An: Here's another chapter in Shizuru's POV. Do you guys think Crazy Shizuru should end up with Natsuki? I love hearing all your thoughts about it.
Warnings: Futa Natsuki, Crazy Shizuru, Dark Themes, Sort of Non-Con, Violence, Explicit Smut, Explicit Language.
Every Otome must have the killer instinct. A sense honed through intensive training and brutal wars. The lack of hesitation to cut down any enemy even those who used to be comrades. The resolve to do whatever it takes to win. Mine was developed just as any other Otome but there was one advantage I had.
My ability allows me to instinctively know my enemies fears and weakness. Show me any leader, any cold general and I will show you how to break them, how to take them to the brink of destruction with no mercy.
My Natsuki was the only person I could never read. At first I wondered if she had no fear, no weakness and it scared me. Who was this woman even I couldn't read? She intrigued me from the start.
I couldn't help but want to get closer to her. My Natsuki was always beautiful, always strong, yet always so lonely. She barely talked to the other students when she first entered Garderobe in the middle of the school year. They were jealous of her power and the attention she received from the older students and the staff.
In fact, many first years were foolish enough to challenge her and my Natsuki showed them the full extent of her power but still showed them mercy in the end by not ending their pitiful lives. That was reckless as weakness would get her killed. Garderobe students took advantage of weakness. My Natsuki didn't budge on her position. That was her gentle nature. Of course in a real battle my Natsuki was ruthless. Looking from afar, I had considered her an oddity. A beautiful one. I believe that's partially why I approached her.
I fell in love. This inescapable everlasting love. My obsession with her grew until one day I couldn't control it anymore. To my displeasure by the time my Natsuki became a 4th year, she had many admirers, some who would aggressively pursue her.
I believe that's when my jealousy made itself known. I was a column for 3 years at that point and I used my power to persuade them to leave my Natsuki. She wasn't mine yet but she would be. I knew she would. I just had to wait for my Natsuki to approach me. I had to know she wanted me before I could truly make her mine.
Then she did. I could have died from the happiness I felt that day. Every moment I spent with my Natsuki only amplified my love, my obsession, my jealousy until we reached a breaking point.
My Natsuki left me. She still loved me I knew but she blamed herself for the person I had become. For the things I did in her name. I let her be for a while. I needed her to realize that she needed me as much as I needed her. Then I saw her with that fucking slut and I just knew she had fucked her.
Was I so easily replaceable? Did she only need some slut to fuck to get over me? I was beyond enraged. So I showed her what she wanted. Me only me. I would never let her go again! I wouldn't give her the chance to think of another! I would be all she ever needed, all she ever wanted! I don't care for anything else but my Natsuki! I would watch the world burn a thousand times over just to be with my Natsuki!
With that resolve, I injected the nanomachines into my veins. I didn't feel any different but maybe that would change when I make Natsuki mine again. I left my room and decided to pay my Natsuki an afternoon visit.
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When I approached the Headmistress office, I saw that slut walk out with Miss Maria. I gave her a hateful look before entering the office.
My Natsuki was slumped over on her desk and looked so drained, so sad. Was she thinking of the whore? Or was she thinking of me?
"Natsuki." I walked towards her and stood near her chair and raised her chin up to face me. While she looked at me with those sad green eyes.
"Shizuru…" she sighed then pulled me on her lap.
Why? Why did you look so sad Natsuki? My thumb gently traced over her bruised lip. I felt guilty. I hurt my love in my anger, in my jealously.
"I'm so sorry my Natsuki."
Tears were gathering in my Natsuki's eyes. Why was she crying? I would do anything to make those tears go away. She grabbed my hand that was tracing her lips, holding it softly in her hands. Then her expression turned grim. Her eyes hardened as did her voice.
"I know you threatened Erstin." Did that whore tell her? I'll rip that fucking slut to shreds! If she was dumb enough to ignore my warnings then she would learn true devastation.
"Don't say that slut's name." My arms moved around my Natsuki's biceps, holding her in place against her chair. Why did she care about her? I hated it. I'm the only person my Natsuki should care about.
"Shizuru…"
"Did she tell you?" My voice rose in anger, cutting her off. How dare that slut?! She's dead. The moment I get my hands on her, that whore will wish she never messed with what's mine.
"No. You underestimate me Shizuru. I know you materialized your robe last night then she came here requesting to leave Garderobe. She looked terrified so I accepted her request. I know you wouldn't stop until she was dead." My Natsuki sounded upset with me like if I was wrong to keep that whore away from her.
