The knock at his door made Tony glance at his watch. Four on a Saturday, no one ever came over at four on a Saturday. Everyone knew better because usually he'd be getting ready for a date or already on a date. Making his way to the door, he glanced out the peep hole shocked by the person he saw standing on the other side of the door.
"Hi." Tony forced a smile as he opened the door and looking into those steely blue eyes.
"Hey." Gibbs nodded.
Tony stood there holding the door for a moment then shook his head. "Um come in."
"Thanks." Stepping across the threshold, Gibbs stopped a few feet inside.
"Coffee?" Tony asked. "I just made it."
"No." Gibbs shook his head. "I'm good."
"Okay." Tony paused not knowing what to say or do in this bizarre situation. "Wanna have a seat?"
"I just wanted to check in."
"On me?" Tony chuckled, closing the door. Gibbs wasn't the check in type.
"Yeah." Gibbs glanced at the floor then back up at Tony.
"I'm okay."
"You sure?" Gibbs felt completely responsible for the tension between them and he wanted to end it.
Tony shrugged. "Sorting some things out, but I'm okay."
"Good." Again Gibbs glanced at the floor and up again.
"Gibbs are you nervous?" Tony grinned never having seen this side of the man.
"Um nervous no." Gibbs rubbed the back of his neck. "I just wanna deal with this."
"You mean deal with having me pinned against a wall last night and marking me." Tony laughed.
"Yeah." Gibbs gave a half smiled, glad that Tony could joke about it all.
"I'm working on that too."
Taking a step towards Tony, Gibbs reached out his hand, but Tony took a step back. He stopped, holding his hand in mid air unsettled by Tony's reaction. "Was just gonna look at your neck." Great now Tony was thinking he was going to accost him every time he got to close.
"Right." Tony didn't move but Gibbs stepped forward, pushed the collar aside and inspected the three visible bite marks on his neck.
"I got a little carried away." Gibbs quickly withdrew his hand feeling the apprehension radiating from Tony's body.
"I'm extremely irresistible." Tony flashed a smile at Gibbs.
"That you are." Gibbs sighed. If only Tony knew how irresistible he was. "That you are."
"Is um, your back okay." Tony bit his lower lip, he had no doubt that the way he had clawed at Gibbs last night that there were marks.
"I'll survive." Gibbs nodded. "Don't worry."
"I wasn't worried." Tony let out a nervous laugh. "I'm sure you've had worse."
Gibbs raised an eyebrow.
Tony held up his hand. "Wasn't asking."
"You can ask. I won't lie to you." Gibbs fixed his eyes on Tony's. "You know that."
"I know." Tony sighed. "I just don't even know where to begin."
"At the beginning."
Tony chuckled. "The beginning? So ten years ago when our relationship started?"
"If that's where you want to start."
"Have some coffee." Tony offered again needing something to do.
"Sure." Gibbs agreed taking off his coat and tossing it over the back of the living room chair.
Coming out of the kitchen Tony handed a cup to Gibbs and dropped down on the couch. "You can sit down, I promise not to bite." He chuckled then stopped. Not exactly the best joke at the moment.
Gibbs sat scrunched against the other end of the couch, needing to keep that distance between them. Taking a sip of coffee he nodded. "It's good."
"I've gotten accustom to brewing strong coffee."
Gibbs stared at the coffee in his hand. "I pushed you last night, wanted to get a reaction."
"Was it the reaction you wanted?" Tony put his elbow on the back of the couch and his head in his hand.
"It started out with the reaction I wanted. Didn't end how I wanted it to."
"How did you want it to end?" Tony asked, with what he saw in Gibbs' eyes last night he thought he knew, but now he wasn't so sure. Gibbs nervousness, the concern had him confused again.
"Think I should keep those ideas to myself." The last thing Gibbs wanted was to make Tony more uncomfortable with this.
"Was jacking me off on the patio one of them?"
Gibbs cleared his throat, shocked by the example. "Yes."
"And then what?" Tony asked. "You take me home and fuck me?
"No." Gibbs rubbed his forehead. Jesus this wasn't the conversation he wanted to have.
Tony stared at Gibbs struggling to read the mix of emotions from the man. "Do you wanna fuck me?"
Gibbs turned mirroring Tony's position and saw the need for truth in Tony's eyes."Yes."
"Okay." Tony gazed down at the couch as he thought about what he'd heard. "Was this going to be some one night stand?" When Gibbs didn't answer, he looked up the air rushing from his lungs when he was capture by the deep stare of the blue eyes.
