed he is not a friendly kid better go before he gets angry, he seems strong.
"What it is? If you don't want to show me around you don't need to, I can't do it on my own" I said angrily, I shouldn't do this if I wanted to have friends but he has spent all the class looking at me and now he is just glare at me like that, I stood out and stepped out of class, he then grabbed my wrist all of the sudden so strong that all memories flow back at me, like I was over there again.
"Ryouta-kun be a good kid and don't shout, okay?" he said while with one hand was covering my mouth and with the other he was grabbing my wrist so strong I thought he will break me, I nodded and he patted my head, I was so scared.
"B-but Areki-sensei have I done something wrong?" I asked confused and sacred, he was hurting my wrist, I've been a good kid then why are you holding me like this.
"Yes, you have and that's why I have to punish you because you've been a bad kid" he started stroking my tights; in that moment I was so little to understand the meaning behind all his despicable actions.
"Ba-bad? Why?" my eyes started to be filled with tears and I started to sob, he slapped me, my eyes grew wider, I was so frightened I couldn't move, I stroked my burning cheek, now I was terrified.
"Shut up! Stupid kid, don't you see I'm making you a favour me, who will want to do this with a kid like you, so be quiet and let me do, okay?" he took my pants away and he started to touch me and it feel so disgusting, I didn't want him to do this to me.
"No! Don't touch me! AOM-! Save me! Save me" I started shouting with all my lungs until I was breathless, I heard someone rushing over where we were and I felt relieved but I don't know what happen later, the last thing I remember is the fury on the face of my teacher, his eyes red of anger, and his fist smacking against the wall and letting me unconscious, I fade away after that, hearing people talk but it was like they were so far away I couldn't listen to them.
The next day I woke up on the bed of a hospital, my parents besides me and I felt happy but then I looked at them and my mom didn't even look at me when I woke up and my father seemed furious with me, but why I haven't done anything wrong or it was really my fault the teacher did that?
Why did I have to remember this? Why did he have to touch me? Stop it, go away! Don't touch me. I was battling with myself to not make any rush action; I couldn't have a breakdown here and in front of him of all the people.
"What are you doing?" Don't touch me those words were left unspoken, I glared at him icily.
"Nothing, come I'll show you around" he said as he stepping out of class ignoring my glare.
What's wrong with him? He just stopped. I looked at him curious, is he on here still? He seemed lost in thought just like me moments ago. What are you thinking? He has such a handsome face, something seems off, and I want to touch him, to be near him, to feel his warm, I want him, I have never feel this urge with anyone.
"Why are spacing out?" I said while poking his cheek, I couldn't surpress the urge to touch him for an unknown reason.
"Eh? I was just thinking something, come I'll show you around" he said turning his face.
We walked in silence all the time, the silence was only broken when he gave me the directions of the different rooms, his voice calm me, is like I had hear it somewhere before, I was walking behind him, he is so tall, I keep staring at him for a while and then I realised what I've done, come to earth Ryouta, he seems a strong person, will he want to be my friend? Maybe he isn't as friendly as he looked and I will really like to be able to be his friend.
"So, are you going to join any club?" he asked all of the sudden making me come to reality once again.
"Maybe, I don't know I'm a busy person" I said with a snort, even if I wanted he wouldn't let me have fun, he won't let me do anything I like.
"Why do you have a partial job?" he asked with a curious look.
"More or less" I answered, what else can I say, I can't because he has forbidden me to do anything, but I can't say that, can I?
He then turned abruptly at me and put his arm in from of my face, which shocked me, he was waving his big arms in front of my face, I widened my eyes, for a moment o thought he was going to punch me.
"Look at my wristband Kise" he said showing it, I looked at him confused, it was a yellow wristband.
"What is with that?" I said, why are you showing me that? Wristband? Wristband…
"C'mon show me yours, now" he said with and angered voice, he seems that he is getting angry for an unknown.
"Mine? What are you talking about? I don't have any" I said with a scowl, he is a weird guy, why will I have one?
He pulled my sleeves up abruptly catching me off guard, he saw it, look that face he is putting, he is pitying me and disgusted, I don't need your pity or the pity of anyone, you think I needed, you must be much better with your life now.
This boy is starting to anger me but why I have always been good dealing with people but he seems to catch with my guard down always, why? How can he? Must be because I feel safe and calm around him, like I can trust him, but doesn't give him the right to do this to me like he owes me.
The anger on me was raising and all I saw was my own hand slapping his face with all my strength, why are you looking at me like that? Stop it, let me alone. You don't know me, you don't know anything. I don't want you to look at me like this, not you.
