I don't own Twilight or any of Stephenie Meyer's Characters I just borrow them for my own versions.

Volturi

Chapter 3

I stood staring at myself in the full body mirror on the wall of my bedroom. I wore a black dress that had a V cut top that went dangerously low, with spaghetti straps, it curved to my waist and ended a little less than half way to my knees, a pair of black stiletto heels that cress crossed over my feet and tied around my ankles. My hair was curled and pulled up to the back of my head, with ringlets falling down my back, and two long curls framing my face. I looked good I couldn't deny that but I had a feeling with my record of being clumsy I was going to break my neck in the shoes, they had to be a least three inches.

As soon as Alice was done with me she had left my room, only to return a few minutes later with Jasper in tow. She wore a long black dress that went to her ankles though had a slit that came mid thigh on one side the top had spaghetti straps and a U shaped dip that just hinted at her cleavage. On her feet were six inch stiletto heels black that wound over her feet and around her ankles, a lot like mine but taller. Jasper wore a black tux that had a tie instead of a bow at the neck, and a pair of shiny black dress shoes.

Jasper looked at me with an apology written all over his face. The last time we had saw each other was the day he almost attacked me over a paper cut. I smiled widely at him, "Hi, Jasper I'm so happy to see you again. I see you have been taking care of Alice for me." I said the smile never wavering. I didn't blame him for his reaction, just like Edward had said the day he left me. The sound of his name in my head still made me shiver with pain from our last encounter.

Jasper smiled, but had felt my discomfort and it turned to a frown, "I'm not uncomfortable because of you Jasper, I'm uncomfortable to be around him." I said easing his fear.

"Don't take it to hard on him, let him explain before you jump to conclusions." He said an understanding look on his face. I just nodded and looked at the clock. It was five minutes till eight, time to head down to the lobby. Jasper took Alice's arm in his and surprisingly took mine in his other as he led us from the room. I double checked to make sure my key card was in my little black wallet Alice insisted I carry.

We entered the lobby and all the staff stopped to stare as me and my family walked toward the front doors. A limo was parked outside the front doors dark tint on the windows. Jasper led us out the doors the bell hop opened the door to the limo and we climbed in silently. He shut the door and I looked up, in front of me sat Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, and Emmett the only person missing was Edward. I shivered at the sound of his name in my head after so long.

I smiled at them for my greeting, Carlisle, Esme, and Emmett smiled back at me in return Rosalie just scowled and looked out the window. I just rolled my eyes, she was never going to change

I felt the slight jerk as the limo started off down the street to an unknown location to me, to everyone else they knew where they were headed.

"So no broken bones, concussions, serous cuts, or anything while we were gone?" Emmett teased me. I laughed a real laugh, I was starting to feel like myself again.

"No nothing happened at all after all of you left." I said trying to hide the pain I felt that they all had left me completely alone. Emmett didn't seem to notice my sudden change after my statement, but the rest of them did, and all had similar looks of apology on their faces. I smiled at them again letting them know it was okay. I looked out the window and watched as ancient buildings and lights passed the tinted windows of the limo.

It was a short trip after only ten minutes or so the limo pulled to the entrance to a building that looked much like a medieval castle. The door was opened from the outside and Jasper climbed out first and held his hand out to me. I took his hand as he helped me out of the car, he helped Alice out next. Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, and Emmett climbed out after us. I followed them feeling like the odd ball as we walked threw the front doors. A butler that was surprisingly human led us into a large room with marble floors and a large crystal chandelier hanging from the middle of the ceiling.

Their were vampires every where, some were waltzing, others were standing around in groups talking to one another. A few sitting in a group of chairs looking bored, and irritated. There were a few humans mixed in which surprised me even more. Every one seemed to be dressed in black, that contrasted with the dark red walls and pale white marble floor. Music poured over the crowd, neither vampire or human missed a step. Carlisle took Esme's hand a smile on his face as he led her to the dance floor. Rosalie and Emmett followed shortly after. I was left standing next to Alice and Jasper feeling like I was holding them back from joining the rest of their family. I felt like the third wheel. The song changed but to a bit slower of a song and all the couples on the dance floor shifted to a slower dance. Alice and Jasper looked at me and I smiled at them urging them to go dance to I would be fine. Alice smiled in thanks and walked off hand in hand. I watched them dance happy for my vampire family, happy that they were happy. The tune changed again and a song I recognized came over me.

My lullaby, I was shocked I had never thought of dancing to the tune. But the couples in the room made it look as they could dance to anything.

I felt someone's eyes on me so I looked around the room to find the source. My eyes fell on a pair of deep golden eyes, pale skin, messy bronze hair. I felt my heart stop, their in front of me stood Edward only five feet or so away. I felt my heart pick up the beat again, it quickened as he walked closer to me. I couldn't read his face, though his eyes never left mine. When he was close enough he held out his hand to me. He knew I couldn't dance and so did I but I still took his hand.