The truth was last night Gibbs would have given in to a one night stand just to be with Tony, but now outside the desire and arousal, he knew that would only hurt him, hurt their friendship, and he would always want more, even if Tony didn't.
"I need to know." Tony whispered. "Is that what you wanted. One night?"
How could he answer this truthfully without giving away his true feelings? That was the thought that raced through Gibbs' mind. "In that moment, having you so close, I would have taken one night."
Tony heard the half truth, knew there was more but didn't push. Instead he did what he always did, hid behind the humor. He laughed. "Wow want me that bad do you?"
Gibbs nodded, knowing full well what Tony was doing. "It would have been an amazing one night."
"I have no doubt it would have been."
Drawing his head back, Gibbs was completely baffled by the statement and the seriousness with which it was spoken. It somehow made him bold and he slid to the middle of the couch. "Then why did you leave?"
Tony tried to ignore Gibbs closeness and the physical reaction his body was already having.
"Scared?" Gibbs asked.
"Absolutely."
"Aroused."
"Definitely." Tony sighed.
"Not interested?"
There was no answer.
"Ah." Gibbs nodded.
"Confused." Tony managed to answer.
"Understandable."
"I was, it was just so-" Tony groaned why couldn't he just say it.
Gibbs rubbed his forehead, he wanted Tony to have a way out of this. "Tony it doesn't have to mean anything to you. You can forget it every happened. I was the one that crossed the line and I apologize. I won't let it happen again, if that's what you want. Just say the word and we will never talk about it again. "
Tony inhaled deeply, took the cup from Gibbs' hand and sat it on the coffee table. Then his eyes locked on Gibbs as he closed the distance between them. "I don't want to forget about it.
Gibbs felt his heart stop and his lung stop taking in air as warm lips brushed against his in an all too brief kiss.
Never breaking eye contact, Tony gently pushed Gibbs down onto the couch capturing Gibbs' mouth again. This time feeling the softness of Gibbs' lips and tasting the hint of coffee left there from his last sip. He had wanted the kiss to be chased, but instead he found himself slipping his tongue across Gibbs' lips and savoring the full taste of the coffee from the older man's mouth. He moaned with need as he felt Gibbs' tongue wrestle with his own eagerly wanting more.
Unable and unwilling to control himself any longer, Gibbs' wrapped his arms around Tony, dragging the man down against him. Their bodies so warm against each other, he hadn't expected this. He expected Tony to be polite, tell him nothing could ever happen, that it was flattering but there was nothing between them. But now, with Tony in his arms, he wanted it, craved it, and refused to let it go. His hands clawed down Tony's body and cupped his ass, squeezing hard.
Another moan as Tony felt his cock responding. Ripping their lips apart, he stared down at Gibbs, panting with a need he didn't realize could be created just from a kiss.
"I want you." Gibbs pleaded. "Tell me you can't do this, tell me you want me to stop and I will."
"And if I want this, if I don't want you to stop." Tony sighed. "Then what?"
"Then I jack you off." Like last night, Gibbs was lost in the moment, the desire for Tony, not caring if this was nothing more than a onetime thing. "Like you fantasized about last night."
Reaching between them, Tony undid his pants then grabbed Gibbs' hand and shoved it inside placing it on his hard cock.
"Tony." Gibbs growled as his fingers wrapped around the younger man's cock.
"I want you to make me come." Tony groaned. "Just like this."
"Like your fantasy?"
"Yes." Tony whimpered.
Gently rolling them over, Gibbs searched Tony's eyes one last time for any sign of hesitation.
"Please." Tony purred gazing into the lust filled eyes. "Make me come."
Gibbs' eyes closed drinking in the moment, he had wanted to hear those words so long. When he opened his eyes again, he tugged Tony's jeans down over his hips, Tony's hard cock springing free. "Wanted to touch you for so long." His hand enveloped Tony's cock again stroking gently over its length.
"Fuck yes." Tony moaned throwing his head back.
"Tell me what you want?" Gibbs begged wanting to do everything possible to make Tony feel good. "Faster, harder."
"Harder." Tony panted.
Gibbs' hand tightened around Tony's cock, increasing the sped at the same time.
Grasping at the front of Gibbs' shirt, Tony couldn't understand why it felt so good. He'd had countless hand jobs before, but none had ever made him want to come so hard so fast.
Brushing his lips against Tony's ear, Gibbs whispered. "This is what you really wanted last night. My hand around your cock."
"Yes."
"Did you scream my name when you jacked off?"
"Yes, over and over." Reaching up Tony clutched at the back of Gibbs' head with both hands, fixing their gaze. "It feels so good." He bit down on his lip trying to fight back the need.
