My room was just as I left it. As I entered Timcampy flew up to me and circled my head. I was still exhausted, and I never did get that dinner that I snuck out for. I flopped on my bed, GARR so hard. I longed to be back in Kanda's soft bed, with him next to me.

There had always been something about Yuu that made my heart feel light. These feelings I had for him had been growing since I first arrived at the order. Every cheeky smirk, every accidental brush of skin made me crave him. I had no idea of Yuu's feelings towards me. I could never tell, the occasional blush and smile would be followed by attitude and angst towards me. The name calling and him saying how he didn't want to be friends with me. Maybe they were just a cover for how he really felt.

That night in the hallway, when Kanda leaned over me, I was so shocked. I had never kissed anyone, let alone a boy; I had never even had these proper feelings before.

There was this one time, with Nalei. We had been working hard all day and it was hot, so we decided to go for a swim. The water was so cool, Nalei swam over to me. He came up really close and put his arms around me.

"Allen-kun…will you kiss me?"

I remember frowning at him; I didn't know what to say. I leaned over to him and lightly touched my lips on his…then I splashed water in his face. Four days later his sister died, and Nalei was approached by the millennium earl. That was three years ago, three years ago that I had to kill an Akuma in the body of my best friend.

"Yo! Allen. Wake up!" Lavi's voice yelled from the hall.

"You don't wanna miss breakfast do you Allen-kun?"

This was true. I jumped up and put on my shirt and waistcoat.

"Wait on Lavi!"

I left my room, hoping I didn't smell like sex.

"Hey Lavi, have you seen Yuu this morning?" I inquired.

"Yuu eh? Nup, I bet he's out training or something, the grumpy bastard!"

"But Mugen is still in his room…"

--AWKWARD PAUSE—

"And how would Allen know that?" Lavi questioned.

"Oh"

Shit what am I going to say now? I can't tell him that I spent the night with Kanda, in his bed, doing private things! This is troublesome.

"Hmmm? Oh, no…You didn't did you Moyashi? HAHA"

Lavi put his head behind his head and started laughing.

"Good old Yuu-chan"

"LAVI nothing happened...I mean...well…WHAT DO YOU THINK HAPPENED!?!?" I was worried, I didn't want the whole order to know, Kanda would surely kill me. And Lavi is likely to announce it on every Golem in the world.

"Relax Moyashi…I will keep your dirty secret…if you do me sexual favours." Lavi grinned at me and then ruffled my hair. "Don't stress!"

I slumped my shoulders and looked down at the ground. I needed to find Yuu.

I walked with Lavi towards that cafeteria, my tummy growled at me. I walked staring out the windows as they passed, hoping for a glimpse of my Yuu. Lenalee was standing at the door. "Good morning Allen-kun, Lavi-san." Her voice is so friendly. I smiled at her.

"Good morning Lenalee-chan. Have you seen Yuu-san?"

"Um, Komui-niisun called him up to his office. Something about the innocence you both collected on your last mission."

"Thankyou, Lenalee"

Lavi and I headed into the dining room. The smell of food made me so much more hungry. I sat down to eat and looked over at the door. Kanda appeared, I gazed at him, he looked so beautiful. Yuu looked over and started to walk towards me.

"Hey, Moyashi. We found a match for the innocence we brought back. Komui says um thanks." The tone of his voice was different. A little, maybe scared and defensive. I don't think he knew how to act around me after last night.

"Thankyou, Kanda-san."

He turned slowly to walk away, as his head tuned our eyes made contact. The look in his eyes was so sweet, yet confused. A few moments after he left the room, I scoffed down the rest of my breakfast (which covered the whole table) and left after him. I walked down the hall, hoping he went the way I was going. I wandered down the hall, looking out the windows, when I was pulled to the side. Kanda stood there.

"Allen-kun…I am sorry I left you this morning. I just needed… I needed some time to…understand things." He sounded so adorable. He was so shy about it.

"Its alright Kanda-san. I did wonder where you were, I wanted you to be with me. But I knew you had a reason."

Kanda smiled at me. A proper smile, with love and care put into it.

"Lavi knows" I confessed.

"Oh…Eye patch? Typical. Do not worry about it Allen-kun, he is harmless."

I grinned and hugged him tight. It was good to feel his body against mine again. I looked up at his face. He was looking away. I reached up and kissed his lips. He looked down, something was on his mind.

"Yuu-san, are you ok?"

"Mmmm…"

He kissed me and smiled.

"Allen shouldn't worry so much…he will get wrinkles on his perfect face"