He led me wordlessly to the middle of the dance floor pulling my waist to him his hand rested on my back, my other hand still in his grasp. I stared deep into his eyes as we began to move. My heart raced the entire time, my breathing quickened. I hadn't forgotten how it felt to be near him to touch him, but a memory and the real thing were completely different. I felt as if I were in heaven an hell at the same time, my body burned from being close to him electricity shooting though my body, though my mind at peace for the first time in a long time. I heard my lullaby end and he stopped dancing and so did I, only then realizing. That I was dancing I didn't trip over my feet, I didn't injure anyone around me. A smile rose to my lips, and one showed on his as he started dancing to the next song that came on, I just followed him.

We danced for a few songs before he took a step back from me, keeping my hand in his, he led me away from the dance floor and out onto the balcony that I didn't even know was their. My moment was over now it was time to talk it was time to here the explanation behind leaving me. Leaving me alone to wallow in misery, loneliness, helplessness, and sadness. Why he left me to suffer only to come back when I was just trying to start to get over it. I didn't know if I would have ever gotten over him leaving, telling me that he didn't want me, that I didn't belong with him, but I was going to try.

"Bella," he said sadness biting at my name as he said it. "I'm sorry for everything I have put you threw and everything that I'm going to put you threw, in the future. You have to let me explain. It seemed that ever since I had met you, I had put your life in danger." he said. He wasn't looking at me now, he was leaning over the railing staring out over the city. "My very presence was causing you to have near death experiences more than any human should. So I forced myself to go to you after, the incident with Jasper. I had to convince you that I didn't want to be with you to protect you. I had to force every word out of my mouth, when all I wanted to say was that I love you and didn't want to leave you. But I knew it had to be done. I had to leave to protect you." He looked as if he could cry if he was able.

He still had my hand in his and I wrapped my other hand around his. He looked at me a glint in his eyes as he looked at me. "I thought that if I left you alone, if I wasn't around you that your life could go back to normal. I know what you have been going threw, I fought to stay away from you. Anytime you sat in your room crying I saw it Alice made sure I saw what I had done to you when I left. But I couldn't go back, it would have put you in danger again. So I left my family to wonder the world, to try and keep myself from going to you. A few months after I left I wondered threw Italy and the Volturi found out that I was nearby and invited me over. When they ask you something you do it. So I came, I knew what Aro could do if he touched me but I couldn't help it." he said. He had looked away from me again as he spoke. Sadness, love, and fear in his voice.

I stayed silent and let him talk, Jasper had asked me to just listen to him before I jumped to conclusions. "He saw you, he saw that you knew and their was no one around to make sure you kept silent. But then he saw that you would stay silent, that you would keep your word. He seen every thought I had ever had about you, and everything that was before and after." he swallowed, trying to force himself to continue talking.

"He then saw that I couldn't read your mind and he became curious, he saw why I left and he made me a deal." Edward looked at me the look in his eyes intense, it was fear. "He told me that he couldn't let you continue living knowing what you know. But he would let you live a little longer he would let you finish high school. Then you had to come here and I had to come back to you." The fear in his eyes grew with every word he spoke. His voice almost shaky it was starting to worry me.

"I went back to Forks I stood in the woods and watched you graduate, I seen that you were in pain though you held strong for Charlie and Renee and I felt ashamed. That I had let it come to this. I left to protect you but while I was away from you I caused even more damage. I was told that after I was back with you I had two months. Two months to turn you, into a monster like me. Other wise they would kill you." he said it and his voice almost choked. I could see why he was afraid now.

He started to speak again, and I held up my hand. "Edward," I said and goose bumps ran down my arms from speaking his name aloud for the first time since he left. "I told you after the prom that, that was what I wanted, I wanted to be with you forever, always, as long as I could. I wanted you to turn me to become the monster you are. Because I can't see myself living without you." I said as I pulled his face too look at me.

"After you left I was in hell the world around me crashed, I wasn't living I was existing. I floated threw the months their but only in body. The first few months I don't remember anything I just went threw the motions I was a robot doing what I was supposed to. Answering when spoken too, I would have stayed that way living in the pain. But I seen what I was doing to Charlie so I started to pretend that I had come back to the world. He fell for it at first, I would go to the movies with Jessica, or Angela. Go to La Push with everyone. But as soon as I was out of Charlie's vision. I would start to shut down. I would sit and only talk when something was directed my way." He had pain in his eyes now.