"I want you to feel everything." Gibbs moaned as Tony thrust into his hand. "Everything you want to feel and experience."
I can't hold-" Tony cried out. God he was gonna come after what, thirty seconds.
"Come for me." Gibbs wanted to feel Tony's release, wanted to know the desire was there, that he could awaken the same need and want that Tony created in him.
Tony made a sound somewhere between a moan and whimper as he gasped for air rocking his hips, matching Gibbs' strokes. "JETHRO!" The name tore through the room as Tony's body convulsed, his eyes rolling back into his head.
The warm sticky fluid flowed down Gibbs' hand and seeped into the front of his shirt as Tony came. He continued to stroke the cock in his hand forcing the younger man to ride the waves of aftershocks that coursed through his electrified body.
Tony's mouth dropped open as if to scream but no sound emerged, his grip on the back of Gibbs' head tightened as his cock continued to twitch overwhelmed by the sensation of still being stroked even after he'd already came.
Gibbs pulled his head free and kissed his way up Tony's jaw line to his ear. "Take a deep breath for me."
Somewhere within the sex induced haze Tony heard the voice and complied, taking in a deep gulp of air and filling his lungs.
"We're not done yet." Gibbs whispered. "I wanna taste you."
Involuntarily, Tony's body shuddered, Gibbs couldn't be serious.
"I'm gonna lick and suck you till your hard again." Gibbs hummed then slid down Tony's body forcing the jeans down to Tony's ankles and licking eagerly at the man's come covered cock.
"Oh fuck." Tony howled. Gibbs' tongue was everywhere, on his cock, on his balls, licking at the head of his dick, greedily cleaning up every last drop of his release. No one had ever done something that seemed so raunchy and erotic to him. And he surprised himself when he felt his cock starting to harden and ache.
"That's it." Gibbs licked up the underside of Tony's now hard cock. "Turns you on, me licking up all your come."
"God yes." Tony whined.
Gibbs wrapped his lips around the head of Tony's cock and sucked hard.
"Jethro!" It was too much, Tony was still on edge, his body still buzzing.
Gibbs didn't care, he just wanted more. Sliding his lips down Tony's shaft, he took all of it.
Tony's upper body arched off the couch and just as he was about to drop back, Gibbs drew up then slammed himself down again. "FUCK!" Tony screamed as he collapsed down onto the couch, Gibbs now feverishly bobbing over his cock.
This was exactly what Gibbs wanted, Tony lost in the ecstasy, in the need, thinking of nothing but wanting to come.
"That's it suck my cock, make me come." Tony growled as he unwillingly lost control, the world crashing in around him. He came filling Gibbs mouth and throat with his release as he descended into the darkness. The next thing he remembered was opening his eyes and seeing Gibbs laying next to him.
"Hey."
"What did you do to me?" Tony sighed contently.
Gibbs' eyebrows went up. "Do I really have to explain?"
Tony punched Gibbs in the stomach. "Smart ass. "
Chuckling, Gibbs placed a kiss on Tony's forehead. "Next time I'd really like to get you naked."
"Why wait till next time." Tony kicked his pants the rest of the way off and pulled off his shirt tossing it aside. "I'd rather be naked now."
Leering down Tony's naked body, Gibbs could feel himself having some kind of Pavlovian response. His mouth wet and salivating with need.
"You are way over dressed." Tony said tugging at Gibbs' shirt and removing it under protest.
"Tony you don't have to-" Roughly, Gibbs was shoved down onto the couch.
"My turn." Tony said as he straddling Gibbs' hips. He grinned when he felt the hard cock under him. "Still hard."
"Your naked straddling my cock, even if I hadn't already been hard I would be now." Gibbs couldn't help but touch the man above him, he ran his hands up over Tony's chest feeling the muscles twitch under his fingers. "You are so sexy. So amazing." Grabbing Tony by the back of the neck he yanked the man down stopping when their faces were just inches apart.
"Oh you are a naughty, naughty boy aren't you?" Tony sighed.
Gibbs smirked. "Guess you'll have to find out." Crushing their mouths together, he feasted from Tony's lips, but soon found Tony taking control, nibbling at his bottom lip, then biting down harder eliciting a low growl from him.
Sitting up, Tony ran his hands over Gibbs exposed chest, then licked his lips. "I think." His lips placed a kiss on Gibbs' throat, then bit down hard causing the older man to hiss. "You have no idea what you unleashed"
Another bite and Gibbs moaned, his hands scratching down Tony's back.
Pushing Gibbs' arms above his head, Tony glared down at his now lover. "Leave them there. Understood?"
