I have serious ADD when it comes to typing like I said before I wrote most of this on handwriting practice paper during nap time so most of it is written out it will get posted it in the time it takes me to actually sit and do it. So I can't promise long the updates. But I will try.

Five

Olivia insisted on going home with me and Jane but I didn't want to go there I was afraid that Abigail would show up there Abigail came 500 miles to find me she wasn't giving up that easily. Olivia sensed my unease she left Jane at the house and then suggested I go home with her. I was still shaken but I agreed. Olivia lived in a small room attached to a barn it was nice and cozy but small it suited her the very simple. Olivia stared at me as I sat on the edge of the small bed, the only place to sit, "do you wanna talk?" She asked.

And I shook my head and started to cry again. Olivia took me into her arms and soothed me finally I looked at her face. " I'm sorry you had to be a part of that she is something I wanna put behind me but I don't think that it will be possible since restraining orders mean nothing to her. I just wish I had stood up for myself the first time she hurt me, I let her get away with too much for too long. I thought I was doing it because I love her but she freaked when I decided to come out here after graduation it was bad I thought I knew which was capable of but I was mistaken."

" she hit you?" Olivia asked.

" and more but I really don't wanna talk about it please not now I just wanna feel safe." I snuggled closer to Olivia who brought us to A laying position on the bed it was the twins size bed barely be enough for her little long ball for us but we made it work both of us on our sides my head pressed against her chest she walked me back and forth.

" you are so beautiful" she whispered "I love how you always wear pretty things and you smell like a lavender and vanilla." I buried myself closer to her and I took a deep breath taking her scent and she smelled like dirt and sweat and hay and I loved it. We spent long moments in silence her arms felt so strong I fell asleep. When I woke up Olivia's arms were still wrapped around me tight, the light from outside was dimming. " hi" Olivia whispered.

" I'm sorry i fell asleep" I whispered back, " you must be uncomfortable."

" no baby girl I'm perfect," she pulled me closer she ran her hands over my back stopping just short of one behind just ran them up and down. " I'm sorry that she hurt you just thinking about and it makes me so angry" Olivia was speaking just over a whisper.

" it's OK" I whispered back " there's nothing you could have done and besides I let that happen to me it's partially my fault."

Olivia to be by surprise and flipped me onto my back she hovered over me her legs on the outside of mine she held her weight on her arms on either side of my head, " don't you ever say anything like that again" and she kissed me hard pulled back and said " it is unacceptable to ever heard a woman" she kissed me again, " god you're so beautiful how could anyone do anything bad to you." She scooped me up in her arms and she started to cry. And let her cry and hold me it was amazing that she could feel so much and see things about me that I couldn't she started kiss me again and push herself into me I spread my legs for her. I had pink silk panties under my dress which was hitched up around the hips Olivia looked into my eyes, "I'm so sorry I hurt you I made you feel used I'm so sorry I just got scared because I like you so much that you would hurt me so I hurt you first I'm so sorry" and she kissed me again the contrast between my silk panties in her rough venom as driving me crazy my body responded to hers in ways I thought were impossible.

" please" I panted "I need to feel you against me I need to fill your skin" she yanked my dress over my head in one movement and my bra with another. I tucked my hand under the flannel shirt she was wearing she got the message and that was gone quickly as well as the white undershirt she was over me in her sports bra and her jeans,,,, she stilled and was having an internal battle I was afraid that i pushed her too far we hadn't talked about our boundaries yet. We made eye contact and I decided to reach for a jeans and ignore the rock and quickly she quickly kicked them off at the same time manage to get my panties off and we settled herself between my thighs I laid completely still waiting for her to make a move Olivia slowly rolled her hips forward she kissed my neck. " you feel so good" I whispered and her ear. Suddenly she slid herself off my body and attached her lips to my clit her tongue making gentle circles then slowly picking up the pace until I was squirming my thighs were closed around her head and my quick orgasm surprised me. " please Olivia hold me I'd need you" I gasped and she took her place over me and wrap my legs around her waist " let me feel you" I said she started her rhythm up again her breasts were still encased in the tight sports bra I ran my hands inside the back of it.

" Fuck it" she yelled as she ripped the bra from herself and crushed her breasts against me before I could get a look but they felt full and soft against my own small breasts. Her pace against me picked up.

" baby girl that's so good," I urge her on, "you feel so good inside me god please don't stop," she rolled her hips into me even harder, her rhythm became erratic "that's it baby please come inside me" those were the magic words she shuddered and collapsed on top of me she buried her face in my neck she was quiet for a long time finally she spoke, "how did you know?" She whispered, " how did you know what I was thinking?"

" I just did," I whispered, we laid still for a while just enjoying the feeling of each other I felt safe and loved in her arms I never wanted to leave the cocoon we created.

