Chapter 3

Dean and Sam lay in their beds the next morning as the sun shined in through the window. Dean was the first to wake up. As he blinked his eyes open and stretched he got out of bed, walked over to the mini fridge and picked up a beer. He walked over to the table up against the window and pulled up a seat to sit down. He didn't know what to expect when Cas got there. The only thing he knew was that he was upset at Cas for not being there when he needed him, for not answering all his prayers, for leaving too fast and not staying long enough. He sighed and took a sip from the bottle. It was 10 o'clock, which meant Dean only had two hours until Cas showed up, if he showed up. Sam turned over in his bed and fell off, waking himself up, "ugh, we need bigger beds," he groaned, laying on the floor. Dean laughed, for the first time in a while he laughed and it wasn't a forced laughter, but a natural one. Sam got up off the floor and stumbled over to sit across the table from Dean. He laid his head down on the table and groaned,
"Sammy," Dean said, concerned. Sam just groaned back,
"Sam, you're a mess. You can't keep doing these damn trials. I'm not letting you," Dean said, angrily. Sam lifted his head up and scoffed,
"Dean, you can't stop me. I already started them, I have to finish them no matter what," he said and put his head back down on the table. Dean pushed his chair back and got up, put his jacket on and walked outside.

Dean sat in his Impala and thought about everything they've been through. Everything they've done for God, for Heaven, for Hell, just to save their family, which hasn't even really been saved. He slammed the steering wheel then laid his head on it and cried. Cas was in the back seat watching him, but Dean couldn't see him. Cas has always been there for Dean, he's always been around just not in site. It hurt Cas to see Dean fall apart right in front of him, but Cas didn't know what to do. Cas quietly got out of the car and walked into the motel room,
"Sam, I don't think I'm ready for this," he said, panicking. Sam walked up to Cas and helped him sit down,
"Cas, it's fine just breathe," Sam said, bringing Cas some water and sitting down beside him,
"No, I can't tell him he wont understand, he'll get mad at me for what I did," he said, tears swelling in his eyes. Sam patted Cas on the back trying to comfort him, then Dean walked in. He looked down at Cas wide-eyed and anger started forming inside of him,
"Dean, before you say anything just listen to what he has to say," Sam said, getting up and holding Dean back before he could hurt Cas. Cas wiped his tears away so Dean couldn't see them and got up,
"Hello Dean," he said, standing up. Dean looked down where Cas sitting and spotted the glass of water,
"Cas, were you drinking water?" Dean asked, confused. Cas looked at Sam worried, but before he could say anything Sam spoke,
"No, it's mine. Cas just came in and we were talking right before you came in, right Cas" he said, looking at Cas. Cas smiled and nodded,
"Yes, right. Sam can Dean and I have some time alone?" he asked,
"Yeah, sure, I'll just go stand outside while you guys talk," he said and walked out of the room.

After Sam left Dean and Cas stood there looking at each other until Cas spoke,
"Dean, I-" he started, but Dean interrupted,
"How could you not answer my prayers, how could you just ignore me like that? Do you know how much I worry about you when you don't show up for days or weeks? God damn it Cas from now on you're going to answer when I call you," Dean said angrily. Cas lowered his head,
"Dean, I can't answer your prayers anymore," he said. Dean stepped back and looked at Cas, shocked,
"What, what do you mean you can't answer them anymore? What are you talking about?" he asked, worried. Cas looked up at Dean, tears filling his eyes. He couldn't hold it in anymore, he started crying right in front of him. Dean walked straight up to Cas and placed his hand under his chin, lifting Cas' head up. He looked into Cas' eyes and said,
"Cas, you're human aren't you? What happened?" he asked, still holding his head in his hand. Cas looked at Dean shocked,
"How, how did you know I was human?" he sniffed, wiping his tears away. Dean smiled and let go of Cas' face,
"You just seemed different since I saw you today. I knew the water was yours, I saw the way you looked at Sam so he could save your ass," he said, moving away from Cas and sitting on the edge of one of the beds,
"So talk to me, what happened to your angel mojo?" he asked. Cas looked at him and tears formed in his eyes again. He covered his mouth and tried forcing the tears back, but he couldn't,
"Whoa, Cas what's wrong buddy? What happened?" he said, getting up to help Cas,
"I, I fell from grace," he said,
"Yeah, I got that part, but how?" Dean asked. Cas shook his head,
"I disobeyed my father's orders," he said, looking at Dean with pleading eyes,
"What do you mean? What were his orders?" Dean asked,
"His orders were precise, he said, 'You shall help and watch over the Winchesters only. Do not form any sort of relationship with either of them or anyone else down there or else you are no longer my son' and I did form a relationship, Dean," he said. Dean looked at Cas trying to find his words,
"Who...who did you...what sort of relationship?" Dean stuttered,
"I was not supposed to grow feelings of intimacy, but I did,"
Dean knew how Cas felt about him. He knew Cas loved him he knew it and it made Dean smile.
"Dean, why are you smiling?" Cas asked, confused.
"Cas, I-" Dean started
"I can't do this Dean, I thought I could tell you, but I'm not ready. I'm sorry, I have to go," Cas said, about to leave.
"Cas, you're not leaving me again. I'm not letting you disappear on me like you always do. You can't leave me, I need you," Dean said, tears filling up in his eyes,
"Dean-" Cas started to say, but was stopped by Dean's lips pressing against his. Cas was taken by surprise, but he kissed him back and moved his hands up to hold Dean's face. Dean pulled Cas in closer to him and smiled. Cas released himself from the kiss and laughed, "Dean, I wasn't expecting you to do that," Cas said. Dean grabbed Cas' head and kissed him on the forehead, "Cas, I love you," he said, making Cas blush, "I love you too, Dean," he said, laying his head on his chest. Dean kissed him on his head and held him.

Sam opened the door and looked into the motel room seeing Dean and Cas holding each other, he smiled,
"Aww, well look at that," he said, leaning against the door frame. Dean and Cas jumped at the sound of Sam's voice. They released each other and moved away from one and other,
"Sam, uh we were just..." Dean said, looking for his words. Sam chuckled and walked into the room,
"Guys, I know what's going on here," Sam said, putting his arms around both of them,
"Sam, please there is nothing going on, right Cas?" Dean hesitated, looking over at Cas,
"Oh, you want me to lie, right there's nothing going on here," he said. Dean reached his arm around Sam and smacked Cas over the head,
"Ow, what was that for?" Cas said, rubbing his head where Dean hit him. Dean rolled his eyes and Sam sighed, "I know you guys love each other, alright? You don't gotta hide it anymore," he said pushing them into each other. Dean looked down at Cas and smiled. Cas jumped on Dean, wrapping his arms around his neck. Dean laughed and laid his hand on Cas' back holding him so he wouldn't fall over, "Dean?" Cas said, holding onto Dean tightly. Dean brought his other hand up and wrapped it around Cas' back holding him closer, "Cas," he sighed. Sam stood there with his arm crossed over his chest and leaned closer to them, "Yes, and I'm Sam. Are you guys done now?" Sam said, tiredly. Dean and Cas looked at eachother then looked at Sam,
"Sammy, why don't you go rent the room next door," Dean said with a smile. Sam scoffed,
"Right, like I'm going to leave you guys here alone," he said, walking through them, "Not a chance,"
Cas walked over to Sam and put his arm around him, "Sam look, we wont do anything. We just want some time together without any side comments," he said. Sam tightened his jaw and sighed, "Fine. I'll rent the room next door, but remember I'll be right next door and these walls are thin," he said, grabbing his coat.