Gibbs eye narrowed slightly.
Tony glared back. "You didn't really think I would just be some passive lover doing whatever you asked of me did you?" He didn't want or expect an answer as he ran his fingers through the silver hair at Gibbs' left temple to the back of Gibbs' head fisting his fingers in the short hairs and jerking hard. "If you did that was a big mistake."
Taking a sharp quick breath, Gibbs couldn't help but sigh breathlessly
"This isn't about experience." Letting his hand caress across Gibbs' chest, Tony's fingers found Gibbs right nipple and pinched hard then twisted.
"Tony." Gibbs howled with pleasure.
"This is about knowing what your lover wants." Tony said with a smug look of satisfaction. "And I know exactly what you want, what you like...what you need."
Gibbs moaned as Tony again twisted and pinched the sensitive nipple. There were very few people he trusted completely and without question, and Tony was one of them. But there were even fewer people he trusted enough sexually to give himself over completely to his true desires and needs. Yet in just a few moments, Tony already knew, understood and was giving it to him. This was one of the original reasons he'd never crossed the line with Tony...Tony could read him too well.
"Keep your hands above your head. Understood?"
This time Gibbs nodded.
Licking up Gibbs' neck, Tony nipped at Gibbs' earlobe. "I should have seen this before."
"Seen what?"
"You, me." Another twist this time with more force. "Us."
Gibbs mouth dropped open as he groaned.
"The connection we've always had." Tony pulled at the nipple then let go, smiling when he heard another low rumbled. "The relationship we share. That sense of belonging together that's always been there, sex was just the obvious next step."
"Yes." Gibbs sighed as Tony's finger rubbed his other nipple, then pinched. "Tony." He roared thrusting his cock up against Tony's ass.
"Is your cock already dripping?" Tony asked as his hand drifted down and squeezed Gibbs' hard on through the heavy jean material.
"Yes."
Tony popped the button on Gibbs' jeans then lazily slid the zipper down over Gibbs' hard cock. He smirked to himself when Gibbs arched up. "You just can't wait for me to touch you, can you?"
"I've wanted you for a long time." Gibbs moistened his dry lips. "Wanted your hand around my cock."
"And what else?" Tony slipped his hand inside Gibbs' pants then squeezed through the thinner fabric of the boxers. "What else did you want from me?"
"Tony." There was hesitation in Gibbs' voice, he still wasn't sure exactly how far Tony wanted this to go. Was this a onetime thing, just cock play or was there a chance for more?
Tony sank his teeth into Gibbs' earlobe and felt the body under him trembled. "Did you want me, pants down, bent over your desk, your cock up my ass."
Gibbs snarled through clenched teeth. "Yes! God yes." He'd had countless fantasies about fucking Tony. Over his desk, in the elevator, on the kitchen table, the floor, the bed, anywhere he could imagine.
"I've never been with a man." Tony sighed almost sadly. "Had a lot of offers." The body under him tensed. "A lot of offers. Men wanting to suck me, fuck me, some just begging me to jack them off."
Gibbs swallowed the jealousy that knotted in his throat, but it still caused a roar to rumbled deep in his chest.
"Jealous?" Tony snickered against Gibbs' ear. When he didn't get a reply he raked his fingers over Gibbs' cock. "Are you jealous?"
"Yes." Gibbs snapped. The thought of Tony with another man enraged him.
Placing a kiss against Gibbs' jugular, Tony clamped down hard feeling the pulse quicken under his teeth and lips. "No reason to be jealous. I never thought twice about it." Tony let his breathe whisper against Gibbs' ear. "Until you." His fingers found their way inside the front opening of Gibbs' boxers, his fingers teasing over the shaft.
"Fuck." It wasn't enough he wanted more, needed more.
"I want you." Tony moaned. Raising back up, he looked down into the blue eyes not surprised to find them glazed over with a look of hunger and need. "In every way."
"Please." The word was a plea, a prayer that Gibbs desperately wanted answered.
Sliding back slightly, Tony pulled Gibbs' cock free and rubbed two fingers over the tip, then held the fingers to Gibbs' lips.
Gibbs stared at the man a moment, as if he were about to refuse but then he took the two fingers between his lips, licking and sucking them as if they were Tony's cock. His eyes trained on Tony and the way the younger man watched him with a look of pure lust. Finally, he let the fingers fall from his mouth licking his lips. Raising his head slightly, he waited for it, it took only a second for Tony to smash their mouths together. Tony's tongue demanding entrance and he willingly gave it.