"For her sake you let her go? Why do you care about her? Why won't you love me and only me?" My fury mixed with distress.
"I liked her, but she was a distraction so I could try and distance myself from you. It didn't work, I only love you. This kills me Shizuru. All I want is to be with you but you keep doing things like this."
I moved my head and stared straight into those forest green eyes I love so much. Why didn't she understand? I do this for us. I can't lose my Natsuki to anyone or anything.
"I don't want you to like anyone else! I don't want you to think of another! I don't want you make love to anyone else but me. Why can't you understand, your attention belongs only to me!" Tears fell from my garnet eyes as I screamed hysterically.
Her eyes were so remorseful and heartbroken. I was seeing red. I loathed that slut. I loathed that Natsuki even liked her and cared about her. I loathed that Natsuki fucked the slut.
"Every time you fucked her, did you think of me? Did you cum inside her? Did you make love to her? How many times did you fuck that slut?! Did you bring her to our room? Did you take her on our bed? Fuck Natsuki! The thought of you with her with anyone who isn't me makes me fucking incensed, so fucking bloodthirsty!"
Energy was crackling around me as I screamed frantically. I was losing my control and my hands squeezed hard on her arms. My Natsuki was quiet too quiet. Was everything I said true? Is that why she looked so guilty? I fucking hated it. The thought of her with anyone else sent me into agony.
"This can't work baby. We can't work." My Natsuki's voice cracked as she cried. I cried too, hot tears staining my face. I can't lose her. I can't lose my love. She doesn't understand I would tear the world apart to be with her.
"Natsuki no you can't leave me again! I can't live without you! Please my love I'll do whatever it takes please." I grabbed her cheeks and kissed my Natsuki hard and desperately. She responded with the same amount of emotion then she rested her forehead against mine.
"I love you more than I love myself and that's why I need to let you go. I make you lose yourself." She sounded so guilty like she believed it was really her fault. How could she think that? I am only whole when I'm with my Natsuki.
She led my hand against her heart. "Can't you tell that my heart beats only for you?" She said in a strong voice. I knew she was sincere. Her heart was beating rapidly against my palm.
"Natsuki I need you. Please my love, don't leave me. I can't bear it." I couldn't lose my Natsuki. I just can't.
"What can I do to make you trust me? How can I stop your jealousy?" My Natsuki asked me quietly, voice cracking. I know that this affected her just as much as it affected me.
What can stop my jealousy? My incorrigible need for my Natsuki? Nothing. I can't live without her and I won't let anyone else have her. I was a fool to give her time to realize she needed me but I won't make that mistake again.
"Marry me. Make love to me and let me bear your child." I whispered. My Natsuki seemed shocked at the request but I continued to speak quietly. "I want the world to know that you belong to me and I belong to you." No one will take my Natsuki away from me. Anyone who thought otherwise would be cut down by my blade.
"Shouldn't we slow down a bit? We just got back together less than a day ago." Natsuki asked me hesitantly as thought she was afraid to anger me again.
I got up from her lap and stared out the window, facing away from my Natsuki. My heart felt broken and tears stained my cheeks. Was this it then? Did Natsuki truly not want me?
My thoughts were cut off and my eyes widened in shock. My Natsuki held me tightly, her hands rested on my stomach and her thumbs rubbed small circles. I felt her breath against my neck then planting sweet kisses there.
"I love you Shizuru. I want to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you." I sighed happily before my Natsuki spoke again.
"But… It might be too soon for us to have a baby-"
I cut her off and held her hand flat against my stomach, an idea forming in my head.
"Why?" I said quietly, gently moving my Natsuki's hand on my stomach in a circular motion.
"Do you not want me to have your child? Your children?"
I could see my Natsuki blush in the reflection of the window. Still so cute. I know our children will be as cute as my Natsuki.
"Of course I want you to have my children. It's just, we're still young and with the state of Earl right now, it might not be a good idea right now." Earl had war brewing in various countries but I didn't care. I want my Natsuki. I want to have her babies. I need her to stay with me.
I turned in my Natsuki's arms and kissed her deeply backing her into her desk.
"What if the timing doesn't matter?" I asked timidly, playing the part.
Natsuki's eyes widened in shock before she stuttered out, "Shi, Shizuru are, are you?" she said looking down at my stomach then back to my face.
I sighed dramatically, "I'm not sure, we know nanomachines aren't 100%. So I went to Yohko's office today to ask her about it but she wasn't there." It wasn't a complete lie.
"Would it be so bad if I was?" I asked slowly letting disappointment slip into my voice, wondering how my Natsuki felt about getting me pregnant. Even if she disapproved right now. I know she would stay with me and love our child. My Natsuki was gentle when it came to family and myself.