I didn't want to hurt him but I had to tell him how that made me feel. "So if my choices were to become a vampire and live the rest of my existence with you or go on living threw life as a robot I would pick being a monster with you. I love you I want to be with you. You should of known I would do anything to be with you even if it meant giving up my humanity. Its what I wanted, one human lifetime is not enough for me I want you forever." The tears rolled down my cheeks, glad that Alice had used waterproof makeup.

He said nothing at first just reached up and whipped the tears from my cheek. A smile on his face, though the fear and sadness were their too. "If that is what you want then I will do it but, I am not going to do it until the last day. Two months from now." I smiled at him the tears drying on my cheeks.

"Is it too early to leave?" I asked "I just want to spend some time alone with you. Talk things through get everything on the table." He smiled and grasped my hand even tighter and led me back into the ball room. Aro was a few feet away talking to a few humans from the look of it.

Edward walked up to him, "Excuse me Aro we are going to retire for the night, we will see you next week, to discuss everything." Aro just nodded at him and smiled at me.

We walked though the doors and outside to a waiting limo to take us back to my room. We entered the room and he shut the door behind me. The first thing I did was trip over my own feet. I had somehow escaped tragedy all night, I was just glad it waited till I was back in my room to strike. Edward caught me and set me back on my feet. "I haven't told you this but you look stunning, I am going to have to get Alice something, you look tempting." he said, his eyes Bunning into mine. I had, had the intention of changing the moment I walked in the room, but now I decided to stay as I was shoes and all.

"You look dashing as well." I said as I walked to the little fridge grabbing a coke out. My mouth felt suddenly dry. He was behind me a second later scooping me up bridal style and carrying me to the bed. I didn't know what got into him but I liked it.

Edward laid me on the king sized bed and collapsed beside me. Our conversation was far from over, but the mood was lighter, hopefully making the conversation easier. I( watched him as he lay beside me his thoughts flashing threw his eyes.

I could tell what he was thinking about though a smile still graced his lips his eyes spoke a different story. "Edward," I said drawing his eyes to mine, "I know this is difficult for you, being forced to turn me. But if you remember the night of the prom and since then I had asked you to turn me." I said reminding him of my 'request' I had made long ago.

The corner of his mouth turned up at the memories I brought to his mind. "I'm not worried about you being a vampire that would make my life easer, less complicated to be around you." He said true fully Before he continued he looked away from me toward the ceiling an pulled me into his arms.

"I will miss your blushes, the way your heart beats faster when I'm closer to you, and watching you sleep with my name softly on your lips. What bothers me is that I may not be strong enough to stop, that instead of turning you I will kill you." He said running his cool fingers up and down my arm. I could hear the fear in his voice, the fear that I believed was pointless.

I looked at him the smile never leaving my face, I raised my hand and pulled his face to look into my eyes again. "I believe in you, it wouldn't be the first time you have tasted my blood. You know what to expect this time. You could stop then, you can stop when the time comes." I said my confidence in him clinging to ever word I spoke.

"That time was different your blood was diluted by not only James's venom but with the morphine that Carlisle had injected to dull the pain. This time you're blood will be pure, nothing will be diluting it like the last time. The fact that you're blood was diluted made it easier for me to stop." He said.

I could remember he was remembering the night that he had tasted my blood to save my life from James's deadly bite on my arm. I grinned wider at him laughing lightly, even though it was not the time to be laughing. He stared at me socked at my laughter, I was always shocking him one way or another.

"Well to make it easier on you have Carlisle dose me with morphine before you do it. I will dilute my blood enough to give you a little more control. To do what you need to, also the medication should take some of the pain when it starts." I said his eyes lit up at my idea.

" I suppose that would help." I knew he would see it my way if I threw in something about me being in less pain, he would probably cave. After all I couldn't have him trying to make a run for it, and try to hide us from the Volturi. It wouldn't take them long to track us down, then we both would probably be dead. I looked away from his eyes and let them looked down at his body sheltered from my eyes behind a black tux.

If I only had two months of humanity left their were a few things I wanted to experience before to came to an end. I struggled to find the words to express my wants before my heart took its last beat.

I continued to find the words to express how I felt, I couldn't find the right ones. I raised my eyes back to Edwards golden eyes staring into my deep brown. I cold see the curiosity and knew that he was about to ask me what was going threw my head like he always did when I was lost in thought.

I sighed before he could voice his question, I climbed off the bed a little nervous about my actions. I couldn't find the words, so I would show him. He watched me as I stood, I kept my back to him. I turned my head to look over my shoulder, "Do you mind unzipping it for me, I can't reach it myself?" I asked. He pulled his self to the edge of the bed and started unzipping the back of my dress.

I watched as his eyes changed darkening with want, an contrast to his pale skin. He was careful not to touch the skin that he exposed as the zipper went down. Probably scared that I thought his hands were too cold.

