Doing it wrong
"Can I talk to you, Penelope?" He said in a pleading tone.
"Uh okay, but I have a long day tomorrow so please let's make it quick." She said as she let him enter.
He looked around at how much her apartment even changed. It felt weird, no colors all her pictures were of her and her new friends, with a little of the team scattered around. I feel like this Penelope Garcia, I truly don't know and I feel ashamed that I altered her so much that she isn't herself anymore.
She stared at me intently and slightly annoyed till she spoke up, "Morgan, seriously, I have a long day and all I want to do is relax and prepare for tomorrow. So, speak or leave."
I look at her, and truly see her, she's perfect with no makeup and just a robe on. I finally gather the strength to talk...
"Penelope, I'm sorry...for everything I ever did to you...for making you feel less than you are. I'm sorry that I hurt you so much you had to build walls higher than the Great Wall of China. I know I have no right to ask this but I want us again, because my life without you is bleak, and dark..."
She silences him with her hand, "Derek, why now? You've had 2 years and nothing. Now all of a sudden you love me, you want me? Sorry honey, it doesn't work that way. You've had Angie to brighten up your life. Don't apologize for something you truly aren't responsible for. Yes Derek you broke my heart but that isn't what made me so cynical. I didn't only lose the person I loved and trusted the most but I lost the family I thought I had. Also, don't come here out of guilt, because I forgave you long ago. It was the only way I could move forward, But you know the saying, 'fool me once, shame on you fool me twice, shame on me'- well I'm not repeating history Derek. I truly wish we didn't live in a generation of not being in love but we stick together because we're afraid of seeing each other with someone else. I know that's what this confession is, we both know it. If you truly loved me Angie would've never happen. As much as I love you, I need someone different..."
"But I am different, babygirl. I'm not a coward anymore. I'm not running away from this feeling anymore..." My voice breaks, I feel the tears threatening to appear.
"Derek, I can't allow myself to love you again. You deserve happiness- with Angie. You two have made it through 2 years and that's longer than you and I ever had. Be happy, embrace that don't come here wanting something, just because someone else has it now. If you need to mourn our past properly then do that, cry if you need too but I can't stay watch you- I can't stay to hold you- I can't stay to hear you, because it's the wrong thing to do..."
"No Babygirl I don't believe that. I know we can work it out and be together again. I understand your defenses are up. I'm not asking to be anything other than your friend to start off?..."
She sighs and looks down, "I honestly believe that it's moot point, I can handle being your friend Morgan the real question is, could you handle being mine?"
"Definitely." He says quickly.
He thinks back to the club, her flirting and her fling. He was questioning himself about how true that statement was. Oh man, was this going to be harder than he imagine.