Bitter and sweet, it was a taste that Tony would now always know as Gibbs' essence. His hand reached down and wrapped around Gibbs' cock, stroking over its length roughly, causing Gibbs to break away gasping for air.
The urge to come surged through Gibbs' body as Tony skillfully worked over him.
"Do you know the other fantasy I had last night?" Tony asked.
Unable to find his voice, Gibbs merely shook his head.
"You and I in the shower." Tony released moan of pleasure as the memory flashed through his mind. "My hands against the wall, your dick inside me, you fucking me hard." He purred. "Pounding into me."
Gibbs growled as he clawed into the arm of the couch trying desperately to keep his hands where they were.
"I couldn't believe how good it felt." Tony groaned jerking Gibbs' cock harder. He gazed at the man below him. "Are you gonna make it feel that good when you actually fuck me?"
"YES!" Gibbs bellowed. "GOD YES!" He prayed to whatever deity would listen that this wasn't something just said in the heat of passion, but that Tony wanted this to be more than just once. He had to touch Tony, nothing could have stopped him at this point. His hands cupped Tony's ass massaging and clawing at the tight muscles.
Tony grinned. "I'm surprised you lasted that long."
Using his hold on Tony as leverage, Gibbs sat up, keeping Tony in his lap never breaking their connection.
"Something more you want?" Tony sighed as Gibbs yanked his upper body forward, their chest's almost touching.
"You, need to touch you, hold you." Gibbs panted clutching at the back of Tony's neck.
Tony whimpered as his hand slowed over Gibbs' cock. "Tell me."
"You're a cock tease." Gibbs grunted.
"Oh poor Jethro." Tony smirked speeding up slightly. "Can't take it?"
"I should fuck you right now."
"But you won't." Green eyes locked on blue. "Because you want that to be special." It was said with a cocky air of confidence.
Gibbs eyed Tony with an odd look of bewilderment.
Tony's hand tightened around Gibbs' cock as he worked hard over its length. "You don't wanna fuck me...you wanna make love to me." The conversation earlier had made that very clear to Tony, he knew how to speak Gibbs.
Gibbs felt his body shiver.
"If you wanted to just fuck me you already would have." Pressing his lips to Gibbs' ear, he took a slow breath. "You wanna know that when you stick your cock inside me, that I love you." There was a slight pause. "Like you love me."
Strong fingertips dug into the skin of Tony's back, as the truth clutched at Gibbs' heart.
Tony saw Gibbs' eyes now full of a strange mix of desire, need and fear. A fear he had put there by exposing Gibbs truth.
"You love me." Tony moaned feeling Gibbs' cock twitch in his hand. "Have for a very long time."
Gibbs couldn't breathe, he didn't wanna hear this, didn't wanna know Tony didn't feel the same.
"I left last night because I was afraid." Tony stroked faster. "Afraid it really was a game to you. And it's not a game for me."
"Tony!" Gibbs felt the need starting to crash in around him.
"I want you Jethro." Tony's free hand cupped Gibbs' cheek. "I can't just have one night, I need you over and over again."
Gibbs howled as the world splinted into a million pieces and he crushed Tony against him, every muscle in his body tensing as he came. His release spilled against their chests, as his cock twitched with ripple after ripple of intense pleasure. Panting for breath, he couldn't let go of the body against him, didn't know what to say. He loved Tony, had for so long he couldn't remember a time when he didn't. But trying to believe Tony could feel the same way seemed unimaginable. He shivered when he felt the soft lips press a kiss below his ear.
"Can't breathe." Tony chuckled struggling for air under Gibbs vice like grip. "I'm not going anywhere." The grip around him loosened but only enough to allow him to take a full breath.
Inhaling deeply, Gibbs tried to calm the fire still stirring inside him.
"Say something." Tony hated when Gibbs went silent, it meant he was thinking, contemplating and right now he didn't want Gibbs to think, he just wanted honest emotion.
"It wasn't a game." Gibbs sighed. "In a way it was, but-"
Tony looked at Gibbs face wanting to see, to know exactly what the older man felt.
Captured by those tender green eyes, Gibbs spoke from the heart. "I love you and I was hoping that maybe if I pushed, you'd feel something too."
"You didn't have to push me to feel something." Tony smiled. "I already do."
"Did you really-"
"Jethro, I know there's more we need to talk about, but I want a hot shower, with you, then we can talk."
"Okay." Gibbs nodded slightly unnerved by Tony blowing off the conversation.
"I just need to let everything settle for a minute. Okay?" Tony smiled.
"Yeah." Gibbs sighed fearing things said in the heat of passion were just that, passion induced statements that now Tony regretted.