The door burst open. Olivia turned her head towards the door " Jesus Christ Amy haven't you heard of a knocking get the hell out of here" it was one of the women she worked for Olivia covered my nakedness of her own Amy made no move to leave, " Amy I said get the Fuck out"

" I just didn't expect you to be in here with one of those town whores you should put a sock on the door something" she laughed she closed the door behind her Olivia jumped up and threw her jeans and shirt on and ran out the door after her while I scramble to get my own clothes.

" what is wrong with you Amy?" I heard Olivia say through the door.

" you don't even know that girl and you have are in your bed." Amy yelled back and Olivia.

" I know enough and it isn't none of your business who I bed." Olivia sounded furious.

" well I'm not going to help you when a crazed boyfriend comes out of the woodwork" Amy stated.

" this one is different she is full time." Olivia is voice carried through the wall.

" fulltime? Hah!" Amy laughed "that pretty little thing never full time until a man snatches her up then she'll leave you don't make me say I told you so."

" get out of here Amy I don't care if I do work for you you don't talk about her like that." Then I heard Amy laugh as she walked away.

When Olivia returned I was sitting on the edge of the bed eyes downcast " you heard didn't you" she put a finger on my chin and lifted my face.

" maybe I should go." I said, "will you take me home?" My lip quivered, "please".

" I don't want the night to end like this" she took me in her arms.

" I don't want to get you into any trouble" I didn't want to put her job in jeopardy because of me it wasn't worth it.

" don't pay attention to her she's just a bitter old dyke who slept with the wrong woman one too many times. I really doubt her and Barbara have had sex in the years she's just jealous don't let her worry you." Her voice was full of emotion.

" I just think I have to go home please don't make this hard I'll see you tomorrow or somethin please" I beg.

" alright" she agreed she got herself straightened up we went outside to her truck to open the door for me and lifted me inside I was quiet for the short drive to my house it was the first time I had thought of the farm is mine, grandma's or aunt Lila's but never mine. It was mine though decisions had to be made soon but right now I was tired. I had the woman of my dreams next to me and the woman of my nightmares roaming the countryside I knew it wasn't the last I'd see of Abigail I couldn't think about that then as I leaned my head against Olivia's shoulder I wanted to will the world away. Have an existence of just me and Olivia no farm, no aunt, cousin no bitter old lesbians telling me I wasn't good enough. Just us. We were at the house all too soon. " please I'm not ready yet" I know it was me who asked her to bring me home but I wasn't ready for our night to end.

She took my cue " want to go sit on the porch swing for a bit?" I nodded in response we made our way to the seat, the night was lovely the fireflies were dancing in the moonlight and the crickets were singing softly we we sat in silence it was comfortable Olivia's arm wrapped around me, the pad of her thumb with gently making circles on my bare arms. The moment was too perfect I turned in her embrace and gently kissed her lips it didn't turn passionate it was what it was, a gentle slow kiss showing our feelings that we're starting to become stronger. The kiss lasted for what seemed like forever there was no rush just the two of us, and then Aunt Lila.

The door to the house flung open " what is going on out here" I jump when I heard Lila I felt like I was 15 and is that caught making out on a school night past curfew it took me a second remember I wasn't.

" what does it look like?" I rolled my eyes it was too late and too much and gone on for me to be polite. " you're not stupid you know what kissing looks like"

" I'm sorry Miss Lila I'll be going" Olivia tried to get up but I had a grip on her arm.

" no stay" I demanded then turned back to my aunt, " is there some rule against that here that I am unaware of?"

" this is unacceptable what if Jane had seen I will not allow this simple behavior of my child" she turned her attention on Olivia, " and you I better not see you back around here corrupting my family"

Olivia tried to make a break for it again but I held firm, " hold up a second if anybody should be banned from this house its me for pursuing her she is hardly my first but I'm not in the mood for this right now and if you have a problem with my lesbianism then pack yourself and your brat of a daughter up and leave because I refuse to be told what I can and can't do in my own house and that's what if it is" I I grabbed Olivia and planted a kiss on her just to shock my aunt.

" and your mother knows about this?" Lila stammered.

" since I was 17 and even if she didn't I am a grown woman and it is and none of her business who I bring to my bed and on that note Olivia I will see you tomorrow" I let go of her arm and she all but sprinted towards of the truck. I turned back for its my aunt " and auntie I will be in my bed alone sleeping" I walked towards the door, " I don't have time for this shit" I mumbled.

" what was that?" Aunt Lila was not one to give up on a fight easily.

" I said" my head whipped around back to her, " if you are still here in the morning you better never pull that on me again" and I charged up the stairs at that point I did not care one way or another if she was there when I woke up or not. I flung myself onto the bed and couldn't help but laugh, " well that's one way to come out of the closet."

It took me longer than necessary to type this out I got a phone call I wandered around the house made some hot chocolate looked up a random things on the Internet ADD at its finest but I got it done.