I felt him pull away when the zipper was at its end just above my hips. I took a few steps away from him and toward the door, his eyes never left my exposed back. My steps were slower than they normally were he probably thought it was because of the heels on my feet.

After I was a few feet away from him I stopped and slid my hand up my arm to the straps holding my dress up. I slid the straps off one by one and let them slide down my arm to fall limply at my side.

I may not have super sonic hearing yet but I could hear his breathing become labored. I let go of the front of my dress the only thing holding it up and let it slide to the floor. I stood their my back facing him the only thing keeping my most privet parts hidden from his eyes were my strapless bra and thin almost see threw black panties. The only other thing on my body was the black strapy heals on my feet.

I turned my head to look over my shoulder to see him staring at me with passion and want in his eyes, though the want was for my body and not for my blood this time. I took a deep breath and turned the rest of my body toward him showing him the front as well. I heard his deep intake of breath and seen his hands grip the sheets holding him on the bed. I was a little disappointed that he hadn't stood and came to me, but that didn't hold me back. I walked toward him, my heart beating faster with ever step I took toward the angel that sat on my bed.

After a few steps he vanished from my sight for a second, the next second he was flush against my hot body, I could feel his cold one up against me his lips found my neck in and started kissing and licking up and down my neck to my shoulder. His hands running up and down my sides and back. I raised my hands to run my fingers threw his hair and played with the short hair on the back of his neck. His lips instantly found mine as my feet left the floor and I was laid on my back on the bed.

My breathing was coming a chore, I had to constantly remind my self to breath. I couldn't breath when he climbed on top of me and started kissing and running his fingers over my chest and stomach. It felt like fire was running threw my veins making my body burn with pleasure. I ran my hands over his shirt covered chest before I started to unbutton his shirt. I made quick work of it and when I had undid the last one I slid the shirt off his chest and down his arms, letting my fingers trace over his muscles.

I ran my fingers and nails over his skin, my lips fallowing my fingers over his body. When my hands went lower to his stomach just above the waist of his pants I felt his whole body stiffen. Before I knew it Edward was standing on the other side of the room his head was lowered, but I could still see his black eyes filled with want and need his chest rising and falling quickly.

I sat up and looked at him confused I knew he wanted me I had felt his need against my leg. Then why was he pulling himself away from me again not letting me as close as I wanted to be.

"Edward?" I asked. He raised his chin slightly looking at me, he then opened the drawer next to him and threw a tank top and a pair of sweats at me. It was his silent hint that I needed to put some clothes on before he lost his control. I quickly slipped the heels off my feet and climbed into my clothes. As soon as I was dressed he was back at my side on the bed still silent like he was trying to find the words to explain why he had stopped so suddenly.

He pulled me into his arms and placed a soft kiss to my hair, "I'm sorry Bella but I can't do that to you not yet. I might hurt you, I can't take that risk not yet. Plus I want to do this right, I might be old-fashioned but…" he stopped before he finished. He dug in his pocket and pulled out a small velvet covered black box. "I love you, I want to spend the rest of my existence with you. Will you marry me?" He asked. He opened the box to show an antique white silver ring the bands were twisted with a few stones it was beautiful. Though my thoughts raced marriage was I ready for that to commit my life to some one else's. I knew I loved him and that I wanted to spend forever with him but marriage? No matter how scarred of marriage I couldn't say no I loved him, and if this was something he wanted I would do it no matter how much it scared me.

I raised my head from the ring and looked into his eyes, " Yes, I'll marry you, I just want you to know that if I start to freak out at any point to stop and give me some breathing room. I'm scared of marriage ever since I was a little girl, I head my mother talk about all the bad things so much that I became scared of it." My heart was racing, he slipped the ring onto my finger just as he started laughing out of control. "What?" I said wondering what could be so funny.

Edward fought to stop the laughter so he could say something, he just held his finger up in a silent request to give him a second. I waited patiently with my arms crossed my chest giving him a death glare.

"You can walk into a hall filled with deadly vampires and not flinch, know that in just a few short months you will be turned into a vampire. And yet you are scared of marriage?" he asked the grin still plastered on his face.

I gave him a death again my cheeks tuning bright red, "Yes, I am I head nothing but bad things, that after you make the commitment that most peoples relationship take a change for the worst." He just shook his head at me.

"You better get to sleep Bella we have a lot of things to talk about in the morning and I'm sure Alice will be here bright and early to start the planning. I want to get married before your changed." he said as he pulled the covers from under me and covered me up.

I just nodded still thinking of everything that could go wrong. He laid beside me humming my lullaby as I slowly faded into the darkness of sleep. The dreams that had plagued me in the past did not visit me that night, I finally had a dreamless sleep.