Not you? Why not him? I just meet him why would I care.
"Stop touching me you freak" my voice showed all my anger, I was desperate to get a hold of myself, to calm down.
I wanted to shout at him but all I could manage to do was run away from him, letting him behind, I run and run until I found an empty classroom when I entered I could feel my knees go weak and tears building up on my eyes, why it hurts my chest so much? Why does it feel like I'm crawling? Who the hell is this boy? Why does he have this much effect on me?
I put my trembling hand on my pocket to retrieve my pills, it's better to take them now; I almost had another breakdown because of that boy. For now it will be better if I avoided him.
I better skip class for today; I don't feel strong enough to keep on here. I went to class to retrieve my things and go and when I turned to leave class there in the door was the class representative.
"Where are you going Kise-kun?" he asked.
"Well, I don't feel good, I think I'm catching a cold so I'm going home to rest" I said averting his glare, I got catch.
"Kise-kun if you have any problem you can talk to me" he said it like if he knew something.
"Yeah, don't worry and thanks Kurokocc—"what was I going to say? cchi? What's that? It almost slipped something weird from my mouth, what was that?
I ran out before he could answer, what's wrong with me, this is not good, something wrong with this school, everything affect me, is like they are getting so easily inside the barriers I construct to avoid any trouble but how? This whole school is driving me crazy.
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When I reached home I saw his shoes, what does he want know? I took my shoes and entered ignoring the presence that was on the kitchen eating and went to my room, I know that will anger him but I'm not in the mood to talk to him right now, he just come with one reason and I didn't feel like pleasing him today, I stood there looking around my room, it was filled with boxes still unopened, and I had the urge to search for that wristband but it will be impossible I had it, right? I started to open each box removing all the stuff inside, there's only one box left and still I didn't find it but this box was from my things from when I was little and I didn't want to open it because it didn't bring pleasurable memories but I did it anyway and in the end of the box it was a wristband, it was navy, it remember me from his eyes.
And then I heard him storming to my room shouting, I caught the wristband and looked at it better.
"Ao….cchi…" the wristband fell to the ground and I felt I was losing it, I was having a breakdown, I couldn't breath and my vision was starting to get blurry, I kneeled on the ground because I couldn't stand any longer.
"How dare you to ignore me Ryouta!?" I heard him yelling getting near my room help me I couldn't bring myself to say it, I was starting to feel dizzy.
He opened the door brusquely and entered, he looked at me and rushed to my side, is good that he came today to do it because he can help me now, if he hadn't come I would had to face this all alone, I gave him a faint smile.
"Ryouta you shouldn't push yourself that way and you know it" he pulled me from the ground laying me on the bed.
"Give me my pills please" I said pleading.
"Kitty you should take better care of yourself, those one day on school push you to the edge? Or is it because you've been playing?" he said giving me the pills and he touched my face "When you feel a bit better we can play, it's been a while and I'm sure you want it as much as me" he said with a dark smirk.
"Shougo stop it, I don't feel well" I yelled, as much as my lungs permitted me after the attack, at him but that wasn't a wise move but in that moment I wanted to be alone, I didn't want to be touched by anyone less him! Him? Who I'm talking about?
He leaned to kiss me furiously but I felt more disgusted than usually, must be because I'm not feeling well, so I bit his lip making him bleed and I pushed him away as I could, I could see the fury on his eyes rising more and more. He got away from me and touched his lips now bleeding even more then and evil smirk appear on his face.
"Kitty did you just bit me?" he asked looking at my face.
"Yes, I don't want to be touched by you!" I could feel myself trembling knowing what my punishment will be but I face him not backing of.
He stood up and went to my desk where there was a box I know what that box contained so I tried to get out of my room but I was so weak that I couldn't even get out of bed and he looked at me amused by the fact I wouldn't be able to stop him, he held me and he tied me to the headboard with the handcuffs, I hate those things.
"Now, now little kitty let's have fun" he said approaching me to kiss me again, biting my lips returning it.
Why? Why it have to be always like this? Oh, is true Ryouta who will want a broken person, don't forget who you are, my tears starting to fall down my face I couldn't stop them, my own thoughts hurting me like this, is fine let him do like always, if he doesn't hold you who else will do so who cares what he does, I just have to do the same I do always lay there letting he do whatever he wants until he gets tired and go, just like always, now close your eyes don't think, forget it all, everything I could hear my mind repeating this again and again like a mantra.