Natsuki kissed me passionately, her tongue slipping inside my mouth. I was surprised since my Natsuki rarely initiated our passionate sessions. It was rare for her to lose control without my insistence especially in her office of all places. She laid me down gently on her desk. I could feel her dick getting hard against my thigh.
"It would be amazing if you were pregnant with my child. Don't ever doubt my love for you Shizuru." She placed her hand on my stomach again. My Natsuki looked so adoring. I wanted her to take me here on her desk.
I tugged at her pants, letting it slide to the floor as I unbuckled it. My Natsuki didn't even try to stop me like she usually would if I wanted her to take me in her office. I felt her growing harder as I pulled her cock out of her silk boxers.
I pumped the length of her cock, loving how fast she got hard for me. My Natsuki's hands ran up my thighs parting my legs and hiking my dress past my hips.
"Baby we have to be quick." My Natsuki moaned out as I pumped harder watching the pre-cum drip from her throbbing cock. I wanted her inside me so badly. I wanted my Natsuki to fill me with her seed, making me pregnant.
My pussy was soaking through my panties dripping on her desk. I spread my legs wide and moved my panties to the side, not bothering with removing them and showed my Natsuki my sopping pink folds.
"Make love to me my Natsuki. Fuck me hard. I don't want you to hold back."
My Natsuki didn't hesitate and immediately put her fully erect throbbing cock inside my soaking tight pussy.
"Fuck you're still so tight no matter how many times I take you." My Natsuki moaned as my inner walls squeezed her huge cock. Every time my Natsuki was inside me it felt like nirvana. I could never get enough of her pumping inside me, making me hers.
"Harder, Ah, Natsuki!" I screamed out in ecstasy. My Natsuki thrusted roughly inside me, fast and hard and so fucking deep. She kissed me roughly again, her tongue dominating mine as her cock pumped furiously into me.
I knew we were staining her desk with my cum and that thought made me giddy. Natsuki would think of me every time she entered her office, which was all the time.
I reached my climax quickly, shuddering as my Natsuki savagely thrusted deep inside my dripping hole. Her cock was covered in my juices and I knew she was closer and closer to cumming inside my heated craven.
"Ah Natsuki! Cum inside me baby! Fuck you make me feel so good, so incredible!" My fingers dug into her long coat ripping past the fabric. Natsuki grabbed my hips pulling me against every brutal thrust as her hips were bucking sharply inside me.
"Ah Shizuru, fuck you're taking me so good. I want you all the time baby." I wrapped my legs tightly around my Natsuki's waist. She was thrusting even faster until she came with harsh erratic thrusts inside my sopping pussy.
I came again screaming her name as she filled me deeply with her hot cum. Her hips still moving softly inside my cum drenched pussy.
"I love you baby, I love you so much baby." My Natsuki whispered lovingly in my ear as she kissed me sweetly on my ear and neck.
I was so elated. This might be it, I might become pregnant soon from our love making. I didn't want her to pull out of me yet but the knocking outside her office caused my Natsuki to leave my aching pussy. I wanted my Natsuki to fuck me again and again until I can't even walk straight, which would take a lot since I'm an otome.
I saw my Natsuki stare at my overflowing pussy, her cum and mine running down my thighs and creating a small puddle on her desk. My Natsuki's cock twitched and grew hard again as she watched me but the knocking outside her office grew louder and more annoying.
"Wait a moment please!" My Natsuki called out in her work voice while gently rubbing my thighs.
"I'm sorry baby. I wish I could have you again and again ." Natsuki said adoringly to me as she kissed me sweetly.
"That's okay my Natsuki I'll just have to give you a special surprise after work." I said as I rubbed her hard dick covered in our mixed fluids. My love shuddered in pleasure but I knew she couldn't give in right now. I went down my knees and licked her throbbing length clean as she moaned loudly.
"Shizuru…" I tucked her aching length back into her silk boxers. Then I pulled up my Natsuki's pants and buttoned it up.
I leaned up and whispered in my Natsuki's ear "I want you to ache for me the rest of the day. Think only of me. I want you to remember how I felt wrapped around your cock. I want you to crave it, until you can't control yourself and fuck me so hard and so deep until I can't even walk straight."
I smiled sexily, satisfied with the passionate craving expression on my Natsuki's face. I just knew my Natsuki would take me like never before. I left the office and walked to Natsuki's quarters, my hand over my stomach. I would be pregnant with my Natsuki's child soon. Natsuki will never leave me again.