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When he was done he went, I looked at my body disgusted at my own self, I stood up leaning on the wall because I was still to weak to walk on my own, even in my condition he still this to me, I went to the bath to clean me, stood in front of the mirror to have a clear vision of myself, I'm such a pitiful person, like my mother I'm just a whore.
"Look at yourself Ryouta, you are a completely whore" I said laughing bitterly at myself while one of my tears rolled down my cheek and I wiped it away.
I turned and entered the shower putting the coldest water, please let me feel something I don't care if it just pain but let me feel it. I stood there under the water looking blankly to the wall I don't know how much time I spent there but I could feel my body going numb, so I got myself out of the shower and caught a towel to dry myself.
"It's already dinner time…" I whispered to myself.
I didn't feel like eating so I went to bed, today it's been a really long day, I sat on the bed and opened the drawer from my nightstand and caught a bottle of pills and took two of them, this will help me to sleep, I laid on my bed starting to feel sleepy I closed my eyes and in some seconds I was asleep.
I was on a kindergarten that I didn't recognise and there were three kids playing, one bluenette looking cocky and smirking, a red haired kid that looked mad at that kid and a teal haired kid that was looking at them, laughing and running, one of them turned to look at me and rushed towards me, it was the bluenette kid.
"Idiot what are you doing? Let's go play" the bluenette kid said catching my hand, and I realised that my hands was petite as my body, I was a kid too, running to the other kids.
"Kise-kun, what took you so long?" the teal haired kid said.
Why are they talking to me like if they know me, who are them? I tried to look at them at the face but all I could see were blurry faces and then they started talking all at the same time I couldn't understand nothing, I covered my ears scared.
This is scary, I'm scared, please, someone, anyone, take me out of here, please, I sat there holding my knees then I felt warm hands holding mine strongly and looked up to face the owner of those hands but his face blurry I couldn't see him, but this one wasn't and I as well we were no longer kids.
"Kise, don't worry I'll hold your hands like I promise you" the calm voice said me holding my hands even stronger I feel all my fears fade away.
"Who are you? Why I can't see you?" I asked not letting go of those warm hands.
"Kise idiot it's me Aom-"he said stroking my face.
"What did you say? I couldn't hear it, repeat it, please" my voice was shaking I could feel my tears rolling down my cheeks, I was so nervous.
"Kise, don't worry I'll say it as many times as you want I'm Aom-" he said wiping my tears away.
"I can't hear you!" I said holding his hands even stronger, I was starting to shake.
He looked at me smiling and stroked my cheek and I closed my eyes, I wanted to feel him more when he stopped caressing my cheek I opened my eyes to see that he wasn't there any longer. I stood up scared looking all the directions but all I see was black and black, nothing, there was no one there.
"Where are you?" I asked pleading to him to come back.
"I still don't know your name, please come back" I yelled desperately.
"You promise me you will hold my hands if I was scared, I'm scared" I kneeled crying.
I begged and begged for him to come back but he didn't and then someone appear behind me caressing my head, I turned to see if it was him again but to my displease the one who stroke my head now was Shougo.
"Ryouta give it up, he is not coming again" he said laughing.
"But he promise me" I yelled.
"If he promised you, where he was every time you were scared and you needed someone?" he kneeled to be face-to-face with me.
It's true every time I was scared and alone, no one was there to save me, to help me when I asked for help, no one was there for me, I was alone, and no one wanted me.
"You see Ryouta, let's face it, you are defective material, who would want that?" he asked caressing my face.
I looked at the ground, I couldn't give him an answer because all he said was true, who will want a broken person, a tainted one, used and defective, no one will want me that's why no one will come to save me. I started to laugh with all my strength like a maniac who has lost all his sanity, after all I has already lost it, I was waiting for a prince who will rescue me but I was not a princess.
"It's true Shougo, you are right" I answered smiling at him and the stood up facing him and wiping my tears away.
"Good Ryouta" he said patting my head.
And then the clock went off awaking me, bringing me back to this empty house, I sat on the edge of the bed trying to wake up a bit more and I opened the drawer to catch the other bottle and took two pills.
I went to the bathroom to shower and dress myself to get ready to school again, I hope today everything it's more calm than yesterday.
I went out of home and closed the door, I put my hand on my pocket and there was something I catch it to see and it was the wristband, I was surprised, how did this end up here? Him and me share this little thread, is like we are bonded by fate but that's merely impossible, those things only happen on those soup opera I watch but it would be nice if it were true, I looked at the wristband and clench it on my hand returning it to my pocket and then I headed towards the school.
Well this one got longer than the other xD
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The next to 2 chapter will be from Kise's POV
I will change rate to M but there won't be any smut scene until later chapters so be patient ; A ;